10/29/20 I was 17 when I made this 
Produced by me

amygdala (prod.svcof)

5/02/22 I was 18 when I made this 
(Intro)
and I’m falling once again
I’m so cold
Oh I don’t know where I’ve been

(First Verse)
I don’t 
Wanna look in your eyes again
It sends me to the unknown! 
Now I know where you’ve been
And I’m there and it’s so cold !
But won’t you look in my eyes again
Your glare keeps me alive

Inside I know I've died. 
Knowing that your not by my side 

(Background lyrics)
I'm so cold x3
Give me back my soul

I'm so cold x3
You found me ! WHERE’D YOU GO

I know you know x3

We fall once again 
But we have each others soul

WHERE DID YOU GO

(second verse )
and I don’t Wanna fall again

I’m so cold
Now I know where you’ve been
And I’m sorry 
I’ve been there before 

We love but we falter again

I know I’m so broken
don’t try to save what can’t be saved 
We love in stress
where perfect 
We did you go

It’s not our fault 
We all drift away in the cold
But with me you’ll never know 

prod. @NXMADIC

cold

4/19/22 I was 18 when I made this 
“Warning signs”
(Prod. Nekogod)
Counting down the days 
I act like I’m alright. 
You can tell that I’m lying looking in my eyes 

Talking to my self
These feelings won’t evade 
there taking up space packed inside my mind 

Counting down my days 
i don’t wanna die 
You can tell that I’m trying as you start to cry

You tell me that I’m fine
I know I’m not alright
there’s something inside me giving warning signs 

“Verse”

It’s ok I’ve been hiding
For some reason I always fall back

I promsie you I’m never lying

Only when my bones hurt bad

Baby don’t you be sad

I’m trying that’s all that matters
Despite that
You like that 
Your like me 
We talk bad
We fight back
Ion like that 
Swear it don’t gotta be like that

Calm down we can all relax 
Staring in your eyes I already understand 
Yuhhh

Swear I don’t like these feelings but it comes so naturally

Smallest things can make me so upset that’s not a life to lead 

All I need will never be 
So I just sit here as I weep 

I’m ok
But you rather talk and go ya way 

I’m telling you moments they happen for reasons
but you rather walk and just treason my feelings 

I’m reaching  for air cause I’m drowning my  fate 

that’s 
What I get
For looking In Deep end 


I KNOW YOU DONT KNOW 

You don’t have to worry see 

I’ll be here another day just

Waiting for Moment that’ll never show it’s face

Just to give up and float away  

all because I Ignored the warning signs.
waiting for u but now I’ll will decay

Warning Signs

6/10/22 I was 18 when this was made thank you all
(prod. MAJZKLUANI)
(Intro)
I’m scaring myself
When i speak
Every time, I listen to me closely
I listen to myself in these songs I become weak!
It’s hard to believe that one can think like this.  
I’m in disbelief 
i need some help
 I need some friends .
I don’t think I could fall more than I have,
so I grab 
the closest thing
To feel safe 
“Please don’t collapse” 
(Uh)

(First Verse)
I’m scaring my self When i speak
Every time, I listen to me closely!
I listen to myself in these songs I become weak!
It’s hard to believe that one can think like this.  
I’m in disbelief 
i need some help
 I need some friends.
I don’t think I could fall more than I have,
so I grab 
the closest thing
To feel safe 
“Please don’t collapse” 

Feeling nothing hurts worse 
than feeling something
That nothing turns to something that will change what you want in….Life it’s every night I fight like an addict to feel alright
(I don’t know why I gotta feel like this)

(Second verse)
I’m pushing my self in the unknown I’m falling 
I hit the bottom now I’m crawling 
recalling 
The past that I put on my knowledge 
The suffer in pain Got me learning
Now calling For “help”
Steady yelling in this dark well
Get me out of hell
Promise I will never fail 
Thinking to myself 
“what if I never get help”
Than I’m falling deeper in a well 
That gets me to rebel 

The boy That is lost in the dark in abyss 
Has arisen 
He came to give all he can fit 
In the moments
But knows
its never it!
Crying and sighing 
But never throw fits 
I’m Moving in
motions
Emotions
They potent
They Telling a story
No words, 
they be quoting
The fear in our eyes 
There’s beauty in pain
Suffer and suffer all through the rain 
(Aye)

(hook)
I’m scaring myself When i speak
Every time, I listen to me closely
I listen to myself in this songs I become weak!
It’s hard to believe that one can think like this.  
I’m in disbelief 
i need some help
 I need some friends .
I don’t think I could fall more than I have,
so I grab 
the closest thing
To feel safe 
“Please don’t collapse” 

(Outro)
Feeling nothing, hurts Worse than feeling something
That “nothing” it turns into something
That would change what you want in life!
It’s every night

This track was from 2019

Prod.  neverforever FOCVS - tell me (Official Lyrics)
(1st verse)
tell me something right now baby I need to know
It’s been so long and honestly I’m really bouta go…but I don’t want to 
I’m holding on to anything now
My hands are sore, im bout to fall and taste the ground

Yea you do this to me…. 
But I do it to myself and baby it’s not hard to see

When you look at me I want you to see the pain I have, but all I ever want is to make you feel happy not sad,
I know I…. Be trippin sometimes but I have my reasons 
Maybe if you’ll talk to me I wouldn’t be like this 
your teasing

I know you don’t know how I feel inside, but maybe if I make you cry you’ll feel everything I’m hiding.

I know you don’t know why I’ve been acting this way
Or maybe you can tell and you try to push it away,
But I don’t know why you continue to play
But honestly I love these games, ugh
(Why do I continue to play 
Ugh I love these games, yea)

(2nd verse)
If you can to won’t you give it back to me,
I will give you everything times two you will see
But you don’t want it 
cause your broken I see
BUT I MISS THOSE TIMES WHEN YOUR TALKING TO ME I…

Cannot believe it’s been so long I’m still holding on,
And I don’t know why you don’t push me away, what do you want?
Can you decide I just want to feel alive again 

Oh I know I gotta get on my knees and start to repent

I went ahead of God look at where I’m at right now 

I’m falling to the ground and the dark starts to surround 
But I know one thing ima get out of here today!

cause I know Jesus he paved the way!

Ugh yea ugh

Tell me (neverforever)

FOCVS - Liminal space (Prod By Lil T-Shirt)

(LYRICS)

Oh
Oh 
I love you 
I’ll pray for you

why you wont talk to me
I deleted everything 
To see if you would reach out
But there’s no trace 
in this liminal space 

Wish you could talk to me 
the way I want you to
Oh I know I can’t force you,
Oh your so complicated 

Giving me mixed signals,
What would you do
If you were in my shoes?
But I can’t blame you
I can’t fix your soul, 
It’s only the Lord.
Wont you come back home?

I deleted everything 
To see if you would reach out
But there’s no trace 
in this liminal space 
But there’s no trace 
in this liminal space 
 
Wish you could talk to me
The way I want you to
I know I can’t force you 

Oh
Oh 
I love you 
I’ll pray for you

Liminal Space

FOCVS - draft 001 (prod. secre x heyrick)
A nonprofit song

Lyrics:
Lemme get this off my chest 
I cant breathe as it is , its gonna take a second
Ion even want no sex
Im here 
Through your mess
Look at my stress
Why would i lie When i say 
I love you 
I’ll do anything to stay 

I cannot force you but wait
Just think about it when i say 
dont go away
We depart our souls gravitate
I cant see a life without you and me
i’ll suffer with you , through all the season
I’ll risk drowning to see you breathe 
I’ll help you up
My love for you will not let me move on
Ion wanna see your self getting lost
Getting tossed around all washed up 
HOLD ON

Oh your temple looks distraught 
I can’t imagine the things that you saw
Wont even try to relate or talk 

theres only so much i can say 
I have open ears if you delay 
I’ll be there holding you while you
shake !
I promise baby ive been there
so hey,
Breathe with me 

Just breathe and stare at me 
I’ll hold you see and try to keep you warm through the cold

draft 001 (prod. secre x heyrick)

(Intro)
It is not fair I know but i.. I have to go
I’m letting you know …..
Just please don’t make this cold
And I’ve been so lost than more than I 
Should have been….
BUT your forgiven 
I know….ughh

(FOCVS:Verse)
Every time I’d come around 
I was staring at the ground 
But you  held my head high 
and Stared in my eyes 
You looked in my eyes 
Your crying for me so I….
Whipped your tears away
And i would kiss your forehead and 
Said I’m here to stay 

But of course I walked away 
I was scared and do not blame you
Cause I was lost before you met me 
I was drowning and now I’m saved 
I was lost before I knew how far I was 
digging my grave, but that’s old 

But 
I’m letting you know
“IM SORRY”
I couldn’t even say I love you 
TO GOOD TO BE TRUE 
(Ughhhhh)
Green eyes, 
perfect hair , 
perfectly aware 
And were loving in stress 
where a perfect match 

I know you gotta heart 
I can just stare in your eyes and just know when your falling apart 

I just want to make everything brand new 
I haven’t met nobody else since you… 
You don’t know what I’m talking about right now But it’ll make sense in the end 
I just know one of us gonna be in the dirt 
In this earth
I don’t  know , when…

So..
I just remember them days when I 
Stared in your eyes and 
I seen a place 
And my heart would. Race…
Waiting every second for days 
Where did you go? But HEY,

I’ll put that all aside 
And I see your eyes 
And I know there’s a heart 
But you harden your heart so much 
So you don’t even trust your self 

And it’s ok 
you feel guilty 
Cause the Holy Spirit
Is talking to you 
But you don’t know but hey…

Maybe you’ll see in the end 
Maybe you’ll see what I’m talking about 
Maybe you’ll see why I’m here today !!!!!!!!

I don’t know but i just know nobody will fill that place that you filled in my heart 

But again JESUS SAVED ME FROM THE DARK
And I know

Im Sorry

Im Sorry ( slowed + reverb )

Made: 10/04/23
Lyrics:
If I’m honest I can tell you feel some type of way.
You say you don’t care but why do you mention his name?

Doesn’t matter what you say this all just looks the same.
It’s hard to believe that you love me, 
Just push me away.

I don’t got time for no stress.. just show me something new.
It sucks I love you, I have nobody else besides you!

You say you don’t care bout them but you go look that way?
If I’m honest you can tell this all just looks the same…
X2





Movie: No Strings Attached 
Actors: Natalie Portman, Ashton Kutcher

same

Give me a second right now i really 
need this
So much is going on 
I dont wanna fall off track oh no
I’m falling right back  

People now want me to hang 
so I be like 
“send location, see where u at “

I cant be here for to long
 but i promise u dont owe me nothing
  Try to relax 

I get upset cause this dosent benifit me at all
Where are you at in the head?

Ive been speaking to you  life 
But dark cannot comprehend light when your dead , 
You heard what i said 
Hmm

Im only here  planting seeds 
Maybe ill water them

I cant be here for to long 
Cause The enemy want me to lack

Do not go back 

(Hook)
And now im falling in the same hole
And i keep singing the same song
I cant even look at the mirror no more
Help me out Lord, i start to burrow 

I just keep singing the same song
I dont feel my faith no more
Ughhhh.
I don’t wanna do, what I do, (Romans 7:19-20)
But this the result of walking ahead of you 
(Second verse)

Is it the music keeping my faith alive
Is it the signs within the sky 
Is it a feeling
Is it inside 

Lord
I wanna relying on a knowing 
Not a feeling 
Not a high 
No

Devil tryna get his way
Im tryna get by 
But no 
Huh

Behinde every joke
Behinde all my distractions im fighting a battle for my soul

Physically and mentally 
Spiritual attacks
 i cant do this alone
I need you my Lord

This the result of being alone for to long 

I dont know why they surprised 
Look at me now tryna ride and hide

(Hook)

And now im falling in the same hole
And i keep singing the same song
I cant even look at the mirror no more
Help me out Lord, i start to burrow 

I just keep singing the same song
I dont feel my faith no more
Ughhhh.

Draft 002 (prod.gxm)

Lyrics:
For this type of heartbreak many reach the icu 
I only feel this way when I see you and you 

No, you don’t know what I’ve been through
I feel like the sqounk of this town,
Mumbling around
Shambling for what I adore 

I’ll never see them again 
You look at me your not impressed 
 
*GALATIANS 1:10*
What am I tryna prove?
Am I tryna gain respect from these people that are dying in the air?
I don’t understand why they don’t care?
Why do I care bout what they think?

I’m not part of this world my Lord I pray you call me back to home I’m lost again.

I need to repent.

But this is the result of going ahead of you, ugh I’m so cold without you

The Sqounk (prod. neverforever) *Lyrics in description *

It’s not about me, it’s for his Glory

Mourning (freestyle)

Song dedicated to my friend I’m trying to help but pointing them above,through seasons I’ve been in
(ProdSlip) 
(Lyrics)
Hook: until you walked into my room,   I never knew love until you walked into my room, oh i 

FOCVS: 
Talk about tragic,
I can’t imagine the things that had happen (noooooo)

I can explain your pain, regardless the way it is there to derange 

Oh what a beautiful brain 
it is wanting to feel what is lost and restrained
(In timeeeeeee)

Some how you push the the waves
I know God is there on your boat cause your faith

there’s is so much we can say in the moment we careful
 Causes We do not want doors to open

If so 
we gone expose it

We letting God fix
what we once let get stolen 
Yuh
Lets pray in the moment
Holy spirit flowing
helping us molding

Shape us the way to be made

All tho we suffer give us the strength to lift up your name
(Jesussss)

God i pray that you will hear us

Even tho we cant hear your voice 

Let us to know 

Love is not feeling but knowing whats true!

ugh (Original Audio)

Made: 9/15/2023 

(Lyrics)
Oh I’m falling on my own
No one to call oh I’m screaming all alone
Yeah

Fall oh I’m falling all alone 
There’s No one to call, oh I’m screaming save my soul 
No one at all
I feel so lost ,
Oh I’m screaming, ugh my Lord uh

all alone (Original Audio)

(Prod. Cruz)
(Lyrics)
Feeling like a mannequin 
The Product of sinning often
I’m looking at my eyes there dim
Emotions start to withdraw here.

Looking glassy
Robbed of sleep
I’m fighting for my life again

Keep convicting
Keep me thinking
I don’t wanna feel nothing

Everybody looking for me now thinking
 “where did he go?”
I don’t know anymore
I know that I can’t go anymore 
cause the chains on the floor got me locked in place
there’s no escape.. except you Lord… 
YOU GOT THE KEYS TO BOTH GATES 

I acknowledge that I’m wrong.
From here on out 
I’ll deny myself and pick up my cross.

Broken melody (DEMO VERSION)

(Lyrics)
Fall
 oh I’m falling on my own.
There’s No one to call, 
oh I’m screaming save my soul 
There’s No one at all.
I feel so lost 
Oh I’m screaming for you Lord yeah

all alone (Official Audio)

Don’t call me I don’t need you as much as cry about it


FOCVS
lyrics:

“Havent seen you in a couple of years and i..
I cannot believe how beautiful you look, and yours eyes
Even tho we do not speak just look into mines 
I was Emotionally immature, I was so blind

Forgive me, but you had your flaws but thats we got along, I would try
But i guess i didnt work out, like i thought inside my mind
If you wanna talk again just hit up my line”

i still love you (neverforever)

I hide and run away and blame the people for my health, cause when I was there for them no they never helped me out
And I don't know why? Am I following this..wait.. cause if I ... ugh
Lately I've been pushing all my convictions away with distractions
I don't know why I keep on doing this and that.
At last I see my self looking at the mirror like "here we are"
I pray that you get me out this place it's getting so dark and it's getting all comfortable, Lord I pray can you take me out this hole
I don't wanna be here for to long, I know that it is getting darker then ever before!
Blaming everything on the spiritual even tho I know it's physical
But really what I do outside it's really what's inside I Hide and run away from all these things and blame the people for my health,
Cause when I was there for them no they never helped me out and I don't know why....
am I following that crowd? Cause if so than I never had really trusted you God
X2

Why (prod. SUZUKKI)

Im disappointed 
Just Leave me alone,yeah

I dont wanna talk about it,
Its so anoyying

I saved from that burning building
Now you walking towards 

I feel disrespected,
Like all ive done was all ignored yea 

I’d be suprisded if make it out alive next time

Why Would i lie 
I dont care trust me ill be fine

I thought i could follow you as your 
pushing through the waves
But this not my place to save you
So I’ll float away
And remain safe


whats in this for me 
if we can barley speak
i try to talk to you 
But u just only hear me

I guess youll never understand
Thats is all i want for you
Your scared of change 
Regardless what you say 
youll have to go through it one day 

What you delay, will change 
and push you astray
You try to put the blame on yourself
And than you run away

Preacher: Billy Graham
(prod. Rouftop)
Lyrics:

im tryna figure out  if theres more that your hiding 
Im not saying you lying, but theres many testfying
Quit  all that crying i should go before it rains, 
i like to swim until droughts, what a shame, You flooding me with feelings now im left here all alone
 I never been so confused in a place i called my home
I can forgive you but i cant forget
So tell me if i did the same would you take me in?

Rain

Lyrics:
(Intro)
I don’t understand?
I don’t wanna be this confused again.. 
I don’t .
I’ll pray for you, cause I know this is not you!
It’s more than flesh and blood,
Just come back home?
Maybe in the end … we’ll be alight… maybe
(Verse)
I cant get those times back
So much i wanna say
But atleast it was spent with you and those day’s
Do you ever think about me still ?
what do you say?

Cause i wouldn’t trade those moments of you anyway
i wish 
It couldve turned out 
So beautiful as rose..
..It blooms but than your fruits shows
So much i can expose

But i really dont blame you 
Its just how it goes
When “the world is yours”
But your lost in it froze

Can you call my phone?
Are you home?

How you say you love me knowing your with someone 
I dont wanna be your settlement
When your done 
But isnt that what i want in the end
“Love”
I know that youll never meet someone
That will treat you the way that i do.
So when it’s all done you’ll come running back to who?

Oh I know that I’ll run back to you,
Lord I pray that we both make it through.
Cause I know this isn’t you..
Ok …. I know this isn’t you, it’s more than flesh and blood will you listen can you look above?!!
Sanctify us both Lord I trust…

Rose (prod domesticsoul)

6/23/19 i was 15 years old here ..

(Christian fletes)
Run x2
Run to the sun 
Run till I can’t no more!
Feel like the sun as my heart burns into flames..
*need to cool down*…(the Lake)
water-gun is what I use to put out my fumes,
Holding it as I gotta grip thinking ima quit this life is true !
I don’t really know but it’s mainly up to you to believe that it’s real or fake.

Either way it’s my mistake as I claim a life that wasn’t even mine I felt fake
.. wasn’t my self… *as my body shakes feeling lost *
Is this a call? LIKE WAKE UP

I gotta get up but I can’t , but I did make up all the regret in life (yeah I bet :/)

It’s in my dreams
Funny how it seems

All these signs are getting to me like the breeze coming all directions hitting me in the face as I lay by the (Lake)
I feel free and than take , as I take a life away wait,
(Run x6)
I can see it’s bout to come , tell me we’re did I go wrong ?!
(Run x4)
Give me space I need to run, this is life? I think I’ve won
(Run x4)
Run away is my escape please just hope that I won’t break

(Second verse)

Time is ticking and tocking and we cannot stop it, we drop everything out our pockets on the floor we’re we left it, …….
Driving down the I-10
Texted her that I’m kinda blinded from crying *can’t see the road*
Stop by the side and told her “it’s getting cold”
 “Meet me by the (Lake) around 7 not past 8” 
why you run? 
i don’t want it to be late
Now you looking at my grave 
All I wanna do is grab your hand 
I was looking at your eyes that day I was really hypnotized 
Now your gone 
I didn’t make you happy?
Baby girl like what we doing?
(Miss you so much )

Tomorrow ‘s a new day  
so baby girl why you playing stop assuming

I just really wanna damn 
Grab your hair, i miss grabbing your hair
I miss kissing your face 
I miss touching your waist  

We’re is my escape? I just really 
Gotta run run runaway !










some things are ment to be unheard yea yea    this song has a big meaning to life and yea yea enjoy            theres only one me and     yea       instagram: svcof

11/4/19 I was 16 when I made this
(Intro)
This half the story
 you will never know! Never,no

So breath taking
Lost and … looked into her eyes, I was really hypnotized! 
She was my world !
Now that she’s gone I hope she’s ok

Just took my heart……. I didn’t even give it to her!
Everything’s good from the start (always)
I was bad for her anyways
 (but why.. I dont know I love you)

Never thought I could feel this way, fell In love once and I never been the same !

I WILL FOREVER LOVE YOU 
LESLY
I MISS you
(I’m sorry)
Yeah 

(Lyrics) 
It’s 2 a.m  in the morning I’m just in my bed I’m in my feel is staring at the ceiling fan 
I’m feel like I’m dead 
And every single day when I wake up I look in the mirror I’m like ok I’m here…..

Sitting down on the chair
Looking how she pass me by and don’t even give me a eye
(But why)
Like everything I said went unheard it hurts like a bullet!

FROM THE START 

I SAID  “All I wanna do is make you happy, I don’t wanna lose you as a person or as a friend”-March 31st

Than it came to 
May 13 
She said  “ YOU CANNOT make me happy anymore there’s nothing you can do about it… nothing you can do to change my mind” 

I was thinking oh my God my heart is racing
 “help me past the time”
“ I know your lying so please don’t say that”… 
and matter of fact now it’s like….
November 4th ￼

And I feel like I’m worthless i don’t know what to do
I cannot put forth effort In anything  I do now (everyday)

I fell in love once and never been the same 
The time is ticking and tocking
And all I hear is 
*tick tick tick….tick*

I wanna get up but I hear this name 
(Lesly)
Every single day oh dear,
the end is almost near 
I mean the end is almost ughhh you know almost over yeah?!…….

And I see the number 27 everywhere I go I need some help cause I don’t know what to do when I’m around you !
Who knew that I’ll find someone like you … 
and MIND YOU.., you mind me 

And heart pumping when we talk about sharing dreams…. Nervous cause what it seems!
Now that your gone I hope that your ok
(BUT WHY)
 
everything I said went unheard 
I mean everything I did with you it’s like it never occurred 
So baby girl look at me and ima smile at you cause I can never get mad at you like I said 

I miss grabbing your hair
I miss kissing your face
I miss touching your waste 
I miss my heart race when I look into your eyes 
I was really hypnotized 
(It was all a lie)

L3zly (Freestyle)

Original audio from 6/17/19 
I was 15

Photo from 6/25/19

Long gone (freestyle)

3/31/20 I was 16 when I made this  about a person named  \_3zLy.

I don’t know (freestyle)

Made in 4/30/20 I was 16 
“All I do is breath “
(Intro)
All life has death 
why don’t they worry?
why not be happy?
If only I knew then what I know now…

[Verse 1]
I wish I can help 
I wish I can help 

I can’t help my self 
This is like hell

Having these dreams
thoughts in the trees 

flow from the breeze
Like all these leaves,
Falling in pieces  
Falling in pieces 

Where is the peace 
And 

Brain is still leaking
(That)
Pain 

Pain Pain 
go away
 please come back another day

Quitting all these games 
(Like always)

But start to replay.

Water is my safe place 
Sun against my face great 

Life in repeat 
can’t wait

accepting the fact 
And I’m here to stay ah


[Verse 2]

Sitting here thinking bout this life
Sitting here thinking bout everything
 I might
Or could’ve done

All I ever do is run
I just wanna reach to the sun

I feel the sun against my skin

I hope this is life I guess I win 

Patients
Patients what I have 

feeling like I cannot Do this anymore I’m sad

Why does everybody act the same 

I MEAN y’all know the story I say the same thing ! 

Look
I just wanna get a life

I feel like I need a partner in life 

You don’t understand the pain
You don’t understand the pain

You already the deal?
What’s the deal In Life 

Life slowly fading away 

 We’re all gonna end up in the same way

6ft underground 
I’ll wait 
I’ll wait

All i do is breathe

7/13/20 I was 17 when I made this.
where’s my luck. (prod.808Caleb)

wheres my luck

views or none, it’s a diary soon to be found 




Producer tag (prod. svcof)

YouTube: FOCVS
https://youtube.com/@focvs-music?si=shxXW4PlSDVAMcrH

Email,

cfletes64@gmail.com

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