produced by xona

@caspywaspy

-lyrics-

I hate when you crash, I’m sorry you have felt like that
you idolize everything I am 
but you don’t care where I’ve been -at-
I hate who I am
you don’t seem to understand 
do you see me just like that?
but do you know that I just can’t..?

fighting against myself until the party ends
it’s not good for my health but it makes me understand 
tell me am I dying? cause I don’t feel alive 
baby I’ve been gone and I’ve been working 9-5
crying in my bedroom I don’t wanna lose my life but I keep wasting it away and it’s going by so fast

I hate when you crash, I’m sorry you have felt like that
you idolize everything I am 
but you don’t care where I’ve been -at-
I hate who I am
you don’t seem to understand 
do you see me just like that?
but do you know that I just can’t..?

take any more of this 
a new season and a new best friend 
I feel so bad, I don’t want to lose this
cause I’m in love with who she is
I’ll push everything that grew
on my chest and let you through 
and no i don’t feel deja vu
when I know I love you

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forever w/ casperrr

ly caspy <33

lyrics:

waking up the same as u left me
pillies to the brain, i got plenty
tell me run away in the bentley
take away the pain that u fed me

im in the function
n i cannot function 
lung combusting
repercussion
u on sum fuck shit
playing me, percussion
~death wish~
blood gon drip my neck like issa necklace
name on top my wrist, look like a setlist
wake up, bake the bowl, this shit not even breakfast
eating breakfast
i be on my dread shit
blood gon drip my neck like issa necklace
name on top my wrist, look like my setlist

{casperrr}
i tried to run
but i an't fast
tried to fight 
but i knew i wouldn't last
these feelings
kicked my ass
but there's no way
i am ever going back 
wake up
drag myself outta bed again
face up
tryna face my oldest fucking friend
sadness
i think this is the end
timeless
im afraid i have no time left 

putting all my songs on her playlist
goth bitch
stare me in me eyes and
she looks flawless
falling 
deep into a faucet
i ain't notice
wore my heart on my sleeve
until you came and u broke it

{shizukesa + casperrr}
waking up the same as u left me
pillies to the brain, i got plenty
tell me run away in the bentley
take away the pain that u fed me

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death_wish w/ casperrr (yung rospo)

shoutout to everyone in this song ily all :) <3
prod. sorrow bringer (goat)
mix: epitome, kanashi, autumn, casperrr
master: epitome

EPITOME:

if you look into my blackened soul 
you’ll see i’ve begun to decompose 
and with nothing but a rope around my neck
i’ll hang in the gallows dead
hold back the tears you’ll shed
leave all the words unsaid
i was hanging on by a thread
it’s better off instead 
that i’m 6 feet deep beneath the surface
i’ve said this once i know i’m worthless
i fall short of being perfect 
can you show me that i’m worth it
am i worth saving?
my body’s decaying
my flesh is rotting 
i feel like a zombie
i think the ends approaching
i feel it upon me
now i know i’m not worth saving 
i’m trying but it doesn’t seem to be enough
no one gives a fuck
i don’t even know what i’ve become
(can you tell me what i’ve become i give in too easy oh the end has just begun)

KANASHI:

Ion even know what I’ve become 
shits got me so fucked up…
And pls don’t wake me 
I’m busy taking a break from life
Ion wanna be a part of this anymore 
One foot in and the other out the door 
Cuz nothing lasts forever 
So just toss me like a wrapper on the floor…

AUTUMN:

i can't tell tonight apart from all them in the past
i can speak, i can breathe, but my brain is gonna gache
if you feed off of me, hope you like consuming trash
waking up inside this bed 
is something i'd rather not have
i'm tearing at my skin
could it get much worse than this
that's the only thing i'd ask
besides when you'll text me back

CASPERRR:

don't you text me back 
please i don't wanna relapse
feel this agonizing pressure on my chest
i can't breathe,i can't eat i can't get no rest  

fucked up, over what u told me
u left and now i'm lonely 
got 5gs and smoked that whole shit, holy-moly
u really said i was ur only
that guy was just a homie 
and now im dyin slowly, lonely

epitomeoffailure x kanashi x autumndropsdead x casperrr - blackened soul (sorrow bringer)

produced by xona, ruevi, & oc

big thank you to all individuals who helped make this song possible <3

@ruevi @prod-oc
@heylog
@hiraethsry
@sleepywater
@sinxi
@caspywaspy
@vilsynth
@valerii
@deadfishh

the lyrics were over 4000 characters and that's the limit for soundcloud ♥

-lyrics-
https://genius.com/Xona-avoid-ii-lyrics

xona

avoid II w/ ruevi, heylog, hiraeth, sleepwater, sinxi, casperrr, vil, valerii & deadfish

Spotify link-

https://open.spotify.com/album/4ykkGMsGj8AIjBR0dKIvY4?si=S3NODJyGSRaYlOME-pl-BA

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Deja Vu w/ Yokai Dreams

prod: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCNG1W2kKDmWGnGDtm0i1SSg
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Reality Ripper (prod. hero)

[+ Tosha]

1st - @user-411557229 
2nd - @northshoremusic 
3rd - @emptychest 
4th - @imperial223
5th - @strivemusicau 
6th - @caspywaspy 
7th - @soulfadexo 
8th - @x1fern 
9th - @noxious-nights 
10th - @navyxower 
11th - @shizukesaaa 
12th - @hoeplessboy

Holding Onto Something [+ Tosha x Kev]

𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮 𝓲𝓼 𝓼𝓸 𝓶𝓾𝓬𝓱 𝓫𝓮𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝔀𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓲'𝓶 𝓷𝓾𝓶𝓫

@caspywaspy this turned out fckin incredible ilysm bro

- lyrics -
tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

i got so much to say
but there's no point to mention it
i love to just decay
a void marks where my presence is
am i even around?
am i making a sound?
i smoke
and then i choke
and then i fold
im going deep into the ground

tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

tape my fucking mouth and blow it shut
mixing different drinks with teeth and blood
nothing can erase the shit ive done

isolating myself in a wooden hut
listening to birds singing when im up
forget about the things that got me fucked

i can't keep people close
cuz of the wounds i hold
some new and some old
but none of them close
why do i keep drowning feelings
and not search healing in all of the people i know

tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb
tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

all plats

somber w/ casperrr [prod. santana]

prod. project luna (s/o them<33 amazing prod)

i know baby and its killing me
i know maybe it was make believe
run, so cold in these maple leaves
one day, saying know you wanna leave
drive slow, baby where u taking me
die so, bleed thru me fatally
sidenote memories be haunting me
eyes closed, i cant even go to sleep

drive slow, driving for eternity 
die so, taking time to try n breathe
sidenote, no sleep n  im goin geek
eyes closed, all i see is u n me 

craving for sum remedy 
or something to help w helping me
listen to the melody im 
really about to take my leave
speaking with all the honesty 
nothing could really fw me 
more than seeing you
breaking what's left inside of this shell of me

this life it was forced upon me
just know that i didn’t ask for any of this
the candle light burns dim and slowly
now i must go
before i start to fall to pieces

i know baby and its killing me
i know maybe it was make believe
run, so cold in these maple leaves
one day, saying know you wanna leave
drive slow, baby where u taking me
die so, bleed thru me fatally
sidenote memories be haunting me
eyes closed, i cant even go to sleep

let me rot away.~

the haunting (ft. casperrr & epitomeoffailure)

lyrics ⬇️
when autumns around the corner i feel much worse
cuz i like the birds
and you held my worth
i think that the time against me holds up a curse
where i can’t discern 
what did i learn

dont let me back in
i wont get anything done
cuz
up in my head i been doing enough
youre making me lust when i really want love
and your breaking my trust when im off of the drugs

so i dont wanna do this
oh i hate to shove
but just gotta do it
i gotta give it up

how could i be losing my touch
i dont wanna prove that life been rough
but everything ends when it blows into dust
and i tried to find a friend just to gimme what i want

(Casperrr)

u cursed on me a spell
or sumthing like that 
just like icarus fell
im falling with no catch
ño one hold me tight 
or keep me sight 
at least when im at the verge
of~ commiting suicide 

im sorry u rotted me to the core
just something i can't ignore 
the visual display was nasty 
and all i can see is  gore 
if u'd see it thanr u'd be bored 
i wish dat u'd change but u can't anymopre

tragic
slicing all my arteries 
bleeding out
spilling, fallin of the kitchen sink
coping now 
with what u wanted me to be 
wanted me for urself
that's why u tried to kill me 

\

artery w/casperrr (blocktane)

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