I’m not tall, ugly as sin
I got diluted body and hands
A worn-out heart about to break
Pressure is what I can’t take
     Dumbo ears that cannot hear
     Socially impaired and I’m never aware
     Bloodless veins and arteries
     Still maintain my anonymity
I can’t handle it
I can’t handle it
I can’t handle it
I’m not stable
Excessive id, brings me down
Discourseful tongue makes no sound
Tousled hair that’s out of style
Bat vision, intestinal bile
     Attention span of a frog
     And I’m composed of electrons
     Face of frozen pizza, decaying cell
     Swear I wanna divorce myself, yeah
I can’t handle it
I can’t handle it
I can’t handle it
I’m not stable
Dysfunctional body parts
Pushover to the moles and warts
Scarred for death
There is no hope
     My socks are tired, holes in my feet
     As healthy as feces, mucus mountain peak
     Just barely used and microscopic
     Flannel collar hemorrhoids, ain’t that sick
I can’t handle it
I can’t handle it
I can’t handle it
I’m not stable


Shortcomings

Knew how easy it would be          to fall for you
Knew how happy I could be         holding you
      When I looked at you, you turned away
       Then I knew you wouldn’t stay    for long
Cause you’re
Too pretty to hold 
I tried to open up your heart
But you would not
Let me inside 
I wanted to see what it was like
But you would not
Let me be bold
You’re too pretty for me
Too pretty to hold
Thought I’d take a pointless chance        and fall for you
I know the rules I’ve danced this dance   a time or two
     When I kissed your lips, felt alive
     But the doubt I couldn’t hide     for long
Cause you’re
Too pretty to hold 
I tried to open up your heart
But you would not
Let me inside 
I wanted to see what it was like
But you would not
Let me be bold
You’re too pretty for me
Too pretty to hold
                             Every other guy saw what I saw
                             Intuition’s right after all
Now again I’m here I’m all alone I’ve always known
That’s how I belong
But I would like to find a light a love a laugh
But it’s much too late for that
Cause you’re
Too pretty to hold 
I tried to open up your heart
But you would not
Let me inside 
I wanted to see what it was like
But you would not
Let me be bold
You’re too pretty for me
Too pretty to hold
Too pretty for me
Too pretty to be
So fucking cold


Too Pretty

I will be saved
I’ve washed my sins away
Every now and then I pray
I will be saved
I got Aggression, Regression, Repression
I make something out of nothing
A quiz before the lesson
I can’t see myself in 20 years or two
I’m through
I am enslaved
I’ve washed my mind away
Do to me what you may
I am enslaved
I got Aggression, Regression, Repression
I make something out of nothing
A quiz before the lesson
I can’t see myself in 20 years or two
I’m through
Everyone’s changing
But I never move
I will be praised
I’ve washed my lies away
There’s peace in my grave
I will be saved


Eulogy

My head my head
These dreams are haunting me
My eyes my eyes
They can hardly see
This pain this pain
It won’t leave me be
My love my love
It’s time for you to leave
          Torn and twisted, limb to limb
          The onward outlook, looking grim
          Thoughts are empty, float around
          Always pushing, no gain of ground
Set your sights on me
But your sights I can’t see
And I don’t fall, don’t fall you see
In your gravity
Your heart your heart
Hidden behind your eye
Looking for looking for
Why you ran to hide
Stand alone stand alone
Waiting for the sky
To come and tell you to
Set your sights on me
But your sights I can’t see
And I don’t fall, don’t fall you see
In your gravity
My head my head
This thought is killing me
My lungs my lungs
It’s getting hard to breathe
This hurt this hurt
It’s causing misery
My hopes my hopes
It seems are leaving me
          Caught and tangled, feeding back
          Seeing nothing, fade to black
          Head is aching, hit the ground
          Don’t give in, don’t give a damn
Set your sights on me
But your sights I can’t see
And I don’t fall, don’t fall you see
In your gravity


Eye Dream

Nothing’s left to do
So I talk awhile with you
I stare into your eyes
As if I’m hypnotized
I’ll be your only one
And you could be my sun
Cause my entire world revolves around you
You mean the world to me
Without you what would I be
You mean the world to me
Without you what would I be
Nothing’s left to say
I just get in the way
But I’m still here with you
Cause I don’t know what to do
Will you be my only one
And can I be your sun
Can my entire world revolve around you
You mean the world to me
Without you what would I be
You mean the world to me
Without you what would I be
I want you to know
I can’t see what lies ahead
But for the time of now
You’re a constant in my head
Though everyday I change
Parts of me remain
That’s why I truly believe
You can forever count on me
Cause…You mean the world to me
Without you what would I be
You mean the world to me
Without you what would I be
Nothing’s left to do
So I talk awhile with you
I stare into your eyes
As if I’m hypnotized
I’ll be your only one
And you could be my sun
Cause my entire world revolves around you
You mean the world to me
Without you what would I be
You mean the world to me
Without you what would I be


Raw Vanilla

Wanna save a princess
Before my days are through
Wanna walk on water
Begin again anew
Wanna hold someone close
For all of them to see
Wanna propose a toast
To what I’ll never be
          Skies are blue and I am too
          I need to do what I need to do
I need some kind of anchor
I need some kind of anchor
Some kind of anchor
Wanna make up for time
Lost to wasting away
Wanna make-up my mind
Go home and run away
Wanna love a lover
For there are so many
Wanna have the others
All turn green with envy
          Skies are blue and I am too
          I need to do what I need to do
I need some kind of anchor
I need some kind of anchor
Some kind of anchor
Wanna give you my soul
To do with as you please
Wanna know what I know
Remember memories
Wanna die trying to live
Give the best that I can give
          Skies are blue and I am too
          Need a place to think this through
I need some kind of anchor
I need some kind of anchor
Some kind of anchor


Some Kind Of Anchor

The only complied "album" of Suk*kom, featuring the most played songs. Mono recording of everything, all on a Karaoke machine.

Chirogenetisis

Something strange is taking place
Inside of me, inside of you
I have never felt like this
What do I do
          I try to forget you
          It’s not that easy to do
          You ride my thoughts like the wind
          So what do I, what do I do
cause
It’s the way I feel
When I feel you near me
Your presence drives me outta my brain
The way I feel
When I feel you near me
You don’t even know my name
It’s the way I feel
Something strange is pulling us
Inside of me, inside of you
I feel your wants and needs
What do I do
          You try to forget me
          It don’t pass easily
          I ride your thoughts like the wind
          So what do I, what do I do
cause
It’s the way I feel
When I feel you near me
Your presence drives me outta my brain
The way I feel
When I feel you near me
I just hope you feel the same
It’s the way I feel
I never meant for this to happen
I never intended it this way
It stems from a higher power
Now it won’t go away
Now it won’t go away

I never meant for this to happen
I never intended it this way
It stems from a higher power
Now I can’t walk away
Now I can’t walk away
                                                            
                                                                                                                                                              ( 45cent bet page#2 )
cause
It’s the way I feel
When I feel you near me
Your presence drives me outta my brain
The way I feel
When I feel you near me
You don’t even know my name
cause
It’s the way I feel
When I feel you near me
Your presence drives me outta my brain
The way I feel
When I feel you near me
I just hope you feel the same
It’s the way I feel


45 Cent Bet  (acoustic)


I got a gun in my hand
I got a gun in my head
fuzz monkey, fuzz monkey 
You cut me down with your razor
Carve scapegoat in my skin
You think I care, you’re unaware
I’m dead as I’ve always been
You spend your time
With grey demise
Plotting plans
To control, to control, to control
You shoved me in your watery lies
I took the bullet with pain
The gun grew tired, you misfired
Tried to blow away everything
You spend your time
With grey demise
Plotting plans
To control, to control, to control
I got a gun in my heart
I got a gun in my head
I got my head in my hand
I got my hand in my head
I got a gun in my heart
I got my heart in my hand
To control, to control, to control
Ah… to control.
 






The only complied "album" of Suk*kom, featuring the most played songs. Mono recording of everything, all on a Karaoke machine.

Gravy Fuzz

I tried to live, I tried to die
I hate myself, hate myself

Like a fool I do, what I know is wrong
Like a dummy, I get strung along
     I’m tense, dense, not making any sense
I bow down, before the servant
This life of mine, I don’t deserve it
I hate my face, I hate my thoughts
I hate my inactive actions
I hate my inability to not love
I hate my late reactions
I hate me
Tragic pain, forces the weight down
I live my life, I live it underground
     I’m tense, dense, not making any sense
     Pitch black, in this heart attack with no way back
I hate my face, I hate my thoughts
I hate my inactive actions
I hate my inability to not love
I hate my late reactions
I hate me
I hate my choice, I hate my voice
I hate my stupid suppressions
I hate my hurt, I hate my words
I hate my endless rejections
I hate me 





The only complied "album" of Suk*kom, featuring the most played songs. Mono recording of everything, all on a Karaoke machine.

Self hate

Songs from the band SUK*KOM (Succumb) featuring Joey Smith on Guitar / Vocals, Michael Wade Johnson on Vocals, and Jeff Davis on Bass / Vocals. Circa 1996.