LYRICS:
this shit crack pipe evil
bab told me not to say it but I did it
I know what it's like to live a whole fuckin life and not fit in
I do I did it
cut my inner thighs with a knife late at night 
just to feel something different
when it scabs I itch it
I remember trips on the river with my dad 
cuttin whiskiers off them fishes
cuz I like it when they missin
somethin in my brain missin
hide the knives that's in the kitchen
cuz the boy been actin different
my bad I'm trippin
hide them pill prescriptions
cuz if you have em then I'm in em
and I'll down em when I get em
no way round it I won't listen
I'm like 6 or 7 xanax in
and I'm still in my depression
therapist don't fuckin get it
so this blunt my only session
jacky d and jimmy b kick it with me like we all best friends
misery is all I be
I be at peace when I be starting shit
my life like a fucked up comedy
and I'm the star of it
everybody watchin me
lookin at me laughin at me
at least I'm entertaining to the ones that never mattered to me
hurt the ones that matter to me
I wish somethin mattered to me
besides the shit that matter to me




Spits in face/leaves (prod. 2o8 x akoge) #BsDs OTW...

 LYRICS
I’m the life of the party that I don’t wanna be at
I’m the death on the cards when shit get closer to mars
I’m overdosin so hard that I don’t wanna relapse
And I’m doin bad again and I’m losin half my friends
What the fucks happening I can’t remember shit
Everyone mad at me but I don’t remember it
I hope I don’t remember this
feeling


Gets Drunk Brings Blunt (prod. colombo)

LYRICS:
Pissin in the alley off a couple grams and dutch in hand
Percodans I’m clutchin them and grubbin them for lunch and then
Strike another tally for the fuck ups that I done today
And paint another piss up on the wall up in that alleyway
This my second tall today before these was a fifth 
I mixin it all today so I ain’t feelin shit
Really wish you’d call today at least shoot me a text
But you ain’t really feelin me that’s why I’m so upset
This my third fall today baby I’m a mess
Passed out in the stall today I’m drinking like a vet
You ain’t even check on me it’s fuckin up my head
So I’m pissin in the alleyway and I’m throwin up again

Drunk Shane Kicked Out of Bar (prod. colombo)

LYRICS:
I’ve been watching you watching me watching you
I know that you feel me when I’m lookin in your room
Slowly crack your window now I’m smelling your perfume
Things start to go missing cuz I need a piece of you
I just can’t get over you even though we’ve never met
Haven’t heard your voice but it’s stuck inside my head
And I know you heard that noise I made but I hope you stay in bed
Cuz I’m in your house again 
I’ve been watching you
I’ve been watching you 
I love watching you
I’ve been watching you
I’ve been watching you


Nightmare Movie Horrible (prod. 2o8)

LYRICS:
Slow life mud hell 
sludgin thru these fuckin lives
Circlin the whiskey bottle top 
like a summer fly
I’ve been getting low in shit again 
Lower than my eyes
I can tell they noticin again
When i’m gettin high
I’m just hopin that this shit don’t end
Like how I think it will
But everything point in that direction
Pills in my digestion
Girlfriend sayin that I’m too obsessive
And I’m a psychopath
Well if she don’t feel these things I feel
She’ll feel the aftermath
My lips blue face bloated
Hours since I overdosed
I hate you want you to know it
Haunt you like the fuckin ghost
That haunts me from the empty bottle
Trudgin thru this sleepy hollow
Circlin and swimmin and I’m drownin 
In the bottom of the whiskey bottle
Like a dying summer fly
It used to be just you and I
But now every time I think about you I just wanna die
I hate my life
I’m sick of it
I’m sorry Bab
I’m over this
A full house of self loathing loneliness
A self destructive sacrifice of selfishness
I’m out of beer I’m out of here
I disappear
It’s crowded here
I get claustrophobic
Even by myself
So what does that tell you 


Performer of the Bed of Roses (prod. woodpakk)

LYRICS:
This the worst bullshit that I been thru
I’m blamin myself for it
Dark mental health horrid
Tortured then I melt
Burn the earth cuz I’m in hell for it
Can’t believe I fell for it
Everybody ah ha
Poison in the well
I drank the poison like it’s wah wah
Everybody blah blah
Blah blah blah blah
I can’t hear em
They don’t sound like shit
Compared to real voices
Lately I make real choices
Nightly I hear weird noises
Sometimes I see shadows too
I hope I see more of them and less of you


Attacked by Demon (prod. woodpakk)

LYRICS:
I seen red mist
When those bullets hit and penetrate
I seen black mist
In the abyss 
Guard the gates of the upper planes
Constant change won’t let me leave here
Stuck inside the lower spheres
But it’s ok I like it here
The darkness make me feel like me
I can’t do that love and light
Black flame burning bright
Life real fuckin dark
Kill myself then let the birds pick apart my corpse
And then rebuild myself
Everytime it hurts
But from the dirt grave I reanimate 
A different face from what I was before
I try to change my ways
But all I do is recreate a better hell
I wish you wish our wishes falling down
To where the fishes swim
And mosses brim
The edges of the water 
Of the wishing well
Don’t wish me well
My words is spells
I’m feeding off your feelings
Of me feeling 
Turning our hurt into healing
But it’s one sided
But that’s just how life is
When you vampirising 
Triple 3 two times it
Triple 3 two times it


Finger Bleed Pact tell Him " (prod. 1searchlight1)

LYRICS:
I’ve been waking up in hospitals more than my room
Get well soon written on the balloon
But getting well is my problem
I’ve got lots of problems
She said I’m a problem
Babe I’m barely conscious
Linoleum tiles
IV’s and the vials
Weird robot dials
That I don’t understand
Fell down on the floor
I can’t walk or even stand
Two showers later 
Glue’s still on my chest
Two weeks later 
Bruises still on my arms
Four years ago when you reached in my chest
And you tore out my heart
I still wanna die


Looking at your pics to be safe but (prod. woodpakk)

LRYICS:
I have this reoccurring dream
Where I finally snap and beat the shit out of you
Your bloods everywhere 
It’s all over the tile
I feel better than I do
When I’m thinking about you
When I’m alone in my head
Self loathing again
But every bed feels the same
When it’s an empty room
And I’m sober again
It’s the hundredth try
I’m the kind of guy
That your friends don’t like
Cuz I’m just bad news
The elephant in the room
The kid that won’t stop screaming
I’m the terrible twos
I lay up at night
And plan suicides
But I know if I’d die
You’d still be there too
Your haunting me
Don’t bother me
I take a handful of valium
Artificial sleep
Your haunting me
Don’t bother me
I take a handful of valium
Artificial sleep
I have this reoccurring dream
Where I finally snap and beat the shit out of you
I have this reoccurring dream
Where I finally snap and beat the shit out of you
I have this reoccurring dream
Where I finally snap and beat the shit out of you
I have this reoccurring dream 
Where I finally snap 
I finally snap
I finally snap


Scared to go inside my old door but got pulled in so went willingly (prod. akoge)

LYRICS:
I’m broken the bandage and xanax
Won’t hide the miserable
Cuts all on top of each other
Turn into scar tissue
Drinking and drugs again
All because I miss you
Wake up and then pretend
That I don’t got these issues
If I wake up at all
But I hope I don’t
Feelings that bottle up
And then they overflow
So I tilt the bottle up
And let it burn my throat
When I feel not enough
It’s almost always
Forever in a rut
Permanent long face
Save me the blunt guts
Ima chop it later
Ain’t no savin me
I’m too far gone
Ain’t no savin me
I’m a lost cause
I like to play with my nose
Just to pass the time
Inhale then blow out the smoke
This a good blunt
I like being alone
Almost all the time
I like being alone
No one gets me
Fuck the one who said
That shit get easier
When you keep going
Cuz that’s some bullshit
Fuck my life I said
Since the beginning
Every since a kid
I knew how I felt
But that don’t mean
That I like myself
Percocets and weed
For my mental health
Hurt myself and bleed
I’m back in control
Why is being me
A daily struggle
Why do I do the things
That I do
Why do I feel the things
That I feel
How do I tell who’s fake
And who is real
I wanna fade away
And disappear



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