evergreen

breathe

think about it (prod. Eric Godlow)

12 deep im still lookin for the bottle
everytime i go to sleep i pray i miss tomorrow
anything and everything is never what i thought no
god i hate ur memories they make me feel so hollow

every day the same bullshit
what the fuck is you pulling
you aint give em the context
you aint showin the full clip

everyday the same toolkit
who the fuck is you fooling
why you worried where im at
dont threaten me just pull it

who are u when im not around?
you wont ever make it out that town

12 deep im still lookin for the bottle
everytime i go to sleep i pray i miss tomorrow
anything and everything is never what i thought no
god i hate ur memories they make me feel so hollow

sell me thru the goddamn payphone
co-drive in this rally race u didnt get the pace notes
anything and everything ill take it to the face smoke 
god i hate this place and i dont wanna wake tomorrow
 
[notahero]:

tryna quit these drugs is so hard
i know you can’t hold my hand through it all
i’ll keep singing through the fall
till the end of it all

but it’d be so much easier if you met me half way
i think i left a piece of myself at that lake
i wake up throwing up with my pale green face
nothings coming up from this sorrow i cant break

i heard you’re doing better now i hope you break a leg
i hope you break your face

before i go to sleep 4 pills to my face
when i wake up i feel mad that it’s another day
i’m puffing a medical cart this shit feel like it’s fucking laced
i’m fucking describing this shit to you let me go at my own pace

let me go at my own time
i know you love me by the way you take my jeans off it’s time to fucking dine
yea it’s time to fucking die

tell me who was your favorite person when you were alive
cause mine is you

i will not hesitate for smoke im like a juul
i can see the stars in your eyes ill put stars on your roof
she saw me crying im like babygirl nah im cool
nah im cool



context ft. notahero (jolst)

picture perfect

honestly never really processed you were gone, but day by day i get closer to accepting it.

Lyrics:

S/M, & NTR, this shit was far from proper love
you know i did some self reflecting and what i felt 
it wasn't lust
oh i been missing you and lately i can't even fill my cup
only upping
higher dosages i hope they fuck me up
don't even look at other women even now at 14 months
you've seeded so deep in my head i feel like i can't even drop
i've written many songs in past tense and i'll prolly write some more
maybe spend my whole life coping bout the girl i wanted more

i guess the chapter closed a while ago it's time to end it off
but i've got fear of letting go and i can't take another loss
i know you'll probably listen in
i know you'll probably hear this song
i'm taking something over nothing cuz your memory is all i got
a couple friends i made since knowing you could vouch
that i wasn't doing well for a while by myself
and even through it all i honest really wish you well
and if you haven't hope you get shit figured out <3

rumination (prod. whyke)

P. nomansland 

Support my friend enyu!

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Lyrics~

(Swamp) 

My lifes in a spiral 
And I just can’t seem to catch a break
When I tried this shit the passive way 
they hit me at a faster pace 
It was a massacre up there on that caligo hill
Sends A shiver down your serabelem, signal the chills 

Ok yeah I’m back up on attack, there’s just no foldin us 
Grab that ammo load it up 
It’s gettin kinda quiet on this California western front 
Give it all you can until you can’t and hope the war is almost done 
Shell shocked, you’ve had enough 

There you go, you’re telling yourself that never again 
Will you put you’re life on the edge for something that somebody said 
The battle goes on in your head 
And shurly you’ll face a certain death 
But I guess you love that shit because you never left 

(Enyu)

Loaded chambers caught in a deadlock
choke on me like a tight knot
rewinding all of my future plans
hailing down on me till my heart stop
yeah, but i’m still in it
guess i’m twisted
drawn to where i fucking bled
need some god to grant my wishes
rather than be fucking dead

i scrape my wounds when its dark
a shiver down my extremities
and while the whole world fell apart
i stand upfront with serenity
and when I turn around
the time has come for confession
to learn a beautiful lesson
i’m heading outbound
to fend off my imperfections

(Swamp)

Hopefully when the dust settles I’ll be alright 
All intact and alive 
The only loss being time 
Trying to figure out another way to save myself 
From the war in my head, it’s been a living hell

never ending spiral w/ enyu

breeze _ prod varelismagic

Players Game Feat SturdyTank

lyrics:

Its Tough luck tough love

How many people i try to become I been stuffing inside of my body
Some of them pieces of shit well probably
I keep so many in here its an army
And If they could hurt u, theyd probably harm me
Already on purpose they emotionally carved me
So I kept all the shit inside me
And it just keep ulcering out of my body

Animal masks step foot in the lobby
I had cast spells thats banned and they got me im fucked
Oh but Peeling back skin is my hobby
I pull the skin from my pinky to palm 
So What is the problem in here whats the qualm
80 bpm my heart I am calm
I killed a man in the winter 06 
And I had been wearing the same clothes since
But Its too hard lie now
I knew someone’d find out
I kept all his things and
I dress up and play house
That saran wrap body
Its my only friend now
Hes got strong opinions
Ones I aim to shut out
When the smell is fucked up
And my neighbours riled
Ill just blow his skull back
And wear him a while
All this blood had filled the eye holes
Im so out of style
I just Fit my feet in his feet
Now I wear his smile
And What do you do all night while im up at work
I see you sit back tongue tied tryna find the words
To try and ask me why exactly im not home at dusk
Girl just ask me cause ive spent years just carrying on for us

How many people i try to become I been stuffing inside of my body
Some of them pieces of shit well probably
I keep so many in here its an army
And If they could hurt u, theyd probably harm me
Already on purpose they emotionally carved me
So I kept all the shit inside me
And it just keep ulcering out of my body

Tough luck and tough love
Tough luck tough love

winter of 06 (eric godlow)

NV // TORONTO

KISS OF DEATH 2 OUT NOW

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think about it (prod. Eric Godlow)

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