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these songs ain’t really songs more just me venting n shii
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And the way I understood the world around me form the unfortunate situations that shape my perception of reality and for the most part I was a product of what I was exposed to and in the life long lesson and the many metal, physical, emotional aspects that made it so much more than what it was and hopelessly drowning out the sorrows, failing in school cause I was mainly concerned bout the life back home along with not having anybody like minded to talk to, on a self expansion level, and music was always there to show the passion and expressiveness but only got the dreams that it sold us, not knowing what your really asking for or not knowing the full context of the curses bring and the reality of one’s life experience. 
To sum up the perspective of how I made the songs and the energies of all the songs reflect the way I was in the exact moment of recording the songs 
“Ive been in & out of a depressive state of mind & it feels like I can't fix it.
So l put everything into my music, i feel l can't talk to anyone bc I'm ashamed of my emotions. I get scared, I'm only human. But I feel so different from others, so distant. Idk what to do I just know music. Even if it doesn't pay off in the end for myself, I know others will come across and feel it.
Understand and know they're not alone.”
heard from a wise man with a dollar and a dream
HAIGO in the Díne (Navajo) language it translates to “In The Winter” and The DA Stands For “Desert Arizona” and Somber would be the production name of the beats I made and brief picture description on the type music and lyrics that would make the music for what it is, really songs just venting and taking the listener to a mental place or state of mind and the instrumentals are the portals to the different worlds created by the words and sounds
trying to show that shit does get grim from out here and the dept caused and the pain i cause to the families affected with Domestic Violence/Abuse, Drug/Alcohol Abuse, Mental Health Crisis and Homicidal and Suicidal Ideations 
So thats why I distance myself
Cause I know how much resentment builds up and envy grows But no matter where I go the grimness of my life will remind me that
I know when the boat is sinking
And throw trash at my grave to prove it's how you're feeling
I know the sick dark twisted shit I've done and got myself into but I was hurt aswell and just as confused about my life and dis function of the life around me. The people around drunk, meth up, coked up thinking that shits was just their personality or their attitude
I was just a child around grown folks dealing with their own demons that there drinking themselves from them pushing weed and crack to smoke and deal with the pain of not being able to provide or sell the shit to provide but risk your freedom
I know that I'm barely 17 and the grimness and sickness I was exposed to is not normal and ever since a youngin I've been tryna fill up that grave and turn it into a garden on truth weather your a fan on flowers, trees, herbs or plants but you see that birth of unfortunate circumstances and it growing into a garden or and area close to water under the bridge
And as this shit experience of life keeps unfolding I've learned to cope with music and put my thoughts, and emotions on to something so I feel heard or understood
and not keeping it in my head having it deteriorate my mind but I keep trying so move past this and grow from it but it's like the weight of the world on my shoulders so I smoke up to feel the weight lifted of how much I fucked up and I focused on what's a ahead
of me and not what's behind me
Death.

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