BEST OF ME

Lyrics:

codeine in my cup and now I'm sippin the sprite
coping with the fuckshit I be living this life
act depressed I'll make your little stupid ass cry
drink your tears and change the point of drinking the wine

my eyes always red because I don't sleep at night
"Why you start to twitch and get a spark in your eye,
when you get a flashback of a stupid ass time?"
I find my friend in bed lie dead regret he slept on his side

master of the craft of making people feel nice
acting is what you should stick to asking me why
paint it in the plaster pour it put it on ice,
Disney lookin motherfucker change the meaning of life

recently realized that I be loving this life
if you fuck up once you sunk you done don't get a retry
no second chance or second glance you die in the night
nothing you could do about it why even try?

say it once again i said it too many times
only guarantee in life is time gonna fly, by like speed of light it got me dying inside
which direction should i head in, to the left or the right?

codeine in my cup and now I'm sipping the sprite
coping with the fuckshit I be living this life
act depressed ill make your little stupid ass cry
drink your tears and change the phrase of drinking the whine (yuh, yuh)

Sweeney Todd ill take your soul away with the knife
demon time i use the blade to rip out your spine
talk all that you want but I don't stress over strife
if you gonna bark you bitch you might as well bite

only guarantee in life is in the end you gon die
I prayed up above for god to give me a sign
don't get no response he wrote me off like a rhyme
show up just to show up then I'm gone off a line

coincidently found meaning by suicide
coincide with healing either way we gon ride
set out on a search not knowing what I would find
found out I was chasing my own tail the whole time

they gon tell my tale till tales are older than time
like a bill of sale it stands forever when signed
vocals are explosive might blow up like a mine
now I'm living in the forest with the wolves in the pines

benjamin barker (prod. sina)

lyrics:

I just smoked a pack I'm cutting class like Ferris Bueller
I don't study but I ace my test on the computer
if I pass the bar exam I'll have to call an uber 
used to hate my school to bits but I am not a shooter

I still never miss my shot I take it like a booster
women all have dreams of me I feel like Freddy Krueger
smoking on the autumn green the leaves smoke on that ruder
If you talking down on me I'll take your ass to school bruh

she asked me if I'm stupid
my dumb ass in a stupor
does this mean she likes me it's unlikely I'm a fool yuh

please get me a tutor
someone to look up to
no one there for me you say I'm wrong then I say fuck you

I don't like attention
think she's sent from heaven
but I'm not worth a second glance so never pay attention

they fake like the pretenses
I feel real as ever
I miss getting wasted in the night by 7/11

nobody is there for you don't rely on them loser
I hit up some artists ask for help they find it amusing
I believe I'm meant for greatness help out the whole crew yuh
I never get reply's that's fine I'm just a drug abuser

I'm a drug inducer
she fucks up I'll accuse her
fuck drugs, fuck a dumb fuck, fuck the dumb luck, drug infuser
if she pulls a fuse I swear to god I might abuse her
I pop pills like candy, candy man yeah I might lose her

smoking on the grass no tulip
cleaner than a roomba
we gon bust the roof off this here bathroom like the goonies

smelling like a sewer
smellin like manure
I been up before the early birds I'm like a rooster

it's not you it's me (prod. ʎpoqou)

killnord - https://soundcloud.com/killnord?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

thxomuch - https://soundcloud.com/thxomuch?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing\

lyrics:

(killnord)
you say it's my fault
but i know that it's not
you tell me that i'm wrong
you tell me that i should stop
i tell you that i'm not ok
but you don't give a fuck
i tell that i feel lonely
how i'm feeling stuck

now i'm sending you texts
but you don't answer your calls
i don't know what i did
so tell me what went wrong
you make me wanna cry
i don't wanna be alive
tell me this is the last time
you stand in front of my eyes
now i'm sending you texts
but you don't answer your calls
i don't know what i did
so tell me what went wrong
you make me wanna cry
i don't wanna be alive
tell me this is the last time
you stand in front of my eyes

(thxomuch)
shorty dont mind
swallow my pride
i took a left
she took a right

shawty did me wrong
shawty im lost
pick up the phone
pick up the calls

im on the drugs
it was my fault
im on my own
what do you want

swallow my pride
she on my mind
she make cry
i wanna die

(killnord)
now i'm sending you texts
but you don't answer your calls
i don't know what i did
so tell me what went wrong
you make me wanna cry
i don't wanna be alive
tell me this is the last time
you stand in front of my eyes
now i'm sending you texts
but you don't answer your calls
i don't know what i did
so tell me what went wrong
you make me wanna cry
i don't wanna be alive
tell me this is the last time
you stand in front of my eyes

(harmony)
you say it's my fault
but i know that it's not
you tell me that i'm wrong
you tell me that i should stop
i tell you that i'm not ok
but you don't give a fuck
i tell that i feel lonely
now i'm feeling stuck

killnord / thxomuch - what went wrong

lyrics: 

im worthless
babygirl youre perfect
youre my earth and
i am just your servant

im a serpent
but im learning
finish with a tercet

im stranded
crash landed
im just abandoned

banished
to another planet
ill vanish

im stranded
crash landed
im just abandoned

banished
to another planet
ill vanish

x2

house on the hill (prod. sketchmyname)

lyrics:
(yuh)
live a little, drink a little, smoke a zip
i just focus on emotions in my mix
i just cut the lows and groan into the mic
bitches love me then they leave me if im nice

i cant focus on my teacher in the classroom
im just thinking bout your back and how it bends
hide the coke inside the fucking school bathroom
im so sorry if i fucked it up again

music is the only thing that keeps me going
and your kisses are what get me out of bed
cut the beat up bitch you can call me a ronin
im just thinking about everything you said

i still worry
about you
i hope you hear this
i love you

i dont fix my hair it stays a mess
all i know is stress
im as fucked as it can get

i dont  ever sleep im way too focused on the bread
i can taste your breath
tastes like menthol cigarettes

kisses on my neck
i dont love that bitch she only loves the sex
nothing but regret 
nobody wanna

make amends 
you never hit me up when im upset
ill never love again
but really im obsessed

always asking how you been
always getting left on read
you dont show me the respect
im due i dont ever rest

swear to god i never slept
so heartbroken and depressed
no emotions i regress
no producers show me stems

baby please you cant convince me hes a friend
thats the end of that

i still worry (prod. killedmyself)

prod. https://soundcloud.com/killedmyself?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing


they envy us because we are mortal
because any moment might be our last
everythings more beautiful, because we are doomed
you will never be lovelier than you are now
we will never be here again

amidst the hawthorn (prod. killedmyself)

fifty years from now will i be gone
in half a century will i be rotting in a grave
this the type of shit that i been on
had to put this shit up on a song

everywhere i go i don't belong
i swear i don't even do
nothing wrong
this the type of shit that keep me up at night
i like when it's raining in the fall

i like when it's raining
i like when it's raining in the fall
i might build a cabin in the swamp
i might disappear into the fog
i like when it's raining
i like when it's raining in the fall
i like all the stones when they grow moss
lately i been feeling so distraught

i feel fine right now but that won't last
i dont know if I will make it back
bright red cherry frozen coke and jack
i like sleeping on the grass

fifty years from now will i be gone
in half a century will i be rotting in a grave
this the type of shit that i been on
had to put this shit up on a song

everywhere i go i don't belong
i swear i don't even do
nothing wrong
this the type of shit that keep me up at night
i like when it's raining in the fall

i like when it's raining in the fall
i like when it's raining in the fall
i might build a cabin in the swamp
i might disappear into the fog
i like all the stones when they grow moss
lately i been feeling so distraught
fifty years from now will I be gone
I like when it's raining in the fall





i like when its raining (prod. maybe)

prod. https://soundcloud.com/illsee?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

sample from merlin 

im about to hit 50 followers thanks everyone. i know its not much to you guys right now but theres nothing left for me anywhere anymore.

im drinking everclear
you were never here
never in the past
forever on my back
forever thats a fact
you look so good right next to me
ill never love again
i severed what i had
you stabbed me in the back
and i would take you back if i had to

aftermath (prod. maybe)

prod. https://on.soundcloud.com/YWTXb
inspired by greaf

yuh
ay
yah

theres a boy who knew nobody loved him
theres a boy who felt like he was nothin
theres a boy who pulled up to the function thinkin everybody loved him 
but theyre just there to drug him

cook this shit so easily youd think im makin dumplins
i got boys who down to ride i swear i got some munchkins
they can blow your brain to pieces somethin like a pumpkin
got a double cup on me no coffee in this dunkin
she said that she love me when im not me but im drunken
if i could describe my mood id say that id be sunken
im not from the boondocks but i swear we causin ruckus
this is not the 90s you can miss me with the fuckshit

this aint even sad its just the story of my life
story of my life
and i feel like im all alone in this
oh shit
but thats just how it is sometimes
and ive been getting high all the time
and ive been getting high on life
and ive been getting high on life

getaway (prod. maybe)

bando ft. vampurp (prod. kuriome)

art taken by Andrei Tarkovsky

lyrics:
fuck this why i gotta sin to fucking live
i just wanna move out in the forest with my friends
i just wanna be somebodys sombody again
i just wanna give
i just wanna live

i know i can be kinda selfish
but ill put you first you could confide upon the fact
is this by design or is it all by fucking chance
theres no motivation on the track

fuck this why i gotta sin to fucking live
i just wanna move out in the forest with my friends
i just wanna be somebodys sombody again
i just wanna give

fuck this why i gotta sin to fucking live
i just wanna move out in the forest with my friends
i just wanna be somebodys sombody again
i just wanna live

its all bad when you think like that
but id rather think my head off then accept
everything everybodys ever said
historically were fucked inside the head
this generations dead
generation z
rather be asleep then with a bullet in my head
i cant even sleep without henessey in the glass
i get flashbacks of the past
i get cashback for the cab
i been up to bat
i been fucking too damn sad

ayo fuck this why i gotta sin to fucking live
i just wanna move out in the forest with my friends
i just wanna be somebodys sombody again
i just wanna give

ayo fuck this why i gotta sin to fucking live
i just wanna move out in the forest with my friends
i just wanna be somebodys sombody again
i just wanna live

somebody's somebody (prod. maybe)

this is the last song off the ep. thank you for staying.

my soul
is hard
as stone
oh my god
despair
nightmares
torture
beware

my head
my heart
my pain
my scars

ive seen horror theres no god
we just, decay
youre just, your brain
do you hear what im saying

heavens just another one of those fairy tales
i hate, life and
ill wait for my destruction

my soul
is hard
as stone
oh my god

my soul
is hard
as stone
oh my god
despair 
nightmares
torture
beware

my chest
my heart
my pain
my scars

ive seen horror theres no god
we just, decay
youre just, your brain
do you hear what im saying

heavens just another one of those fairy tales
i hate, life and
ill wait, for my, destruction

heavens just a fairy tale (prod. maybe)

fire which never dies (prod. killedmyself)

everybody dies (prod. chivnti)

take me down to the river, throw me overboat
fill up my pockets with rocks and stones
your body dissolves as the fish chew on your bones
noone shows up to my funeral

what do you know
pick myself up
brush the dirt off of my face again

swimming with the fishes in sea major (prod. maybe)

i see 
the leaves
changing
with the seasons

from green
to a muddy tangerine
i get it now

and every day that i spent locked away, it could all be explained with this pain in my heart
and these strings we cant see they connect to our arms 
and these strings that hold me they are falling apart
and when god controls me he is playin a harp
playing a harp

and when death and disease takes us all in the end
would you hold back or would you call a friend
recall on the better days, times you had spent
times you had spent
the times you had spent
its all making sense

and we 
cant see
these things
clearly
but we
could leave
something
for the children that follow

ill empty this bottle 
cuz im feeling hallow
and this pill of truth is a tough one to swallow

i see 
the leaves
changing
with the seasons

from green
to a muddy tangerine
i get it now

and every day that i spent locked away, it could all be explained with this pain in my heart
and these strings we cant see they connect to our arms 
and these strings that hold me they are falling apart
and when god controls me he is playin a harp
playing a harp
and when death and disease takes us all in the end
recall on the better days time you had spent

and we
cant see
these things
clearly
but we
could leave
something
for the children that follow

why do we need to survive off of flesh
why do we bleed if we die for our sins
and why do we need all this pestilence
just for conservation

and how can i breath if i cant make amends
cant make amends
why cant i go back
it never made sense

i see 
the leaves
changing
with the seasons
from green
to a muddy tangerine
i get it now

i see 
the leaves
changing
with the seasons
from green
to a muddy tangerine

the strings that hold us closer (prod. killedmyself)

(yuh)
and everyday
with the time that we waste
we could turn a new leaf
or just watch one decay

and fuck everyday
someones passin away
and theyd give anything to trade places with you

ill setup camp with my feet in the grass 
so i planted my ass in the drizzling dew
and i cant feel my hands cuz i just cracked my back 
and im numb all around as i look to the moon

were more connected than you can believe 
the air that we breath is the same for us two
and the grass is still green and the birds will still sing
and theres nothing between like were stuck to the glue

but i cant repair whats been broken in two
im done pushin through fuck i tried pushing through
if theres a god i got questions for you
why take the ones who deserve to go on

my emotions (prod. maybe)

lyrics:

i hope we get rich
but i commend
all of the men
who never let money take control of them

most of us sin
some opt instead
to let their passion do what it do best

if you dont wanna do this 24/7
that aint your passion
if youre not dropping tracks every waking moment of the day
youre being passive 

if they tried to silence you just stand up and say
that shit wont happen
you and me are one of the same
you and me have this

one day we will go our separate ways
one of us will die in peace the others death is tragic
you and me are stuck in our ways
you and me can understand pain

i hope we get rich
but i commend
all of the men
who never let money take control of them

most of us sin
some opt instead
to let their passion do what it do best

i hope we get rich
but i commend
all of the men
who never let money take control of them

most of us sin
some opt instead
to let their passion do what it do best

i hope one day we can learn to
love another i wont hurt you
modern days parties and race
issues we race into our graves

and in the great grand scheme of things 
youll understand the pain we face
and understand the image youve been force fed in your brain is fake

my passion (prod. juzuuo)

lyrics:
i want all of it
youre heavensent
if i could watch you fall again
ill do it

noone could love you like i love you
noone could understand what weve been through
i could make a rope to pull you back to heaven from our sinew
i would sacrifice my spine suffice to say ill come and get you

ill carry you back to me (prod. maybe)

Lyrics:

(Verse)
Get me out of this
I don’t wanna get too sad again
I don’t wanna get too mad again
I don’t wanna, I don’t wanna, I don’t wanna think about it

(Chorus)
Three months, twelve weeks
I’m not healthy
My heads spinning
Somebody kill me

Cut the knife deep
No one likes me
They all hate me
Fuck my psyche

(Bridge)
No fucking way this happens every time 
I don’t wanna try so fuck that screaming in the mic
If you fucking play this, know I’ll never make it
If you put me on your playlist, you a friend of mine

Some days I work so hard for this I’m in overdrive
Some days I load up the project from the other night
Most days I don’t even think about making the music
Every lyric I put on is something I go through with 

(Verse)
Get me out of this
I don’t wanna get too sad again
I don’t wanna get too mad again
I don’t wanna think about it

Get me out of this
I don’t wanna get too sad again
I don’t wanna get too mad again
I don’t wanna, I don’t wanna, I don’t wanna think about
how
Life just goes on
I feel like I drown
No one knows what goes on

(Chorus)
Three months, twelve weeks
I’m not healthy
My heads spinning
Someone kill me

Cut the knife deep
No one likes me
They all hate me
Fuck my psyche


Three months, twelve weeks
I’m not healthy
My heads spinning
Someone kill me

Cut the knife deep
No one likes me
They all hate me
Fuck my psyche

BEST OF ME

THXOMUCH