I'm thinkin' of sacrificing your bitch,
Watch her bleed out to my shit
That romantic kiss her goodnight mosaic
It's out of field but a vibe, don't say it
Never touching down til the paper's high
Cause the funds keep me bound to a land I am sick of
Keep it real I don't really give a fuck about ya life
And the voices I hear I know I can't rid of

But luckily for me
It's not long til it's over
My lungs black as my soul
And it's fuck getting sober
Cause God left me here
I was chosen to die
They say I won't see heaven
But I'd rather rip out my eyes 

Doesn't take much to distract the populous
Pacify them but it's too damn obvious
You can't keep the many from hating the opulent
One for the people, there is no stopping this

Freight train
Many emotions rising up and it'll make waves
We can't keep on playing the part we won't let you set stage
Just a warning, there's not much time to stay safe
Feel the rumble in the ground before the
Freight train
Many emotions rising up and it'll make waves
We can't keep on playing the part we won't let you set stage
Just a warning, there's not much time  to stay safe
Be braced to feel the freight train move

shoutouts to Hollow Front(song: Comatose) for the sample

FREIGHT TRAIN

Hit me up when you're wishing that you're dead
I'll be your genie in a lamp
Unleash the anger of man
Levitating to the beat, you won't know it 'til it hits ya
Always straight sippin', give a fuck about a liver

I'm so happy that you showed up
Sofa bed, make a body fold up
When they question, it's “not that I know of”
No love ever given, no fucking love lost

Sick of the sound of chatter inside
How many voices can be in one mind?
Living like I'm sippin' on some motherfuckin' Ricin
Dead inside  'til the very last night
You won't get no sympathy from me
I'm apathetic as can be
And as for all your false pretences of superiority
You got dirt upon your name that's gonna be better kept unseen
I don't want shit from you, just a warning, don't fuck with me
Don't speak pussy boy, just run
You think you know fire?
I came from the fucking sun
Leave you armless, “Hey Siri, call mum”
Only when I'm burning at the fucking pyre am I done

SOFA BED

Fuck the parental advisory sticker, y'all know by now. xD

You and I
It's something I don't wanna think about
This forest fire
In my heart, can't seem to put it out
I'm tantalised
By the flames, running to 'em
'cause you made me feel
Like I'd rather burn
Than see your eyes

This is incredible
Mosaic got the heat and it is plentiful
I got some stress, but at least it ain't medical
So few left round me, but I'm feeling better off
I know I gotta
Turn up the hustle, focus on my craft like no tomorrow 
And surround myself with brothers whose words could never be hollow
I said fuck the money, this music shit feel like the lotto
When I get to where I wanna be, I'm getting blotto'd

Surely you didn't mean what you said about me the other night
Although I too only miss you when I'm high
This back and forth shit got me losing my mind
I'm lost, no perception of time

You and I
It's something I don't wanna think about
This forest fire
In my heart, can't seem to put it out
I'm tantalised
By the flames, running to 'em
'cause you made me feel
Like I'd rather burn
Than see your eyes

Funny how I look back on those times with such delight
Despite that you couldn't look me in the eyes before you walked out of my life
Not fair, you said you were all in
Should've called you right there
Now you're buried in my skin
Like a junkie, itching for some love
And I swear nobody want me from the way they cut me off
I can't read their intentions, but I know I'm on lost on them
'cause everybody wants a friend
That only ever hears their end

You and I
It's something I don't wanna think about
This forest fire
In my heart, can't seem to put it out
I'm tantalised
By the flames, running to 'em
'cause you made me feel
Like I'd rather burn
Than see your eyes

Forest Fire (prod. Vorni)

Lyrics:

I don't know how to slow down
I don't know how to stop

Nothing keeps me up at night, don't flatter yourself
And when the art is suicide, keep me caged in my hell
Yeah, what a shame, bet you would've been happy if I followed through your way
Painkiller, I'm not feelin' this today

Next level, pushing buttons on myself
Cutting through all the bullshit, I put these posers on the shelf
The way I do it so smooth, two to make it true
Flippin' and liftin' the energy up in the room
You wan' talk bombs? I'm exploding
You got some teeth, now show me
I'm sick of taking advice from people that just don't know me
I'm advanced on the GameBoy
Knuckles put you on your tail
Sonic how I'm dashin'
Turn these egg-men to a bunch of snails

I don't know how to slow down
I said I don't know how to stop

Nothing keeps me up at night, don't flatter yourself
And when the art is suicide, keep me caged in my hell
What a shame, bet you would've been happy if I let it go your way
Painkiller, I'm not feelin' this today

Standing at the edge
You want me to dive right in (dive straight in)
I can't tell your intentions, so I'll listen
Take it in

Nothing keeps me up at night, don't flatter yourself
And when the art is suicide, keep me caged in my hell
Yeah, what a shame
No one would've been happy if I let it go your way
Painkiller, I'm takin' us both to the grave

Spotify!

Painkiller

BELIEF [Feat. Paro](prod. LOU BOY)

Lyrics:

I hyperfixate
On poisonous things like big snake
I wake up in the morning
Ready for my big day
That break, my calling
Paddle on me just in case
I'm just here warning the fakes
The ones that scorn at the basics

It feels we only go backwards lately
I'm ready for the consequences to take me

Layin' with my eyes wide open letting light in
No troubles with the timing but I am indecisive
Whether or not I'm doing the right thing
'Cause if I share a message
I don't wanna restrict it, Lord knows it will be messy
But my critics will forgive me
Least I hope, if life is what you're fightin' for then you can keep my vote
I just wanna cash out, and maybe be the GOAT

I hyperfixate
On poisonous things like big snake
I wake up in the morning
Ready for my big day
That break, my calling
Paddle on me just in case
I'm just here warning the fakes
The ones that scorn at the basics

It feels we only go backwards lately
I'm ready for the consequences to take me

I got some memories that just need slating, erasing
So let's take to the bottles, they're awaiting us patiently

It feels I only go backwards lately
I'm ready for the consequences to take me

It's no artifical bullshit like Nestle or Kraft
Or one of the other forefathers of dying fast
What I'm forgetting? My mask
A fuckin' plebicite task
Still everyone around is acting like nobody even asked

It's all retarded, oops I said the r word
Now let's move on past it, add it to why you think I am a bastard
I am, legendary like a self-inflicted arson
That kinda energy to move your ticker faster

I hyperfixate
On poisonous things like big snake
I wake up in the morning
Ready for my big day
That break, my calling
Paddle on me just in case
I'm just here warning the fakes
The ones that scorn at the basics

It feels we only go backwards lately
I'm ready for the consequences to take me

I got some memories that just need slating, erasing
So let's take to the bottles, they're awaiting us patiently

It feels we only go backwards lately
I'm ready for the consequences to take me

It feels we only go backwards lately
I'm ready for the consequences to take me

ADRENALINE

Somewhere Else (prod. Fantom)

Horns On My Halo (feat. Don Amirio)

Lyrics: 

Need a better piece to tell the time with
If I'm being honest, it's just emptiness on my wrist
Wear it like my heart, outside I hear silence
Deep inside of me it's violence
Swear I was a nice kid, but that shit was overdone
Gave too much, I got visible scars
Coming undone, I need love
I think that I ran too far 

You can tell me it gets better if you really feel it
I've been saying it for years, don't know if I believe it any more
So bored of my phone, I D&D it
I'm just like the radio, too much getting repeated
Swear I might become a different being
Lost sight of myself looking for the meaning
To my reflection I have been the meanest
Use my body as a weapon, General Grievous 

Need a better piece to tell the time with
If I'm being honest, it's just emptiness on my wrist
Wear it like my heart, outside I hear silence
Deep inside of me it's violence
Swear I was a nice kid, but that shit was overdone
Gave too much, I got visible scars
Coming undone, I need love
I think that I ran too far 

Is this really real life?
I'm too tired to keep dealing with the strife
So gone, sacrificing no more time
Don't be surprised if you don't get a reply from me
Quit telling lies to me
I know you could never fight for me
All your words were only ever skin deep
I'll be your best friend forever when you're lying six feet 

Need a better piece to tell the time with
If I'm being honest, it's just emptiness on my wrist
Wear it like my heart, outside I hear silence
Deep inside of me it's violence
Swear I was a nice kid, but that shit was overdone
Gave too much, I got visible scars
Coming undone, I need love
I think that I ran too far



TIMEPIECE

Lyrics

[Hook]:
When I'm not high
I feel I can't hide
From questions I need answers to
Like have I lost my mind?
We traumatise ourselves with virtual lives
Repeat the cycle, try not to cry
I'm waiting
They say good things are coming to me
But I'm breaking
A void of colour is all I can see

[Verse 1]:
I'm over wondering what the world wants from me
I used to have a vision, now it's under me
'Cause in the new world, you gotta pay to be seen
Pay for your reach, out-stretch all the pain underneath
I've been fighting the villain in me
It's too hard to love what I see
And maybe I'm just negative
But when your dopamine dies, can you please tell me the benefits
I treated every fucking girl right and they still left
And I know for a fact the sky's blue, but it feels red
I look in the mirror saying "You used to be a pillhead, you've come so far"
Yeah, but I don't really feel it
I came up from smokin' and grimin' and stealin'
Wanted to make something better and reel in some hooks
Done hangin' with crooks
But I know I was happier, more understood

[Hook]:
When I'm not high
I feel I can't hide
From questions I need answers to
Like have I lost my mind?
We traumatise ourselves with virtual lives
Repeat the cycle, try not to cry
I'm waiting
They say good things are coming to me
But I'm breaking
A void of colour is all I can see

[Verse 2]:
I thought I had to make myself bigger, like a puffer fish
Then I thought I needed to downsize and see a fuckin' shrink
But I'm lost and confused, I don't know what the truth is
I look at my life and ask God why did you do this?
Why didn't you do shit when my family was in ruin?
I could blame you, but it feels so fucking useless
It's hard when every father you ever had was abusive
It's harder when your mum's the one who taught you what a noose is
360's the one that taught me be vulnerable
I could be strong man, but I don't fit that mold at all
I'm just hoping I can hold it all without letting my shoulders fall
And carry your weight, so you know you're not alone at all
I know my head's fucked up, but I stand tall
Might be spending too much time thinkin' about the curtain call
I know I'm still young, but this is what I stand for
Tryna make life brighter for the ones that don't want it anymore

[Hook]:
When I'm not high
I feel I can't hide
From questions I need answers to
Like have I lost my mind?
We traumatise ourselves with virtual lives
Repeat the cycle, try not to cry
I'm waiting
They say good things are coming to me
But I'm breaking
A void of colour is all I can see

waiting...

Music to astrally project to. In the first instalment of suicidemosaic's series of beat tapes, the artist stands face-to-face with life's deepest woes, grimacing yet standing firm. This tape was carefully curated in order to provide a feeling of escape to its listeners.
Step into worlds unseen & feel everything these soundscapes bring out of you - maybe it is time to stop hiding, stop burying your heart's burning passions, maybe you just need some rest. Whatever it may be, you are safe in these spaces, weary traveller.

Play These Beats at My Funeral, Pt. I

PARNELL STREET

Lyrics:

You haven't lost your mind
If you can think about it
That means you still got some time
It makes no difference 'til you let em
Come and block your shine
They tryna stick us with the venom
In the grass they lie
If it was greener I'd have told you

It's so obvious to see
We all fall victim to a curse
And I'm as honest as can be
Still do not know what I deserve
They said we came from stars
And then they said we came from dirt
I'm not sure what to believe
But I know it ends with a hearse

So will you be kind to each other
Don't let love decline
When your brothers are falling behind
Will you tell them to lift their eyes
Come inside

Where the heart that you reaped
Becomes propense to violence
It is a place we've all seen
You have to let your mind rest
I know it's hard to believe
That you'll shine like a diamond
But it's all for you to see
You were made to be free

We all need love
And I won't be the one to hold it back
Come undone
And they might think you should be over that
This the type of enemy to spite you
Then come running back
Don't even engage with that
So cold but you don't need 'em anymore

Show em all the door
For the times they abandoned you
When you were fighting wars
They ask for more
'til they watch the blood pour
And then they complain that
The floor isn't brown anymore

Where the heart that you reaped
Becomes propense to violence
It is a place we've all seen
You have to let your mind rest
I know it's hard to believe
That you'll shine like a diamond
But it's all for you to see
You were made to be free

Way out in the clouds
Is where I thought I found who I should be
If you're down and strung out
Then you're just like me

Way out in the clouds
Is where I thought I found who I should be
If you're down and strung out
Then you're just like me

Where the heart that you reaped
Becomes propense to violence
It is a place we've all seen
You have to let your mind rest
I know it's hard to believe
That you'll shine like a diamond
But it's all for you to see
You were made to be free

Be Kind

I'm feeling namaste
Been soaking in the rays
That sunlight
I give myself permission to be great
Lift others up wherever I go
To see a better place
I had to vent on vices for a bit
Just to get it all off my plate
This is no judgement
But I feel my mind is less corrupted
Since I put down the substances and
Gave love to my mother
The shit I feel I should've done
When I was a lot younger
Like suckin on my thumb and
Thinking it'd fix my hunger
Foolish as I might've been
I never gave up on the dream
My empathy cannot deplete
So it's always love for the team
Sometimes I forget how to breathe
And I have nightmares, all apocalyptic
Wondering if life could be more cryptic
Or is my mental twisted?
Is there a message in it?
Think I need a minute
I can see the image of the beast, it's in us
Lappin' up so many spirit dinners
Many do not need a mind for living
But with mine it's different
I could find a bitter root and tie its innards
It'd die in minutes
Don't act like I'm given
I'm a gift, but I could die of sickness
I am tryna stick like pasta to the wall
In many grimey kitchens

Ain't a competition
But if it is, I'm winning

SPIRIT DINNERS (prod. 8MVLES)

Another You

Sinking

K!NG

Days Gone

Smile Lines

A Dichotomy of Self-Deprecation

The Urge to Run From My Problems Only Grows Stronger by the Day

Beautiful Disorder

Don't Love Me

White Divide

D.R.U.G.S

MIЯЯOЯ MAИ

Keep me in your gaze forever and a day, I'm trapped
Hear me say I didn't wanna get out anyway, I'm glad
It's with you

Is this all that's within me?
Can I exist outside of hate?
From chains, please absolve me
Let me be free

Fought for taking the water from the innocent
Slaughter of millions in images
My mind isn't a civillian, huh
Bought you a toxic thought pool, go swim in it
Dive head first, die of thirst
Pride will soon try and curse both of us

We're not the curse that you think we are
We're not the plague that you think we are

If those burdened, weary thoughts had their way
Don't you think this world would crumble?
Mirror, mirror tell me who's to blame
Don't just stand afront me

For your eyes are my only window into oblivion
My only window to see the weather's sin
Your eyes are my only window into oblivion
My only window to see the weather's sin

MY ONLY WINDOW

My Aspirations Can Be Overwhelming

Why is the Rum Always Gone?

Mitsuha's Story

777 Angels & 666 Demons

If Nothing Changes, Nothing Will Change

Despite You

The sophomore full-length studio LP from Newcastle native suicidemosaic. This project represents a deep reflection of the artist's personal life told in cryptic, abstract song forms. Touting dreamy, ethereal production that lifts you out of your body and breaks down the walls of genre definition, Same Same But Different is a body of work worth absorbing mindfully.
Composed by Jedathan Sharp (suicidemosaic)
Produced, mixed and mastered by Jedathan Sharp (suicidemosaic)
Distributed and published by Jedathan Sharp on behalf of MOSAIC ENT.

Same Same But Different

KISSED YØUR SCARS

GI DREAMER

FAKE LOVE (feat. Henlxy)

I'm Roadkill to Your 500km Journey, But I Still Love You

"Drowning" is the most successful single from my 2nd mixtape, A Lonely Winter: The Collection, and one of my personal favorites. it will live forever on the cloud.
check out the mixtape here: https://open.spotify.com/album/2edy9Csge2xt9xtYC8mvXY?si=gAoAjacORvi0DF7kj2hi4A&utm_source=copy-link

Drowning

suicidemosaic represents a search for the answer to life's hardest questions - a quest for peace in a dying world.

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