an audio diary of my life last year
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Sound Waves Are Killing Me And I Love It

You’ll be inside my mind
Until it hits the ground 
Drink this pesticide 
As I’m deep in the ground

Remember this remember it
Disgusting arrangement x4

You’ll be inside my 
Inside my mind 

You’ll be there forever 
Within this
Disgusting arrangement

Disgusting Arrangement

Special thanks to Xeriana on Instagram for the album art!
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In the darkest night
I find you there
Wishing something that wouldn’t change did 
Clutching on for nothing what gives 

Here’s a pillow if you fall down
Crutches for your wings if you need them
Burning passion that I’ve never found 
Castaway, one spell I condemn 

My souls been cauterized 
Now remove my life
Why should I continue this drawn out sigh
Shoot my ashes into the sky

I’ve been waiting for way too long
Years ago I was done
Now distress sings my song
It feels like I’m the only one

A neck full of glass 
On my corner step 
I’ve been kept around under duress
Useless mind you can have it

I’m just way too far gone
It’s been that way for ever  
Maybe if I catch it
It’ll be better

You better catch the bus, you better catch the bus, you better catch it x2
You gotta catch the bus, you gotta catch the bus, you gotta catch it x2

Catch The Bus

I’ve been in this jaw all my life 
But they say bastard you know nothing
They say to clench your fist and shake it at the sky
But you really should do nothing 
You’ll be stuck in a prison for hours each day
Fighting for your freedom to suffer
I would kick the legs out from under their throne
But I’m x4

Trapped in a tooth 
And there’s no way out 

You complain about the torture you’re given
But you just can’t find out the source
So you blame it on something random
Your self hatred still hasn’t ran it’s course
I’ve seen what that infantile mindset does to people
But you really couldn’t give a damn 
A part of Hitler lodged deep inside you
Ready to blame your fellow man
I would be in the street burning this empire down 
But you know I’m, know I’m x8

Trapped in a tooth 
And there’s no way out 
I know what must be done
But I’m afraid to say 

There needs to be something new, a better way 
I’ll break this jaw to break you free x3

Trapped In A Tooth

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Left alone with arrhythmia of your delta waves
Trapped in cages, I know you’re history you’re hollow
Disconnected side glance what your eyes follow 
Stop talking I know it’s not natural

What it feels like, it’s just like quicksand 
So quick to dig your teeth into my hands
Burning blood of a casket it’s in my home
Right now it’s time to count to zero
Six feet under my tunnel vision it’s near
Though your time is nil it’s so penetrable 
Snow angel dragon dancing found us face down
Negative nothing it’s time now 

Why do you desire to feel small like me?
Hubris crushed by the weight of defeat
Burning buildings as far as you can see
Angel ravaged by man’s eye clearly

I can’t speak
It’s so unnatural 
Why let me breathe 
Please god unfold (x2)

Feel this light i feel your eyes
Locked in skintight I know it’s right
I do this so my life gets controlled 
Extend a glance then do drumrolls

Hard to speak but it’s even harder to give a fuck
Can’t articulate my way out of the serpents gut
Torn to shreds a glass eye is left standing
I’ll die before I get branded
Visions blur my eyes until it’s blinding
Decapitated to be released from this binding
My blood in the sand writes a message in your prose
I think now it’s time to count to zero 

Why do you desire to feel small like me?
Hubris crushed by the weight of defeat
Burning buildings as far as you can see
Angel ravaged by man’s eye clearly

I can’t speak
It’s so unnatural 
Why let me breathe 
Please god unfold (x2)

Counting To Zero

Watching you limp
Like a half dead stray
It was simple
Why did you change it

Choke on this knife and realize
This name you knew was begotten 
In an open fire that rages 
Longer than our lives 
You circle around my marrow
And hope for more time

What was meant 
Inside
I tie you
In power lines 
Dead wrists 
We’re suspects
Embalmed sons
In helpless minds

Scars in iron eyes bewitch 
My solar flare soaked belly
The dust that covers the earth
Gets washed out by your amber 
I carry this torch 
And replace its name with mine

Crawl
Fucking crawl (x8)

Warped dead skin like a leather scalpel
Forked tongues circle around me
A heart of gold could never beat
Grey smoke burns me at the stake
There’s no connection to what you know
A tether has shattered down the road 
The bridge you made I jumped from
And from those depths I rise above

You prayed I failed 
So you could control
There’s nothing left for me to give
I’ll let you write my epitaph 
Born to drown 
Spineless & suited
The story’s done
Chance my epilogue

Epilogue

Baby Boy

BLEACH

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DEMO 23

PENTAGONE

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