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i dont wanna die but Imma say goodbye
im just tryna forget im fucking sick of these bad dreams
ya its so hard to cry so i wont even try
ill jus keep it inside and hope some day it will just leave
i always say im fine but I dont wanna lie
ya i been wasting my time and I dont think you can help me
im empty regretting
losing track of the days and the nights as they pass me by
i dont wanna die but tonight i might
lying all alone In the candlelight
searching for a friend but theyre hard to find
ya im barely breathing but ill be alright
tryna find my way but i feel so lost
I still cant seem to find a reason that i should even carry on
maybe im just better off alone yeah maybe im just better on my own

pass me by (prod.5head)

By @carlby
Featuring @kanashisadface
Produced by @sorrow_bringer
Engineering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
I can do this on my own
I don't need your influence
Got me feeling so low
Damn you really put me through it
I'm off the meds now
But I'm on the mend now
Figuring myself out
I dont fuck with self doubt

I'm on my way up
Standing on my own feet
I don't need no crutch to lean on
I should've known better than to fold under pressure
Knowing full well that I can't rely on these drugs forever

But I just wanna feel better
I just wanna feel something other than this emptiness

(Kanashi)
I just wanna feel a little bit better
Take another hit
My eyes go a little bit redder
I'm so sick of all the lies they feed me
Emptiness is not a substitute for how I'm feeling

They shove these pills right down my throat
Will they ever work
Nobody fucking knows
And I swear they just want to control me
This little tiny bottle got me feeling like a zombie

Carlby - Crutch w/ Kanashi (Prod. sorrow bringer)

El Frio de Diciembre

La Ceniza del Error

[Verse]
Oh my God grant the king your wisdom
Let him see the world through your prism
The king’s son holding justice tight
Guiding the people through the night

[Prechorus]
Mountains whisper peace so sweet
Hills hum justice with every beat

[Chorus]
Grant the king your wisdom now
Show him where and teach him how
Justice flows and hearts align
Oh my God your light will shine

[Verse 2]
He will guard the poor with steady hands
Lift the children in every land
Equity growing like fields of gold
A story of hope that never gets old

[Bridge]
Righteousness blooms like flowers in spring
Prosperity dances while angels sing
From dawn to dusk and month’s last day
Your light will guide the king’s way

[Chorus]
Grant the king your wisdom now
Show him where and teach him how
Justice flows and hearts align
Oh my God your light will shine

Grant The King

Days like this just drag on
when will it just end?
that feeling of despair
im starting not to care
cause im lost and exhausted and useless
stupid and foolish to think i could do this
you cant trust me oh no no no
cause ive seen this shit before or or yeah
this ship will sink and go oh oh oh
all the way down to the ocean floor
all the way down to the ocean floor like
i cannot breathe or see no more like
oh what a horror im sinking more
darkest depths of the wrong fucking course
you cant trust me oh no no no
cause ive seen this shit before or or yeah
this ship will sink and go oh oh oh
all the way down to the ocean floor
and you say that you can barely breathe
just get up now just get up now
get up now just get up now and hold on
im falling out of reach
just get up now and face that road ahead
cause your whole lifes been so upset and
get up face that road ahead
cause your whole lifes been so upset
and im so sick in the head right now
please just help me ive started drowning
all the way down to the ocean floor like
i cannot breathe of see no more like
oh what a horror im sinking more
darkest depths of the wrong fucking course
you cant trust me oh no no no
cause ive seen this shit before or or yeah
this ship will sink and go oh oh oh
all the way down to the ocean floor
ooooooooo oooooooooo aye yuh oooooooooooo ooooooo
days like this just drag on when will it just end
days like this just drag on when will it just ennddd

ocean floor ~ [p. by ivy leauger]

Thanks to Skele & Cxld Blxxd for helping me out, Links Below!

Skele:
https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt
https://twitter.com/lilskele
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCJJSOhs3_5gxJVtdwmjwPIg
https://www.instagram.com/ripskele/?hl=en
https://open.spotify.com/artist/423Khduf8laJb7K4Otg6M2?si=o6Ug-jCoQgKnV21R9dWH7w

Cxld Blxxd:
https://soundcloud.com/cxldblxxd
https://traktrain.com/cxld_blxxd#501028
https://twitter.com/CXLD_BLXXD
https://www.instagram.com/prod.cxldblxxd/

Lyrics:
Shooting stars in the sky,
Time to take flight,
Feels like yesterday,
That i saw you in the moonlight,
Glad that i'm happy now,
Cause without you id be dead by now,

Rotting in the grave,
Don't know what to say,
I wouldn't be here if i wasn't saved,

Sometimes we lose connection,
That's fine,
We just reset our problems,
Like our WiFi,

Everything's turned around,
Cause you helped me out,
How do i thank you,
For putting me on the right route,

Need to hold you tight,
Need you in my life,
Need you by my side,
Need you to say everything's alright,

Shooting stars in the sky,
Time to take flight,
Feels like yesterday,
That i saw you in the moonlight,
Glad that i'm happy now,
Cause without you id be dead by now, (X2)

Skele:
I'm glad that i'm happy now,
Cause without you id be dead by now,
Voices in my head screaming words so loud,
Trapped in my mind i cannot get out,
When I saw you in the moonlight,
I swear to god I fell in love that night,

I never meant to make you cry,
I just wanted you forever to be mine,

I swear to god I fell in love that night,
I never meant to make you cry,
I just wanted you forever to be mine,

Moonlight (Feat. Skele) (Prod. Cxld Blxxd)

take care of yourselves

You leave marks on your porcelain skin 
Down a few bottles numbing the state you’re in
You say is this how its always been? 
Replying back “you cannot let your mind win” 

I gotta say 
Its emotionally exhausting 
day in day out
I’m canvasing the green 
Show me the blue dream 
 cant get it out my head
I’d be better off dead 

Show me what you mean
Get me out this dream 
I'm constantly crying
Over your faults stop lying

I won’t say I miss you
Cause we're always fighting
My heart beats out my chest 
It skips fast like lightning 

And I 
Wouldn’t have it any other way

Since we lost meaning
I’ve been oversleeping
Lost track of my dreams since they turned to nightmares 

You were the best the world has known
The lights of are on but no one's home 
I feel it in my skin and bones
In my skin and bones

Just know I meant it 
the moment I said it
Tormenting my head
I should be in your bed 

I thought I would love this life
Different city every night
I miss you by my side 
cause love like this is hard to find

spotify

porcelain [prod. irby & brody]

Track 5. off of my upcoming EP next month! <3
prod. wetgropes <3 
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/27n5qcIeO1lDFOB8zWrvns?si=lGnM_fGBRv6rDOIbwMGE0Q
AMV - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J8838Bj7Ql0
Lyrics:

i dont really fuck wit many ppl
uncertainty is a burden
layed upon me
layed upon me... 
and, this snow 
it wisps across my face
i barely hear you say 
everything will be okay 

everything will be okay...
oh everything will be okay..

but im just burden
to everyone i know
im holding onto ledges
trying so hard 
not to let them go
i dont wanna let them go
but im trying so hard 
not to let you know 
i been feelin heavy in the snow
feelin, really really cold...

ive been so cold...
trying really hard not to let you go
ive been...so cold 
trying really hard...not to let you go...

burden (so cold)

runnin' mad (feat. skylarallen)

PROD @trechorboy

Lyrics:
I dont wanna listen to you lie me
Everything lately gives anxiety
Is it just that no one fucking likes me
Dont wanna fuck things up so ill sit quietly 

Slide it
Slide it
And load the clip bitch
Red eyes
And a knife pressed against your lips

Homicide bitch
Smell the blood in the air like a faint mist
Everytime im with you make my mind trip

I dont feel shit
Way i like it
But i hate how
Im so distant


Im just a loser doing nothing all day
And im starting to think that nothings ever going change

I focus in and think about the pain
Its the only thing that ill ever embrace 

I dont wanna listen to you lie me
Everything lately gives anxiety
Is it just that no one fucking likes me
Dont wanna fuck things up so ill sit quietly

ocean floor ~ [p. by ivy leauger]

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