I was once told to express yourself as a form of therapy.
-below are the lyrics but, changed a little as i recorded-

"this isn't a rap song nor anything to offend anyone but, to speak upon my own mistakes and accept it and move forward and change.
if you fucked up just be a man or woman about it. 

i sad umm...
please forgive me, 
im sorry, give me another chance 
those words i said all the time but, didn't mean a damn to you.
these past years... i put you through hell over again 
made you cry rang the bell 
in your mind when you're so devine and precious 
im a stupid bitch & wreckless at times i know and so,  
let me poor out these lines and go try to divide those thoughts with rimes 
so i can apolo..gize to you for forgiveness in life cause it's true ...
i was selfish because of my actions all this time, react acting and if i just subtract them maybe it would be a plus and to see your reactions
nothing can change the way i processed much because no matter what i acted like i never gave a fuck but,
which isn't true cause the truth is just like a book you can't judge its cover such as her words just love her to all the fellow brothers 
get it together cause if you love her? you would see the good in her! and not doubt her, ever!! i regret 
so much but you learn from your mistakes and make better ones, ones that can change perception and agression 
towards you for certain behaviors. be a gentleman cause gentle men are what a good wo-man needs her in "forever" clever....
i love you, i promise to never hurt you again
or not support you my truest friend...

I should of been the more paying attention type of guy
things i never got most of the time lead to a fight, 
All i ever did is cry over my own lies 
and realized that chances only come a couple times your life
When i said, "mike you can't continue questioning her it isn't right... your losing sight cause you fucked up.. alright?"
I said alright... i agreed even though it's the truth it ate me inside thoughts degraded me all the time made me feel useless at night and fearfull always,
Suicide was on the mind but, what would that get me? nothing but silence for eternity. 
I accepeted my fate my path I sat back and swallowed my words and put the snap back... back and i woke up even though it hurts!
I really awakened inside and said no more mike she's everything to you right??.. she loves you and you need to change.

life isn't over just be a man about your own faults and change for the better and really just become a better person for yourself and those who love you
cause love real love only really does come once in your life and can only take so much until it's gone and you regret it so much. 
just be a man about it and show her you will change by actions. showing is caring... 

one last thing..
i truly love you & you know who you are."

thank you for listening and no im not trying to be a rapper.

Thoughts On My Mind

not a rapper but, a man with a lot of things on his mind just trying to express as a source of therapy. 
What im using to record is Webcam Mic + Iphone Headphones and Audicity Free Recording Software. So, please forgive me for the quality. Don't have good equipment and honestly it's fine.

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