lyrics:

僕ら　悪い夢　見ていた
付箋を貼っておいた　難しい言葉

いつも何か　足りないふりをしてた
いつの間にか忘れていた話の続きを聞きたい

don't wanna get lost anymore
don't want the story to end here
memories of you passing me by, but

I'm tired of making promises
and I learned how to fly, I
jumping out of my dreams
I'll find a reason to cry

変わる空　迷っていた
素直な言葉を探して

雨に戸惑っていた

まだ思い出せるうちに
暖めておこう
届くはずない想いまでずっと

そっと　短い言葉を

remember it well

忘れていた空と海と傷の記憶
forgotten memories of sky, sea and scars

lyrics:
いつかまた戻れるなら
眩しい太陽に手をかざした
どこを探してもない
懐かしい声を拐ってゆく

午後4時の空を眺めて
消えそうな灯火を
抱きしめていたいの
瞬きのその瞬間が
切り傷の優しさが
聞きそびれた言葉と
重なって痛いの

まだ届かないから
せめて海を見させてほしいの

いつかまた戻れるなら
眩しい太陽に手をかざした
どこを探してもない
懐かしい声を拐っていくような

まだ届かないから
せめて海を見させてほしいの

swimming in the past time
my world is on the endline
I can't see, I'm so high
the clock loses its destination
my vision goes blind

どこを探しても無い懐かしい声を

まだ届かないってこの言葉を繰り返す青
ガラスを溶かすように夢を見る
瞬きのその瞬間と
切り傷の優しさで
溢れたものも愛おしく
壊れないように救(掬)えたら
でも

まだ届かないから
せめて海を見させてほしいの

いつかまた戻れるなら
眩しい太陽に手をかざした
どこを探してもない
懐かしい声を拐っていくような

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If only we could go back again someday
I hid the bright sun with my hands
Take away the nostalgic voices that are nowhere to be found

Watching the sunset sky
I want to hold the fire that's about to die out
I want to hold on to it
That moment of the blink of an eye
The tenderness of a wound
The words I never got to hear
They overlap and it hurts so much

I can't reach you yet
So please let me at least see the sea

If only we could go back again someday
I hid the bright sun with my hands
Take away the nostalgic voices that are nowhere to be found

I can't reach you yet
So please let me at least see the sea

No matter where I look, I can't find it
It's like I'm kidnapping the voice of old

I can't reach it yet
At least let me see the sea

swimming in the past time
my world is on the endline
I can't see, I'm so high
the clock loses its destination
my vision goes blind

A nostalgic voice that is nowhere to be found

"I still can't reach it" I repeat these words, blue
I dream like melting glass
In the blink of an eye
With the tenderness of a cut
I'd love the things that overflow, if I could save them so they don't break
But

I can't reach it yet
At least let me see the sea

If only we could go back again someday
I hid the bright sun with my hands
Like it's taking away a fond memory

scapegoat

Diegetics is an iterative series that combines field recordings with music to create film scene scores. The first collection of six tracks explores a range of vignetted moments.

If you check out my Bandcamp, the digital release is my gift to you, free of charge. You may offer a donation at download, but please do not feel any obligation to do so.

If you'd like to support me directly, a physical release of the album is coming soon after the digital release and will be available in the merch section.

You have the music in your ears. I leave your imagination to fill in the scene.

I hope this album is an escape that you'll return to whenever you need it.

If you would like to use any of the compositions for media (film, tv, video games, etc.), there are version available without field recordings. Please contact if interested.
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releases November 11, 2022

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Sapling

Depths

Ease

Motion

----LYRICS----

and i wish i could promise or say something honest 
cause this instance i can't
so lets lie once again and pretend it's the end
i know from my heart it's not
just lies must be said to depart

don't tell me you miss me or how you used to kiss me
why do we still talk? 
we're just strangers whose lives once crossed
and I'm a boy who time forgot

you may hate me, break me, anything to shape me 
into what i was
we were strangers whose lives once crossed
and we remain as often thoughts

To Depart (feat. Pocket Dial)

Hi everyone, i'm finally happy to be able to release this track, i've been working on it for about 5 or 6 months now, and i've hit several walls during that period of making it, until eventually I had much more clear ideas on what I wanted to make of it, and it turned into this final product.
This is my longest song so far, and I'm pretty satisfied about the fact, considering i usually just make things that are like 2-3 minutes long, so being able to make something that's 5 minutes long is quite an achievement for it, usually in the past i'd be very hesitant about making something like this, especially because I struggle a lot with making sure everything in the song is coherent, but this time i was able to have a lot more courage and just work on it despite the fear i may not be able to string everything together, and it worked pretty okay!! This is far from the extent to which I would like to take this, but it is a massive stepping stone for me, being able to make something that makes you feel like you're going through a 5 minute journey, and that it's something to reflect on.
The way I ended up structuring it was having the middle part kind of have a lot of switchups, while the part towards the end and the beginning was more structured and typical artcore that you could hear from me, and so I just ended up having fun with it instead of worrying too much, if transitions weren't going to be much of an issue anyway, since a lot of people said they surprisingly liked the transitions, which means i succeeded in my goal in stringing the whole song together in a way.
The outro has got to be my favourite part of it all, since it holds a lot of thematic meaning in a sense, and the quote itself has become something that i'm really attached to and that I resonate with. "The world is too noisy, don't listen, don't look, don't care just move on"
and those of you who do speak japanese can maybe create an interpretation of the song from that quote alone, but more or less it was about personalizing the song more and giving it more of that journey feel by adding a human voice for a more touching ending, and I think it works really well.
I decided to go for Λlstroemeria as a title since a lot of my artcore so far has been based around flowers, and so I thought relating this title to my other tracks would be a pretty cool thing to do, and again add to the whole astolsko artcore lore:tm:, kind of like how fery would have artcore titles that are similar in some way.
And finally I want to dedicate this bit to talking about my friend, who passed away sometime while this song was still in the making, I had showed it to him when the song was still only around 1 minute and 20 seconds long, and all he said is that it reminded him of pixiv artists that drew similar art, it doesn't stand out but he still liked it, the song is obviously very different now, so i hope that I was able to address that issue, it's the least I can try to do, even though he's not here to listen to it anymore, may you rest in peace.
This was a lot of work so I hope you guys can enjoy this track, I had a lot of fun making it, so I hope listening to it is an equal amount of fun!
I have other things in the future that I am pretty excited to show off, so hopefully I will be able to get it done!!
enjoy!!!!!

Λlstroemeria

Made this for fun. 
Original from Ariana Grande.

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To Depart (feat. Pocket Dial)

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