CREDIT
Original：Gibson
Original Singer : ZOLA PROJECT KYO

PART
VOCAL
Row Kemonone／Shiki Rowen
Revo, ReChain: TranSinger, ReChain:  Silencer, Act2

Harm
Row Kemonone／Shiki Rowen
Deeper

Shiki Taigen
Normal PLUS

UST, Tuning, MIX: me

【ROW Kemonone／Shiki Rowen】願いの彼方 叶う日まで【FURLOID cover】

A early draft of a song I've been working on, and my first original with lyrics and vocaloid.  The instruments still need filled out and mixed better, and I want to do a major rewrite of the lyrics, especially the last 3 sections.  I included the current lyrics below, as I'm still learning vocaloid and turning the voice to be clear.  Plus they're just nice to have.   

Lyrics:
Racing forward beneath a blue moon
desperate to understand myself
medication helped me escape an empty room
but recovery’s a long journey, take a deep breath

another night filled with my useless plans
for some imagined future I’ll soon forget
my life moments in a series of hopeful dreams
followed by a much much longer series of regrets

Blue moon beams and amphetamines
I’m not addicted I tell myself
focus, please, let me finish at least one dream

Satisfaction is overrated anyway.
Focus plunge into delicious chaos
where relapse is just another long pause
so cheers to all the times that we've lost!
And cheers regardless of what
tomorrow's fuck up might cost!
Day after day plastered and numb
distracted by the stimulating blaze
of drugged grief and inebreated shame, 
but now and then who doesn’t enjoy a bit of 
self inflicted motivating pain
caused by our wasted yesterdays?

If happiness were easy as another sunrise
waiting and enduring would be enough
but untreated suffering devours these skies
and some overdoses result in an epitaph

But not yet, so I’m aimlessly losing myself,
who needs an ordinary boring life?
The road craves a bloodbath itself
and the misery glimmers crimson in the night.

the pain fuels my drive to stay alive

Beneath A Blue Moon (feat. Shiki Rowen) (early draft)

Final version of this song for now.  Reworked the lyrics a bit and tried to clean up the vocals as much as possible.  This is my first full song using vocaloid, so it's pretty rough, but I'm happy to have at least finished it... more or less...

Also made a terrible lyrics music video for it:
https://youtu.be/qgoGnpuTvx0?si=4OHMarUM13fTGYM_

Lyrics:
Racing forwards beneath a blue moon
desperate to understand myself.
Medication helped me escape an empty room
but recovery’s a long journey, take a deep breath.

Another night filled with my useless plans
for some imagined future I’ll soon forget.
My life moments in a series of hopeful dreams
followed by a much much longer series of regrets.

Blue moon beams and amphetamines;
I’m not addicted I tell myself.
Focus, please, let me finish at least one dream.

Satisfaction is overrated anyway.
Focus plunge into delicious chaos
where relapse is just another long pause. 
So cheers to all the times we've lost! 
And cheers regardless of what tomorrow's 
fuck up might cost! Day after day 
plastered and numb from a
distracting stimulating blaze 
of drugged grief and inebriated shame, 
but now and then who doesn't 
enjoy a bit of self inflicted 
motivating pain caused by our 
wasted yesterdays?

If happiness were easy as another sunrise
waiting and enduring would be enough,
but apathy and suffering devour these bright skies
and some overdoses result in an epitaph

But not yet, so I’m aimlessly losing myself.
Who needs an ordinary boring life?
This’ll hurt like hell and be a bloodbath as well
but I’ve nothing else I need to do tonight.

The pain fuels my drive to stay alive,
but keeping sober in this world is an exhausting fight,
and I’m not sure how long I even want to be alright tonight

Beneath A Blue Moon (feat. Shiki Rowen)

A typewriter's message to the person that fixed and used them.  

There are some audio glitches I couldn't get rid of, possibly from using samples of a typewriter... still learning the mixing process... but I'm sorry about them and hope they aren't too bad... they bothered me enough to add this in here though -_-

*Content Warning* 
Substance Abuse

An original piece I put together using FL Studio and Vocaloid.  The typewriter sounds are samples from my own typewriter.  I reached a completed form and while I'm still not all that happy with some of the lyrics and parts I can't keep editing it forever.



Lyrics:

Do you remember our first conversations on your old apartment floor?
You told me about all of the repairs and what you learned about me.
Our voices echoing softly, bouncing off the walls indoors.
You gave me my first name, fixed my box, oiled my hammers and keys.

You told me about the life you’ve lived and all of your problems
drying out my ink ribbon as would talk across stacks of pages
and you never seemed all that thrilled about yourself or what you’ve become
struggling with substances going in and out of a chemical daze

When I was broken, and couldn't type anymore, you repaired me.
You put me back together, piece by piece, you were my artisan.
But is it... oh is it possible to replace your machinery?
How do you repair, can you even repair a broken human?

Everyday you're only getting deeper and deeper
you've drank until you wound up in the hospital
and overdosed on something much much harder
yet you laugh it off, say for you it's normal

You're withering away, getting sicker and weaker
and not slowing down, continuing to poison yourself;
claiming you couldn't survive without it but seem too eager
you don’t seem to care anymore about your own health

When I was broken, and couldn't type anymore, you repaired me.
You put me back together, piece by piece, you were my artisan.
But now when I look at you, I'm terrified at your fragility.
How do you repair, can you even repair a broken human?

To everyone else I've no value
Just an ancient metal statue
When they take your body away
They'll just throw me away

Since you have to die
As it seems all humans do
Such poorly designed lives
And death comes far too soon

But please, please, you needn’t rush to your death
oh please, please, take better care of yourself

From Your Typewriter (feat. Rowen)

Song from a typewriter's perspective about their friend that repaired them.  Uses typewriter sounds as percussion.

*Content Warning*
Substance Abuse

An original piece I put together using FL Studio and Vocaloid. The typewriter sounds are samples from my own typewriter. I reached a completed form and while I'm still not all that happy with some of the lyrics and parts I can't keep editing it forever.

This version is an updated version with slightly louder vocals and hopefully less audio glitching... we'll see how that goes...

Uploaded a lyric video version to YouTube as well:
https://youtu.be/WEyUdveHP7s?si=IGdnBwO1tWikeQBS

Lyrics:

Do you remember our first conversations on your old apartment floor?
You told me about all of the repairs and what you learned about me.
Our voices echoing softly, bouncing off the walls indoors.
You gave me my first name, fixed my box, oiled my hammers and keys.

You told me about the life you’ve lived and all of your problems
drying out my ink ribbon as would talk across stacks of pages
and you never seemed all that thrilled about yourself or what you’ve become
struggling with substances going in and out of a chemical daze

When I was broken, and couldn't type anymore, you repaired me.
You put me back together, piece by piece, you were my artisan.
But is it... oh is it possible to replace your machinery?
How do you repair, can you even repair a broken human?

Everyday you're only getting deeper and deeper
you've drank until you wound up in the hospital
and overdosed on something much much harder
yet you laugh it off, say for you it's normal

You're withering away, getting sicker and weaker
and not slowing down, continuing to poison yourself;
claiming you couldn't survive without it but seem too eager
you don’t seem to care anymore about your own health

When I was broken, and couldn't type anymore, you repaired me.
You put me back together, piece by piece, you were my artisan.
But now when I look at you, I'm terrified at your fragility.
How do you repair, can you even repair a broken human?

To everyone else I've no value
Just an ancient metal statue
When they take your body away
They'll just throw me away

Since you have to die
As it seems all humans do
Such poorly designed lives
And death comes far too soon

But please, please, you needn’t rush to your death
oh please, please, take better care of yourself

From Your Typewriter (feat. Rowen) (updated version with louder vocals)

*Content Warning*
Substance abuse (again),  a bit of violent imagery, and masochistic ideas...

Also created a lyrics music video for it:
https://youtu.be/Oz7mY1rxCiQ?si=2hYeEy_DXlebEN55


Wanted to see how it sounded with Rowen's voice...  Had to redo all of the turning, since different voices behave differently, but I mostly like how it turned out.  Not sure which I like better...

Anyway, was fun doing the vocals again.  At least it's good practice...


Lyrics for anyone who for some strange reason wants them:

here we go into our time ahead 
love, yearn, crave, feel, follow my false heart
down with you into the hell where you bled
being true to yourself leaves a lasting mark

I'm not all that sure if i like our outlook
but still i'm enamored by your bad luck

My desires aren't good for me
virtue has no play in my reality
I don't degrade myself with dignity
please seduce me using your hardships
I think I'm an emotional masochist
oh oh oh

following into your beautiful corruption
thrusting your blades deep into my body
glimpsing my blood soaked reflection
full of your scars that conjure a rhapsody

I don't regret any of it
though I probably should quit
or resist

but I'd rather submit

Your ringed finger never bothered me
Marriage romance never were my intent 
But the ring collapsed to miserably free 
beginning your self destructive descent 

You had terrible luck, I joined on your way down 
even after realizing we were hell bound

My desires aren't good for me
virtue has no play in my reality
I don't degrade myself with dignity
please seduce me using your hardships
I think I'm an emotional masochist
masochist

following you hard into addiction
You taught me how to fix my veins
a clowder of chems, many injections
my blood has become something profane

but I had to stop avoiding sobriety
stop slowly intentionally 
killing me

but I miss being a junkie

My desires aren't good for me
virtue has no play in my reality
I don't degrade myself with dignity
please seduce me using your hardships
I think I'm an emotional masochist

I know they're shameless these dreams I seek
I've no interest in saccharine peace
I don't want guarantees do as you please
I miss our suicidal chemistry

My desires are killing me
virtue's dead now in my reality
I've rid myself of all dignity
you've seduced me using your hardships
I'm your emotional masochist
I'm your emotional masochist

Emotional Masochist (feat. Rowen)

I took a piece of music I wrote a while ago and put together lyrics for it.  Not sure if I'm happy with how they turned out, but it was fun to tune the voice to fit.  Still learning vocaloid, so any practice I can get with original songs is useful.

Not much else to say... there were some other things I wanted to do with it, such as maybe adding another instrument or adding some parts to the piano, but for now I'm happy enough and I've already spent all night just getting the vocals together.  


Lyrics for anyone interested:

Remember the cheap motels we'd stay overnight to be alone
You looked ravishing smoking in the sharp night air with the moon your halo
Remember back getting high on junk til we almost died?
When did those become the good times that always come to mind?

Let's try again fall apart in each other's arms
maybe we'll even find a reason to hold on

but we can't go back, time goes on and on
we no longer have a place we both belong

We've both fallen hard shattering wildly apart
maybe between us we'll have the pieces for one heart
we were never compatible as partners or lovers
but i'll always treasure the times, violent or sweet, we spent together

I don't care how far it gets us, this fragile stained glass heart of ours
if i'm gonna be in pain either way, i'd rather you be the cause

beautiful broken pieces are all that's left of us
these fragmented memories sterilized with forgiveness
beautiful broken pieces that remain dangerous
i'm not sure i could refuse you, no matter the request

after two weeks in the hospital I didn't see you for over a year
even longer before we could both be honest and sincere
Ideas of sex and romance disappeared but love remained
a quiet kind of love took their place with far less bloodshed

Let's try again fall apart in each other's arms
maybe we'll even find a reason to 
hold on
hold on

Beautiful Broken Pieces (feat. Rowen)

A more upbeat song with a bass drums and guitar, with a synth doing the lead part.  Used Rowen for the voice again, and i'm not sure if i like how the voice turned out, so i might rework it at some point.  I had a lot of fun with the electric guitar, trying to create a more natural sounding struming pattern for it.

Also, a deviation from my past songs, as this sort of turned into a song critiquing the US a bit... well maybe more than a bit... but i was having fun with the music and didn't think too much about the lyrics as i wrote them to fit the music as best i could.  Looking back... not sure how well they turned out... and the Tick Tick Tock title feels off, but wasn't sure what else to call it.

Anyway, if you don't like songs that get a bit political then best to skip this one.

Lyrics for anyone that wants them:

hurry hurry 
tick tick tock 
tick tick tock
hurry hurry 
before you die 
hurry hurry 
faster faster 
do you want to starve out on the streets 
hurry hurry 
tick tick tock 
tick tick tock
hurry hurry 
money is time 
hurry hurry 
faster faster 
your life is your own but don't forget that 
you don't eat if you don't work
and if you can't you're fucked
they'll profit while killing you slowly 
tick tick tick 
tock tock tock

hurry hurry my life is going no where
unless i'm busy i'm worth less 
doing nothing is a sin maybe a crime
time spent idle leads to death

hurry hurry
tick tick tock
tick tick tock
you could have a happy home 
just work yourself to the bone
hurry hurry 
your hard work will pay off
don't worry just listen
it's not like it'll all be stolen
just work til you drop

you don't need connections or family 
work always comes first
plus don't you want to be a productive 
part of our blood-soaked earth

hurry hurry 
tick tick tock
tick tick tock
all you have is time 
which you can't afford to spend
you're too poor to be free 
and that is all you'll ever be 
just another cog in their machine 
spin rust 
ruin yourself they don't care 
give your life to a country 
that'll never treat you fair

shouldn't power be used to protect the weak 
not to exploit them 
must we labor for the sake of others 
that want a nightmare 
what use are all the morals we're taught 
when we constantly see them broken 
by a country 
that profits from despair 

hurry hurry my life is going no where 
unless i'm busy i'm worthless 
doing nothing is a sin maybe a crime 
time spent idle leads to death 

slavery for chocolate 
mass murder for profit 
wipe out a few towns to cut costs for share holders 
ruin the planet and put it on our shoulders 
doesn't matter the casualties 
you can fuck up or fuck over whomever you want 
it will all be forgiven 
as long as you're rich enough 
when you're living in the 
good ol’ immoral U S A

Tick Tick Tock (feat. Rowen)

A song I started on stream  on Thursday (05/08), and i got to any early draft in 2 days.  That said, i already had the story in my head, so the lyrics were a bit easier (not sure if better).  Just took the story of a friend that was isekai'd, but from the perspective of their friend that stayed in this world.  Turned out being a bit more on the somber side... but was fun to put together.  Was also fun to try making a song up that was more or less fictional.  

I'm calling this an early draft because I still want to clean up the vocals, so they're a bit more clear and expressive.  I also haven't done much at all with the music side in FL Studio outside of the basic piano and guitar.  I don't think i want to add too much more, but I'd like to at least clean up the instruments and parts that are in the song.  

I used Shiki Rowen for the vocals again too.  It feels like you can get a lot of expression out of their voice.  


Lyrics for anyone interested:

Your smile isn't fake for the first time I can remember.
Yet you have a ghostly stare, with eyes at peace.
Your voice comes alive as you explain your new adventure,
but hesitating none-the-less burying the lead.

You hand me your phone and walk me through how to unlock it.
I think I'm beginning to understand your intent.
Where you are going you won't need it,
and you're here to see me with the time you had left.

But I want to ask 
is this forever?
Is this other world truly better?
But you've already made up your mind,
and I don't want to argue if this is goodbye.

You pull up a short list labeled trusted allies
and make up a story for me to tell them,
but it's a story of how you die.
Is this a lie? Are you really going to another realm?

I can't help but cry out my questions.
You lean in and hug me without answering
and whisper "I love you" an abrupt confession.
"I already knew" is all I end up saying.

You back out of my arms and disappear.
"Thank you" are the last words I hear,

and now this sudden silence.
Your phone still in my hand.
All that's left of your is your absence.

I love you too.
I loved you.

But I wanted to ask
is this forever?
Is this other world truly better?
Are you there now, finally free?
Have you found friends and family, are you happy?


Our Last Meeting Before You Left For Another World (early draft)

Took the story of a friend that was isekai'd, but from the perspective of the friend that stayed in this world. Turned out being a bit more on the somber side... but was fun to put together. Was also fun to try making a song up that was more or less fictional.

Not sure about how it turned out... the instrumentals are pretty bare, but wasn't sure what else to add, so i just did my best to clean everything up.  If nothing else, it was good practice for tuning a voice in vocaloid...

Lyrics for anyone interested:

Your smile isn't fake for the first time I can remember.
Yet you have a ghostly stare, with eyes at peace.
Your voice comes alive as you explain your new adventure,
but hesitating none-the-less burying the lead.

You hand me your phone and walk me through how to unlock it.
I think I'm beginning to understand your intent.
Where you are going you won't need it,
and you're here to see me with the time you had left.

But I want to ask
is this forever?
Is this other world truly better?
But you've already made up your mind,
and I don't want to argue if this is goodbye.

You pull up a short list labeled trusted allies
and make up a story for me to tell them,
but it's a story of how you die.
Is this a lie? Are you really going to another realm?

I can't help but cry out my questions.
You lean in and hug me without answering
and whisper "I love you" an abrupt confession.
"I already knew" is all I end up saying.

You back out of my arms and disappear.
"Thank you" are the last words I hear,

and now this sudden silence.
Your phone still in my hand.
All that's left of your is your absence.

I love you too.
I loved you.

But I wanted to ask
is this forever?
Is this other world truly better?
Are you there now, finally free?
Have you found friends and family, are you happy?

Our Last Meeting Before You Left For Another World (feat. Rowen)

I tried VERY HARD to make it sound close to the original version

music + lyrics : noripy https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HhOK1-whpsc
.ustx + tuning + mastering : me

Butterfly On Your Right Shoulder / 右肩の蝶 [獣音ロウ] Cover

I've always enjoyed making little bits of music, thought I'd put some of the more interesting ones here. 

I'm a Vtuber on twitch, and I also used to be a typewriter.

I've also started doing songs using Vocaloid.  I'm mainly using Shiki Rowen, but it'd be fun to experiment with others along the way.

My name is Eternal White Mage.
UTAU, DeepVocal NeoN_Le-U © author Eternal White Mage
UTAU Retae Dizur © author Ouri Hishio

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