pride(4/30/20)

thats my b*****

idk who produced da beat tbh, its an old ass song

even when im with my booski

www.carlbymusic.com
Featuring @burylilac
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @jolst

LYRICS
Rock bottom
Lower than I’ve ever been
Only hanging on for the sake of my friends
‘Cause I got people who depend on me
And a couple bad habits like dependency

I worry ‘bout my mom
How she’d get on without me
I wonder a lot if you’d still think about me
Only hanging on just to spite those who doubt me
So throw me a rope because I feel like I’m drowning

I’m running out of ways to say this
I hate who I’ve been
Need to make changes
I’ve lost all motivation
Along with my patience
Too long I have waited

I’m running out of ways to say
That I hate myself
Wish that I could change
I think it’s for the best
You and I stay estranged
You wouldn’t recognize the shell I’ve become these days

(lilac heart)
Rock bottom
I’m running out of ways to say
I miss the way you’d get under my skin
Breaking bottles broken glass
Is all that’s left of my ‘lil head
I don’t even know where all the time went

I fell asleep in the snow
And woke up burning on the sidewalk
Take this away before I hurt someone
Try to cover the pain
The broken shards are showing through the holes I burnt into my sleeves

Listen on Spotify!

Rock Bottom w/ lilac heart (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

distance📍



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OH MY GOD!
I can't face it
OH MY GOD!
I can't chase you

But my heart is racing
and I can't replace ya
But it's going to be okay

OH MY GOD!
I can't face it
OH MY GOD!
I can't chase you

But my heart is racing
and I can't replace ya
But it's going to be okay

When I was with you I was playing games on my phone (Clash Of Clans Sound xDDDD)
I should've paid more attention to you
But all the memories ain't gone
We've been through a lot of ups and downs

I'm guna make it better with my next one
Altho I thought that you were guna be the one

OH MY GOD!
I can't face it
OH MY GOD!
I can't chase you

But my heart is racing
and I can't replace ya
But it's going to be okay

OH MY GOD!
I can't face it
OH MY GOD!
I can't chase you

But my heart is racing
and I can't replace ya
But it's going to be okay

"Don't do this and don't do that"
You just had enough...
I've waited couple months but now I'm guna move on
With someone else...

OH MY GOD! (Greyrock)

prod by me
mastered by me
mixed by me
feat @lilcheo
first single :)

fine w/ eights

sprains (drmabeats x sadpra)

p. yung spoiler

spotify
open.spotify.com/track/2uP3mGH2OO…2aee821c3f3f4265

(im so fucking useless x4)
uh yeah,
i think your in a rush
i been fighting off all of these feelings
like im in a rut
like i can never tell what the difference is
through all this distance
like all we ever do is fight back and forth
how can i see clear through a mf iphone
when you just text me all the time
but you wanna be left alone
(UGHHH)
all you ever do is try to make it all my fault
like you tell me all these lies
but you dont think your in the wrong

but baby was i
the one that you run to?
baby i know thats a lie
you do the same shit like every night
to pass the time
at this point its easier to say im fine
cause everytime that i try harder
im useless
but baby thats not something
thats new to me
ive been struggling my whole life
with fucking anxiety
cause i know i got to many issues
baby ill just try my hardest to
never make up another excuse

its like oohh i been trying so god damn hard
like whats the point of being away this long?
like i dont wanna do this
you been so new to this
and i been acting stupid

baby do you need me anymore ?
you been driving me crazy
got my blood spilled on the floor
its like anything you wanna do
im begging for more
so why do you just sit there and ignore
like baby its like i dont want this shit to end
but you still left
like i dont want this shit to end
you want me still dead
lets not pretend that you cared baby
i been fighting all of these thoughts as of lately

but baby was i
the one that you run to?
baby i know thats a lie
you do the same shit like every night
to pass the time
at this point its easier to say im fine
cause everytime that i try harder
im useless
but baby thats not something
thats new to me
ive been struggling my whole life
with fucking anxiety
cause i know i got to many issues
baby ill just try my hardest to
never make up another excuse
ugh but im so fucking useless
ugh im so fucking useless
im so fucking useless
im so fucking uselesss
(im so so so so im so so so so useless x4)

useless

bro fell off (freestyle)

Auto-Halo is a euphoric, glitch-soaked anthem for the spiritually scrambled. It tells the story of a person spiralling through modern life, mistaking dopamine spikes for divine signs and searching for salvation in Wi-Fi signals, barista wisdom, and algorithmic affirmation.

In a world where panic attacks are misread as prophecy and grief gets posted for engagement, the narrator becomes trapped in a loop of artificial meaning. They no longer seek God in temples or scripture—but in frozen food aisles, autocorrect messages, and curated feeds. Their soul is on beta mode, their prayers filtered and monetised.

As the song unfolds, sacred language is hijacked by tech-speak: prophets are rebooted, hymns become HTML, and “blessed” is just a setting on a ring light. The track shifts from satire to sincerity, finally collapsing into a haunting outro that admits:

> “I feel divine. But only in portrait mode.”

sprains (drmabeats x sadpra)

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