I remember when you laughed at me
It felt so shitty and I cried for weeks
The words you say seem contradictory
I'll end my life because you were a dick
To me

It's nothing special
It's existential
I'm unessential
You're all judgemental

Your friends suck and you think you're so cool
You don't give a fuck when you're being cruel
It's like I'm a ghost in the machine
How does that feel, Mrs Prom-Queen

To my dearest mother
I'm so sorry for all the bother
To my dogshit brother
Fuck your shit it makes me sick how you forget her
To my aging father
I can't forgive you for all of my honour
To the people who hate me
I guess you're right, so let's agree

I'm nothing special
You're existential
I'm unessential
You're all judgemental

I've reached the end of
My own rope
And I think I'm ready
To let myself choke

I want to say
Fuck you all
I hope you have fun 
Scraping my brains off the wall

I know that I'm a
Dirty sinner
And I think it's time
That I pull the trigger

have fun scraping my brains off the wall

i died today
there was no way
that you could save me
but you cant blame me

and its all my fault my fault
my mistakes weigh heavy on my back
theres no fixing the past
just cant live with that
so please just desecrate my grave


desecrate

I don't think that good people exist
For a moment of bliss why fist to the wrist 
I love it when they kick
And even more when they resist  
So when I look at it again  
 Its no surprise why you would miss

So you got the skills to pay the bills
So I’m sorry but I'm not you wasted your life on a job 
So you got some thrills when you got lots of kills
But when you realize what you’ve done
There's nowhere left to run

Cold hold chocolate
Don’t know what I did 
Marked off a checklist
Peanut butter falcon
Called to tell you 
I'm at Ikea
On 12th avenue 
In North Korea

So you got the skills to pay the bills
So I’m sorry but I'm not you wasted your life on a job 
So you got some thrills when you got lots of kills
But when you realize what you’ve done
There's nowhere left to run

I love devotion
The action
The classics
I love commotion
Its woven and frozen

So you got the skills to pay the bills
So I’m sorry but I'm not you wasted your life on a job 
So you got some thrills when you got lots of kills
But when you realize what you’ve done
There's nowhere left to run


Squander (Gezebelle Gaburgably cover)

w/ my friend @roadkill777

shes always online
cause shes so fucking stupid
says she likes anime
but she cant fucking prove it
i dont wanna know 
what youve got going for you
cause you got nothing
you are nothing
and i hope you die

you buy some new clothes
and think youre beautiful 
but you are not
you will always be a fucking troll

but its alright
just lay down
chug down the whole bottle
and take some pills now

shes a jirai
nothing behind her eyes
shes a jirai
fucked over a hundred guys
she always cuts herself
and posts that shit on twitter
but no one fucking cares
i love to watch her wither

(roadkill)

twisted perversions
of something 
once beautiful
i dont know
what the hell is
wrong with your soul

its in your eyes
you cant hide the lies
your a washed up whore
who cant have fun no more
seeking validation from losers
piece of shit, abuser

Jirai (ft Roadkill)

Cant sleep at all even with melatonin
no break from zero serotonin
with a gun to my left cheek
the only way ill fall asleep

Sleep debt
I Stay awake as a 
Reject
so fucking upset

stay up all night
being a waste of space
on my computer 
locked in plaace
all these days just feel the same
staying awake til 8 a m

Sleep debt
I Stay awake as a 
Reject
so fucking upset

Sleep debt
I Stay awake as a 
Reject
so fucking upset

Sleep debt
I Stay awake as a 
Reject
i cant rest my head (i cant rest my head)
upset

Sleep Debt

sam hyde took my best friend from me

Refrigerator

a shitty acoustic cover of "2017" by nameforgetter

In Order

i cant help these feelings on my own

I'm not crazy, well, maybe just a little bit
Check my swag, it's super sick
She likes my posts, she likes my pics
I'm so edgy but everybody wants me
Livestream my suicide, burn it on your CD

Slaughter that pussy, yeah, I feel just like Luka
Everything's so great, everything's super
Razor blade on my wrist, making sure it's perfect
Yeah, I'm an emo bitch, I don't eat, I restrict

Slaughter that pussy, yeah, I feel just like Luka
Everything's so great, everything's super
Razor blade on my wrist, making sure it's perfect
Yeah, I'm an emo bitch, I don't eat, I restrict

I'm not crazy, well, maybe just a little bit
Check my swag, it's super sick
She likes my posts, she likes my pics
I'm so edgy but everybody wants me
Livestream my suicide, burn it on your CD

sam hyde took my best friend from me

hallowed

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