Name: MY OWN SHADOW SCARES ME by SVICIDAL in STARED AT THE CEILING FOR SO LONG, I STARTED TO REMEMBER THE PATTERN
Duration: 1 min 39 s
Description: i made this when i was feeling angry or lonely. hope you enjoy it.

i made this when i was feeling angry or lonely. hope you enjoy it.

STARED AT THE CEILING FOR SO LONG, I STARTED TO REMEMBER THE PATTERN

GIGGITY! [W/ NICKYONTHESTICKS] (PROD. NICKYONTHESTICKS)

lyrics: 

thoughts of thinking withdrawal 
but not from drugs 
it’s me in life 
bitch i know my 
best friend 
got my back 
shoutout to me and I
big dom got a shitty fucking life 
i got you seeing why 
think about my shitty job 
it takes away from being high 

bitch that been the way 
it fucking goes 
and you know it 
that feeling “broken up with”
i had it
never showed it 
when that feelings gone 
i’m happy 
bad  
it like i loaned it 
but i’m never truly happy 
on the line 
it’s like i toed it 
own it 
fuck a family 
so it’s a fact 
ill always loath it 
it’s better than my sister 
on the highway 
getting loaded 
and my mentals getting bloated 
grab a 9 
i hope you load it 
fucking hate you 
hope you know it 
never had it 
had to grow it

WITHDRAWAL [INTERLUDE] (PROD. SKOTSKR)

I DELETED MY SOCIALS LONG TIME AGO

SEPPUKU/HARAKIRI

MY OWN SHADOW SCARES ME

this old lol was gonna be on therapy 

lyrics: 

the vibe is nice but 
i’m done with this shit now 
treated this bitch like a bitch 
i said get down 
big dom in person 
yeah i swear 
i’m just a let down 
saw a mom whip
rip son sticker 
ima go ahead and 
put the fent down 
hit her up a month later 
had that bitty bent down 
my morales been stripped 
months ago 
i took that tent down 
i ain’t with nobody 
i done let all of 
my friends down 
it’s feeling like
the end now 

when the credits roll down 
just know it’s all over 
not a lucky man 
red rover red rover 
send me a 30 pack over 
no luck 
no clover 
no love
all the shit 
that i done fucking showed her 

it means nothing 
expectations can’t erase 
living ina new crib 
you can’t even see the place 
looking in my mind 
now finally you see the maze 
looking in yo face 
and never once did i see amaze 

guys fucking 
no love 
finally i see the craze 
you broke up w me 
that’s a bullet i did not graze
praying up to god 
life father 
i ask for your grace 
i can’t even trust myself 
up in a empty space 

ayo bitty 
i’m just looking 
for the friends with benefits 
hit it once 
hit it twice 
now we onto 7 hits 
this was in the works 
for heartbreak 
nobody mentioned this 
7 baby daddies 
i won’t date 
w 11 kids 

if i’m being real 
ima say it 
yall won’t like it 
i ain’t doing well 
it’s a fact
i can’t deny it 
it’s the way ive felt 
deep down 
i can’t fight it 
bitch i really think 
i need help 
on that type shit

MY FAULT (PROD. SKOTSKR)

lyrics: 


this really ain’t 
been the shit
you used to hearing 
this is like 23 years
of shit i’m fearing 
looking for a meadow 
in the field 
or a clearing 
i listen to you all
now you all 
get to hearing 

i know i need therapy 
but it don’t fucking need me 
lemme clear my thoughts 
this past year 
i’ve been a meanie 
had a bitch 
that acted like a bitch 
she didn’t need me 
it made me fucking realize 
leaving 2 years 
is so easy 

fuck a 4 
lemme switch it to 8 
i mean 
fuck a whore 
all this switching to hate 
i mean 
fuck a floor
but the feeling is great 
i mean 
pluck a whore 
i don’t need no fucking wife 
i don’t need all the control 
i can dictate my life 
i can fixate
on any fucking thing 
except a knife   

ranting for so long 
i know that shit was 
more than 8 but (it wasn’t even a 8 lmao)
ima keep the love down 
now let’s bring the hate up 
if you was a bitch 
you prolly rocking 
you a A cup
that bitch never woke up 
that morning 
guess she wake up 
what was in your mind 
when you had to 
mention breakup?
telling all those feelings 
all those feelings
made you fake hun 
feeling like you 
ran up on me 
robbed me with
a paint gun 
squeezed the trigger 
to show the picture 
you paint the fake one 
i felt that way anyway 
so i’m guessing that fate won 
who the fuck taught you
how to love?
and you ain’t done

THERAPY (PROD. SKOTSKR)

lyrics:

lets keep it 
to the basics
i’m the bad guy 
all this shit 
i won’t erase this 
read the underground 
brodie 
why you stuck 
on page 6?
big dom 
on the track 
fony on the beat 
made this
i ain’t with reality 
i’m caught up 
in the matrix 
finna have a meltdown 
chernobyl 
like it’s 8 6
therapy’s made
haven’t had a thought 
a day since 
smoking on that 
pack still 
ion like to take sips 
had to call my dawg 
a bitch 
because he plays tricks 
taurus popping out 
from the second 
that the bass hits 
sos in first 
blind bitch 
get some lasiks
picking up the fent
i can’t rap 
till i take 8 hits 
nicky on cassette 
popped it in 
why the tape hiss?
i will never take shit
brodie 
why you take piss?
acting like a old head 
why you copping k swiss?
king of akron 
bitch 
that’s the claim 
i’ll hold for ages 
i’m my own shooter
ever seen me 
with a clay disc?
tried to say my value 
so i told a bitch 
appraise this 
since i hold the throne 
ima tell y’all 
on a basis 
i done had y’all beat 
ever since the days 
of age 6
i ain’t ever capped 
if i’m Audi 
then i’m a6 
told this bitch 
i’m outty 
but my lap 
is where her face fits 
i could take the head
any day 
with them great lips 
call that hoe 
a fake ass bitch 
with them snake hips 
oh you tryna work? 
okay 
hit me when the bank hits
bank just hit me up 
to much bread 
it’s a weight risk
just to move my bread 
ima need at least 
8 ships 
rhyming off of basics 
i think i need 
a break bitch 
fuck that
well i guess you did 
with all them cases 
pulling up to chase bank 
ran off 
told em chase this 
apd said fuck a ford 
they in spaceships 
oh you didn’t know?
there’s no easy way 
to say this 
bitch we finna battle 
Alamo
like it’s may 6th
when i shoot 
it aint probable 
that i may miss 
ima help em out 
lay you down 
tell em trace this 
baby gotta problem 
now i gotta hunt 
this trace bitch 
finna max the bet 
look you in yo eyes 
raise this
better watch yo tone 
before i change it
like a bassist
have you living limimal 
and kaleb’s 
got the spaces 
you can call me anything
but never been a racist 


brodie popped a addy 
now we in the stu
locked in 
scum just passed 
me the cart
elbow pass
Stockton
scamgod
caught him 
at the roundabout 
popped him 
how you fuck a minor
and the whole time 
have a option?
fuck a clay disc
if i’m Klay 
then i’m Thompson 
shooters gotta shoot 
when you shoot 
it’s like you tossing 
if you needa space 
to fit in 
go to boston 
pulling up 
sham god 
switch
then i lost him

BAD GUY 2 (PROD. FONY WALLACE)

lyrics:


brodie you was talking 
all that shit 
let’s get to scrapping 
if i ain’t in cincy 
then you know 
i’m king of akron 
pulling up to mannys
call me
mr. make shit happen
when you hit a track 
brodie 
that’s called makeshift rapping 
told this bitty 
i ain’t hers 
i hate the capping 
and you got a bun 
in that oven 
he hate the wrapping 
plan A’s over 
plan B
to late for action 
all up in the news 
to late to hate the traction 

but that’s fine
cause you like that 
big slot 
in them front teeth 
like a thigh gap
that bitch said she wet 
stuck it in
felt like pine sap 
that’s a type of fuck 
where you wake up 
feeling like crap 

oh you made gas? 
nah that couldn’t
be a weed cart
future really lacking 
so his bitty cannot see far 
ford taurus really
tried to up it 
huh 
weak car 
i be making opens
then i ask about 
a week far 
maybe about a week out 
akron all legal 
i ain’t going through 
a weed drought 
bitch got left out 
so much shit
that i will leave out 
virgin bitch 
stuck it in 
couple days she’ll bleed out 
Akron big dom
A & B 
hope she don’t C out 
choppa getting horny 
so i think ill
let it eat out 
bitch that wasn’t nut 
had to go 
then let the pee out 
akron like texas 
who the fuck 
let the heat out 

bitch you tryna fuck
that’s a fact
so don’t hide shit 
lit bitch
how? 
cause i swear 
that i ain’t light shit 
i ain’t gotta say nun 
brodie gotta fight shit 
throw another $20 
on the line 
he might bite shit 

how the fuck 
this shawty giving dome
but with no face?
ian fucking shawty
if she going through 
her hoe phase 
brodie keep that beat 
that you sending me 
with no bass 

gripping on the taurus 
but i need me 
a kimber 
opps call me lumberjack 
how i make em timber 
shawty lemme eat 
she get ate 
before dinner 
opps asking questions 
tell em 
i was never with her

KING OF AKRON (PROD. PRODIGY)

lyrics:


uh
call my coke walter
cause that shit white
big dom 
big shark 
hoe just called me 
big white 
why this bitch left 
it’s a fact 
that i been right 
killing my buzz
can’t fly 
with a thin kite 
smelling like a sardine 
straight out the tin right 
known to be the bigger man 
hoe i’m finna win right?
oh you fuck w me 
then why you ducking me 
ya hoe sucking me
doing good
bitch i did right

doing good 
bitch i did that
you ain’t want dick 
but
why it where ya
lip at 
you ain’t tryna fuck 
but why you let me
hit that 
breaking shawty down 
(break) (break) 
no kit kat 
boutta be done 
w this shit 
i call shit rap 
but you never finna 
do it like me 
sit back 
call me ex bitch 
you ain’t finna 
get your shit back 
i am the danger 
i know where you 
live at 

talk is cheap 
elementary 
i don’t think you know
what she meant to me 
so many muh fucking 
threats
been sent to me 
big dom dead to me 
go on
be the fucking one 
you pretend to be 
that’s 10 to be free 
try and beat me 
call me shell 
cause you more 
like bp 
you loul deng 
i’m more like cp3
pulling back  
he see 3

all of these bands 
ain’t met my extremity 
new shit is plague
sos 
like a remedy 
smoking on ketamine
i got a bet on me 
will i lift standards 
that all of you 
set on me
fucking with 12 
apd
there’s 10 on me 
finna get popped 
if you talk
that’s kennedy 
keep you in memory 
end your identity 
all of these features 
like 
quit what you sending me

DID RIGHT (PROD. SKOTSKR)

lyrics: 


bitty got that back arch 
face down 
ass up 
no baby daddies 
that’s shit i can’t 
pass up 
catch me in dayton 
w the gang 
no back up 
stacking all my bread 
lil bitch 
get ya sack up 
went and bought 
a milkshake 
cause that hoe 
rack up 
thinking we the same 
lil bro 
made me crack up
fuck big dom
the new names 
big fat fuck 
ion mean morale 
when i say
i got my act up 


bitch i hate the weak 
brodie od’d
nah that ain’t
a peak 
silly ol me 
forgot you a freak 
freaky ol bitch 
nah
you a creep 
i got bitches wanting dick 
ion give a peek 
but i might 
go deep 
giving woody 
like the bitch 
my bo peep 


sos more of a guild 
not a covenant 
drink more waters that’s cut 
for the fuck of it 
12.5 in my blood 
i’m loving it 
that same blood 
getting seeked
by the government 
ion regret 
what i say 
bitch
i’ll double it 
watch yo mouth 
politicians 
they fumble it 
FBI
kash patel 
it’s crumbling 
life like a sitcom 
but less humbling 

take them drugs 
yo mind frazzles quick 
fuck that hillary bitch 
and that frazzledrip
bitch i ain’t the one 
you want a hassle with 
yo obama
go and get 
some michael dick
joan river died 
she was spouting shit 

she said what she said 
but the piece is late 
these kids go missing
what’s pizzagate?
just to make this song
had to seize the hate 
distractions all around 
gotta flee the bait 
reactions all in town 
can’t be ornate 
actions all around 
can’t see the day 
cause i fear my life 
so keep away 
better hear my plight 
it won’t be okay 
like a deer in sight 
but won’t go away 
i drink beer inside 
till i know the way 
i think near is crime 
till their blown away 

if you speal 
it’s done 
suicide 
deliberate 
left right
i don’t pick a side 
not into it 
said what i said 
you a retard 
illiterate 
bitch i’m the goat 
i won’t let you 
consider it 
hoe i’m more lit 
than a mfn 
cigarette 
who the fuck a goat 
in your mind 
better figure it
out 
if not 
then i get w yo bitch 
then i finger her out

ACT UP [W/ KOKO] (PROD. NXTTY)

lyrics: 


why the fuck 
you talking shit 
and we ain’t ever
met hoe 
holding onto anger 
i’ve been told 
big dom to let go 
bitch i got a gift 
it’s not the same 
when your called special 
god been on my side 
and everyday yall 
more connected w the devil 
never sinning
i ain’t perfect 
got respected 
at this level  
all these thots 
been in my path 
and i deflected 
it was several 
all my bitches
that i had 
that i neglected 
need a medal 
not for honor 
call me dahmer 
get dissected 
you a speckle

told her if she with me 
then to 
stay for a while 
yes it’s big dom
they be 
taking my style 
you know me and love 
kinda like that 
grout to a tile 
you know me and you 
kinda like 
a rose to it’s pedal 
i know these guys want you 
but they 
not on my level 
i mean they calling me the rock 
next to me 
you a pebble
i feel temped by god 
everyday 
not the devil 
back in hs hoe
your name was bitch 
now it’s special 

what’s a flow? 
fuck it 
pullin up to dayton 
w the taurus
tuck it 
if i say i got a grand
you got a grand? 
up it 
she said she was
just a fan 
i think i got a fan fucking
oh you think that you 
the man 
you no man 
nothing 
bitch 

i can feel it 
in my bones 
bitch the end 
is near now 
i ain’t even smoking 
most my days 
i’m drinking beer now 
what yall fucking
tell me is a lie 
gotta steer around 
i ain’t w my homies 
ain’t no sense 
of keeping fear ‘round

STAY 4 A WHILE (PROD. FONY WALLACE)

lyrics:
 
keep my 9’s 
by my 10 
in the trunk 
i ain’t talking 
bout a bitch 
when i say 
it got dumped 
nor im taking 
bout that bitch 
will gump 
he got slumped 
that’s called karma 
lil bitch 
catching up 
since the jump 
now he stumped 
funny how shit 
turned into a 
fucking lump 
you got thumped 
buddy ima leave yo
ass like trump  
in my trunk 
now you 
dead bitch 
i ain’t want the blood 
what you got 
that’s called vengeance 
and your sons 8?
like where you 
grew up in them sections 
i ain’t spreading hate 
just tryna teach that boy 
some lessons 
if that bike ain’t did it 
you get laid out 
with extensions 

play w me
you peon 
you tried to 
run up on me 
running back
they call me
big caillou
she asked if i
was tryna fuck 
i asked 
“is the sky blue?”
yo bitty give me pussy 
and she told me 
don’t try you 
told her who
i was 
she said 
i think ive been lied to 
told her you ain’t want em 
got more shit 
to provide you 
mind you 
everything he got 
i got times 2 
inside you 
but i wont ever 
call a slut 
my boo 
won’t try to

telling shawty if we fuck 
i only need 
like 5 second
ion getting bigger 
off you bitches 
it be my mentions 
if you in my path 
you gon croak 
call em die rections 
everydays the purge 
told that fuck boy 
to buy weapons

KARMA (PROD. ADAMADEDAT)

would be happy to collab with someone!

just a dude who is depressed and makes music because he has nothing else to do. aka 90% of the people here.

I have no socials or nothing.

MY OWN SHADOW SCARES ME

SVICIDAL

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