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I hope whatever struggles you’re going thru become easier as the days pass.

Crywank-You Couldn't Teach Me Integrity(sxdcxm cover)

Crywank-Memento Mori(sxdcxm cover)

Lyrics:(Credit to Crywank)

My Dad told me each love will be different.
My Dad told me each love will be good.
But my Dad's never had a broken heart,
because my Dad's got my Mum.
I'm too scared to fall in love again,
I'll just focus on my family, my art and my friends.
I'm too scared to fall in love again,
I'll just focus on anything else.
I want to be academic, confident and romantic,
but I just feel weird and overdramatic.
Daily reminders that I am pathetic.
When you're surrounded by it, it's hard to forget it.
I see your straight faces in the magazines,
the ones I used to read when I was thirteen.
Now I can't sleep from all these flashbacks.
Caravans and guys in bands and polystyrene hands.
Everything I had I seem to have lost.
Everyone who loved me seems to have forgot.
Everything I want seems to far away.
I'll just stay in bed for another day.
Hikikomori.

Crywank - Hikikomori(SXDCXM Cover)

Smoking and Crying.
Enjoy.

Lyrics:
I don't want to be awake again
I swear I spend all my days in and if I go outside I fuck shit up
I am mostly scared of a broken heart but I wear mine out for all to touch and I wonder why I'm so fucked up
My mind pacing my heart is racing I'm still chasing what's unattainable 
I'm ashamed to say I want what I can't hold
Not a thirst for gold or a trip to Rome but a place to call home
In your arms I fall 

I don't ever want to dream again 
When I close my eyes I see your face
All I feel is pain
Not for the loss but for what's unsaid 
Things will never be the same again
I'm ashamed I miss someone who's changed
Inconsistency is breaking me 
Please I beg just set me free
I'm lost but I am better off alone
Forget me forget me 
Please just leave me be
Forget me forget me 
You're already dead to me

SXDCXM - Forget Me(Prod. By XataN)

I know you've heard this song before
Always sad, angry, isolated
Trapped indoors
I can't believe this it's like I never tried
My words all sound the same droning on repeat every day
I'm going insane 
In my mind I hide and try to play safe ima cliche
Ima cliche ima boring cliche I'm not special

Pretend my feelings are worth writing songs about 
Playing myself 
My life in self doubt
Always a struggle living in routine 
Losing in this rat race and feeling unclean 
I'm going insane
In my mind I hide and try to play safe ima cliche
Ima cliche ima boring cliche 
I'm not special

SXDCXM - I'm Not Special(Prod. By XataN)

Credits to Crywank

Lyrics:(Credit to Crywank)
My brain would never let me forget you
It's not like you're lingering
It's more like you're haunting

If there were lacuna
I wonder if I'd delete you
Just because I know you wouldn't need to

At times, it feels like
I'm pushed against the wall
At the back of your mind

Why don't you ask any questions?
Do you really not care now?
Do you just talk about restaurants
And the names you barely know?

I try to make myself not care
But at night, you are still there
You might be a chapter in my life
But you're still the star of my dreams

I see the ones I love suck up
I see the boundaries of politeness
I see my fist getting clenched as I
I aim for my bed 
I spend the night beating the shit out of my mattress

My brain would never let me forget you
It's not like you're lingering
It's more like you're haunting

Crywank-Pope Alexander(SXDCXM Cover)

GUITAR IS SAMPLED
SORRY NOT SORRY

Lyrics:
I always am here for others
Straining my mental state for your safety
Who's here to help me when I am screaming out
Feeling so alone and empty
Surrounded by friends
And faces unknown
Will I die this way
No one will know

Trapped and paranoid 
Barely ever go outside 
Never socialize 
Always in my mind 
Picking apart at myself behind close doors 
Can't even trust my best friends 
Feel like my life's at a dead end 
I'm stagnant and worthless
A leech boy you see on the surface 
28 years deep and still found no purpose
Just stuck in the mud living my life in a rut
Always so close to giving up 
Feel like my friends have all given up

No calls or texts to ask how I am doing
Just bullshit complaining 
I got problems to deal with
 
I'm selfish you can see through this
Disguise that I'm wearing I've put no effort into it x2

Trapped and paranoid 
Barely ever go outside 
Never socialize 
Always in my mind 
Picking apart at myself behind close doors 
Can't even trust my best friends 
Feel like my life's at a dead end 
I'm stagnant and worthless
A leech boy you see on the surface 
28 years deep and still found no purpose
I'm stagnant and worthless
A leech boy you see on the surface 
28 years deep and still found no purpose
I'm stagnant and worthless

5150(Prod. By XataN)

Lyrics:

Everyday I just feel like nothing
Every time I feel I got something
It turns into nothing
It turns into nothing

Another day just avoiding humans
Another day I would rather be 6 feet
Deep is what I try to be
But we know everyone can easily see through me
No social life is not what I'm after
No love life fuck me so I can feel something
Wondering where the drugs went
Can't find them since I quit
Wondering where my friends been 
I don't see them cuz I always stay in
And I don't sleep at night
These demons in my head keep me up 
It ain't right 
So I'm always fighting something 
Myself, my friends, or anyone who tries to pretend they give a fuck 
Why do I always feel like nothing is real 
Paranoid anxiety are the only things I feel 

Everyday I just feel like nothing
Every time I feel I got something
It turns into nothing
It turns into nothing

Everyday just feels like nothing 
So I gotta make it something 
Or this life means nothing 
This life means nothing
Nothing in common with these people
Never fit in with society 
I'm an outcast 
Smoke blunts to the face and the wood always burn fast
Cuz I'm always stressing 
Always feeling like something is missing 
No love, affection, or attention 
Leaves me feeling like nothing
Always running from something 
Caught in a cycle my mind creates for me
Is there anyone who will love me for me
I feel I got nothing

Everyday I just feel like nothing
Every time I feel I got something
It turns into nothing
It turns into nothing