demo version !! this is an original by me, sorry it's kind of emo uhhhhhHHH

also this pic isnt mine

for me.

kiss you goodnight.

listen w headphones for that full "i dropped my phone in my bathtub" effect

torrential downpour. (interlude)

instrumental from youtube lmao

joakim karud - love mode

i don't wanna grow up.

instrumental from youtube:

けｍ SURF - 6am

red lipstick.

I KNOW HOW OVERUSED THIS SAMPLE IS BUT IT FITS MY AESTHETIC SO HHH

cred to piecesrestonthabed on youtube

daydream pin-up.

i miss us.


youtube instrumental:
orca vibes -- gypsy

goodbye.

camomile.

the old days.

the very last summer evening.

lyrics!
https://genius.com/Schwarzie-i-think-too-much-lyrics

i think too much. (prod. 8ROKEBOY)

cherry cola.

lyrics:

is breaking my heart just a fucking game to you
you love putting more notches on your belt 
i can barely even say it’s true
that the whole time you loved someone else

I don’t wanna give you my tears if that’s what you get off on
I don’t want to give you what you want
At this point I really think I need a prozac 
My mom called and she wants her Tupperware back

You said I’m perfect for somebody else
You said I am perfect for someone that’s just not you
I've been here before
I've dealt with manwhores

Was everything just an illusion?
Pretending you care
When people asked if you had a girlfriend
It's like I wasn't even there

i thought you were nice and that you would never do this
Now I can see past all your dumb excuses
You’re just like my other ex and now I see
You’re not ever gonna get mercy from me

You said I’m perfect for somebody else
You said I am perfect for someone that’s just not you
I've been here before
I've dealt with manwhores

You like to break a woman for your validation 
I think you quite frankly need realization
Being petty is kinda therapeutic
It's better than being stuck with someone that's stupid

I don’t wanna give you my tears if that’s what you get off on
I don’t want to give you what you want
At this point I really think I need a prozac 
My mom called and she wants her Tupperware back

I've learned more from not sitting in class and wondering where you're at
My best friend is gonna kick your ass

If you didn't want a serious relationship, why didn't you end it?
Why didn't you end it?
Why didn't you end it sooner?

you said you loved my music.

beat by ocean beats -- non profit

leaving me behind 

you’re all so tight-knit it’s almost crochet
i say something but it doesn’t matter anyways
you’ve got your clique so close to your grip
ive never found a group where i completely fit

how hard would it hurt if it were to fall apart
would you look me in the eye
say you’re sorry for leaving me
leaving me behind

you’ve got a boyfriend who cares about you
what a beautiful, mystical, concept
you shut your best friend off
so you could go and call him

i’ve always been in your corner
who’s gonna be there when he leaves you to dry
who’s gonna pick up the pieces
who’s gonna pick you up at midnight

how hard would it hurt if it were to fall apart
would you look me in the eye
say you’re sorry for leaving me
leaving me behind

leaving me behind.

beat by @freshmanprodigy

OUT NOW ON SPOTIFY AND APPLE MUSIC!
https://open.spotify.com/album/2osmtVLmcZej7YpUEawyHk?si=oDCs6g0ITXC6LN3scqxCQQ

i explain the lyrics here!
https://genius.com/Schwarzie-dead-and-cold-lyrics

don’t get too comfortable around me
give off an air of infidelity
make me fall and then watch me as you leave
i’m not as important as i ought to seem

tell me lies, boy, tell me lies
tell me I’m yours, i’m yours for the night
don’t be kind, please, don’t be too kind
break my mind, break my fucking mind

i wish i was dead and cold
i wish i was dead and cold, i wish i was dead
i wish i was dead and cold I wish i was dead
i wish i was

all men ever did to me was either get too close or not close at all
i either fall too hard or fall away so quickly like my cortisol
catching feelings for you was the worst thing i ever did
more than i ever strived to be thin

i wish i was dead and cold
i wish i was dead and cold, i wish i was dead
i wish i was dead and cold I wish i was dead
i wish i was dead

i wish i was dead
i wish i was dead,
yeah

dead and cold. (prod. freshmanprodigy)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DC9deaLHRKk&list=PLHfbj5f32lN2Dc2MpZu9YlPQOhQMC60RA&t=0s&index=25

i explain the lyrics here!
https://genius.com/Schwarzie-crying-in-the-bathroom-at-a-party-lyrics

lyrics:

my friends are talking about politics in the other room
i feel the acid in my stomach start to come through
i told myself id never feel this way again
i’m silencing the tears so i don’t scare my friends 

i hear a girl laughing through the dry wall
i wonder what life would be like if I wasn’t there at all
the bile stains the lipstick that i painted on
tightened lips that feel like they eroded off

i came here to have a good time
and i just feel attacked
like my brain is trying hard to be
something that it lacks

she offers me a chocolate covered fruit
i told her eating that would be something that i’d never do
she asks me why and i scratch the back of my neck
the caffeine it contains would be my death 

my future seems so bleak as i’m crying in the shower
i lie in bed and think for another hour
my dad thinks that i don’t get exhausted
blames me for all the problems i cause him

i came here to have a good time
and i just feel so attacked

crying in the bathroom at a party.

OUT NOW ON SPOTIFY AND APPLE MUSIC!
https://open.spotify.com/track/6YB5ewuLgHXGIEU0WEBQo5?si=1K8hvRlzSQyPyRdHl1bd2A

clinging to my body heat in a rather warm room
my skin is a casket and my shoes are a tomb
my hair is getting thinner and sadly so am i 
i tell my friends that i’m sorry that i want to die

there’s a ghost in the upstairs bedroom and she looks like me
i rebuild bone by bone, barren wasteland of teeth
i don’t recognize these cold dead eyes
my lips still taste of war from this battleground inside

i say i’m sick, you say i’m beautiful
i say i’m starving, you think that i am full
ask you for help and you say i don’t need it
you ask me for tactics, rehearse and repeat it,
oh “i just work out a lot”
things are not what they seem
i say you don’t need this kind of lifestyle
why can’t I say the same thing to me

i rip things apart just to prove that they can break
i love to tear apart for its own sake
frankly, my dear, you’re not safe in my hands
why can’t you just understand 

i say i’m sick, you say i’m beautiful
i say i’m starving, you think that i am full
ask you for help and you say i don’t need it
you ask me for tactics, rehearse and repeat it,

oh “i just work out a lot”
things are not what they seem
i say you don’t need this kind of lifestyle
why can’t I say the same thing to me

i told you i was sick. (prod. freshmanprodigy)

OUT ON SPOTIFY AND APPLE MUSIC !!

everyone is temporary
(but i was hoping you weren't)

producer: @joseybeats

lyrics:
don't be mad, you did me wrong and i wrote songs about it
you said that i was a self-centered bitch
but look who's talking, and speaking of which
you said that i never mattered at all
icarus flew too close to the sun

you said i can't keep a man
like that's your problem
sorry i don't shove a man in my life
for some solace

so much for my platonic soulmate
you said that night when we were up late
you said that you got better friends now and i know that's a lie
you said that i, you said that i would cry

everyone i care about fades away
everyone i care about betrays me
i know the only person i can blame is myself
i just don't know why i feel so empty

you said i can't keep a man
like that's your problem
i don't know why i even care anymore

so much for my platonic soulmate
you said that night when we were up late
you said that you got better friends now and i know that's a lie
you said that i, you said that i would cry
x2

how could you hurt the one who loved you the most
how could you treat me like some kind of ghost
i was there for you when you scraped your knees
and this is how you betray me?

everyone is temporary. (prod. joseybeats)

OUT ON SPOTIFY AND APPLE MUSIC AYE

interpretation of the lyrics here:
https://genius.com/Schwarzie-i-love-myself-lyrics

I said to my body, “I want to be friends”
She smiled and said, “I’ve been waiting for this”
Welcomes me home in her tender embrace
A love that feels more like fresh satin and lace

I said to my heart, “you won’t hurt anymore,”
“And we’re leaving attachment to stay at the door”
That love and attention are in itself different
And I will do all that I can to believe it

I love me more than you
And that’s what I’m supposed to do
Cause when the lights fade and everybody leaves
The only person that I have is me

I was once the girl who listened to her thoughts
Crying over boys who I thought were the one
Now I gotta stop thinking about you
Its okay, I know what I gotta do

I’m stronger than I think
I've been thru the ringer
I'm a beautiful girl and a wonderful singer
The universe is talking to me
And she's controlling everything I think I see, oh

It's beautiful
Life is beautiful

I love me more than you
And that’s what I’m supposed to do
Cause when the lights fade and everybody leaves
The only person that I have is me

i love myself. (prod. yusei)

spicy!



lyrics:

soft as velvet, saline tongue
voice like a whisper in the dark
boy i got you on your knees
trace my steps back to the sea

your voice trembles, lick your lips
you’ve waited all night long for this
you see me in your dreams
siren song, voice like cream

Siren song, voice like cream
Siren song, voice like cream

Love is dangerous, I know it well
am I in heaven or another form of hell
purgatory, bruised knuckles like my knees
You know I much rather like to tease

your voice trembles, lick your lips
you’ve waited all night long for this
you see me in your dreams
siren song, voice like cream

siren song. (prod. decz)

i got bored so i did harmonies lmao here u go

a fever dream.

a really bad cover of slow dancing in the dark

meaning of the lyrics here:
https://genius.com/Schwarzie-regardless-prod-decz-lyrics

I don’t wanna hold you down so I keep quiet
i seem to say more about my life in silence
I don’t know how to use my voice
So I guess I don’t really have a choice

I’ve avoided all my mirrors
I’ve been eating all my feelings
I’ve been taking lots of NyQuil just so I can touch the ceiling
I’ve been, writing shit poetry
And coffee meal replacements
If it’s seasonal depression how can I just feel complacent, oh

I’m hard to love, I guess
I’m a bit of a mess
But you love me regardless
But you love me regardless

I relapsed on the kitchen floor
While my parents bought groceries
I’m sorry I never said a word
I just thought that you would leave, oh

This is what art is, putting out my pain
To a sea of strangers who don’t even know my name
Don’t criticize the type of music, I try to contain
All these thoughts inside me, it’s clogging up my brain

I’m hard to love, I guess
I’m a bit of a mess
But you love me regardless

regardless. (prod. deczbeats)

mixed by my friend gantt and produced by deczbeats :) very much love to both!

take a dip in a pool by the italian countryside to this song

rolling up my sleeves, cherries on a vine
strawberries and cream, summer wine
take a red-eye to venice, spend the night
cruise to verona, candlelight

if you can catch me
grab my hand
my name is quicksand
broke your heart on the flight home
but idon’t wanna be alone no more

red lips and velvet, rum raisin
my name on your tongue is like an incantation
end of the summer, end of an era
smoking cigarettes with our hair up

pearly teeth gets the best of me
roll up your sleeves and devour me
put your hands behind my back
let’s see how off track we can get

if you can catch me
grab my hand
my name is quicksand
broke your heart on the flight home but
i don’t wanna be alone no more

QUICKSAND (prod. decz)

a reupload from last year bc why not


merry holidays everyone!

a merry lil christmas

kinda going thru it again. this is a botched attempt of an update i'm sorry

i want to be better again

nicki atsume

i make some music sometimes

{ new video out! link in bio!! }

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schwarzie.#3549

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