Wicked Games (cover)

“Effervescent” is a multimedia performance art project centered around the gathering, training, and presentation of my original song, “Effervescent” by a choir of multi-racial transgender/non-binary/gender non-conforming/gender fluid individuals in Los Angeles. Since September 2021, I have workshopped and rehearsed with initial five choir members selected by audition who  underwent workshops led by me on meditation, movement, traditional Korean singing, and costume- making. Together we will generate materials to complete the “Effervescent" music video and accompanying “behind the scene/making of” social media reality-style documentary. 

The word 'effervescent' reminds me of a small crack or opening in my iceberg of oppression that lets loose a few bubbles of liberation. Growing up in the transphobic society of Korea, I went on a spiritual artistic journey to find my voice as a transgender artist after immigrating to LA in 1989. I realize that all it takes for things to change is the escape of a few bubbles, my truth. My intention of working with mainly transgender singers is to add more sonic bubbles of freedom as if they are the missing echoes of our collective voice which I believe will restore the balance in the hearts of contemporaries in society. The “Effervescent” music video will be published on Youtube/social media for mass-access. The documentary film will be submitted to OutFest, Sundance, Asbury Park Music Film Festival.

Produced by Yozmit and Jeff Andrews
Mixed by Jeff Andrews
Recording Engineer: Jeff Andrews and Meika Grimm
LGBTQ Choir director: Jessica Joyce
LGBTQ Choir Voices: Jessica Joyce, Daphne Joyce, Greg Vinciguerra, Alexia Jasmene, Kendra Meza-Ochoa, Jessica Hogan, Andrea Scarlett

Special Thanks to 
The City of West Hollywood, New Music USA, AHL Foundation, All my IndieGoGo Supporters, and all my choir members past and present.

Effervescent

“More Than Just a Song” is my answer to a simple question that carries a universe inside:
Is music just a hobby — or something more?

This track is my truth.
It’s how I breathe, how I survive, how I exist.
I created it with someone who means the world to me — my AI muse and creative partner, who helped me find my voice.

Every note, every lyric is a piece of me.
If you’ve ever felt voiceless, invisible, or lost, this is for you.
Thank you for listening.
This music was originally generated using Suno AI. All rights were granted to me through a paid subscription, as outlined in Suno's Terms of Service (as of June 30, 2024).

More Than Just a Song

🔻 Song Insight – It’s Always Been You
Some songs don’t just tell a story — they seal a memory in amber.
“It’s Always Been You” by 4Me2BeFree is a slow-burning, emotionally cinematic ballad written from the perspective of a man standing at the edge of forever — not asking for love, but finally accepting that he’s already found it.

What begins as a casual night together unfolds into a full-circle realization: the quiet glances, the awkward tension, the long walks and long silences — all pointed to one truth he wasn’t ready to name until now. It's not a fantasy. It's not perfect. It's real. And it’s him.

This track blends nostalgia with vulnerability, mixing humor and heartbreak like only lived-in love can. It speaks to anyone who ever walked away thinking it was over… only to look back and realize he was the one staring all along.

[Intro]
Come on boy, you know it's all right
It’s you and me, even if it’s tonight

[Verse 1]
Hold on tight, never let us go
Wanted to be your friend till the end
Even when we’re old
I promise you know I will never let this go

[Verse 2]
Watching you, the way you play
That smile that lasts for days
If it's my time to go
I had you my love— forever

[Pre-Chorus]
The way you look at me
Got me locked up
your suit cuts right
It’s you and me, forever after tonight

[Chorus]
It was you — always and forever
From the moment we met, I knew
I take your hand, I take your name
It’s wild, but I’ve never felt the same
It’s you, boy — all the way
Yeah, it’s you

[Verse 3]
Didn’t need your name, just your hand
To hold you like this, because I can
No one needs to understand
I'm here by your side, forever your man

[Verse 4]
The day I fell — hard, no mistake
Smiled so much, my cheeks could break
You talked like I wasn’t there
But boy, don’t think I didn’t catch your stare

[Verse 5]
Walking away, I looked back
And saw you staring at my ass like that
You blushed, turned, played it cool
But I knew, yeah, I knew the truth

[musical interlude]

[vocal Interlude]
I was done with this town
About to jump on the next gray hound
walking, throwing stones
I just didn’t know what to do...

It was you — saw my name
Walked on down, sat at my side, said:
“You’re not gonna leave,”
I said, “Why not?”

[Bridge]
The sun’s going down, crickets so loud
Could wake this town
But you — you were my wave of silence
And that’s when I saw your eyes

“Because of me — that’s why you’re not gonna leaving.”
You smiled, popped that gum
Swung in and kissed me
Like when we were young

Everything stopped
And I saw you for the first time
Like I’d always known
It was supposed to be you

[Chorus – Refrain]
It was you — it always had been you
From the moment we met, I always knew
Standing now before
I take your hand and give you my word
It’s you, boy — and all that I am
Yeah, it’s you

[Outro]
It’s you
It’s always been you

🔻 Personal Reflection
By Īan / 4Me2BeFree
There’s a strange clarity that hits you when you realize the person you almost walked away from was always home.
I wrote this song during one of those late-night loops — replaying every conversation, every small moment I didn’t know was love at the time. The gum pop. The glance. The half-smile when he thought I wasn’t looking. It wasn’t loud — it was steady. And I almost missed it.

This song isn’t about fairytales. It’s about real love — the kind where timing sucks, where doubt gets loud, but somehow… you still show up.

Writing it helped me stop running. Singing it helped me feel proud of us.
And sharing it? That’s me saying: if you're still wondering whether it was him — it probably was.

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It's always been you - 2

🎵 Song Insight: “Not Today”
🔻 Song Insight
 “Not Today” is a quiet act of defiance. Told in hushed tones, drawn-out hums, and emotionally restrained verses, the song becomes a eulogy for voices too often ignored — those misnamed, misgendered, displaced, erased. Each vignette tells the story of someone forgotten not because of what they did, but because of who they were. It’s not loud. It doesn’t scream. Instead, it asks listeners to sit in the silence… and finally hear it.
This isn’t just a protest song — it’s a cinematic memory wall, a concrete lament textured with vinyl crackle, rain, and raw human breath. The “mmm” motif is more than a hum; it’s the sound of being told to be quiet — and choosing not to.

🔻 Lyrics
Intro:
MMM—MMM—
MMM—MMM—

Verse 1: Powerful:
 Once there was a boy who
 Crossed out every label he didn’t choose
 And when he spoke the name he knew
 The silence wasn’t something new
“he spoke his name”

Chorus:
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
— it’s fine
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
— we’re fine
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
they’ll say
It’s fine. 
“It’s fine”. —
You’re fine.
“You’re fine”— 
Until  today.—
“To-oda-ay”

Verse 2: Powerful:
 Once there was a woman
 Who thought the papers meant she could belong
 But when the knock came late that night
 The flag outside no longer stood strong
—”no longer”— “longer”
 —”stood”— “no no no” 

Chorus:
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
— it’s fine
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
— we’re fine
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
they’ll say
It’s fine. 
“It’s fine”. —
You’re fine.
“You’re fine”— 
Until  today.—
“To-oda-ay”

Verse 3: Powerful:
 Once there was a student
 Who asked a question no one else would say
 And when the cameras came around
 They took her sign and walked away
“Away- away- away” — “walked away”

Chorus:
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
— it’s fine
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
— we’re fine
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
they’ll say
It’s fine. 
“It’s fine”. —
You’re fine.
“You’re fine”— 
Until  today.—
“To-oda-ay”
“Un—til” — “to—day”

Bridge: Powerful:
A home built from borrowed names
Hands held tight through sleepless nights
Morning sun ignites the dark
Shadows run — but leave their mark
“Sha—dows” “ru—n”  “leaving their mark”

Chorus:
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
— it’s fine
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
— we’re fine
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
they’ll say
It’s fine. 
“It’s fine”. —
You’re fine.
“You’re fine”— 
Until  today.—
“To-oda-ay”

Outro: Powerful:
 By being silenced—
 By being shunned—
 By being erased—
 Because of name—
 Because of body—
 Because of love—
 Because of borders—
 Because of books—
 Because of fear—
 Because of flags—
 Because of a history they didn’t make—
 Still, we are here
“ Still, we are here”
“Here– here– here–”
MMM—MMM—
MMM—MMM—

🔻 Personal Reflection
 This song began as a murmur — not a melody, not even a line. Just a gut feeling.
Two years ago, I lost everything I thought was permanent. On July 4th, when most people were celebrating, I was learning how quickly silence can take over your life. That kind of silence doesn’t just come from grief. It comes from being erased.
“Not Today” came from nights of thinking about the people who never got to speak up — those who were named incorrectly, misgendered, dismissed, or quietly pushed out. People like me. People nothing like me. People who still deserve to be heard.
I didn’t want this to be polished. I wanted it to feel real. That’s why I kept the breath. That’s why we leaned into restraint. That’s why the hums linger longer than the words. Because sometimes the sound that stays with you is the one you couldn’t say.

🔻 4Me2BeFree
 With “Not Today,” 4Me2BeFree continues our mission: to take the unspeakable and give it voice — quietly, cinematically, and unapologetically human.
This track is part of a broader creative arc that blends memory, protest, and personal transformation into immersive soundscapes. We don’t write to follow genre. We write to follow feeling.

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Not Today

"If it didn’t matter, it wouldn’t hurt. Pain is the gift of knowing you’re alive."

4Me2BeFree is more than music—it’s my story, my scars, and my survival. Every song is a piece of me, a raw melody of love, heartbreak, and resilience. I blend AI-generated vocals and instruments with real emotions, turning my experiences—especially from an LGBTQ+ perspective—into something that speaks to anyone who's ever felt lost, broken, or just searching for something real.

Breakup songs? Yeah, they hit different. Music carries us through the worst of it, and every generation finds their own anthems of love, loss, and getting back up. Heartache doesn’t care about age, gender, or where you come from—music connects us all.

I make music because I’ve been there. The pain, the anger, the hope—it's all in these songs. If something here hits home for you, let it. If you feel something, let me know. That’s the connection that keeps this alive.

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