Im Losf

I don't want fucking change
I wish things remained the same
Way that I plan every single task
These questions I'm afraid to ask myself
I stare at a blank page like it's my enemy
Things my mind say is deafening
Why am I always sticking to rhyming
Why can't I just enjoy my free time
God why is it so hard to leave this all behind
I hate this, why do I relate the path
I've taken like its all just bad fate
Music used to ease my mind
Now I just say shit to leave it behind
I threw away this mask
I hoped it would help escape my mistakes
But I still struggle with feeling fake
I dissociate and picture myself with a different face
That no matter what I just can't replace
I live in this hell daily
You're just dipping your foot in the magma of Mai Misery
I can't describe my insecurities
So give me reassurance give me security
Sometimes I wish I could find the perfect sentence that'll fix all my issues
But this for my doggo walking the sky I swear to god I miss you
I know you are keeping Nagisa safe, and for that I am eternally grateful
I will forever cherish the songs that we made in our last months
And will never cease to create because of all the love that I had for you

Flow Of Time

They all say ain't no one realer than J Dilla
What about someone up in they feelers
They pop pillars then go hit up one of their drug dealers
Lay and stare at the ceiling, I'm loving this feeling
When I run out Imma go stealing
Ain't a soul that know what my mind dealing with

I've been hungry all year
Working hard so that one day I can say fuck this overseer 
But that road on that path is not linear
People clearly hating me is my worst fear
I love making songs, and I like burning them
Handing out CD's all day long see them end up in a bin
My DNA just cheap imitation 
I'm not a warrior, I feel intimidation
When I write there's so much hesitation
I don't want people thinking that I'm off my medication
But my mind fades in a haze of rumination
Every-time I hear a dope instrumentation 
There's so much intruding thoughts waiting to be spoken
But lately when I rap I feel like a record that's broken
I'll just close my eyes enjoy the ride and wish to see all that I'm hoping

Ride or die, You ride or die

I ride and die for my whole tribe
I ride or die for my whole tribe
Ain't nobody on my vibe
Except this piece
Maybe my ride or die
So when they say its time to finalize
I won't act surprised even if its all a disguise
But man did I feel unwise as soon she was vaporized
I never analyzed why he asked to meet me at sunrise
I hope the judge will empathize
I never realized this is why he wanted me to drive
I never realized how much my mind these pills depersonalized
I stepped on the gas I was paralyzed
But I swear I'm just as fucking traumatized

Famished/Ride Or Die

I feel so insignificant
I'm really not all that different
Anxiety what I represent
Still a bit to comfortable remaining complacent
I get lost attempting to take initiative
My worries are too immense
I dwell so much in a past tense
You write this shit you just pretend
I write these songs as my way vent
I'm incoherent, and I see no end
To this misery unless I meet my end
I'm afraid that just the way it is my friend
Broken triangle my insignia
I feel it's quite ingenious
It portrays all my feelings
It shows the state of my trust
As I fill this page with my rambles
Over this twisted use of a sample
You might just hear me combust
I'm the one they try to reconstruct
Same ones to say it wasn't feasible
Now think I'm not being reasonable
When I won't let 'em match syllables over my instrumentals
But can't nobody match this narrative
Adolescence wasted tryna fit in
But I wasn't even 10 when I was corrupted by that relative

Earphones in inspecting rhythm
I feared my cousin
So I kept it hidden
But through this pen
Found my power risen
Breaking out your mental prison
Locked inside my visions
This my dark twisted creation
I didn't wanna do you like this son
But I'm not the type to hide behind some guns
I'll erase you through my songs
By letting the whole world know how you did me wrong
Oh you didn't have the right to put me on me
And the way you tried to censor me, I know that you fear Swelly


Can't stop me now I'm on a roll
Really thought I'd be defeated by you trolls
But I'll grow my platform bigger than ever before
Let 'em form conspiracies about my lore
I won't be hurt by your words
I see your pettiness and think its so absurd
Call me Kirby because of all that I absorb
It becomes my super power when I decide to unleash over some chords
I dropped acid and met my guardian angel
She told me this path I've chosen is danger
I shouldn't let my actions be influenced by anger
But damn if this shit don't make me feel like a mighty morphing power ranger
Or like Michelangelo going against his brother
Because that crimson bandana motherfucker was sick with power
Tryna throw me off the tower
Because I was chosen by master splinter
But when my hands around your neck reality sets in
My name is Booker, and I was sent to kill myself in an alternate dimension
But it's too late, it only hits as I vanish from existence

I Saw God He Said I Didn't Do Enough Acid

I took this rift and its broken
Built a time machine and it ain't working
Set sail now my ship sunken
We never carved no pumpkins
My only motto create assumptions
Play my songs your speakers are broken
I wrote this hook and it ain't working
Took some shots and I'm sunken
I got lost in a patch of pumpkins
And made this record for your consumption

In moments of pure exhaustion
I found my passions brought exhilaration
Script more songs full of discrepancies
Disagreements that brought on Mai Misery
In parenthesis, I hope you exceed,
All of your needs, just remember
I'm the one you didn't need
Now I struggle just to breathe
Not one to keep receipts but why you always tryna flex on me
Since elementary I've been made to feel ugly
Generally my ambience is lonely
Try my best deflect xanax and codeine
lately I can't ignore those hoes they calling
I really thought by now I'd be ballin'
I have dreams where I'm just falling
so anything that attracts me I'm all in
Those no longer are nightmares
Frozen in sleep paralysis I don't even fuckin' care

I took a rift and its broken
Built a time machine it ain't working
Set sail now my ship sunken
We never carved no pumpkins
My only motto create assumptions
Play my songs your speakers are broken
I wrote this hook it ain't working
Took some shots and I'm sunken
I got lost in a patch of pumpkins
And made this dumbass song for your consumption

On this track like I'm the dark magician
Standing out from your average musicians
I can't even consider 'em competition
Ain't none them fitting my rendition
They tried making me feel shame
tried to play me for fucking dumb
So I'm hacking in they mainframe
Then swiping all their Ethereum
Empty their portfolios leave them feeling numb
Then brag about it in a fucking song

Strolling slowly through my neighborhood
Halloween decorations remind me of my childhood
Past midnight, my conscience has been removed
I don't know where I am, I'm so confused
My existence is layers that isn't visible
For the first time I'm starting to understand my subliminal
I'm just a terrified individual
Living miserable, stuck in all of my rituals
I grew up not far from being normal
Play through old cassettes tapes and I look adorable
but my problems lay deeper than the surface
I'm always wondering what did God meant to be my purpose
I find comfort in this word arrangement
From the outside feel I just look deranged
Recently shut off the radio and I sat in silence
I've been hooked to this shit since I got asked if I liked violence

I took this rift and its broken
Built a time machine and it ain't working
Set sail now my ship sunken
We never carved no pumpkins
My only motto create assumptions
Play my songs your speakers are broken
I wrote this hook and it ain't working
Took some shots and I'm sunken
I got lost in a patch of pumpkins
And made this record for your consumption

Rift

I'll form my own path
Some you wouldn't last
I'll heal from my past
Even tho I'm the outcast

My memories blast when I smoke this grass
Stuck behind this mask I'm a fucking character
Depths of my dungeon I can barely function
Munching off my guardians, starting to turn hysterical
Tried to illustrate my pain, ended up with shreds
I can't define my bane, something wrong with my head
I have an imbalance that's chemical
Making all of my moves en silencio
Trying to make this music perpetual

I'll form my own path
Some you wouldn't last
I'll heal from my past
Even tho I'm the outcast

I once felt invincible, I didn't know what life was capable
Now I'm an emotional wreck from the memories I've kept
They're embedded in me, some of them I relive clearly
It's fucking eerie like lost episodes, or midnight on an empty road
I done lost all control, tossing out the protocol 
Lost in the depths of these backrooms, guided by the scent of your perfume
Voices in my head say my demise coming soon
but I can't allow this wicked place to turn into my tomb

I'll form my own path
Some you wouldn't last
I'll heal from my past
Even tho I'm the outcast

Outcast

I feel you lingering in the darkness
Especially clear as I spark this
Blunt smoke fill my lungs 'till I'm a carcass 
This how I bring the fucking ruckus

My mind all clouded and fuzzled
Fuck it, my life feel like a puzzle
But this is one that I can't solve
I watch all of my problems as they evolve

I'm not someone you should revolve with
Nothing left to resolve, I won't reply to your text
Shit, what if that's what you expected?
I've become used to losing my connections

Anxiety confiscates like property
Reality I can't escape undoubtedly
Uncertainty eats at me unpolitely 
Negativity wonders my mind automatically

Bad memories are intrusive
My dreams are illusive
But I rather live in this illusion
I fear everything coming to a conclusion
As I memorize the patterns of this ceiling

My thoughts are liars
I am so tired of wanting to be admired
So I set my whole world on fire, and I watch it burn
But the world still turn, and that scares me

Erick is SWELL