Crazy (feat. Erica Daniels)

The Monster in My Mind
Alli Durrant & Rita Glynn & Susie Maddocks 

Only 8 years old 
Trying to fit inside a mold
Of what somebody else
Told me I should be 

By time I was 16 
Already given up on dreams
Cause I’d rather just be nothing
Than risk failing 

Cause the monster in my mind
Lives in the closets deep inside 
I can’t find the light
And I just wanna make her leave
Make her leave 

The girl at 22 
Was someone that I hardly knew
Disguised by lies 
I tried so hard to run from

The more I pushed away
The more my monster came to play
She grew stronger
Oh, the longer that I ran

Cause the monster in my mind
Lives in the closets deep inside 
I can’t find the light
And I just wanna make her leave

The monster in my mind

Can’t ever keep my demons out of sight
(Doesn’t matter how I push away, push away)
Can’t ever trust it when they say they know me
(Is it fiction?)
I always find a way to find a light
(Is it real?)
I always find a way to breathe in slowly

Can’t ever keep my demons out of sight
(Doesn’t matter how I push away, push away)
Can’t ever trust it when they say they know me
(Is it fiction?)
I always find a way to find a light
(Is it real?)
I always find a way to breathe in slowly
(I always find a way to breathe in slowly)

Cause the monster in my mind
Lives in the closets deep inside 
I can’t find the light
And I just wanna make her leave

The monster in my mind
I can’t find the light
And I just wanna make her leave

The Monster In My Mind (feat. Rita Glynn and Susie Maddocks)

she needs somebody

chorus
oh she needs somebody
this mountain is high
she’s gonna cry

oh she needs somebody
to try on this skin
she never wins

verse 
nobody told her 
when she touched the sky
the whole thing can start to feel like a lie

chorus
oh she needs somebody
this mountain is high
she’s gonna cry

oh she needs somebody
to try on this skin
she never wins

verse 
nobody sees her
wondering why
she’s wandering in a world she can’t find

chorus
oh she needs somebody
this mountain is high
she’s gonna cry

oh she needs somebody
to try on this skin
she never wins

instrumental 

bridge/rap
when it all comes down to it
well there is no crown for it
she will be around to let you in
when it all comes down to it
when it all comes down to it
she is wondering how to live 
who will be around so that she is found 
when the clouds come rolling in

chorus/rap
oh she needs somebody
this mountain is high
she’s gonna cry
oh she needs somebody
to try on this skin
she never wins

choir ad-lib
when no one’s around
(oh- she needs somebody)
is she falling down
(she needs somebody)
when no one’s around 
around
so close but so far away
what if she needs you to stay 

outro
so close but so far away
what if she needs you to stay 
so close but so far away
some things are better that way

she needs somebody

Where I Am

Didn’t think that I could take another thing
Barely holding on I’m hoping you will bring

An answered prayer
Crying meet me where I am
Again

The longer that I live
I see the suffering
But in the between I feel you comforting

And I say a prayer 
Crying please meet me where I am
Again 

‘Cause I’m falling
I don’t have it in me
And I’m calling
God I need you near me

You’ve brought me through the storm before
I know you care
But every breaking wave is more
Than I can bear

So I say another prayer
Needing you to be where I am
Again

And I’m falling
I don’t have it in me
And I’m calling
God, I need you near me
Yes I’m falling 
I don’t have it in me
Oh I’m calling
God, I need you near me

Here I go into another unknown 
What’s it gonna take for me to let go
This time 
Here I go into a new horizon 
You won’t let go of me

So I say a prayer
And you meet me right where I am
Again

And I’m falling
I don’t have it in me
And I’m calling
God, I need you near me
Yes I’m falling 
I don’t have it in me
Oh I’m calling
God, I need you near me

Didn’t think that I could take another thing
But in the between I feel you comforting

Where I Am

Fireworks going off outside
Some of us just trying to get by
These beads of sweat aren’t from exercise
But the fear of not wanting to close my eyes

In summertime x2

Not long ago things were the same
I could still call you up and hear you say my name
Now that everything’s gone and changed
Not tryin’ to win just survivin’ this life of a game

In summertime x2

Oohs (fade out)

Bummer Summertime (Demo)

So many nights just like this one
Watch the sunset on the water
Take another sip and I can feel the burn
We never learn
Feelings hurt and running hotter
Had so many nights just like this one
Just like this one

So many nights just like this one
Glassy eyes from too much crying
Take another sip to wash away the pain
It’s all the same
Promise and I know you’re lying 
Had so many nights just like this one
Just like this one

Summer days are long
But the nights alone are longer
Summer days are long
But the nights alone are longer

Summer days are long
But the nights alone are longer
We never learn

So Many Nights - demo

Where I wanna be

It’s a mother daughter thing
We can laugh or we can sing
You are where I wanna be

You can say just what you think
I just wanna take it in
You are where I wanna be

Where I wanna be
Where I wanna be 

No one knows me like you do
I don’t have to try with you
You are where I wanna be

Bring our sunshine or the blues
Just as long as I’m with you
You are where I wanna be

Where I wanna be
Where I wanna be 
Where I wanna be
Where I wanna be

Every time I see you
I wanna slow it down
Soak it up and never let it go
Every second with you
I see into your world
Share another story I don’t know 

Who knows what tomorrow brings
find another song to sing
You are where I wanna be 
Good to know through everything 
It’s a mother daughter thing 
You are where I wanna be

Where I wanna be
Where I wanna be
Where I wanna be
Where I wanna be

Where I Wanna Be

The Monster in My Mind - Rita Glynn, Alli Durrant, Susie Maddocks

find the someone 
who untangles 
who unravels you

find the someone
kind and gentle 
the kind of friend that’s you

tell me tell me
who will give you
all the love you need?
tell me tell me
when you find him
tell me tell me please.

the world is filled with
people broken 
who sleep unspoken blues 

find the someone
brave in motion 
who wakes up all of you 

tell me tell me
who will give you
all the love you need?
tell me tell me
when you find him
tell me tell me please.

these troubled waters aren’t your own 
you never have to walk alone
dream the dreams and keep on going
please believe you’re worth it knowing
you’re not alone

find the someone 
who untangles 
who unravels you

find the someone
kind and gentle 
the kind of friend that’s you.

tell me tell me
who will give you
all the love you need?
tell me tell me
when you find him
tell me tell me please.

Tell Me Tell Me

HeaveN Beatbox - Doppler

A song for you. And by "you" I mean the entire world. Copyright 2012 

For You feat. Katy Schutt & Rita Glynn
Beat Produced by Moscow Mark
Produced by Zubris
Co Produced by Drea Young & Rita Glynn
Engineered, Mixed and Mastered by Drea Young
Recorded at Nice Rack Studio & Junction Music

For You (fɔɚ ju:)

* (Katy Schutt & Rita Glynn) This is our world and it's breaking at the seams. They can do what they want but they're not taking it from me. It's gonna be a long road coming but a step in the right direction. Help me pick up the broken pieces; work together to reconnect them.

1 - It's not about the size of your rock, the brand of that collar you pop, it's if someone needs some help and you stop. Not about the amount in your bank account, or the bottle of "bub" in the club, model you rubbed, drunk bumping to the subs. I'm so sick of 'em bragging about appearances. What year is this? Lookin' in the mirror, bag and bling, I don't think you're hearing things. Nagging and we can only afford the daggone clearances. Pushing past interference, surface clear persevere this. Looking for the disappearance, fake MC's acting fearless. Lending keys, bending rules, taking names, and spending G's, using lies to take this game - you decide if it's a shame. But radio's replaying them twenty times a day and no matter what they're sayin' yo, you stayin on the station. It's a sick beat, sick hook. Baby they just hated and degraded you but you're thinking it's something you related to.

* This is our world and it's breaking at the seams. They can do what they want but they're not taking it from me. It's gonna be a long road coming but a step in the right direction. Help me pick up the broken pieces; work together to reconnect them.

2- How did it amount to this? Who will we account for this? Landfills overflowing, this planet's candle's slowly blowing out while we're stuffing our mouths, watching reality shows on the couch. We need to get priorities straight, pay attention to the hate instead of headlines of what a celebrity ate. Slow down, you're gettin' ahead of me, wait! No slowing till I'm dead in heaven, in front of the gates. All this hate is eatin' away at me. Acting great, though we say we see. The human race is a waste everyday that I can't help the state of thee and I hope this taste won't leave in haste, while I keep my pace, and I lead this race. You can be the hare, I'll be the tortoise. The chorus before this gettin' the environmentalists stiffer than rigor mortise. Keep acting G. The forces backing me are breaking doors in. Sayin' you're not seeing me? Hell no, you can't ignore him. Faces wet with sweat, the truth is scary, yeah, I'm filling your pores in.

* This is our world and it's breaking at the seams. They can do what they want but they're not taking it from me. It's gonna be a long road coming but a step in the right direction. Help me pick up the broken pieces; work together to reconnect them.

3- What's the earth worth now? It's like a purse with the seams burst out. So much hurt, full of hate like the worst curse out. We need to start minding our business 'fore we end up on another country's hit list. What is this? Instead of what Iraq does we need to start worrying about puttin' the world back on its axis 'cause I really don't give a damn what religion they practice. Pushed it past its limit, need to re-spin it - now we're all a bunch of dimwits. Start respecting each other's countries or we'll never get out in one piece; I'm done, please, but I'm gonna spit it till my lungs bleed. "But he's a Muslim!" Yeah? Well, he's my cousin and I love 'em 'cause we all need someone. Just a brother from another mother yet we're killing each other, but I'd be willing to bet they spill the same blood, same tears and same sweat.

* This is our world and it's breaking at the seams. They can do what they want but they're not taking it from me. It's gonna be a long road coming but a step in the right direction. Help me pick up the broken pieces; work together to reconnect them.

For You feat. Katy Schutt & Rita Glynn

With her 10 recent releases produced by friend and mentor Angela Parrish (singer of Another Day of Sun in La La Land), Believe That I Can Too” and “Hey God, It’s Me”,  Susie Maddocks’ songs continue to connect, heal, and inspire her listeners worldwide. Susie lives and breathes the language of music naturally with the backdrop of a musically immersed family environment, and her happy place is wherever she can communicate through voice, song-writing, and performing.  Since the age of 5,  Susie has spent her life making music her voice.  Her career in collaborative piano flowed out of her degree in piano performance from the Eastman School of Music.  She enjoys touring and performing with her duo970 featuring flutist James Hall and herself.    Maddocks has had her work recorded and used in a film featured at the Vail Film Festival and North Hollywood CineFest.

Where I Wanna Be

Susie Maddocks

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