Right Here (demo)

Once upon shore
Washed a heart that’s made of stone
But you then realized that it breaks

Thirteen miles ago
We tried to make it float
Past the shore, let it go, all we know

Here we are once again
Laying in the waves the way it all began
A thousand words, a thousand cries
Were not enough to ever make us realize
That on our own, we never rowed
Up and down and past the point of no return
Aimed so high, never left or right
But straight into the middle of our greatest fight

Back to summer, depths away
Sifting through sand and what we now understand
Lay my head down, and drift away
Cause I won’t be here, I won’t be here
Thirteen miles ago...

Nobody knows the truth be told
Only when the waves became too bitter cold
Too little words, too many eyes
Looking for a truth amongst a million lies
Beyond this sight we hope again
To close our hands and pray that we can make amends
With ourselves, and make us new
So I won’t have to cry when I don’t think of you

Back to summer, depths away
Sifting through sand and what we now understand
Lay my head down, and drift away
Cause I won’t be here, I won’t be here
Thirteen miles ago...

We made it this far
Wasted apart
Tug at my skin
And wash it away

Thirteen miles ago
We tried to make it float
Past the shore, let it go, all we know

13 Miles EP

13 Miles

So I tore this hole into the sky tonight
Asking, “When will you let me in?”
When I’m a thousand miles from where I’m supposed to be
It can get lonely
 
When another plan falls into my only chance
It’s a worn-out curse, stuck in reverse
When I’m the Abel child praying under this tree
It can get lonely
 
So I beg you to save a space for me
My wings are unsteady, but my hope is that they move
Inside your words, under your mouth
And I’ll make it up to you somehow
I will make it home
 
I will, someday, be the man you once foretold
In this reality, I suppose
A creation in some way
Judgement and prophecy end in our dishonesty
Brace yourself for eternity
But I’m still growing old
 
So why do angels have to die?
And why can’t I live a perfect life
With my own soul? And my devotion?
And I'm hoping to meet you
 
So I beg you to save a space for me
My wings are unsteady, but my hope is that they move
Inside your words, under your mouth
And I’ll make it up to you somehow
I will make it home
 
So I beg you to save a space for me
My wings are unsteady, but my hope is that they move
Inside your words, under your mouth
And I’ll make it up to you somehow
I will make it home
 
So I beg you to save a space for me
My wings are unsteady, but my hope is that they move
Inside your words, under your mouth
And I’ll make it up to you somehow
I will make it home

Hole In The Sky (feat. Jonas Malabunga)

strawberry kisses,
burned my lips
more than wine

hard-pressed innocence,
from your lips,
tasted of wine

when you try to grow before the fall,
you and I
you and I

fall

no body, no soul
you’re bickering slow
simmer through my throat
settle with my blood

rush, rush, oh rush
that’s enough,
enough for now

when you try to grow before the fall,
you and I
you and I

fall

Strawberry Kisses

I wake with narcoleptic headaches
In the middle of the day
Why wait for dreaming on the inside
When everything is outlined in this space?

I wake panic from the blue walls
And the paint rips thin like my skin
Oh, it’s just a habit
Always just a habit
But maybe this time

There’s a ghost that I let it in
And it wants all of my sins
I can shut every window, door in its face
But a good ghost knows
A good ghost knows

I wake if someone says I need to anymore
Pick your legs up, pick your legs up
Sick and tired don’t mean you’re dead
Get out of bed now
Out of bed now
Out of bed now
Out of bed

(I don't wanna be alone, I could be your skin and bones)
Have you nothing to fear,
I am ready—I'm here

Meet me in your head
This could be the end

There’s a ghost that I let it in
And it wants all of my sins
I can shut every window, door in its face
But a good ghost knows
A good ghost knows
There’s a ghost that I let it in
And it wants all of my sins
I can shut every window, door in its face
But a good ghost knows
A good ghost knows

FWD:

GHOST

WHAT DID HE DO TO YOU?

Are you looking for that voice
That used to call in danger?
When did the echoes get so small?
Have you ever heard a cry
That’s asked you to move closer?
I know I did this for awhile—
And you should know

If it all goes wrong
When I sing tonight
I won’t take anything from you
And if my words are cold
And your heart’s attached
Take another long walk home
Cause I find it better here
Alone

Set the stage, I’m ready for
Another show isn’t hard to do if I always
Sing from the worst and pray from the high
Don’t mind
I’ve probably got a lifetime to sign
My pride away
And you should know

If it all goes wrong
When I sing tonight
I won’t take anything from you
And if my words are cold
And your heart’s attached
Take another long walk home
Cause I find it better here
Alone

Can we leave the lights on
Till the room isn’t what it’s used to?
I can see myself from here
But am I far too soon?

IF IT ALL GOES WRONG

The last cover I recorded was 985 days ago, so you could say that it takes the right song for me to really want to perform someone else's music. I first heard "Bad" months ago on YouTube when it was still an unreleased track that James Bay only played during live concerts. I must have looped it over fifty times that night. Maybe a hundred. Just as I was trying to learn it on guitar, James Bay uploaded a guitar tutorial (crazy, right?) and asked all of his fans to cover it. So when your favorite artist asks you to sing his song... you do it. "Bad" and the entire Oh My Messy Mind EP has kept me going recently. I'm getting ready to put out new music very soon, but here's something else for now.

Bad by James Bay (Acoustic Cover)

LYRICS:
Are you at your place?
Do you have a tree?
Does it say our names?
Are you keeping warm?
Is there enough to eat?
We haven’t tried this before

The house is much colder now
with one less mouth to feed…

I’ll leave the fire on
Play all your favorite songs
Come home for Christmas, come home for Christmas
Don’t need a gift for me
You are the one I need
Come home for Christmas, come home for Christmas

It doesn’t add up
The presents and the miracles
The Oh Holy Nights
Were silent for the first time
So we’ll have to do it all
On the holiday, gonna wince and pray
Singing “Hallelujah, won’t you come home?”

I’ll leave the fire on
Play all your favorite songs
Come home for Christmas, come home for Christmas
Don’t need a gift for me
You are the one I need
Come home for Christmas, come home for Christmas

Are you awake?
Cause I’m knocking on your door
And nobody is dreaming of Christmas

Gonna wait for that special time of year
But the timing is wrong
Where you belong
You belong here...

I’ll leave the fire on
Play all your favorite songs
Come home for Christmas, come home for Christmas
Don’t need a gift for me
You are the one I need
Come home for Christmas, come home for Christmas

Come Home For Christmas

I twisted my tongue again
Roundabouts and spinning cups fly over my head
I saw my arms caught in this web
They pulled me to the floor
Then left me to adore

So I’ll just sit awhile
And hope you never see
Another sip from me
The man
The man I’ll never be

I’m sorry I faked my lies
Was I honest enough for you?
I’ll stand up and cut the threads
Is it better now without the strands 
Attached to all my silly hands? 

So I’ll just sit awhile
And hope you never see
Another sip from me
The man
The man I’ll never be

Somewhere on the floor, dangling
Am I breaking through the tone?
If you hear me on the phone
Put me on hold

So I’ll just sit awhile
And hope you never see
Another sip from me
The man
The man I’ll never be

Steven Cristi

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