co produced w @speedlmt

lyric

i don't wanna die but i don't wanna try
when your not here w me i get a teary eye
my dreams are lucid, they gonna get you 
how can i prove it, that your the issue 

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

decomposing in the mirror posing 
spooky black my father:3 stop diagnosing 
why do i bother, im controlling, im the victim. forever rolling;

a sob sandwich its kinda adequate
let me swallow it, these my bandages
songs just foru cos i said it is !
of grams not sedatives, dont know what day it is:(
pop another sedative?

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

I DON'T WANNA DIE BUT I DON'T WANNA TRY
WHEN YOUR NOT HERE W ME I GET A TEARY EYE
MY DREAMS ARE LUCID, THEY GONNA GET YOU 
HOW CAN I PROVE IT, THAT YOUR THE ISSUE 
I GOT THESE TISSUES, OH FUCK I MISS U
WILL YOU BE HERE SOON SO I CAN KISS U
I CAN'T STOP SHAKING IM FOREVER BREAKING
I KNOW YOU LIKE THAT, ITS NEVER CHANGING

pine

guitar by @prodjpjp
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lyrics

im eating her bodyweight no, i know that you hate my face. bro
neck it down w a slice of cake yo, lets hold back from tainting grace, hoe
stomach thin w a feint of shake woah, she grows back but cant stay, loyal

im curious by the way that he touch you
im destroying us by the weight of my bad mood
im enjoying us, everyday is so bad dude
depression getting worse, i cant even leave my home dude
do i deserve this bad, i swear that i want to hold you
ur all i never had, i swear to god that i told you
does he want you back, as much as i do
i guess i like, i guess i like you

im eating her bodyweight, laying down as i deflate
where are you now, as i replay
deep in the ground is my only space
where are you now, i got something to say
i live in hell its the only way
i couldent tell that i need your face
locked in a cell and its called my place
how can you tell that i need a razor;
the trees when i stepback feels like safest place
if i see your guy ima stomp on his face
are you alright im not scared to embrace
whats that from your eye, get those slits of your face

cake

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you're all the best fr <3

lyrics:
I gotta get fucking grip
i let everything slip thru my fingers
im walkin on glass I might trip 
let it cut me just cut me to pieces 

on dry ice frostbite from your lips sent a shiver down my spine thru the vine to my hips 
there ain a lotta love for me, not to give. 
I been tryna figure how the fuck im gonna live like
this.

im wasted, complacent.
u name it
im lame man, 

cut my lips, cant speak to you 
i blew the shield can't read into 
the cold ass stare i get, you use 
permission to light the fuse 

im just a figment 
walkin thru your vision
catch me upset, its just something you're dismissin 
solice is only possible when were in two 
love so still, its all because i skipped the route
unmissable 

i am 
cant relate to me relate to you
i try 
some days i wonder why i cant cry 
my eyes 
been frosted since i last quit my lies 
so why 
is my chest still caving in

i feel my worth in my skin
but i can't seem to let it grow
i feel the grief in my soul
leave slowly

frostbite

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produced by hiraeth and heylog <3

You’ve got nothing to say to me
I’m drowning in the ocean
Always complain to me
I’m dealing with my own shit
Filling my vacancy
(Just breathe)
If I died tomorow I bet nobody’d even notice

harder to breathe
when ur around I’m losing focus
Trying to speak, the words can’t seem to leave my vocal
Getting likes on ig
cause ur half naked in the photos
I’m dying to sleep, if I wake up im meeting god bro

Stay closer to me
I swear that nobody can touch you
if they tried
I’d grit my teeth and fight them all for you
I’m tryna hide, stop tryna reason what I been thru
It’s not my time, I’d kill anyone laying next to you

never should've went for u
and i ain't know your friend exists
if that was the case i would restart and go for her instead
what a shame
u let your life to pieces
who's to blame
(you)
you're the only reason i can't focus
got me losing sleep
and shit oh how i own it
tell that b-
she can drink bleach
you let it out there in the open
u show yourself no respect
and i wonder if u know this

i'm tired of preaching cus babe it really-
babe it hurts from underneath
all the wasted memories
don't go down, get off your knees
it's not the time for any pleasing

bleach ft. heylog

i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 

w/ @heylog

prod: https://soundcloud.com/eric-godlow
master: https://soundcloud.com/ezraspandora 

looking back baby,
i already was hollow
toss it back 
way too fast 
till i get through the bottle
i don't wanna leave this club
i just wanna drink 
until i throw it all up
(lock me up)
want you to squeeze until i'm leaking out blood
i wanna see just how it feels to go numb
i wanna feel it on the tip of my tongue
let's fuck it up until we're going out bad 
let's break it all apart until there's nothing fucking left
cause i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 
and i want you to tell me i'm a waste of fucking breath
oh i'm terrible 
i'm the reason you're falling 
unbearable 
i'm the bones in your closet
i still just wanna see you get out 
there's nothing left for me to be now

damn it all 
pray for what 
there's nobody there
(i'm too far gone)
tell me why 
i wanted you then 
i want you now

heylog:
i'm chillin at a party, why'd i decide to go out
wish i just stayed home but i been stuck inside my house
i don't even care, i'd much rather be sober
she hung around the bottles and i could tell it broke her
i'm glad i can't relate cause i've never had that problem
you told me i'm rude for that but hey, i'm being honest
i would never lie to you, just want you to stop it
i could up and go, i've got plenty of options
quit talking, ur just holding me back
it's safe to say, tonight ur getting trashed
take a second to breathe, ik ur sad
you don't have to drink it away, could you relax
she phones her girls for a ride at 3am
can't even walk to her room, she needs a hand
throwing up all the time, she's used to it
friday night rolls around and repeat it

tip of my tongue (w/ heylog) (prod. eric godlow)

prod by me
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lyrics:
i wish i weren't so kind to people i dont know
they step all over me got dirt all on my throat
and as the time flies by i think that i might choke
this rope it follows me, it follows far from home
these bones have yet to see the depth of all these trees
this forest i will go, its right beside the creek
ill meet you here again when time passes you by
ill wait for you instead of passing on my life

as i walked thru the green of the spruce i heard your laughter
please tell me to stop im afraid of the after
every time i talk it just feels like it don't matter
every time i walk i feel my bones slowly fracture
why does everybody use me then just push me aside?
babe is there a reason you cant look in my eyes?
i cant talk to anybody, not even my closest
so i had to ask myself why do i even try?

if only you would focus 
(it gets hard)
then you could see what matters most
its not that hard to notice that you've been talking to a ghost

im losing my damn mind man everyone just acts the same
you cant tell me how to feel, please dont tell me its okay
you ain my friend you ain my bro so i don't care bout what you say
i do this shit all by myself while you sit back and waste the day
my throat is getting tight, it's so hard for me to speak
these woods are dark till dawn, so how could i even see
in the morning when you come looking for me don't be surprised if you find my body hanging by the creek

by the creek

prod by stezzyxl
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lyrics:
lately i’ve been feeling like i’m fucking dead
a walking corpse hanging by a single thread
about to cut loose; the hand that i was once feed
oh no i beg

for mercy
i’ve done my best for you, but you just hurt me
i question myself if she really knows me
1 year down
i’m on my knees
and i still beg to this day

for closure
whenever u sad, u had my shoulder
whenever i was down, i just got lower
i screamed away
oh i’m in pain
and i still beg to this day 

for you
never once a day i didn’t love you
i treated u the same after i’ve been through
all the lies
and all the fights
and u won’t do the same

ur a piece of shit
ur a liar
our memories
are now on fire
ur like a cigarette 
with a bitter taste
left inside my mouth
i can’t erase 
ur pathetic
ur delusional 
u find it so cool
like an aesthetic 
u think ur always right
u wanna start a fight
u want the war? i’ll bring it to u
u won’t win this time 
oh i am different now
u can’t control me now
i won’t allow ur words to hit me if i hear a sound
and i will block u out
and i will turn u down
i’ll turn away from your mistakes, u cannot fix this now

prod by stezzyxl
enjoy^\^

lyrics:
pieces that i cannot mend
her words are empty, i pretend
pretty face that u disguise
i see right through ur mask and lies
no one really cares at all
i just want it all to stop
shattered glass against the wall
just like my dad with alcohol

oh no
oh no
oh no
oh no

u can keep on talking all u fucking want
i be making music while u out there making fucking flops
i be steady grinding, making progress and it doesn’t stop
begging for a feature, on ur knees, and i just laugh it off

and ur kinda irrelevant 
i’ll fold u cuz ur delicate
i got a A cuz i’m excellent 
and i’m a whole different person when i am in my element 
i’m from a another descendant 
and u can never be me, i’m unique and so different 

and no one gives a flying fuck bitch u still just a kid
and ur ego so high, yet u still throw ur fits
and get the fuck off of my dick, and mind ur own buis
talking down on me, bitch u don’t want this

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=83Bd5PWLwBA

[prod. jpjp & deadfish]

i'm geist:
a broken design
step aside and rewind
but time doesn't seem to heal
the body's inside
and the blood is on your hands
so don't tell me that this isn't real

it's not the same, no
tell me where did my mind go?
cause i seem to have lost control
why won't the pain go?
i swear i've waited the time love
but i can't seem to take anymore

so say can i save myself now?
(envy) i think it's far too late you'll drown
but i need them to hear me out
(envy) don't make a sound just shut your mouth

notenvy:
my frame is fractured like kaleidoscope
the only sense of matters left my brain
i swear i'm losing hope
i’m doing fine, oh you don't want to know
the shit that i've been going through
i'm gripping on, i've lost control
another day intoxicated
do you ever think of me
my structure’s slowly breaking
another breath is wasted
screaming from my chest
i fucking wish someone would save me

kais:
i hate it when you talk to me, but talk to me some more
hands to my ears and my face to the floor
love it when they lie to me, so lie to me some more
you fucked me up and put me through the ground
scream for help, but it never makes a sound
you took it wrong, I didnt mean it that way
silent with the pressure, but I let it stay
imma let it till it breaks me
down, I know you want me here but I never come around
im sorry and I owe you that. that’s what this shits about
I walk slow with my teeth glued to my mouth
I don’t talk cus the rooms always too loud
loud
loud

deadfish:
and i'm waking up
heart's fucking numb
it's only 7am
but I can't seem to lay down

anxious bout the day
what's gonna happen today
I just can't get a break
everything's still the same

mind is racing if today you're gon reply to me
nothing points to that but I'll wait just in case

if u had a change of mind
blood is pouring out my eyes
phone is charged all the time
cause I'm waiting for

for you to reply
please stop wasting my time
it just wasn't enough
and I can't make up my mind

you said that nothing has changed
but I don't feel the same
but I am keen to believe cause I'm
just hopeless

funeral:
i get so deep in this shit and i'll never get out
now i'm stuck and i'm waiting
i never think i just act and i ask if i'll make it
or maybe i'm wasting
my time right here, right now
blood leak, blood flow, lights low, lights out

it's way too obvious to me
the way the bodies dust, i bleed
i need one second alone now
one shot, now i'm dead, body goes down

sewerperson:
rust gives way to the chains that hold me
for yesterday could not control me
toxins permeate
the armoured skin that covers me
u poor man ur final day
is ended here from under me
woah bring out the big guns
im in the mood to erase something
huh just try to say something
u getting face fucked
blunt getting laced up
put u in swamp water face up
no matter the chaos faced
i wouldn’t give up
for time will tell
of better days
from here I smell
the autumn rainfall
it helps me stay strong

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time will tell w/ i'm geist, notenvy, kais, deadfish, funeral, sewerperson

@user-153698253 @yokaidreams @tnvr555

// ohmace
you could tell me i'm just another guy
you could lie and say i'm never on your mind
and i know that you miss being mine
we should do something about it tonight
without rules
everything was easy hanging out with you 
always had your back was looking out for you
everything isnt always about you
it's not about you, 
it's not about you
dont you know that i'm just fine without you
you think it's something i'm not allowed to do
everything is not always about you...

control is what you crave
you fucking lost your way
can't recognize your face
your love is such a waste

you're a waste i dont wanna make it work
i could find a million other girls who want to flirt
look me in the eyes baby tell me with a smirk
i could see right through it all ive been on high alert

// yokai dreams 
been on high alert i don't think i'm calming down soon
i cannot convince myself i'm doin fine without you
maybe there's no reason to hope
you're treating me like a joke and i cope
but for what it's worth
i tried
my best just to fix this
i died
inside
when you said "we're finished"

// i'm geist 
control is what you crave 
but baby i crave it more 
shut you in lock the door 
yet you'll say you adore me 

spit it out 
the bloods on the floor 
it's toxic love 
that's killing us both 
the secrets out 
so love they all know 
just get out now 
can't do this anymore 

and baby i can tell you 
this would never work in your dreams 
it only works when i'm feeling lonely 
baby i cant tell you right now 
we need to find a way out 
need to find a way out

beg

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