waking up with no sunlight felt it in my bones
my friends were crying all night cause they thought I was gone
lay down in the porch lights trynna bring me to earth
wipe those tears cause I’m making it home this time

waking up with no sunlight felt it in my bones
my friends were crying all night cause they thought I was gone
sit down in the porch lights tend to wait for a call
I shouldn’t have made it through the night 
But I made it out alive fuck everybody saying I won’t

real soon I’ll be ready to go
real soon ima take another pill and some more
this noon ima show you what’s left
this noon ima give it my all
six pills i can’t take anymore
more pills and i would’ve put an end to it all
ima sad kid i cant let momma know
i cant stand seeing her cry anymore

save me but nobody ever gave a fuck
it’s me, can’t nobody see me through these walls
xan, lean I’ll experiment in this cup
all geeked in my bedroom all docked alone
four weeks and nobody has hit my phone
the only text that I get is when I hit my plug
the only voice is slowly getting numb
chemicals in my head got me going dumb

waking up with no sunlight felt it in my bones
my friends were crying all night cause they thought I was gone
lay down in the porch lights trynna bring me to earth
wipe those tears cause I’m making it home this time

suisside- pills (prod. x10derrick)

i feel like im spending my last days on this earth
and if I die I won’t be alone
nothings going my way somethings wrong
im not afraid to see the unknown
something is going on somethings in my head
i dont fucking know I can’t help but shake
somethings fucking up somethings not okay
i would give you the world if I’m allowed to stay

i would give you all my bands i don’t care what you say
i dont got that many fans but I love them to death
i don’t think you understand somethings wrong in my brain 
i don’t think I had the chance to make myself feel the pain
i was trynna get my wealth I had nothing to say
i was working on myself ain’t nobody the same
i was trynna treat you well you were not like the lames 
i aint need nobody’s help I’m by my own in my lane

(my lane) 
get the fuck out my lane
(get the fuck out my lane)
get thе fuck out my lane
(my lane)
i cut you off like a vein
(i cut you off like a vein)
i cut you off like my veins
(my veins)
i wanna go out and say
(i wanna go out and say)
i think im going insane
(insane)
im working hard everyday
(im working hard everyday)
and if I die I’ll be safe

i feel like im spending my last days on this earth
and if I die I won’t be alone
nothings going my way somethings wrong
im not afraid to see the unknown
something is going on somethings in my head
i dont fucking know I can’t help but shake
somethings fucking up somethings not okay
i would give you the world if I’m allowed to stay

suisside- my last days (original version)

she said she wanted something 
she don’t want it for forever now
she said want my loving while you’re falling ima let you drown
i came here with nothing but a dream bitch i cant let her down
you came here with pockets full of nothing you won’t make it out 
she said she a stoner for that ima call her the forbidden girl
she said i don’t love her but I told her ima bend her down
dressing like a soldier on your shoulder im the angel now
i’ve been looking for you 
paranoia 
somethings feeling fowl
give me what you wanted and ill give you what you dream about
she said she can’t have it bitch imagine what im feeling now
i feel all the pressure coming to me I can’t hold it down
i feel all your tension coming to me better grip it now
i don’t got the time I got no money best believe im down
you’ve gone kinda bitter tells me guess I have to beat it now
you’ve been cutting through me but believe that you can’t cut me now
you don’t even know me you know nothing that im about

i’ve been on my shit for now a minute but I’ve got it down
you’ve been on your shit for about a minute 
but you got no ?
they call me yung killer
bitch i killed her she ain’t going down
i can put in everything and i still stand my fucking ground
(woo)

suisside- bitter (prod. killsho)

i can do it all they gonna hate me regardless
i can put a show for your bitch and she’ll like it
im giving it my all and im breaking my silence
i don’t tell them shit I just hope they don’t find it

girl I’ve got my problems you don’t gotta worry about them
make a hundred dollars just to show you that I’m working
i’ve been putting everything 
they’re looking at me smiling
just know that ima make it for my mother and nobody

fall right through me
out pursuit
im a young boy foolin
who you choose?
let the pain consume me
let the axe come through
let my family see it through me
i’ve changed on you
don’t matter it’s whatever ima make it by myself
i let you be my everything you let me be your waste
rainy that’s my weather i wrote a letter to myself
don’t matter it’s whatever i still got that fucking ?

stuck in a dream
falling for me
pray for my sins
pray I don’t love
im an angel my wings
i got them covered in lean
i tell my problems to leave
i tell the devil to come in

stuck in a dream
falling for me
pray for my sins
pray I don’t love
im an angel my wings
i got them covered in lean
i tell my problems to leave
i tell the devil to come in

i can do it all they gonna hate me regardless
i can put a show for your bitch and she’ll like it
im giving it my all and im breaking my silence
i don’t tell them shit I just hope they don’t find it

girl I’ve got my problems you don’t gotta worry about them
make a hundred dollars just to show you that I’m working
i’ve been putting everything 
they’re looking at me smiling
just know that ima make it for my mother and nobody

fall right through me
out pursuit
im a young boy foolin
who you choose?
let the pain consume me
let the axe come through
let my family see it through me
i’ve changed on you
don’t matter it’s whatever ima make it by myself
i let you be my everything you let me be your waste
rainy that’s my weather i wrote a letter to myself
don’t matter it’s whatever i still got that fucking ?

suisside- letter (prod. killsho)

if nothing really matters what’s the point of it all?
drown inside your sorrows better pray you don’t fall
i see a mission in my way there’s nothing that made me stop
i had a vision you were with me at the end of it all

when I’m dying will you cry or will you keep moving on?
and when I’m fine will you fly? will you try to hop on?
will you make your mind up by tonight? i cannot wait anymore
i found you hiding in your mattress with a little bit of hope

the only time i hate you is when i get in my feels
now you trynna break through all the wounds that 
i’ve healed
nothing lasts forever take your shot while you’re here
baby im an angel with my wings don’t you fear
i got your back at any time
i’ll fight your fears at your comply
im in your dreams while you’re in my mind
i’ll kiss on your head and say goodbye

why are you waiting on me?
why do I feel so lonely?
why do I need white on me?
why cant i have the pen just haunt me?

if nothing really matters what’s the point of it all?
drown inside your sorrows better pray you don’t fall
i see a mission in my way there’s nothing that made me stop
i had a vision you were with me at the end of it all

when I’m dying will you cry or will you keep moving on?
and when I’m fine will you fly? will you try to hop on?
will you make your mind up by tonight? i cannot wait anymore
i found you hiding in your mattress with a little bit of hope

the only time i hate you is when i get in my feels
now you trynna break through all the wounds that 
i’ve healed
nothing lasts forever take your shot while you’re here
baby im an angel with my wings don’t you fear

suisside- angel (prod. killsho)

Why you talking to me like you’ve seen me before?
Why the fuck you acting? I can see through it all
(I can fucking see it bitch)
Why you talking to me like we’ve been through it all?
Now you acting foolish you gonna trip for a hoe

I feel like a zombie bitch I trip when I walk
Vomit on the carpet from the night I was hung
All my friends keep saying that I’m dying 
Bitch I’ve been dead for months
I’m finna burn down the world
I’m gonna make it my own
They can get the fuck out my face
I cannot fuck up the game
I’m finna make it my way
I’ll get a bag and the safe
I got no dye in my head
I got the X in my vein
You gotta make me some space
You’ll find me deep in the trench
Oh

Why you talking to me like you’ve seen me before?
Why the fuck you acting? I can see through it all
(I can fucking see it bitch)
Why you talking to me like we’ve been through it all?
Now you acting foolish you gonna trip for a hoe

suisside- dead (prod. x10derrick)

i know it hasn’t been that long
but i cant let you go
i thought id let you know
I’ve been bothered everyday
you’re still inside my head, trynna not forget

i hope that you’ll be okay
i know I hurt your friends
im the one they hate
i act like nothings really changed
but when i see my bed I only see that day

xanax keep me strong
take one and I’m gone
try to play it off
stupid if i would’ve known
i know I fucked it up
i asked if I’m enough 
i don’t give a fuck
trynna get your love
if someone write a song
about how much they love
i don’t know if you’d call back thought I’d try my luck
i text you and you’re gone
try to thin it out 
if anything you’re gone
trynna find my gun

you’re nothing like the rest 
i know you need your space
i know you need your breath 
trynna get a text
i put you around my head
baby it’s okay
call me back someday
im the one you hate

suisside- the one you hate (prod. Slendy)

Sing it with you, follow along
Ima be with you til the end of the fall
Coming with you, take me along
You gonna be with me til the end of the fall
Cop me some shoes, buy you a boat
You gonna be with me if you like it or not
She killing the moon, thirsty for blood
I was getting high when you called me

That reminds me all I got 
When I drown in death, off a pill I’m not coming back
That reminds me I could die
Keep your name on my mind, for the kill I won’t let you die
Coming like you want me to stay 
I got blood in my brain, but you wanna be this way
Acting like you work for the feds, girl I meant what I said
You don’t have be this way

Sing it with you, follow along
Ima be with you til the end of the fall
Coming with you, take me along
You gonna be with me til the end of the fall
Cop me some shoes, buy you a boat
You gonna be with me if you like it or not
She killing the moon, thirsty for blood
I was getting high when you called me

That reminds me all I got 
When I drown in death, off a pill I’m not coming back
That reminds me I could die
Keep your name on my mind, for the kill I won’t let you die
Coming like you want me to stay 
I got blood in my brain, but you wanna be this way
Acting like you work for the feds, girl I meant what I said
You don’t have be this way

suisside- reminds me (prod. lilpipe)

suisside- centipede (prod. namahage)

Stop trynna be somebody you’ll never be
Some trynna seek, for the cold when I freeze
Girl look at me, tell me what do I mean?
Girl look at me, without that evil grin

Tell me for a moment that you didn’t have my back
Talk behind my back, now baby that’s a wrap
Tell about a moment that I didn’t love you back 
Girl you’re trippin bad, now girl you’re feeling sad

I don’t wanna fall in love
It’s too late to stop
Girl you know I want you back
But you don’t want any of that

Stop trynna be somebody you’ll never be
Some trynna seek, for the cold when I freeze
Girl look at me, tell me what do I mean?
Girl look at me, without that evil grin

Tell me for a moment that you didn’t have my back
Talk behind my back, now baby that’s a wrap
Tell about a moment that I didn’t love you back 
Girl you’re trippin bad, now girl you’re feeling sad

I don’t wanna fall in love
It’s too late to stop
Girl you know I want you back
But you don’t want any of

suisside- want you back (prod. boat)

Fuck you, fuck that

Kill me, please kill me
I’d rather die right now than just cry out loud
So kill me, please kill me
Send me to the clouds and this hell I found 
So kill me, please kill me
I’d rather die right now than just cry out loud
So kill me, please kill me
Send me to the clouds and this hell I found 
So kill me

Girl I gotta go I got somewhere to be
You can come along if you’re fucking for free
Bust down on the floor lemme see what you mean
Let me get some more when you’re done with the scene

I smoke dope just to get away
I do drugs to relive the pain
It really don’t work but it fuck with my head
It fuck with my head, baby I’ll be okay 

Kill me, please kill me
I’d rather die right now than just cry out loud
So kill me, please kill me
Send me to the clouds and this hell I found 
So kill me, please kill me
I’d rather die right now than just cry out loud
So kill me, please kill me
Send me to the clouds and this hell I found 
So kill me

suisside- kill me (prod. x10derrick)

(I hate you big chase)

Ekkstacy: 

(All these pills in my right hand)

All these pills in my right hand 
Ima take a shot with my night stand 
I ain’t got no friends I don’t like them 
Mama found my pills guess I’ll hide them


Suisside:
And ever since that you left 
I fell in love with the pain
She fell in love with my name
And now she riding the waves
And since the day we met
I knew this shit wasn’t meant
And now I’m cutting myself
Even though she ain’t care
I walk around I ain’t scared
I see a sign in the air
I used to love you I swear
But girls like you ain’t that rare
I see the shame in your stare
I know you still wanna care
I’m looking out for her breath
She never walk where I stand 
Yeah, she never walk where I stand
She never walk where I stand
Yeah, she never walk where I stand 


Ekkstacy:

Guess I’ve always felt dead
Cuts all on my wrists I ain’t felt that
Baby called my phone 10 times
Sui just did 10 lines
Why she always gotta cry?
Shawty asked me if I wanna die, yeah
We just wanna die, yeah


Suisside:
And ever since that you left 
I fell in love with the pain
She fell in love with my name
And now she riding the waves
And since the day we met
I knew this shit wasn’t meant
And now I’m cutting myself
Even though she ain’t care
I walk around I ain’t scared
I see a sign in the air
I used to love you I swear
But girls like you ain’t that rare
I see the shame in your stare
I know you still wanna care
I’m looking out for her breath
She never walk where I stand 
Yeah, she never walk where I stand
She never walk where I stand
Yeah, she never walk where I stand

suisside x ekkstacy- walk where i stand (prod. ihatebigchase)

suisside- tonight (prod. poni)

Not one more word girl you’re breaking down
I got so much hope you’ll see me faking smiles
Took a couple of times but I’m still in doubt
I don’t play no games, baby there’s no foul
I won’t take the blame for the things you did last time
Bitch pay no fine
I won’t take the shame for a bitch that won’t treat me right
Time to pour another pint 

I can tell you see me as your special
I can tell you see me as a treasure
I got a cup of ice I’m applying pressure 
Even though I love her I still hate her

I wanna be the one you try to love
I wanna be the voice when you’re alone 
I wanna be the place you call at home
I ain’t got a fucking choice ima make this work

I can tell you see me as your special
I can tell you see me as a treasure
I got a cup of ice I’m applying pressure 
Even though I love her I still hate her

I wanna be the one you try to love
I wanna be the voice when you’re alone 
I wanna be the place you call at home
I ain’t got a fucking choice ima make this work

Not one more word girl you’re breaking down
I got so much hope you’ll see me faking smiles
Took a couple of times but I’m still in doubt
I don’t play no games, baby there’s no foul
I won’t take the blame for the things you did last time
Bitch pay no fine
I won’t take the shame for a bitch that won’t treat me right
Time to pour another pint

suisside- faking smiles (prod. x10derrick)

I ain’t wanna see her but I sigh again
Same old smile put the weight on my chest
Girl I know it’s been a while but I know you the same
Even though it’s been a while I can tell you ain’t changed
Got the same old tricks up you’re sleeve
Got the same old tricks I’ve seen, yeah
Got some fake ass friends on you’re team
Got the same old stains on your sheets 

Show me, your darkest secrets
Show me, what I really made you for
Show me, your fantasies
Girl hold me, and make me feel alone
I can tell you’re down bad
I can tell you’re down bad
I can hear you screaming through my walls
If you ever find out
If you ever find out
Hope that you can see me as your own

I ain’t wanna see her but I sigh again
Same old smile put the weight on my chest
Girl I know it’s been a while but I know you the same
Even though it’s been a while I can tell you ain’t changed
Got the same old tricks up you’re sleeve
Got the same old tricks I’ve seen, yeah
Got some fake ass friends on you’re team
Got the same old stains on your sheets 

Show me, your darkest secrets
Show me, what I really made you for
Show me, your fantasies
Girl hold me, and make me feel alone
I can tell you’re down bad
I can tell you’re down bad
I can hear you screaming through my walls
If you ever find out
If you ever find out
Hope that you can see me as your own

suisside- screaming

Suisside:

You will never die for me
You won’t realize it’s me
You’ve been in my mind for weeks
I was on the way to leave
Running out of breath for me
Rope around my neck for me
You will never guess those things
I don’t even know who’s me
I don’t even know who’s me

I can’t even lie
I would anything to get you out my mind
I would do anything just to get some white
I would do anything just to see you shine
I could do anything I’m working I can never lie 
I could do anything I don’t gotta try
I could do anything if I got the time
Ima do everything ?


Pasteldrip:

Wasting all my time
Wasting all my time
I can be a fool I know it’s true (woah-oh-oh)
You’re running out of line (yeah)
Running out of line (yeah)
Baby I can do nothing for you (yeah-ah-ah)
Said she wanna die (yeah)
Said she wanna die (yeah)
Looked me in the eye told me she won’t ever cry (woah-oh-oh)
I can tell a lie (yeah)
I can tell a lie (yeah)
You ain’t nothing new don’t care about you (yeah-ah-ah)

Suisside:

You will never die for me
You won’t realize it’s me
You’ve been in my mind for weeks
I was on the way to leave
Running out of breath for me
Rope around my neck for me
You will never guess those things
I don’t even know who’s me
I don’t even know who’s me

suisside- anything w/ Pasteldrip (prod. x10derrick)

“yeah uh uh uh”

When I said I love you for the first time
I hadn’t really known that would be the last time
When I said I’d call you in my best times
I didn’t wanna see you in my worst times
When I said I’d hold you for the first time
I didn’t mean to drop you from my arms
When I said I trust you for the first time 
I want you to know that it came from the heart 

I don’t wanna be that far from you
I need your love and you need me too
If I’m gonna leave I’ll see you soon (what?)
I can’t go a day without seeing you
Girl I know it’s hard you but it’s hard for me, too
I’m kinda cool but I’m not that simple
I can be a pain yeah, baby I know
Take a sip of the mud and I’m gone

When I said I love you for the first time
I hadn’t really known that would be the last time
When I said I’d call you in my best times
I didn’t wanna see you in my worst times
When I said I’d hold you for the first time
I didn’t mean to drop you from my arms
When I said I trust you for the first time 
I want you to know that it came from the heart 

Girl I know it’s hard you but it’s hard for me, too
I’m kinda cool but I’m not that simple
I can be a pain yeah, baby I know
Take a sip of the mud and I’m gone
Yeah I’m gone

suisside - see you soon (prod. x10derrick)

Originally released April 17, 2020 6:55pm EST

suisside- touch the sky (ft. stroke 19) (prod. Vinnie Mon)

suisside- skeleton (prod. namahage)

suisside x pasteldrip- let em know (prod. killsho)

suisside- peak of the world (prod. crumb)

suisside- glorify (prod. manget$u)

suisside - trench coat (prod. manget$u)

suisside - middle of the night (prod.manget$u)

suisside x pasteldrip- sins and lies (prod.killsho)

suisside x pasteldrip - punxstar (prod. killsho)

pasteldrip x suisside- NoR CO. (prod. gr4ff)

suisside x pasteldrip- whatever (prod.majzkluani) [FULL VERSION]

palmsveneta x suisside- heart throb

suisside- still love you (prod. x10derrick)

palmsveneta x pasteldrip x suisside- limousine

pasteldrip x suisside x palmsveneta- sin city

ekkstacy x suisside- aerosol

Hoppin out a trance feel a lil dead
I know I need some help but I’ll be okay
I ain’t ever tell somebody how I really felt 
Keep it to myself, it ain’t good for my health
Shawty doesn’t listen to the shit that I say
She don’t care about nobody
She just care about herself
She told me that I’m selfish when I’m trynna help
I can’t take it no more
Feel like I’m burning in hell

Pain pills in the restroom
They gonna help me forget you
I don’t wanna forget you
I have a chance to move on to the next
Pain pills in the restroom
They gonna help me forget you
I don’t wanna forget you 
But I’d rather not let you down, yeah

Hoppin out a trance feel a lil dead
I know I need some help but I’ll be okay
Everybody else looked at me as I fell
And when my phone rings I don’t give a fuck who it is
Comfy on my own not in need of a bitch
Dirty Xanax on the floor took that hoe when I breeze
I know that ima die real quick
But when I’m riding with my brothers while they’re staying with me

Pain pills in the restroom
They gonna help me forget you
I don’t wanna forget you
I have a chance to move on to the next
Pain pills in the restroom
They gonna help me forget you
I don’t wanna forget you 
But I’d rather not let you down, yeah

suisside- lil dead (prod. pasteldrip)

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