a chronological playlist of songs released (or re-released) under the ethel cain moniker. order is based on the date each song was released/shared (i.e. not when they were recorded) so some demos appear after their corresponding finished track. i had to guess at some – i did my best!

cover photo is a shot from the june 22, 2024 show at the greek via @/artziety on instagram

(edit aug. 2024 – added tommy/miss anhedonia tracks. most are mislabelled)

(sitting at 178 tracks as of 7/10/25)

chronological ms. cain

I told you from the start
I disappear when it gets cold 
But you found a way to keep me here
With a body to hold

And i think of you
When i'm drunk in the road in front of your old house
I miss what you'd do to me 
When i was in need of you and blacked out

I miss you, darling
I miss you so
I'm sorry i went crazy
I just thought i'd let you know

Taking pictures while you sleep
Leftovers on the table, strangers on the tv
I'm bleeding from my ears
Sneaking out while you're asleep, 𝙘𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪'𝙧𝙚 𝙢𝙮 𝙗𝙞𝙜𝙜𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙛𝙚𝙖𝙧

And i think of you
When i'm drunk in the road in front of your old house
I miss what you'd do to me 
When i was in need of you and blacked out

I miss you, darling
I miss you so
I miss you, darling

misuse

Misuse, Oh - ethel cain.mp3

Casings - ethel cain

Knuckle Velvet (feat. Yah Wav) - ethel cain

Golden Age - ethel cain

Selby Wall - ethel cain

Golden Age

Sunday Morning (Demo) - Ethel Cain

An edited version of the Dog Days remaster Hayden played during one of her livestreams (09/22/21). I tried removing the munching and clacking sounds from Hayden eating in the background to the best of my admitedly very limited ability.

All music produced, written and owned by Hayden Anhedönia.

Ethel Cain - Dog Days (Remastered - Demo)

Growing Pains - Ethel Cain

ethel cain - dog days

ethel cain - misuse oh

ethel cain - antlers

Ethel Cain - Skinheads (Demo)

lyrics:

You spent your whole life trying to be tough
Cause your parents married pain to love
But you go all white at the sight of blood
And Jesus knows that you've seen enough
Something happened back when you were young
It kills you but you won't tell me what it was
Sleeping on the floor in your grandma's room
Too tired to cry, too weak to even move
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself
25 and you're still crying in your sleep
Scared the world is out to get you
And you've tried every bottle but you're in too deep
Cause you don't know any better, how could you?
And the fear is there when we're in your bed
And I start to cry and you think it's something you did
But baby I'm alright
I'm alright
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself
Last night I dreamed that you had gone away
Woke up in tears and stayed in bed all day
And I'm terrified that I'll lose everyone I have
That I'll watch them leave and wait but they won't come back
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself

bruises ♡ ethel cain

Outside (cold)

Ethel Cain - The God

is it not fun?

(pfp is a shot by laura makabresku)

ethel cain - dog days

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