just the way im feeling today.
might be redone with some vocals eventually

Impulsive (Inst.)

Today is mothers days, and as such i am reflecting on compassion. 
the compassion of our mothers, and how to be compassionate in my own life

the vocals are not mine, this is the wisdom of Sadhguru and property of isha. you can find these vocals here

https://isha.sadhguru.org/us/en/wisdom/audio/virtue-and-compassion

Compassion

what can i say, 
the mayfly always make a lot of noise this time of year
we are who we are

We Are Who

How many layers does this thing go down?
————
Every time you get to get part of the wrapping off 
—-
you find there’s more 

Always more
——
Foiled 
—-
Foiled again 

-convoluted: what else is new?

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Convoluted

We let some things go
Or we let them down
Or we let them down

We let some things grow
Only to chop them on down
Only to chop them all down

We let or 
we let oh 
we let or 
we let oh
We let or
We let oh
We let it out

Resetting resetting 
These settings upsetting
Regretting my betting down
Ill say aloud
Ill settle now
Just settle down
My head is down
Im headed out

There's too many errors all blooping and bleeping
To speak of
I need some relief from 
I've blown out my speakers 
Its hard when i speak about grief
Not speak about me but

We all like amoeba
We need to be freer 
We need to be free of
Shapes and sizes 
All our petty lies
How ill advised 
Put the pride to the side 
This is do or die
So do we die
Prosperous 
All that this offers is
Awful its
Chaos smoke and its violence
When i close my eyelids
So unsurprising 
Horizons unwinding 
Perspectives colliding
 In Turbulence Turbulence Turbulence Turbulence 

Crown like your heads just a pin cushion
Been looking for
Needles of gold
To see if they’ll hold
Some sort of conduction
To make my brain function
They usually stick
But sometimes its disruptive
Combustion combustion combustion combustion
Exhausted 
I lost it
A cause to be caustic
Its all smoke and mirrors
No optimal targets
Relying on optics 
Impossible logic
To understand light 
Is to understand all this
And I cant even understand me
And I cant even understand me

And i just want to say something
Sometimes
I just want to say something
Anything
Anyone whos listening
I just need to say something

But it's the darndest thing
Sometimes speaking is the hardest thing
My brain’ll think so many things
I’ll always make an argument
But i still don't excel at arguing
I freeze up and give up its too much
As it rings 
And it rings
And it rings


I’ll call 
Are you gonna call me back
People never follow the reasons i do what i do
Is true love
Its true love 
Its true love 
Its true love 
if true love 
Is true
It has nothing to do 
With anybody else but you

Its true love
Its true love 
Its true love 
Its true
I do it to 
I do it to

Say Some Thing

I do not need any of this 
here with me 
and everything else
i am all 
by myself 

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All, By Myself

this really is just some random scribbling on the pandrum 
im not sure what made me inclined to share

the art comes from Dall-E Mini. With the input shown

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Pandrum Scribbling

When i first put this together i decided against releasing it. but its came back into my mind in a way i couldn't shake the past few days so i decided to share. enjoy 

100% original 
Lyrics:
Just for one moment 

Everything feels perfect in me

Only for one moment  

So I hold onto that moment and breath

I know 

This feeling can’t stay with me



She never does 

never does 

never does 



No she never does 

Never does 



But gravitas gravitates 

Are we simply waiting 

Falling to the bottom of this 

This bottomless pit 



I try to look up 

Every word that I think that I should say

But 

I’m forced to play my fate 

I fade away anyway



And just for a moment 

Everything feels perfect in me

So I hold onto that moment and I breath 

I know this feeling won’t stay with me 

She never does

She never does 

She never never does 

She never does 

She never never does 



Forced to watch her go 



But she never goes 

Never goes

Never goes 

Never goes 

Never goes 



We hold every piece of love we ever get 

So close 



I thank god for this 

Bottomless 

Well inside of me

Well I’m trying to be 

A source of something else 



Twisting my sweat into picture 

Making it more and listen 

I never thought it would come to this 

But I’m stupid miss 

So what do I know 



Just for a moment 

Sit in this this moment with me 

Forget that we ever knew how to speak 



(Jibberish) 



Ooo my fucked up poetry 



It never does 

It never does 

It never does 

Never does 



I won’t I won’t I wont 

Stop 

Or be (stopped)



Appreciate the moment 

And learn how to be 



But just for one moment

I watch the waves come over me 



I see through all of me 



And just for that moment 



Even when I hit my pandrum too hard 

There is a softness 

There is a softness 

to me 



And just for a moment 

I watch me 

From outside my shelf

From outside this hell

I’m well on my way 



I fly every night 

It’s not about flapping your wings 

It’s about making your center light 

Upwards to up worlds I said 

Take me with you 

Im just trying to learn 

But I won’t 

Pretend it doesn’t burn 



It doesn’t burn 

It doesn’t burn 



And just after I’d finished my words



So just for a moment 

So just for one moment 

Everything feels 

Perfect in me 



Just for a moment in time 

I forget about time 

And I breath 



Close your eyes 
Let me take you with me

Just For A Moment

please excuse the crackles and enjoy the poetry 

lyrics
https://subtlekeystrokes.wordpress.com/2019/06/02/red-and-written/

The Benchwarmer Series Pt. 1

Red And Written (poem)

Lyrics:
https://subtlekeystrokes.wordpress.com/2023/11/19/roadside-bouquets/

I often find myself, while working on the roadside or walking the city streets, noticing beauty and life where it is least expected. Discarded, trashed, or otherwise unnoticed bouquets on the roadside are a stark reminder of the importance of being grateful in the most difficult and ugly of times. Flowers growing through concrete cracks, on the sides of bridges and through the asphalt. Discarded bouquets which haven't lost their colors, and even fake flowers thrown to wind can all serve to remind me of the same beauty.

One thing I think we all know, all too well, is how tempting it can be to surrender to dejection, apathy and self pity. To let circumstances dictate our ability to succeed. It's very true that the world can be cold, demoralizing, and even hostile to growth. And maybe your excuse is valid, maybe you were sown into the most unforgiving of environments and circumstances, robbed of your chance to really thrive in the light of the sun or thrown away as soon as your color began to fade. 

But I see a thriving ecosystem where it has no business being. Life sprouting from nothing! Beautiful colors in the trash, and I think to myself...

How tremendous that this piece of life and beauty has not given up yet. 
How lucky I am to be in the light of this, which would have been so easy to miss.

It strikes me that when we resign ourselves to thinking there is no beauty in our surroundings, we miss so much of what makes life beautiful. And when we allow ourselves to believe that it is too strenuous a task to keep on going, we forget that growing, is really all there is to life anyway.

~ Prof. Mayfly

Roadside Bouquets

Recorded this morning, the rhythms come and go but i think its a pretty smooth ride by and by. I go in circles a little bit, but it all pans out. Enjoy. 

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Concentric ~ It All Pans Out

Lyrics
But in a past life my energy consumed me now here I am hearing out words from the wind and reading directions in Sand I stand like a modern made moon man moderate Soldered it gently well I welded the well see here's the thing I never gave my self time to even begin and I started clipping my wings So what the hell did I think I mean yea in a way falling a a beautiful thing and yea I know this icarusus wish where Nicolas spits comes down in the gloomiest sense
So hell heres a gift from me but on your 3d glasses se it vividly Im part of the ministry but no ones even close to understanding this symphony self included I too deluded in too diluted I acts stupid but Im smart and I'll prove it Shh there's beauty In the silence this is as close as I get too finding peace and quiet You want it you find kindly don't mind as i time it so keep running and keep gunning for the top branch of that family tree I can't stand to beseech half of these totem pole motives grope the rope like you mean it tear down the tears in your eyes the tears in the sleeve freeze child death is imminent isnt it great dangeroUS who me and you
Well were vandalicious there bloods too viscous. Im fairly sure that this blood is pure And were vandalicious  so I dare you frisk us Ill piece by piece destroy every crisp piece of your wish list you wanna risk it
This kids been wandering the state forest with a metal detector forced us to start unbyrying hatchets. Ravaging the savages in the middle of the night sleepwalking keep talking tough cookie good looking sick spider silk spindler keeping his or her pockets Cobb webbed results caught in the internets worth Probably a problem cross my heart I hope I die stick the needle in my eyell inject the slick poison me princess. No? No I insist, my wrist clicks and just like the prophecy fortold the reinforcements show up just as soon As I don't need em any longer Fucking hilarious
Well were vandalicious there bloods too viscous. Im fairly sure that this blood is pure And were vandalicious  so I dare you frisk us Ill piece by piece destroy every crisp piece of your wish list you wanna risk it
I'm swearing off Eyes on horizon and the sun is setting me up to fails like there's more to this can't be the bitter ends up that it's just me again I'll count down from tenderly tindering like a lumberjack timbering it's coming down  I promised you then I'd save some room in the tent but it flooded muddied up my little cubby where I Kept my belonging is just so abstract it's just a class passed although I never altered I thing they gave me and a plus I left in the trash. I don't even need to ask it know were getting blasted rocket ship rendezvous point on the moon point to the scribble called earth that disappeared too soon I don't wanna hear from you, hug Me like a straight jacket this is straight passion I'm straight crashing I don't want to be heavy fuck this gravity. Incinerate me and spread me ashes I saved this love up now I want y'all to have it. I'll rip my heart out and double bag it always seems to slip away from the ones who thought they had it are you bat shit crazy spacey Lacey dress. By my power invested don't make me regret this I ripped off my necklace, think of me before you proceed look guys I'm the only one that I'll ever need. This is my holiest creed this is the rosary beads you'll just keep clinging too like mildew it again and I'll kill you. Rip the mold from the mold all that glitters is gold low and behold oh no I think we gotta leaves fall with the trees call y'all I fall to my knees please you can't see this is more than a petty fight picked locked breaking an entering a state of retreat me like the splatter glass last night I asked a question started questing now I'm never coming back
Well were vandalicious there bloods too viscous. Im fairly sure that this blood is pure And were vandalicious  so I dare you frisk us Ill piece by piece destroy every crisp piece of your wish list you wanna risk it

Vandalicious

Lyrics:

So overwhelmed and underdressed fairly  blessed and not impressed. The birdy built a nest and quickly learned that leavings best pushed the hatchlings to the plummet from the summit some found summer flights and some found the concrete would take their week old life but that's alright. Survival of the fitness it's primal and it's kiddish I'm kidding I mean childish... I'm on me mean child shit. Meanwhile slip and fall and call for hands when all these handouts left me looking for no ones hands and out. Man down man down it's time to man up. He stood still till the ash settled. And chuckled lightly to the sky. Let out a samurais cry and found balance in the acts of megalomaniacs it doesn't take a brainiac to see that madness stems from reason and reason stems from madness and the craziest motherfuckers understand better the type of things the molded youth never found use with but it's useless until catastrophe proves it and there's no parade for the jaded who saw what was coming and emptied his savings. He headed for te hills and lost site of the city which he'd thought was plopped upon said hill. A sun god centers himself and says he doesn't need help he's got it all figured out himself centered entered even more unbalanced than they had made him out to be. He tries to smother the clutter with theory upon theory upon one another sliding together like butter. So professor mayfly thrives and comes alive with hive mindset. He's tryna finance the chance to make it out alive. He takes waste and biodegrades they call him ugly man tryin to optimize flutter time. Trying to rcognize half his ties to the ride home. But doesn't get that's it's dynamic and he's only scratched the surface leaving out a last dimension the rate of retention ought to be your last mention when you consider that you're fenced in and blocked off from the office. You've been ostracized, and optimized past the point of ruptur and we can't monitor this modulus we can't even begin to evaluate the hypothesis come one and come all prof mayfly but he may fall and he's not as tall as he thinks he is he's not past the point of return because hasn't left yet he hasn't pressed yet into the waxy underbelly of the beast the thunder swelling from the east like swelling yeast in fermentation brings forth your liquid courage that won't budge nudged in this direction shoved into another so far from the family you've lost touch with brothers so far from the famine you feast while some starve to be pantomime princes touched by the glimpses of twinkling distance for the very instance of an instant. With his Winston lips his sandstone teeth and a velvet fabrication of his livelihood, his motive is flourescent but unquestioned with every syllable placed like a class on a syllabus or craft rooms that fill with dust killing us because we'd let go so long ago the thing we scare out children out of holding and harnessing we industrialize perfection. Capitalize on power and watch flowers wilt...tilt the camera, silted hands for the geotechnical filthy lands for the free professionals. I'll be at the festival nick heads screwed on questionable and suttle knows how to float and wonder together we argue we ponder, start each pay day amongst the working class pay grade feeling born again and different no time to pursue women or fancy linen not lost but winning playing into the same game each  day a different player each place a different mayor each taste a different flavor. And stupidly sensitive, I could cry you a river I could draw you the figures and you still couldn't figure this out


Project Zennic

Over-well-mme

lyrics:

I am a dreamweaver 
a truth seer in this worlds theater
peaking from puckered edge of ethereal plane in plain view
i see the difference but i realize were the same too
many times before i've lost my center in a balancing act
but didn't trust that each of this is an ancient artifact
of art or fact where arts official not artificial if its de la soul
Ill hardly trickle down the tickled landscape of a rolling road
As i'm expanding i don't think ill ever find one home 
but plan to roam to rome and let all of OUR thoughts implode...

Jut like that something happened in the frozen tundra of that hectic hallway
as if to say this worlds a cradle and the love it shove is with me all day
Self Centered egotistical and arrogant they all say
but how many others can you call upon for help always and in All ways
I took grip in that tall haze and broadened my small gaze
past the tidal waves of consumption into a world of active passivism and passive activists

Blissfully and playfully i was cast into the spiders web where i sent a signal outward as to say
i know now not to announce that im the one when were all one and at once i didnt wonder 
why the whispers extrapolated exasperated I said wait THIS CANT BE HAPPENING
but it was and id seen it coming so my disregard fo fumbling rose and the sun shone 
bright as the plights of angels of the star striped trail of tear me open and my ego froze
dove into myself and left my lungs exposed to the wind you have to win you have to win 
you have to wind me up and let me loose perception always seemed to seam me right back up 
I dont need to be a warrior or worry or war with the worms of the earth for they too came here 
and they too frame fears and try to see the picture, I dont doubt it when i carry my heart in my hand
because my heart is a fist full of pink inklings that isnt wishful thinking and there is no risk of sinking
So lets go let go jump in and swin youre so caught up in control that you're sure to mis evereything
and it's all so fucking beautiful

All i know is that i came from the earth and i came for the earth to unearth all the worth and 
coerce all the cursed into a blessing because this world is the birth of the search and 
it starts with me 
no it starts with you
so say it starts with me
say it starts with me

Dreamweaver

(_ _).｡o○ that's their problem

A lotta people discombobulate as we miscommunicated I never resonate, and I'm the only one...I'll sit silently and delegate, I'm never tryna associate with anyone who to the bate you're hooked, I'm straight swimming. damn I feel bubbly weird and lovely finally something, and my world is massive and I feel I feel fantastic. This euphoric stimulation not a drug that could pass that, but pass that let me have at I'm perfectly ok yo it's just another cat scratch  isn't  it frustrating when these impatient calculations start disrupting formations, I'll be fucking blatant (because that's the way I came up) That's your problem that's their problem. That's your problem that's their

I never disregard, objectively objectifying every objective and once I select it. I bless it undress and calculate a message, it's simply these symbols exist like instrumentals and I'm just floating by when something caught my eye. I guess I'll lend attention. This invitation pends  an answer question that I'm waiting on the When will the light prevail and darkness subside to which he replied.

I never existed inside the fabric you speak of but let me express my gratitude toward your bewilderment. We haven't seen a rift in the shift like this since the last crimson solstice and I'm afraid this time darkness may hold it's grip if we don't start in the other direction with more urgency. In fact some still possess the candid ability to see in the darkness... But it's more than just that I'm afraid it's a craft, and this culture you speak towards they've been compressed, censored, and dissembelished as if their artistry were a witch craft. I pray for the day when we can rally in sunshine, if not but one time. Yet do not lose faith in the shared mission of this consciousness, mindfullness grows in the gallows and in time, it will be hollowed, their will be fallout and a new year to follow. With the blessing of, syncopated aura. Without destruction their can be no rebirth. You must accept all things feared exist and have their commonplace. Far far from your sacred heart

And so it goes.

Man was made to suffer to learn, not just to burn but to earn elevation and enlightenment. There is no written, forbidden hidden knowledge it's all out there for you to absorb and record filter and quilt or collect, and respect because it's part of you, look at you an artist too aren't you look don't argue dude I wouldn't lie, you know that, so grow past onward toward the membrane of Men's brains which is never finite, in fact none if this is. We can choose to dwindle or kindle it's simple. Let it bother you, strangle you and harbor upon your shore of uncertainties, you'd certainly be better off without a pith in a knot, but my opinion is lost in the fog of your cogs but that's your problem

(_ _).｡o○O that's their problem

Well my favorites do notoriously bad amongst my fans but im particularly proud of this one. 

The bug collection

So what the fuck am i supposed to do, when every critter in the grass makes me hope for you. And I'm hopeful too, of the mirror and the message it's exposed me to. Human beings getting mean I've got news for you, I grew into this, please grow out of it, trying to cure my bad habits it's a lonely road to freedom but by kingdom come this will be done, collection smashed in half and scattered, stop tripping it's smaller than you've made it out to be, I resent you even doubting me. Because I will. I'm not in it for the thrill dollar bills or the easy kill. We will triumph, you can't step on them ok?. Or step at me with your Jedi like mind games. I'm fine man I'm over it. I just don't want to be the one who's disowning this distant star grab space landing. Life is better than that so much better than that so much better in fact it's only one mission is to stay in tact and that's tactics you can't detach that level or fragmenting fractals, Its triple double packed like a stippled graph, I get so panicked I induce my own asthma attacks and that's whack man I'm better that. One foot after the other brother, we always make it home eventually, always eventually, a sentiment Worth cherishing. So why worry why hurry why stack the cash, pass the class, just relax make it last, and expand your mental house of glass. Live vividly eat the deliciously vibrant landscape like it's yours for the taking.  (It doesn't know) the difference between you or me or human beings a piece of tree or anything. I don't wanna lead I'm just tryna be a referee. But for some damn reason no ones even gonna let me be. I'm just trying to do me and I'm doing great. That's a feeling that your going to need to integrate, I don't mean to be sarcastic but were so much smaller than our big heads make us out to be. So check it out: fuck the antfarm I'm outta here.


The Bug Collection

after too long of a hiatus i'm back on, so back off. or just sit back and enjoy the joyous plight of the swarming mayfly.

this is my release.

the lyrics are too long for this description so they are linked below.
https://subtlekeystrokes.wordpress.com/2016/07/17/spider-silk-%E0%A5%90/

Spider Silk ॐ

@BCFCollab Presents a new track produced by @loftnt

Waitless (Keep Drifting)
Lyrics by Prof. Mayfly 

(verse 1)
Well i get frisson like a motherfucker
And i get visions like no other brothers, and sisters
This is for a moment in time 
I think that most of my mind likes to rhyme at least most of the time.
I tangle up the spider silk and it’s riveting.
I’m throwing out entitlement for enlightenment
I’m done fighting it, I really fucking like this shit. 
I was so worried that you wouldn’t be alright with it.
But imma will it into being, it’s thrilling when you see that its all relative
Mass space time velocity and energy
Look
Einstein proved it mathematically so don’t you tell me research conflicts with spirituality
Just face your setbacks and your fallacies you practically cracked me and my ego
I’m free though to leave, or love, and I’ve got shit to do
So ill be riddling through the dilation I’m patient
This thin walled casing, A stress evaluation  It’s way too gradient 
It’s gonna take a spectrograph to measure that 
As a matter of fact, it probably won’t stay in tact.
Rip your life from the tracks Throw the dice in ya pack, 
take a chance, quick glance, I trance
Look mom no hands!
Imma do what i can, from new york to japan while im taking my stand
with no fans
Wait, what is this frequency that speaks to me my brain hertz, thats resonant
Man i dont think that i remember in between all of my residence and dismemberments
Its kind of pleasent like i’m alway home, and thats the reason why ive always grown thats the reason why i love my own, 
And my enemy remeber me i wanna be a laureate, and just got published
I work for the public then head to the pub kid. 

 (Chorus)
So maybe i should wait less, or maybe i’m just weightless
Or maybe i should maybe i just, maybe its just wait less
So maybe i should wait less, or maybe i’m just weightless


And keep drifting...

(verse 2)
But who am i to persuade you?
And who am i to evade truth?
Cooped up I’m ruthless, i’ve gotta find truth 
If i reach the last page will i reach that last stage and fade?
Or is this sentience a mere reflection of a transient intention of a universal consciousness.
I’ll stay on top of it Ill be the page of swords
I’ve never been adored, but i look forward to the taste of maybe making it
I really just get bored…
 I wish that i could just live in my dreams 
Because it seems human being really isn’t my thing.
Bring in the sunshine, fuck me man Im way too lucky
I think i understand feeling
I think i get that real things, are not the same as reality
I think i finally understood why everybodys always so god  damn mad at me
They’re  not.

 (Chorus)
So maybe i should wait less, or maybe i’m just weightless
Or maybe i should maybe i just, maybe its just wait less
So maybe i should wait less, or maybe i’m just weightless


And keep drifting

Verse 3 (Spoken)
When a particle reaches it’s highest frequency and escapes the system there is a flash of light. 
We know based on mass relativity that theoretically  at the speed of light mass would be infinite. 
Enlightenment: the search for your souls resonant frequency. The eradication of the human barrier, the ego. For in that moment the particle is one with the whole of the universe. Every tensor of existence is expressed briefly through the static. For an amount of time we express as zero that exists forever and not at all . All mediums have the power to resonant energy is contained within the system. 

Where and when are you afraid of going?

 (Chorus)
So maybe i should wait less, or maybe i’m just weightless
Or maybe i should maybe i just, maybe its just wait less
So maybe i should wait less, or maybe i’m just weightless

And keep drifting...


Waitless(Prod. By loftnt)

https://soundcloud.com/subtle-keystrokes/sets/get-outta-town

Lyrics can be found on Bandcamp, album download include all lyrics and artwork.

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Get Outta Town!

Blundering

(Bonus track for Get Outta Town!)
https://soundcloud.com/subtle-keystrokes/sets/get-outta-town

https://subtlekeystrokes.bandcamp.com/album/get-outta-town

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Justice from the Bench (Bonus)

just some piano sounds from the soul holes on my sole poles.

This is story time music

Anxious energy is extremely powerful.

And this is action packed!

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Action Pact

I have a tendency to bite of more than I can chew
and that's ok 
somehow i always manage to get it all down,
Here is my latest mouthful

Lyrics:
https://subtlekeystrokes.wordpress.com/2019/06/12/mouthfull/

MouthFull

i could walk in vivid green forever. 
i wish could speak with you every evening.
just before the rain.

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Nature walk

@BCFCollab

I match soothing soundscapes with dense poetic verses, spoken word, stories, rap and singing

I also write instrumental music for meditation/bedtime/ambiance 
(check the playlist tab on my page)


Prof. Mayfly (https://soundcloud.com/profmayfly) =
Art-Rap
Poetry
Spoken Word
Singing

Subtle-Keystrokes=
Piano
Meditative
Improvisational 
Ambient
trip-hop

Contact me on either account
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