I had a bar in here that references my faviyrite childhood movie, Help! I'm A Fish. as always, Issa sad trap banger. you know the vibes.

Help! I'm A Fish

I've run out of shoulders for my tears to fall on
Can you give me one reason why 
I should continue to hold on?
And I guess that I'm runnin' out of faith,
But I'll take this to the grave, lately
I've been drinking 'til the bottle's gone
I'll be dead by dawn, or just wake up alone again

And in pain, it's the same
I used to believe in change
'cause the rhythm of my heart beats differently every day
And every 24 hours, some power leakin' away,
Seepin' out of my brain, too much damage to the waves,
Like it's Border Village
Yeah we say we kill it - we don't gotta take it so literally
Figures fully hittin' double digits
Living digitally 'til the pub dinners & cheap steez
Do this shit with ease, no difficulty

I'm running out of shoulders for my tears to fall on
Can you give me one reason why 
I should continue to hold on?
And I guess that I'm runnin' out of faith,
But I'll take this to the grave, lately
I've been drinking 'til the bottle's gone
I'll be dead by dawn, or just wake up alone again

So much freedom in my head,
I built a world of my own,
I just wanna be laughing to the bank
Before I'm 30 years old
Reciprocating the patience that I'm displaying
Digging my own grave, while I'm showing the world greatness
I get up and go, take it away from those who don't need it,
Just to try to offer some shelter to the ones who've been defeated
By the darkness. those vices be heartless
I don't really wanna find out what life is like after

I've run out of shoulders for my tears to fall on
Can you give me one reason why 
I should continue to hold on?
And I guess that I'm runnin' out of faith,
But I'll take this to the grave, lately
I've been drinking 'til the bottle's gone
I'll be dead by dawn, or just wake up alone again

I'm out of shoulders for my tears to fall on
Can you give me one reason why 
I should continue to hold on?
And I guess that I'm runnin' out of faith,
But I'll take this to the grave, lately
I've been drinking 'til the bottle's gone
I'll be dead by dawn, or just wake up alone again

Spotify

SHOULDERS

Lyrics:
Aye girl, do you remember the night?
Hey oh, our arms were hanging out the ride
Lately my conscious has fallen for a high
I don't know why but I don't wanna survive 

Fill my head with poison & melodies
I could only dream up
With this cloud before my eyes,
I can barely see what I need
I'm dying softly

I wanna live for the ones that call me a soldier, 
But the people around me suck the life out of me,
I feel older than I should
Giving my time, not borrowed,
Just to feel misunderstood
Was it always this hollow?
Guess I'm not working like I should
Yea-yeah, sorry if I let you down
Yea-yeah, I was on the way up to my crown
Yea-yeah, too many I wish were still around
I can't look at it different, I'm trapped and they got out

Fill my head with poison & melodies
I could only dream up
With this cloud before my eyes,
I can barely see what I need
I'm dying softly

[Riverrrr]:
Black screen, I got the backup
Too many times I have backed out
I'm down to move in the shadows,
But I don't wanna do my back out
And I feel so real (I want something new)
The cuts keep me running (I want something new)

Fill my head with poison & melodies
I could only dream up
With this cloud before my eyes,
I can barely see what I need
I'm dying softly

Spotify!

Dying Softly [ft. Riverrrr]

Uh-huh, I'm having issues with my trust
Keep it a hundred I'm feeling done, 'cause everybody got me fucked up
And in my dreams I'm playing with the seems of reality
Wrong terminology, gotta make sure that shit doesn't come undone
'Cause I'm a hedonist, thrill-seeking people pleaser
Feel like there's different parts of me fighting to be the alpha
Need a reset, no factory
She said she'd get back to me
But I could give a fuck, you know I'm runnin' out of battery

My way, it keep me sittin' on the fence, yeah 
Up on a precipice, I'm really on the edge
I'm focused but I couldn't care
If I fall I don't know who'd be there
I gotta question, not to know but to live
We keep on takin', we don't know how to give
I'm hopeless, still shine in my stare
Never givin' up 'til my name is everywhere

Would've been nice if you were there
So many moments that never got shared
Now I'm alone in my zone, and I'm losing awareness
Of the world outside my head
Feel like I'm already dead
God textin', left him on read
Blood red, my eyes
Like a sacrifice, bet
It's fuckin' torture being here so I make bad decisions
But even though I hate it, I'm stickin'
This is a permanent situation, I'm furniture from the basement
I'm sharpie, you can't erase me
I got riddles on the low
And now I'm vibing to this culture that I built for myself
But I'm concerned that if it grows, they'll wanna know what's in my shell
I'm not ashamed, but I got darkness I don't really wanna share
Shawty told me I'm a curse, I said I'm well aware

My way, it keep me sittin' on the fence, yeah 
Up on a precipice, I'm really on the edge
I'm focused but I couldn't care
If I fall I don't know who'd be there
I gotta question, not to know but to live
We keep on takin', we don't know how to give
I'm hopeless, still shine in my stare
Never give up 'til my name is everywhere

My Name Is Everywhere

I Won't Give Up [Keenan Bridges Tribute]

Fuck the parental advisory sticker, y'all know by now. xD

You and I
It's something I don't wanna think about
This forest fire
In my heart, can't seem to put it out
I'm tantalised
By the flames, running to 'em
'cause you made me feel
Like I'd rather burn
Than see your eyes

This is incredible
Mosaic got the heat and it is plentiful
I got some stress, but at least it ain't medical
So few left round me, but I'm feeling better off
I know I gotta
Turn up the hustle, focus on my craft like no tomorrow 
And surround myself with brothers whose words could never be hollow
I said fuck the money, this music shit feel like the lotto
When I get to where I wanna be, I'm getting blotto'd

Surely you didn't mean what you said about me the other night
Although I too only miss you when I'm high
This back and forth shit got me losing my mind
I'm lost, no perception of time

You and I
It's something I don't wanna think about
This forest fire
In my heart, can't seem to put it out
I'm tantalised
By the flames, running to 'em
'cause you made me feel
Like I'd rather burn
Than see your eyes

Funny how I look back on those times with such delight
Despite that you couldn't look me in the eyes before you walked out of my life
Not fair, you said you were all in
Should've called you right there
Now you're buried in my skin
Like a junkie, itching for some love
And I swear nobody want me from the way they cut me off
I can't read their intentions, but I know I'm on lost on them
'cause everybody wants a friend
That only ever hears their end

You and I
It's something I don't wanna think about
This forest fire
In my heart, can't seem to put it out
I'm tantalised
By the flames, running to 'em
'cause you made me feel
Like I'd rather burn
Than see your eyes

Forest Fire (prod. Vorni)

Lyrics:

I'm feeling grey
I'm over-stating that I can't complain
Uninterested commentary overcrowding my space

Temporarily alleviate the pain
But I can never run away from the sound it makes
If I had to walk this path again
Next time I'd sink into the crashing waves
I've been pretty

Bad at all of this life business
Wondering what slide this is 
Am I even linear
Progressin' like whose life is this?
I wanna be popular, yeah, pretty in those lights and shit
But every thought up in my head says I got nothing left to give
Lemme live
Why am I my own worst nightmare?
Can't force my hope to expire from the outside,
But you can do it inside my head

Cycles repeat, no one is hurt
But I'm broken down and rebuilt when I

Temporarily alleviate the pain
But I can never run away from the sound it makes
If I had to walk this path again
Next time I'd sink into the crashing waves
I've been pretty

Pretend you're someone, somewhere
And just like that place you'd have to be
Perfectly fake

Perfectly Fake

Lyrics:

I hyperfixate
On poisonous things like big snake
I wake up in the morning
Ready for my big day
That break, my calling
Paddle on me just in case
I'm just here warning the fakes
The ones that scorn at the basics

It feels we only go backwards lately
I'm ready for the consequences to take me

Layin' with my eyes wide open letting light in
No troubles with the timing but I am indecisive
Whether or not I'm doing the right thing
'Cause if I share a message
I don't wanna restrict it, Lord knows it will be messy
But my critics will forgive me
Least I hope, if life is what you're fightin' for then you can keep my vote
I just wanna cash out, and maybe be the GOAT

I hyperfixate
On poisonous things like big snake
I wake up in the morning
Ready for my big day
That break, my calling
Paddle on me just in case
I'm just here warning the fakes
The ones that scorn at the basics

It feels we only go backwards lately
I'm ready for the consequences to take me

I got some memories that just need slating, erasing
So let's take to the bottles, they're awaiting us patiently

It feels I only go backwards lately
I'm ready for the consequences to take me

It's no artifical bullshit like Nestle or Kraft
Or one of the other forefathers of dying fast
What I'm forgetting? My mask
A fuckin' plebicite task
Still everyone around is acting like nobody even asked

It's all retarded, oops I said the r word
Now let's move on past it, add it to why you think I am a bastard
I am, legendary like a self-inflicted arson
That kinda energy to move your ticker faster

I hyperfixate
On poisonous things like big snake
I wake up in the morning
Ready for my big day
That break, my calling
Paddle on me just in case
I'm just here warning the fakes
The ones that scorn at the basics

It feels we only go backwards lately
I'm ready for the consequences to take me

I got some memories that just need slating, erasing
So let's take to the bottles, they're awaiting us patiently

It feels we only go backwards lately
I'm ready for the consequences to take me

It feels we only go backwards lately
I'm ready for the consequences to take me

ADRENALINE

As a connoisseur of all things beautiful, the artist known as suicidemosaic has compiled some of his favourite recent compositions as instrumentals, into this experience for all to consume & take away what they wish from it.
Calmly wander through a through the mind of young hip-hop producer Jed "suicidemosaic" Sharp, in this delicate, soul-filled journey. The 2nd edition of "Play These Beats at My Funeral" is an elegent, yet epic tale told not by words but by instruments - it is at times dark and gloomy, and at other times grand and inspiring.

Play These Beats at My Funeral, Pt. II

SLEEPLESS

EXHALE

Music to astrally project to. In the first instalment of suicidemosaic's series of beat tapes, the artist stands face-to-face with life's deepest woes, grimacing yet standing firm. This tape was carefully curated in order to provide a feeling of escape to its listeners.
Step into worlds unseen & feel everything these soundscapes bring out of you - maybe it is time to stop hiding, stop burying your heart's burning passions, maybe you just need some rest. Whatever it may be, you are safe in these spaces, weary traveller.

Play These Beats at My Funeral, Pt. I

LEFT BEHIND

I got different plans homie
I came from the sky, aye
And I don't need a bando
UFO for the ride
A new effort for new times
Are you entertained with life
In the minute that you in?
'Cause no matter what you try
There is no escapin' it
Let a pro create his shit
Like he skatin' it
And when you procreate, it's kids
Like these fakers is
Young son, Billie
With the tongue of a snake
I leave him undone, silly
If he touch the bread like a baker did

I don't wanna live, but
I don't wanna die
I just want you to smile when you
Look me in the eyes, uh
Stuck in the middle, feeling a lot
Talking a little, thinkin' a lot

I don't wanna live, but
I don't wanna die
I just want you to smile when you
Look me in the eyes, uh
Stuck in the middle, feeling a lot
Talking a little, thinkin' a lot

Young suicide, he lost the plot
Ain't nobody noticed that he never stopped
Trainspotting, chains off him but he still gon rot
Blame others if you wanna, but it's still your lot

Yeah I need a little peace of mind
Like a lobotomy
I might be a bit hard to find these days
Like apologies
When I was gone, that was when you really wanted me
Be honest g
You're better when you got me on your team

I don't need no one to make plans with
Got myself, and I'm the man, bitch
I stopped looking out for the answers
I got all that in my hands, shit
Didn't notice the focal point is where I'm standing
Now I'm overly prone to staying sober and dancing

I don't wanna live, but
I don't wanna die
I just want you to smile when you
Look me in the eyes
Stuck in the middle, feeling a lot
Talking a little, thinkin' a lot

I don't wanna live, but
I don't wanna die
I just want you to smile when you
Look me in the eyes
Stuck in the middle, feeling a lot
Talking a little, thinkin' a lot

I don't wanna live, but
I don't wanna-
I don't wanna live, but
I don't wanna-
I don't wanna live, but
I don't wanna-
Talking a little, thinkin' a lot

Stuck in the Middle (prod. NEKK)

Lyrics:

You haven't lost your mind
If you can think about it
That means you still got some time
It makes no difference 'til you let em
Come and block your shine
They tryna stick us with the venom
In the grass they lie
If it was greener I'd have told you

It's so obvious to see
We all fall victim to a curse
And I'm as honest as can be
Still do not know what I deserve
They said we came from stars
And then they said we came from dirt
I'm not sure what to believe
But I know it ends with a hearse

So will you be kind to each other
Don't let love decline
When your brothers are falling behind
Will you tell them to lift their eyes
Come inside

Where the heart that you reaped
Becomes propense to violence
It is a place we've all seen
You have to let your mind rest
I know it's hard to believe
That you'll shine like a diamond
But it's all for you to see
You were made to be free

We all need love
And I won't be the one to hold it back
Come undone
And they might think you should be over that
This the type of enemy to spite you
Then come running back
Don't even engage with that
So cold but you don't need 'em anymore

Show em all the door
For the times they abandoned you
When you were fighting wars
They ask for more
'til they watch the blood pour
And then they complain that
The floor isn't brown anymore

Where the heart that you reaped
Becomes propense to violence
It is a place we've all seen
You have to let your mind rest
I know it's hard to believe
That you'll shine like a diamond
But it's all for you to see
You were made to be free

Way out in the clouds
Is where I thought I found who I should be
If you're down and strung out
Then you're just like me

Way out in the clouds
Is where I thought I found who I should be
If you're down and strung out
Then you're just like me

Where the heart that you reaped
Becomes propense to violence
It is a place we've all seen
You have to let your mind rest
I know it's hard to believe
That you'll shine like a diamond
But it's all for you to see
You were made to be free

Be Kind

FOR YOUR EYES ONLY

Sinking

K!NG

BACKWARDS

A Dichotomy of Self-Deprecation

The Urge to Run From My Problems Only Grows Stronger by the Day

The Human Torch is Real, and He's Not in a Very Good Mood Today

An Unsightly Reflection...

In the End, We Begin to Unravel

Why is the Rum Always Gone?

Mitsuha's Story

11:47PM at Jim Maynard Park

It Feels Like I've Been Digging For 26 Years

The sophomore full-length studio LP from Newcastle native suicidemosaic. This project represents a deep reflection of the artist's personal life told in cryptic, abstract song forms. Touting dreamy, ethereal production that lifts you out of your body and breaks down the walls of genre definition, Same Same But Different is a body of work worth absorbing mindfully.
Composed by Jedathan Sharp (suicidemosaic)
Produced, mixed and mastered by Jedathan Sharp (suicidemosaic)
Distributed and published by Jedathan Sharp on behalf of MOSAIC ENT.

Same Same But Different

RUNNIN' ØUT

I'm Roadkill to Your 500km Journey, But I Still Love You

SONDER

waste ur time (prod. youforia)

Push to start shit on the whip
Got a Carti for the drip
Got a Yachty 'cause I'm rich
Got a Uzi on the hip
You seem stupid as a bitch
You could truly use some shit
Use some lessons in your life
So don't confuse your shit with mine, nah

I'm neuro-plastic, I can bend like an elastic band
Snap my fingers like Thanos, I got a magic hand
Missin' my buddies, but I'm never missin' what's happening
Everything that goes up, it always has to land

Seekin' a charge up of negative ions
I can remember the psy-ops
Givin' 'em my all
Lyric shit under me dialled
Meanwhile the finna just die off
Then I'ma smile, shit I'm alright with that
These fuckers are rubbish, a pile of crap
The real gonna stay, the fake gonna die
Believe me you're gonna still see me in time

I'm not missin' skyscrapers, all those buildings in my eyeline
Mustard seed faith, I'm makin' mountains move in my mind
In the night, I'm seein' skippies under twilight
Beautiful sights and vivid colours like a tie-dye

Put anyone to me, it's mismatched
Don't care 'bout your skills or your sick raps
Got LSD drop-ins and sick raps
Add mushies and then it's a sick wrap
I'm donatin' blood just to give back
With drugs in my system, I give that
They wake up and then they addicted
I think with my dick, I'm a dick-hat

Find me in the river with the sieve, I'm tappin' on the pan
Never been a shooter or a killer, but I am the man
Workin' on Australia, then I will take over Japan
Nothin' left to say to ya, I'm uno numero, ichiban

I'm in Shibuya, I'm stackin' my yen
If we ain't mates, I ain't tryna be friends
Cunt it's too late to be makin' amends
Went to the bank and I'll be there again
OSDS, oh he used it again
I was depressed and they used you again
Lookin' for handouts, you needin' a hand
Lookin' for standouts, I'm thinkin' ahead

Yeah that's that bleach and peroxide
As a teen I wanted to stop time
Peace and love to everyone
I run 'cause I don't want fights
I live on God's time, He the only one I'll apologise to
Just like a wasp bite, it's stingin' when I say I wanna die soon

Peroxide for the trip, tried to stop time as a kid
That's a glock-nine on my hip
Bring lean to the pot, like 'cause I'm sick
I'm sippin' ricky, got my teeth so shitty, better buy a set
Flippin' fifties, fifty tabs of lissy, just to pay my rent

I've been Mr. Rager seein' ghosts like the kid from Fifth Element
Saw the seven stages ahead for family and took a left
I don't wan' end up in the yard for some juvenile nonsense
On my lonely countin' stars, I guess it's better that I lost those friends

I was homeless, to my name some opiates and a bunch of debt
That's my onus, took me years to glow up, barely shinin' yet
But I'm content, I'll have mils in time but I ain't tryin' yet
I digress, 'cause of lean and perkies I used to digest

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