4/5 produced but the legendary cudimitsu 
With features from Grayoos, Oldman Freeman, and Lord Khalil

Track list
1.  Cracked Safe
2.  Ashed Batarang
3.  Silent Words (feat. Grayoos & Oldman Freeman)
4.  How it got to this  (feat. Lord Khalil)
5.  The Bright Side of Exile

The Bright Side of Exile

vulnerability connects us

and i know i cant be perfect but im still way too far from it
hate me, i deserve it
pain please, it's better than feeling nothing
ecstasy in my veins, i feel stunning
makes it that much worse when real life rush in

would you feel pride or shame over what i became, mama?
got u tatted on my arm, i see it every day, mama
i was 10 watching the family video, feeling pain, mama
i think i got your smile, it's the same, mama
i gotta fake like im okay, im not
look me in my eyes, tell me im alive
2016 i think i shouldve died
they say it's gon get better and then it don't
ha, starting to think that you're lying
my brain hate everything that's inside it
i'm tired of trying
this shit not a cry for help, i just like crying over 808s
they gon say "u can change your fate"; i think my string was cut
my heart is filled with hate, towards who i dont know what
i poker my face, afraid of being loved
cuz i dont like myself, so why the fuck would ya?
therapy was supposed to help, so far it's not doing nothing
i can't connect with y'all so i act like i'm above
my brain got wires crossed, it needs to be unplugged
"do you care about your job?" i sit there and i shrug
i aint having fun at all
i cant keep making shit up

and i know i cant be perfect but im still way too far from it
hate me, i deserve it
pain please, it's better than feeling nothing
ecstasy in my veins, i feel stunning
makes it that much worse when real life rush in

ecstasy in my veins, i feel stunning
makes it that much worse when real life rush in

poker face/i hate me 2 [prod. @_vvvinicio]

can’t lean on me
Im unstable
At war with myself in the trenches
There’s a knife on gun
Thinking bout taking the easy way out
But I gotta be brave
I lose my footing
Run into a graves

I crash out
I was born into a mad house
Now look at me
Whos mad now
You cant lean on me im unstable 
I cant break out
Im a shell of man with a fake smile
Ill die in hell if I fade now
God save couple souls for me
If I lose mine
Lost cause 
How I feel inside
I sell my thoughts
For some therapy
Hear these words and stare at me
I burn this bitch
While I stand in it

CANTLEANONMEIMUNSTABLE

can’t keep from crumbling
mind malfunctioning 
stumbling
i be breaking weed 
every time i feel this heap 
on my heart hurting
roll it up a hill then i smoke it 
mamma raised a pessimist
sisyphus
known to eat hearts 
me and you
we can’t be apart
ruined stone walls
you can see the claws 
on my hide 
i can’t be your knight 
dents in the armor 
you can see how far i’ve fallen 
walls can’t hide me now 
through your eyes i’m found 
still lost in the mound of dead bodies
we all got a gap to fill 
We all try to solicite solace 


can’t conjure amends
im not a god 
not certain what family is
pangea’s a stray in a hoard
Sole survivor
i tend to fall on my sword
then blame it on others
that’s why they all flutter away
sole survivor 
I made the band disband
im the first one Ishmael
im a burn one   dispel
i’m a firm one 

Unique isn’t a thing
If we all one of million
If we all try to be different
Then different is really not different
So what am i trying to be

unstable prod solsa

skin on skin, chest to chest
cant get much closer than this
gimme your warmth baby
keep me warm baby
all is fair in love and war baby, im yours baby
i dont think much has changed
my love language the same

fall, rise, fall; your lungs are running
oh my god, you're looking stunning
before i go, i'm leaving with something
i hope you know, i'd stay if i could
i aint got no choice but to leave, i got shit to do
just know when you not with me, im just missing you
you say you dont know how to feel, dont dismiss the truth
hugs are cool, but cant say i'd turn down a kiss or two
cant give up on this, i just cant, im unwilling to
plenty fish but i wont catch em if it isnt you
i wish i could see in your mind, is it me?
i love it when we

skin on skin, chest to chest
cant get much closer than this
gimme your warmth baby
keep me warm baby
all is fair in love and war baby, im yours baby
i dont think much has changed
my love language the same

when our fingers interlock
i love it
all the time, around the clock
i love it
feeling your breath when you talk
i love it
i love it
i love it

love language [prod dozefy]

Until You Don’t

I gotta empty feeling

Need a bitch put me under a spell
Can you save my soul from hell
If you cant can we still fuck I dont have long

I gotta gap inside my chest
Forever. I cant keep going like this 
oh well
Ima push till I’m god damn dead
Ima push till im dust in the wind
Cease to exist in the back of a Benz with pills in my hand
They think that the devil is keeping ahold of me
I know that im rotting inside. You see  
When im dead can you pray for me
Im a basket case with a few cracked eggs in the case
With the word cynic across my face
I cannot reload
all out of ammo
i think i got one more 
Back on the brick wall
Reach for the blade on my ankle
Stick where’s its fatal
Tell him to let go 

I can not reload

Im a cold soul in any weather
endless abyss
Can you tell me if I feel better?
There’s a lack of words in the dictionary
Always caught up in my solitude
Depictions of you always fucking vary
Stay sedated how ever I can
My minds a war zone
 hold my hand 
Im a coco melon ass nigga 
Wit a glock in the room
I can paint you a picture and make my tomb
With the same old gun
Imagine the tricks I can pull
If I run out of you

DETACHED prod octo

Lyrics/Composition: 
Dalton H. Holder, Seth A. McCullough

Production:
Mitchell Puett

Personnel:
Rhythm Guitar- Seth A. McCullough
Bass - Dalton H. Holder
Percussion - Seth A. McCullough, Mitchell Puett
Electric/Slide Guitar - Mitchell Puett
Keyboard - Mitchell Puett
Vocals - Seth McCullough, Mitchell Puett

ultrahatredlovebomb - ‘queen for a day’

Defibrillator

"is it a no or a yes? i need a response"
holding her close to my chest, she say my heartbeat speeding up

she like,
"boy what you scared of? boy what you scared of, huh?
would it be so terrible to let me in for once?
you gotta let me know, i can't keep going off inference...
chris, what's ‘potential’ if it isn't us?
i'd rather try and fail than not try, there's a difference"

baby don't get too close to me, i'm not the man that you think i am
don't wanna see you hurt, but somehow i do it again and again
it's not what you wanna hear, but i think we're better as friends
it'll hurt less if it ends, right?

she tells me,
"take a risk for one time in your life, boy.
i promise there's water there, just trust and leave the dive board.
okay, you lived and learned, what else is life for?
okay, we've all been burned and we survived it still...
when you're old and frail don't look back on life like 'i wish i manned up and didnt hide'"

sometimes i hate myself
im so stuck in my head
can't carry all of my regrets until im dead, but fuck it if i wont try
only way that i know to repent
am i ready for love? it depends
would you hate it if im closed off when i dont have a beat and a pen?
cant do this face to face
it's hard to face the facts
you don't wanna be with me...it's great until it ain't - because this phase can never last
honeymoons gon fade away
that quirk i have you love might turn to one you hate
and it may not be today, and it may not be next week! 
but i know the day might come that you hate to hear me speak
and my fingers on your skin dont make you feel a thing but yearning for the past and that version of me
but oh, we can't go back...now this is the status quo
we can make this memory last, cut short at 24
i need to let this go
it'll have to be a no

"is it a no or a yes? i need a response"
holding her close to my chest, she say my heartbeat speeding up

she like,
"boy what you scared of? boy what you scared of, huh?
would it be so terrible to let me in for once?
you gotta let me know, i can't keep going off inference...
chris, what's ‘potential’ if it isn't us?
i'd rather try and fail than not try, there's a difference"

Human

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