This Thing is Playing Tricks on Me

Does This Intro Make My Ass Look Big?

Forgive Me

Forgive Me (Demo)

Lyrics:
Don’t try to see me
This flame, it breathes
I’ll wait forever, nothing will change
Only I will hear the scream

My outer world will fall away
Desperate this voice inside
None will see expected action
Reserved and still the dark survives
Acting on an impulse it decides to lie in wait
Simmering to all the outside, screaming walls it sees its fate
Blinded by a catalyst and calm to all within
Testing fortitude for another impasse, I hide myself again
Detriment won’t decide this fight, another road to take,
Simmering to all but inside, screaming walls it sees its fate

I’d hope to see you with me but you couldn’t understand
Nothing seems to quell the feeling of an unrestricted voice
I’d never hope that I am with you since I wouldn’t understand
Ignorance belittles logic and you’re left without a choice

Exist to force it down, lost within an open space
Failed design to even hint at ever letting something out
Simmering to all the outside, quiet face it sees its fate
Screaming walls are contained inside, never cease to initiate

It’s fine, I’ll wait, I won’t, I won’t, I won’t, disintegrate

It wills to find, the meaningful separation I seek
I stand by, the meaningless combination I need
It’s all above me, nobody sees
Don’t let it come out, they’ll never know

Degenerate, conflagration, still and steady
Never eroding stare
Never known from me, to anything being destructive
You don’t know the way, the silence seeks to calm me

Only will I hear this scream, simmering everlasting
It’s done, It’s over
No one, ever heard the scream
I wait, I look, I see, what you don’t

Personnel:
Vocals & Lyrics - Matt Matigian
Guitar/production - Mike Watts
Guitar - Ian Buckley

In the Grip

Lyrics:
I taunt the world to speak my name
I’ve rendered all but myself to blame
Innocence won’t factor here,
You all have conjured all my fears
I’m all alone, it’s all I’m left to know
Deliver me, from your sins of sympathy

I will not let you go, accept the hanging bait
You gave me something to hope for, I long to see
The final day I fight, the pseudo remedy
The day I finally beg you to forgive me

Forgive me for selling my faith this time
I’ll open this up to see it close on me
If all my life has been building to this,
Forgive me for not believing in you
Looks like I’m all alone

I found decisions left right here for me
 
A final fight meaningless in the end
Conclusion’s right and I’m my only friend
A cynic knows what’s really in the head
And then it does a failure dance to mend
I lay this cross upon the human’s feet
Desolate, and void of what you thought

Don’t fight, you won’t win
Realize, it’s what you’re given
Breathe out, and breathe in
Take a step, all is forgiven

Am I to say you’re right?
Am I to let you in?
Am I to lose this time?
And call the world my friend?

This is the breaking point, Verge of collapse
This life I take it, You never know

FORGIVE ME
Forgive me for selling my faith this time
Forgive me for learning the truth
Forgive me for not believing in you

Personnel:
Vocals & Lyrics - Matt Matigian
Guitar/production - Mike Watts
Guitar - Ian Buckley

Lyrics:
I bide my time, tongues in rhyme, sell this idea
It’s always mine, here inside, it knows two faces
Determine waste, don’t act in haste, you’ve lost your angle
I’ve told this lie, a thousand times, now I believe it

Will I stand tall, or will I take the fall?
Caught myself lost and dreaming
Tension to name, restlessness to blame
I close my eyes

I’m still awake, no I’m asleep,
Is this my life, is this a dream
What I see in my head, what I see beneath
I pray for peace, pray for relief
I count the times they chase after me
Just let me go, please let me be
Counterfeit design, perpetually

Living my life through this screen, I take it down, until I
Plead for silence, exhaust my mind
Never fake another answer till it calms inside
Regulate and penetrate another filthy renegade
Determined to assassinate ideas and it fascinates
Stepping over myself with a foot over my neck
Never trust another enemy with obligations met
Delirious delirium embellish this criterion
The absence will strike fear in them
Until it lets me leave
I’ll make it quick I’ll make it go
As soon as my mind finds a home
Pray for me, ask for peace, War until eternity
Dreaming long and dreaming fast, I hope it’s something I’ll get past
Energy the remedy I’ll call it my own reverie

My lullaby, endless disease
I close my eyes, I’m all I see
I’ll run from you, I’ll run from me
But in the end, they’ll find me

Where’s the end that we’ll undo?
This is the final stand, but we’re too gone, I’ll find a way, because I have to

Personnel:
Vocals & Lyrics - Matt Matigian
Guitar/production - Mike Watts
Guitar - Ian Buckley

Dreaming Insomnia

Lyrics:
This charade, I don’t like, I determine, they’re all responsible
They laugh at me, I laugh right back, my state of mind, oh so desirable
Out of sight, but still I see, Control his mind, he bends to me
This is the time, this is the place, revenge is mine, treasure the look on your face
I hate them all for the things, they’ve never done to me
Immortal statement lives on, rotting my body
One blast to let them all know, you better run now
And then a few hundred rounds, they know it’s over

I think I know he’s right, but maybe he could be wrong
My mind is trapped in my adolescence, I just want to be heard

Shut up, quiet, I just heard something
Under the desk, lock the door
Just stay close to the floor
Why are they doing this? I just don’t understand
What’s troubling these boys? Souls forever damned
Try so hard to take flight, Legs paralyzed by fright
I don’t know what to do, there’s no way I can fight

I’m so angry, but I don’t know why
They can’t control me, for once I feel alive
Get back at all of you for the things you didn’t do
I’m so misunderstood, I’d believe that if I could
Inflated sense of pride, I don’t know is this wrong?
I feel I have the power, my twisted friend was right
I’ll live on forever, we take our lives tonight

Go on get out of here, was all he said to me
He never did anything to be one of them I just want to be heard
We are the hitmen for hire, we drown their sins in fire
You all take responsibility, around the world we’re heard

We started running faster, and then we knew it was all over
We know that we’re safe now, how could this have happened?

Hitmen for Hire

Personnel:
Vocals & Lyrics - Matt Matigian
Guitar/production - Mike Watts
Guitar - Ian Buckley

Hitmen For Hire

Lyrics:
Struck down from my adolescence
Crutch now is my dependence
Head down baby I surrender
I need your healing,
Taste and feeling

Now I’m sober when I’m with you
Feels right when we get into
All night binge
Rolling low end
hearts are broken
Need to toke again

In spite of all the shit that people say to me
I don’t need it they don’t know me fuck your therapy
But in light of all the things I know about myself
Im addicted to the lift my god I need some help

Twisted therapy

I been grieving for my
enemies they leaving 
got me feeling like a heathen
Now its me and all my demons

I been lost inside my head
and better yet I’ll end up dead
I got a pistol with the lead
I gotta pay for what I’ve said

I fire up till I go cold
I do not sleep o eat
I’m told I need to drum about my feelings
What I seen will send you reeling

Dressed in black my eyes are red
I’m johnny cash with rap instead
And I’m addicted to the music
if the tunes were sold in grams for ten

Personnel:
Vocals & Lyrics - Matt Matigian
Guitar/production - Mike Watts
Guitar - Ian Buckley

Twisted Therapy

Lyrics:
Destroy my inner workings
I’ve felt the pressure from my soul
Keep the reflection burning
Force down the pressure no one knows

It’s all or nothing for me
It’ something I just can’t control
Six fights the two so blindly
No number one inside this hole

Running away, insecurity, dying today, Living for me
Staying to fight, I’m wrong or I’m right, I’m still alive, fighting for you

I am not sorry, apologizing to me, I can’t agree with, agree with myself

This fight means nothing for me
We’ve carried this torch for too long
It’s always alive inside us
My six fights my two to go on

Living so deep inside my head
Freedom battles this restriction
The fight is what defines me
Two and six, six versus two

There’s a way for me to get to 
You and now I know you feel it
There’s a way to get back at me
And now I know I can feel it

Personnel:
Vocals & Lyrics - Matt Matigian
Guitar/production - Mike Watts
Guitar - Ian Buckley

6 vs. 2

Our rendition of Eminem's track "Role Model"

Role Model - Single

Role Model

From the S.o.B. vault, previously unreleased

Gratitude

We're (mostly) a metal band from right outside Chicago.  We do original songs and covers. We love incorporating and combining different genres.  We're influenced by everything from nu-metal, hip hop, electronic, metalcore, and dubstep.  Check it.

Matt Matigian - Vocals/Piano
Mike Watts - Production/Instrumentation
Ian Buckley - Guitar

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