this song portrays my philosophy for how i live life with distinct moments and memories that inspired it.

the 1st verse shares how me being a surprise 
pregnancy and second born child helped mold my easy-going personality from an early age. 

the 2nd verse recounts a terrible time when i was 29 in Vietnam and felt depressed and lost.  I went for a long midnight walk on the beach listening to songs i hadn’t in a long time. I danced and jumped and screamed realizing my freedom and was grateful. 

the bridge drops down into one of my most intense recent memories of when i passed out after a gig and couldn’t move or open my eyes for minutes while listening to my friends panic around me.
In those moments i noticed i didn’t feel scared of death or regret how i lived, but felt at peace. 

this all comes together in the chorus where i exclaim “i said all that i wanted the good and the bad, i felt all of my feelings the happy and the sad”
meaning don’t hold yourself back from authenticity. share your passions, speak your mind, and let your unique light shine, even if you make mistakes along the way. 

🖤

Happy and Sad (porch session)

honda dream is an ode to driving my motorbike through the mountains of Pai, Thailand where I live. 

It’s a 180 flip from the experiences i had driving most of my life in the US. 
boxed in a car and usually stuck in traffic.

this song of exclamation is a breath of fresh air (literally) and a love letter to my favorite bike, my Honda Dream 

🖤

Honda Dream (porch session)

One of my newest songs brought out by a traumatic experience i had 3 years ago where someone sexually assaulted me and then accused me of lying about it.

the emotions i express in the song have been repressed and pushed deep inside me effecting my romantic relationships ever since. 

this song is my therapy to start the grieving and healing process so i can finally find love for myself and others in the future. 

🖤

Me and My Trust Issues (porch session)

cover of gorillaz- on melancholy hill

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On Melancholy Hill (porch session)

82 is a song of desire and desperation brought out by my early 20's when I was living on Colorado getting my master's. 

I had left California and my boyfriend behind in an attempt to find something/someone better, but ended up extremely lonely and crippled from a car hitting me while I was on my bicycle. 

My call for physical affection left me wanting...
so looking back on this time, I wrote this song. 

The name 82 is taken from the bpm of the recorded version of this song 🔥 because any other title would have not done it justice.

🖤

82 (porch session)

Oblivion- Grimes

here’s a throwback cover of one of the classic girl ballads we all use to sing in the car 🖤

A 1000 Miles- Vanessa Carlton

This was the first song I wrote on this EP after my uncle passed suddenly on January 1, 2025. He was so funny and supportive and I miss him dearly.

Lyrics:
tear my heart out
that’s a warning
just a glimpse
of a picture forming
you coughed up blood
in the morning
hours later
time for mourning

you know, i know
i can’t, i can’t go
i know, you know
no where feels like home
i hope i hope
where ever that you are
you feel, you feel
safe and sound

Marty

Track 2: Bst Prt of Lf€ (cvr)

This is a poem for myself and anyone else that needs to stop and release. I am very driven and can struggle when things don't turn out how I hoped. But an important part of doing anything is detaching from the expectations of an outcome. Enjoy the ride

Lyrics:
This will make sense
when i meet you
all the space and sound
will be see through

listless knot in thread
better hup to
butterflies in my head
morning fresh dew

sense/cents

I was being so cheeky when I wrote this song. I wanted nostalgia and a sense of adventure while tackling fear of the unknown.

Lyrics:
last night i couldn’t sleep
so i smoke a joint until it ended
next thing i know, your in my dream
and i ran away don’t be offended

see i was a cat and you a dog
and you started chasing me all over
next thing you stopped and called my name
i turned, surprised, to see scooby doo
and you hollered “it’s time to go”
where we’re going i don’t know
no one knows
but i’m ready
as long as im with you
My scooby-doo
My scooby-doo

credits


scooby-doo!

This song is about an alternate world where people are part human and part plant. There's a different culture and way of seeing life that I find really magical and unique. This is one of my most playful songs I have ever written

Lyrics:
hello and welcome
to a town in another space
she said come here girl
let me wipe some dirt on your face
i said why (why why)
she said it’ll make you pretty

nothing to fear here
everyone’s got a rooted smile
there’s no surprises
the unknowns they stretch for miles
and the waiters (oh oh) they don’t bring you bread
they got a flowers growing from their heads
in the town of river bed

don’t you love it here
the water is clear and the air is honey
round every corner it’s bright and sunny
don’t you love it dear
no need for a house a car or money
open up your ears
and hear the good times coming


river bed

This is an experimental demo of a full version song I wrote a few months back in full standard D tuning. I realized I wasn't able to play it live as much as I wanted, so I decided to give it a twist adding an interlude intro and verse/chorus clip.

Lyrics:
i’m not young but im not old
i’m not drop dead but i got something about me
grab my mic and my guitar
take the stage with pants falling down

always a boys boy no girls liked me
nothing crazy or exciting
picking daisy just wasn’t my thing
i like spitting i like fighting
dirty minds not meant for hiding
dreams of sneaking your hands sliding
give me goosebumps
that’s more my thing
give me shivers
leave me writhing


intl. drop_d

This song is for all those times where our outlook on life expands. Maybe we meet a person that challenges are previous beliefs, or maybe these realizations come from within. Regardless, the steps have been made and the world is fresh and new.

Lyrics:
meet me where i am
say you understand
water in the sand
making mud making lovely

no more alibis
camp town suicide
watch you from the sky
making moves real slowly

purple skies no surprise it’s your favorite
fingers flex while my toes hit the pavement
christmas present no promise no payment
1 2 3 4 days can’t fake it
in this brave new world


Brave New World

Child of a singer and guitarist. Shy tomboy kid to LA punk teen. value authenticity and originality over anything else. Dark poet with a song bird voice. Forever heart broken but never jaded. love love.

I was born in Michigan, but my fam moved to southern CA when I was 5. I spent most of my childhood listening to my mom and older sister sing and my dad play guitar. 
With melodies in my ears and love all around, I have always found connection and peace through music.

I have gone through many phases with what I listen to, going from emo and screamo as a young teen, to more anarchist vibes as I explored the LA punk and heavy metal scenes. While being exposed to alternative music, I was also involved in a very serious 8-part choir, as well as taking classical guitar lessons for almost a decade.

I knew when I was ready I would to leave the U.S. and explore the world to see where would fit me best. 
After many travel adventures I have ended up in a town in northern Thailand called Pai. 

Come find me!!

Suela Ray

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