there were a thousand memories I had taken for granted - mostly because I assumed there would be a thousand more. Ruby, I'm so lucky to love you. 

ruby

music mock practical (covers)

first time using garage band and my mic and synth n all
v happy considering
i wanna rebleach my hair

paul by big thief (cover 2.0)

june/21

i know i'm a feminist 
but i wanna be a housewife
keep the jars saying esso-so-so-so
and clean the bathroom tiles
they’ll be so pretty 
in ivory and pear green
it’ll be the nicest house
you've never ever seen

i'd have cooked dinner
when you get home from work at five
i fancy myself a chef
so you bought me fancy knives
i made your favourite for dessert
ice cream and apple pie
we’ll lie on the sofa and watch a movie
we’ve seen a thousand times

and on the weekends 
we’ll have a barbecue in the sun
we know our neighbours well
their kids seem to have fun
we don’t have kids ourselves
i didn’t want them and neither did you
that’s okay we're just content
being just us two

i know i'm a feminist 
but i wanna be a housewife
keep the jars saying esso-so-so-so
and clean the bathroom tiles
they’ll be so pretty 
in ivory and pear green
it’ll be the nicest house
you've never ever seen

i know that i'm a feminist (but i'd like to be a housewife) (original)

oom sha lala (cover)

walk on the wild side (cover)

first day of my life (cover)

august 21

im so scared of september
because everyone has their lives figured out
i am always meeting people
with aries venus in their chart
i keep thinking this one will be different
and at the start they are and they leave and then come back
and its always so fulfilling
but im starting to lose track

tomorrow i will sleep
and go to the shop for instant mashed potatoes
just to give myself something to do 
tomorrow in a week 
itll be five days since i last cared

i hope i bump into you in town
i have 35 euro i owe you that id like to give back
think of it as a peace offering
we can buy a football for no mans land

and i find myself forgetting words i used to know
because now that im pretty i dont need to be smart
im so sick and tired
of all this goddamn meaning behind art

tomorrow i will sleep
and go to the shop for instant mashed potatoes
just to give myself something to do 
tomorrow in a week 
itll be five days since i last cared

instant mashed potatoes

i have so much respect for dodie for getting this in one take, it took me like 17. anyway
Woopdedoop
first cover
@ conláed i hope youre happy this took 5 million years and my eyes hurt and my fingers hurt and everything hurts

sick of losing soulmates - dodie (cover)

idrk

here's our original song, coloured
sorry it's a bit quiet!

-lyrics-
yellow nights with dull lights
black clouds on purple skies
blue lips and bluer eyes
bittersweet lies and unearthly sights

you've got, you've got flowers in your pocket to brighten your day but
but the wilting of the petals won't help show you the way (x2)

days from a quarter to nine
your hands and lips and breath on mine
emotionless feelings and feeling so fine
moods hung from ceilings and standing in line

you've got, you've got flowers in your pocket to brighten your day but
but the wilting of the petals won't help show you the way (x2)

so let me stay (x8)

coloured

shiver - lucy rose (cover)

so this is a super impromptu cover of one o my fave songs.. please ignore the mistakes i make thanks xox

private presley - peach pit (cover)

forget-me-not

if you happen to hear this i’m sorry
dec/18

maybe i’m in love with you
cuz it hurts to see you with her
baby i don’t know what to do
cuz i already got myself a lover

nothings platonic
isn’t that what they all say
touches harmonic
you know it’s not the right way

lately i’ve been feeling blue
wondering if the inevitable would be
but it doesn’t seem to be happening soon
guess we’ll just have to wait and see

and i don’t want to hear 
what you have to say
cuz i’m already broken enough
it’s harder at night than during the day
but don’t you know that that’s love
don’t you know that that’s love 

i don’t need you anymore
i don’t want you anymore
i cant see you anymore
not like this
did you know she’s in love with her
does she know all the hurt
do you still think she’s perfect
when she cries

nothings platonic
isn’t that what they all say
touches harmonic
you know it’s not the right way

friends (original)

july/20

it all changes so fast
i don’t know what i have
but i hope it isn’t normal to feel like this
do i even feel like this
do i feel this way or am i telling myself i do
do i just want attention or do i just want you
i’m just tired
i don’t like waiting out the days
i wish i wasn’t such a burden
i wish i had my ways 
of working things without temporarily destroying myself
for the quick euphoria before i’m brought down to earth
theres puke on my wall
and there’s molly in my room
i would have had it all by now if i really felt doom
i’m definitely just faking i want them to like me
my face doesn’t hurt enough 
i woke up and everything had turned to grey so i took a line of coke to try and make it go away
you always forget how bad it can get
i miss myself when i was never there
i wanna paint my walls with blood
i wanna cut off my hair
i wanna smash bottles on my head
i wish that i could suck it up and let myself be dead it’s just tiring being tired but not able to sleep if i need to count something i can count the lines on me
i wish i understood you
i wish i understood you
i wish i understood you
i wish i understood you
i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m trying my best
which is shit and not enough
and worse than the rest
please don’t stick around
and put my feelings on the line
i’ll just try and hurt you and say i hated you the whole time
i know i’m a bad person 
i don’t need to be told
im just terrified
of having to be old

attention-seeking (original)

what's good by fenne lily (cover)

aug/18

i’ll write you letters of ebony
on pages bore of pure ivory
put them, folded in balloons
let them float till they sink in the gloom

i’ll write you letters while i’m still sweet
for you to read when you’re sweeter
tell you what it’s like to be older

read them when it’s late and you’re tired of the world
so you know what it was like to be me
it’s my blood your veins cover
so you’ll feel it one way or another

i’ll write you letters to keep in a box
to remember me by forever
see how the handwriting changes
as the day drags on to never

i’ll write you letters while i’m still young
for you to read when you’re younger
so strange that you’ll soon be older

read them when it’s late and you’re tired of the world
so you know what it was like to be me
it’s my blood your veins cover
so you’ll feel it one way or another

read them when it’s late and you’re tired of the world
so you know what it was like to be me
it’s my blood your veins cover
so you’ll feel it one way or another
so you’ll feel it one way or another

letters (original)

july/19

they don’t realise they’re lucky to know you
i’m sorry i never told you
but my hands shake when i’m within it
i know i said i’d quit it
but when you leave in a rush and a rage
it seems to cauterise the cuts

but his lips curl in the corners just like mine
you say you’ll never be fine
a song without pronouns is a person without love
i’m sorry i haven’t felt any of the above
but it’s safer to be numb than break yourself down
i’m living on my own way up in the clouds

they don’t realise they’re so lucky to have you
nobody deserves to be above you
i don’t want to take that away from them
there’s nothing i’d not do
i’ll write in my garden, neat on my phone
it’s years since i’ve been this alone

you write to get over it 
i write to feel better
about stormy beaches and terrible weather
and whether or not things will ever be the same as they were(2)

you say you’ll never be over this silly little thing that we grew
don’t overthink it, that’s exactly what i’d do
i need you near me, a different kind of love
he never needed any of the above
but it’s safer to be numb than break yourself down
i’m living on my own way up in the clouds

in the clouds (original)

funeral by phoebe bridgers (cover)

Just kiss me to kill the time
till he comes back in from the bathroom
and i think that i’m losing my mind
cuz i think that I’m falling for you  

And I know now that that was a lie
But drugs make you do funny things
It doesn’t matter anyway
It doesn’t matter what I think

I am a snail
I am slow, I am slow 
Look at my tail and watch me go, watch me go

He told me that he wanted to off himself
And he hasn’t responded in two days
I hope that he is happy now
Whatever be the place

I am a snail
I am slow, I am slow 
Look at my trail and watch me go, watch me go
I am a snail
I am slow, I am slow
I am slow, I am slow, I am slow

ruby

sunlight-headed