production, mixing and backing vocals by @blackwinterwells

come pick me up i'll pay for gas
there's nowhere that i want to be
and you'll drive fast and i won't ask
to pick the music or the street
and we can talk about whatever and pretend that we won't tell
even pretending to ourselves

u think it's easy where it's darker 
and i like to feel my heart
speed up with my eyes shut
and feel we're doing something we should not
so for a time i spend my life just trying to find out when to stop
just trying to guess when we'll get caught

this place is suffocating
i'll still be here in five years
like i promise i won't through the wind in your ears
but nothing feels as urgent
and these nights are still important
and there's still a lot i haven't put into words yet

every time i feel alive it will feel just like this
i'll get the things u did 
forget the boy i kissed
by the hangar and you'll both be strangers to me

tonight it matters how i'm not a person who u want to see
cause i like to talk about the hospital and go when i don't need it
just to show the world i feel it
i only ever did it once
and it was selfish it was dumb
but i can't bring myself to

hate me for wanting a break
i'll still be here in five years
where i made every mistake
sixteen trying to disappear
for one week and a half
you know it's all an act
cause there's still a lot i haven't put into words yet

hangar

hangar (blackwinterwells)

lost myself

Lyrics:

codeine in my cup and now I'm sippin the sprite
coping with the fuckshit I be living this life
act depressed I'll make your little stupid ass cry
drink your tears and change the point of drinking the wine

my eyes always red because I don't sleep at night
"Why you start to twitch and get a spark in your eye,
when you get a flashback of a stupid ass time?"
I find my friend in bed lie dead regret he slept on his side

master of the craft of making people feel nice
acting is what you should stick to asking me why
paint it in the plaster pour it put it on ice,
Disney lookin motherfucker change the meaning of life

recently realized that I be loving this life
if you fuck up once you sunk you done don't get a retry
no second chance or second glance you die in the night
nothing you could do about it why even try?

say it once again i said it too many times
only guarantee in life is time gonna fly, by like speed of light it got me dying inside
which direction should i head in, to the left or the right?

codeine in my cup and now I'm sipping the sprite
coping with the fuckshit I be living this life
act depressed ill make your little stupid ass cry
drink your tears and change the phrase of drinking the whine (yuh, yuh)

Sweeney Todd ill take your soul away with the knife
demon time i use the blade to rip out your spine
talk all that you want but I don't stress over strife
if you gonna bark you bitch you might as well bite

only guarantee in life is in the end you gon die
I prayed up above for god to give me a sign
don't get no response he wrote me off like a rhyme
show up just to show up then I'm gone off a line

coincidently found meaning by suicide
coincide with healing either way we gon ride
set out on a search not knowing what I would find
found out I was chasing my own tail the whole time

they gon tell my tale till tales are older than time
like a bill of sale it stands forever when signed
vocals are explosive might blow up like a mine
now I'm living in the forest with the wolves in the pines

benjamin barker (prod. sina)

leave it all behind

Read people!


Library uh
Library uh aye

Put that funding in the library teach these kids through a book
Picking up my library card find a book with a hook
Reading through these pages dang I took a another look
To read a mockingbird put these homies to work
Put that funding in education teach these homies to read
Me and my brother start a book club do you see what I see
Put some money in education let’s see how it will be
Gotta value all your time don’t be learning no sneeze
You can keep it for free all the knowledge you gain
If you read a book homie that girl might ask your name
They love a smart brother you need a kindle or light
I suggest devil all the time but you read what ya like
Yukio Mishima, Camus here is a start
Do you like nonfiction or stuff that’ll break your heart?
Do you wanna gain knowledge? Is your empathy lacking
Start out with James Baldwin and you’ll see that hes smacking
John Adam had a point yo listen to the here words
Education makes a man nature takes what he’s worth
People need to be educated bear expensive to the third
Every places needs a school, homie do you gotta learn what you learn
I ain’t with book banning that’s how you destroy the earth
Aye

If it all comes crashing down, and you need a safe place
Open up your mind there’s a library in place
Aye

Prod: Mr. Hensley

library card - (prod. library of congress)

make matters worse (prod. stranger)

hatred (prod. pyctur)

bottle my feelings like theyre champagne
i left home now nothings the same
you left me like all my friends did
brand new rifle i might end it

all of these thoughts i could never escape
you play with me then you throw me away
shes never wrong when you cant get a sentence, out if you were me youd leave in a second

all of these thoughts i could never explain
i tried to write but you ripped out the page
i tried to fight but you ripped out my heart
bit it, and spit it back out in my face

you show your fangs 
now i feel like i been going insane
goin insane
goin insane

champagne (prod. wraithontheproch)

perspective (prod. jewleryboy)

Yes
Feeling too faded, I guess
It's a fucking mess
But she feeling too good for the stress
And I told her to back it up on me
And it's best that I stack it up on me
And I told her to act like she want me
Now she wanna come back, but don't call me
And yes, maybe that's all that she wrote
Taking it back on a note
I cannot say that I back what I know
Keep it a stack on the low
You couldn't say what I lack, and I don't

You wouldn't tell me that I'm wrong

And I'm on, 'till I'm in it
I been smoking out the bong
Every song that I've written
I'll admit it, I'm tryna live 'till I'm gone
It ain't hard to forget it, but when I'm finished I'm done
And if it's wrong that I did it, then I'll admit what I've drawn

You tell me one thing
"I don't wanna be the same"
I don't wanna feel a thing
You were once a part of me
All these thoughts I can't explain
I can't express what Imma be
What Imma be..

I been running for a minute
But she told me, "don't regret it"
Now she fucking wanna end it
Why you talking independent now?
Talking like you know me, how the fuck you gonna get it now?
Tossing what you showed me
Now it's fuck you, yes I said it now
Fuck, it ain't no different from the two
I been cutting through the curtains, I been ripping through the noose
You don't scrape beyond the surface, you don't listen to the truth
What I state is not for certain, what I make is not for you

Look, no thoughts!
Why you looking around for the lost
When the fuck did you care 'boutta cost?
Tryna hold on to the shit that I tossed

Take no chance
For the shit that I never would cross
What it make when I'm making it dance?
Make an advance when I'm taking it off

Not here to talk shit
You know the talking ain't nothing but nonsense
I been too busy with making the profits
She know the thought of it's making me nauseous
We don't got time for the point of the process

How unfortunate you get
It's a fortune that you spent
What part of torture don't you get?

[Hook]

Push through my bones
It's alright
You should've known that I left you be
I find it hard
To stay alive
It's alright
I'll be fine.
I'll be fine.
I'll be fine.
I'll be fine.
I'll be fine.
I'll be fine.
I'll be fine.
I'll be fine.
I'll be fine.
I'll be fine.
I'll be fine.
I'll be fine
I'll be fine.
I'll be fine.
I'll be fine.
I'll be fine.
I'll be fine.
I'll be.

benjamin barker (prod. sina)

THXOMUCH

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