METANOIA056 - Twisted Mind
June, 25 2021

beatport: https://www.beatport.com/release/twisted-mind/3402165
bandcamp: https://metanoiarhythm.bandcamp.com/album/twisted-mind

01. Katabtu - Twisted Mind 
02. Katabtu - Twisted Mind (Antaares Remix)
03. Katabtu - Reflection
04. Katabtu - Reflection (Apaj Remix)

A mind is a set of faculties: 
Consciousness, imagination, perception, thinking, intelligence, judgement, language and memory, emotion and instinct.

METANOIA056 named "Twisted Mind" by our fellow Katabu gives you the opportunity to let your mind flow, twisted and somehow spherical, and is coming with two reinterpretations by Antaares and Apaj which makes this EP a 'mindful' designed piece of music.

@katabtu | @antaares | @apaj_duc
www.metanoia.one

Twisted Mind

Katabtu - Twisted Mind (Antaares Remix)

METANOIA555 - WannaCry
April, 08 2022

bandcamp: metanoiarhythm.bandcamp.com/album/wannacry
beatport: www.beatport.com/release/wannacry/3642051

01. coss - Hoisin
02. coss - WannaCry
03. coss - Https
04. coss - Running After Dark

The new year starts with fresh tunes
by our very own coss.

The WannaCry EP contains four original songs
made for the hungry downtempo realm.

Hoisin and Running After Dark containing lovely
koto melodies layered on stompy grooves.
Https and WannaCry are more abstract playing styles
of slow electronic dance music.

Enjoy the full EP releasing in April 2022 on metanoia.

@coss
www.metanoia.one

WannaCry

Running After Dark

u need metanoia

listen to "metanoia":
https://ffm.to/bradenrossmetanoia

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lyrics:

[Intro]
So throw me a lifeline
Bitch I’m so tired of you on my timeline
Like you got something to prove
It’s so childish
Envious cypress
Afraid to let me be myself
You need metanoia

[Verse 1]
My spirit disturbs you
It’s easy to tell
‘Cause you’re so adverse to
You treating me well
We’re not destined to serve you
Not under your spell
Guess I shouldn’t concern myself with the bullshit
The notion
You’re not someone who would pull shit
And omit
All the truth you left me frostbit
I lost it
Let me drown in the ocean
Your hateful devotion sinks me

[Chorus 1]
So throw me a lifeline
Bitch I’m so tired of you on my timeline
Like you got something to prove
It’s so childish
Envious cypress
Afraid to let me be myself
You need metanoia

[Verse 2]
I know I fucked up now
I know I killed your self-esteem
Don’t gotta tell me how it feels
‘Cause everything was real to me
To me
I guess I’ll just keep texting your momma
Pull up to the party with drama
It wasn’t fate it was karma
Fuck me in the back of your Honda
I’ve been too caught up in myself to do right
I’m losing my patience everyday
I think I’m losing my life again

[Chorus 2]
So throw me a lifeline
Bitch I’m so tired of you on my timeline
Like you got something to prove
It’s so childish
Envious cypress
Afraid to let me be myself
You need metanoia

[Outro]
So throw me a lifeline
Bitch I’m so tired of you on my timeline
Like you got something to prove
It’s so childish
Envious cypress
Afraid to let me be myself
You need metanoia

metanoia (w/ ryen)

i'm just a robot

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lyrics:

[intro]
I wanna die
No not literally, fuck
Just wanna cry
‘Cause I hate the way I look
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Anything I can do to feel unalive

[verse 1]
‘Cause i’m a robot
With human skin
And try as I might
I can’t overwrite the code within
I’m just a robot
I don’t exist
Extinguished the light
I gave up the fight
For views and clicks
But somehow I still break down every time you call
I’m just a fake now, not supposed to feel at all
So why am I so unsteady
Fused with so much pain already
Yeah I wish I could just start again
No pretend
But everyday I look inside with discontent
Shit doesn’t relent

[chorus 1]
I wanna die
No not literally, fuck
Just wanna cry
‘Cause I hate the way I look
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Find the shrine confined within, embrace mine
You can’t contrive
To remove me from the book
Blood intertwined
Art, virality mistook
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Anything I can do to feel unalive

[verse 2]
They make this shit look easy
Hijack their eyes to feed me
He’ll reach inside of their souls’ convince them that they need me
But what’s the meaning
I’m bleeding
I feel my life force depleting
So what’s the point of succeeding
If it’s not for myself?
It’s just for everyone else
Couldn’t help but put my pride on the shelf
I guess I’m going to hell
We’re all frauds, ain’t no contest
I’m no god, just a complex
I don’t get it
How they hid it
So well
(And I don't wanna die but maybe it's easier)
It’s no fun, to be broken
Burning sun, I’m unchosen
They don’t get it
How I did it
Don’t tell
(I pushed and they folded, my body was molded wrong)

[bridge]
I tried to bottle it up
But you threw salt in the cut
My body’s turning to rust
I guess I’ll wallow in it
They said it wasn’t enough
So now I’m calling their bluff
Not who they think that I was
I strive to keep it hidden

[chorus 3]
I wanna die
No not literally, fuck
Just wanna cry
‘Cause I hate the way I look
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Find the shrine confined within, embrace mine
You can’t contrive
To remove me from the book
Blood intertwined
Art, virality mistook
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Anything I can do to feel unalive

unalive

maybe i'm focusing on all the wrong things

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lyrics:

[intro]
‘Cause I don’t wanna talk
I’d rather die
Before I let you see the real me
You feel me?
I’ll let my other side conceal me
Then you’ll see
You gotta let me go 

[verse 1]
Optimism, ain’t that shit funny?
When the world we live in’s all 'bout the money
Money ultra rich own half of, won’t budge it at all
We turn to politicians, hope they’ll do something
Feigning altruism, but they do nothing
Crushing lives as they take rights from the people I love
So they’ll say “what do we do?”
As if there’s something to choose
We’re living lives of abuse
All at the hands of a few
I’m asking “what do I do?”
I guess I thought I could choose
Between the art and the views
A stable life to pursue
Obtuse, reduced my character

[chorus 1]
‘Cause I don’t wanna talk
I’d rather die
Before I let you see the real me
You feel me?
I’ll let my other side conceal me
Then you’ll see
You gotta let me go 

[verse 2]
Jokes on us
They don’t give a fuck about nothing
At all if it don't benefit them all ways
I’ll say what's on my mind but it’ll get lost
Get lost if you ain’t picking it up
The thing 'bout me is I already lost
I dream 'bout peace and a renaissance
I can’t show more than I'm letting on
Just know I tried for you
Opened my eyes to this industry I was mortified
They tryna trip you and fuck you up on the borderlines
Think imma burn all my bridges and my important ties
I hold my tongue
They hold all the money money
Go round me used to wish they loved me loved me
Oh I know better than that now
Oh I know better than that now

[chorus 2]
‘Cause I don’t wanna talk
I’d rather die
Before I let you see the real me
You feel me?
I’ll let my other side conceal me
Then you’ll see
You gotta let me go
Look
'Cause I don’t wanna talk I'd rather
Die before I let you see the
Before I let you see the
Person I’ve become
In my pursuit to be someone
I shoulda fuckin known
You gotta let me go

[outro]
I tried to let you go
But empathy means nothing when you're
Scared to be alone
Pick up the fucking phone

break! (feat. Jay Kim)

i don't wanna hurt ur feelings but i'm best all alone

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lyrics:

[intro]
the voices; they never leave
talk down to me endlessly
i’m trying my best to breathe
let it be

[verse 1]
this darkness inside my head
has purposefully misled
all of my closest friends
from ever getting close to me
‘cause i don’t wanna hurt your feelings but i’m best all alone
yeah i just know i’m unappealing when i’m left vulnerable
and i have problems with my eating, mind's at rest when i don’t
i admit it
i let the other guy take control
i hate my skin
so i’ll just tear it off
and lay my bones out on the tabletop
there are those that find perfection within
so i guess that i’d do anything to get to it
and i don’t wanna die but maybe it’s easier
roll tide; he got crushed by a meteor
i’ll leave behind my ungodly exterior
i pushed and they folded
my body was molded wrong

[spoken]
what are you doing?
get back here
you are nothing
you need us

[chorus 1]
i hate you
you cut all my slack, drove a knife in my back
thinking i won’t face you?
soul is under attack, brush it off like it’s plaque
homie i pre-date you
and i can re-create you
gonna rip the beast from the art
so i can tear him apart
discarded
i hate you
got me feeling insane, parasite in my brain
tryna find a way to
cut it out from my veins, keep the venom contained
had to see the pain through
we were told a fake truth
gonna stab the beast through the heart
for all the lies he’d impart
discarded

[verse 2]
lies, greed, misery
that should tell you everything
your eyes breed sympathy
object of antipathy
i fuck things up
and then i wonder why strings get cut
just grind me down ‘till i’m dust
i’m disgusting
go on discuss me
go on discuss me
i’d die for this shit bro trust me
don’t lie when you say you want me
i try but i still can’t breathe
said you rescued me
made it look so easy
deceit don’t please me
it never will

[chorus 2]
i hate you
you cut all my slack, drove a knife in my back
thinking i won’t face you?
soul is under attack, brush it off like it’s plaque
homie i pre-date you
and i can re-create you
gonna rip the beast from the art
so i can tear him apart
discarded
i hate you
got me feeling insane, parasite in my brain
tryna find a way to
cut it out from my veins, keep the venom contained
had to see the pain through
we were told a fake truth
gonna stab the beast through the heart
for all the lies he’d impart
discarded

[chorus 3]
they hate you
you cut all of my slack, now i’m taking it back
maybe i can’t blame you
i was under attack, introspection i lack
thought that i’d create you
someone they’d relate to
but they saw the beast as the art
it’s time to tear him apart
discarded
they hate you
made me fucking insane, motivational drain
tried to find a way to
keep the numbers sustained, but that shit was in vain
had to see the shame through
you were told my fake truth
wanna stab the beast through the heart
for all the lies he’d impart
discarded

[outro]
fake
clone
liar
they hate you
die

discarded

far off memories; scattered dreams

listen to "watch u sleep":
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merch:
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lyrics:

[intro]
stay awake to watch you sleep
stomach aches as knees go weak
far off memories scattered dreams
did i make a promise i can’t keep?

[verse 1]
got your hopes up just to watch me let you down
a better shot you’d have if i’m not around, my love
i tried to be your hero
but I’m too cold for you now
so i’ll keep my all from you
until i’m dead in the ground
risen up from hell
kiss and never tell
broken as i fell
a happy story sells
living as a shell
killed my former self
no way you could help
so baby try not to dwell

[chorus 1]
stay awake to watch you sleep
stomach aches as knees go weak
far off memories scattered dreams
did i make a promise i can’t keep?

[verse 2]
day in
day out
spending my life tryna break out
was focused too much on the payout
lost faith now
ain’t no doubt
left all of the homies on read
not getting sleep cause i’m working instead
working to make sure my family’s fed
if i can’t protect her i’d rather be dead
so
took a risk and now i’m paying with my life
it’s kinda funny making money off of lies
i try my best but even then, will it suffice?
in keeping everyone that’s close to me alive and well
guess time will tell
my minds confined and tied to hell
i’m sorry
i want you to eat, so i’ll stay starving
i’d much rather bleed than leave you falling
than leave you falling apart
make no mistakes where i’m going, i should have known from the start
it takes a break down to know who you are
it’s time to
to wake now i’m marked to restart again

[chorus 2]
stay awake to watch you sleep
stomach aches as knees go weak
far off memories scattered dreams
did i make a promise i can’t keep?

[outro]
stay awake to watch you
stomach aches as knees go weak

watch u sleep

i swear i thought i knew

listen to "purpose":
https://ffm.to/bradenrosspurpose

listen to my music:
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merch:
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lyrics:

[intro]
Spent my whole life deciding
On what I wanna do
So why am I feeling like this
I swear I thought I knew

[verse 1]
My eggs are in the basket
My chips spilled on the floor
I tried to bribe the dealer
But he won't give me no more
I stole some from the others
And booked it for the door
They took me down
And and spit me out
To where I was before
It was a stupid reason
To let it hold me back
I know it hurts your feelings
To hear me talk like that
Not here to make excuses
For what it is I lack
Just tired of feeling useless
Fuck, I'm so good at that

[chorus 1]
Spent my whole life deciding
On what I wanna do
So why am I feeling like this
Like I can barely move?
Try suffering in silence
The weight would bury you
Trust me I'm tryna like it
I swear I thought I knew

[verse 2]
I'm not one for power trips
But I know I'd trade it all for this
I was blind to have faith in roads I picked
Now I'm dying to see the end
And I tried to be the one you needed
I was trying to be something rare
Tell me how to make you feel like he did
God, it hurts to be so unaware
It was a miscalculation
An unfit generation
In a shit situation
With our lives all fueled by big corporations
To give means for creation
That demands innovation
Guess I had no chance from the start
Got stabbed through the heart
They ripped me apart
By spending my youth telling me I was smart
Dissuading my art
In favor of charts and graphs
And corporate plaques
No regard

[bridge]
I do not follow the path
Watch me say no to the cash
You give it and I'll give it back
Can't beat me in soul that you lack, yeah
This shit is a lot to unpack
The odds will forever be stacked
Don't tell me the code can't be cracked
'Cause this shit is all that I have

I do not follow the path (and I tried to be the one you needed)
Watch me say no to the cash
You give it and I'll give it back (I was trying to be something rare)
Can't beat me in soul that you lack, yeah
This shit is a lot to unpack (tell me how to make you feel like he did)
The odds will forever be stacked
Don't tell me the code can't be cracked (God, it hurts to be so unaware)
'Cause this shit is all that I have

I do not follow the path (and I tried to be the one you needed)
Watch me say no to the cash (spent my whole life deciding)
You give it and I'll give it back (I was trying to be something rare)
Can't beat me in soul that you lack, yeah (on what I wanna do)
This shit is a lot to unpack (tell me how to make you feel like he did)
The odds will forever be stacked (so why am I feeling like this?)
Don't tell me the code can't be cracked (God, it hurts to be so unaware)
'Cause this shit is all that I have (like I can barely move)

I do not follow the path (and I tried to be the one you needed)
Watch me say no to the cash (try suffering in silence)
You give it and I'll give it back (I was trying to be something rare)
Can't beat me in soul that you lack, yeah (the weight would bury you)
This shit is a lot to unpack (tell me how to make you feel like he did)
The odds will forever be stacked (trust me I'm trying to like it)
Don't tell me the code can't be cracked (God, it hurts to be so unaware)
'Cause this shit is all that I have (I swear I thought I knew)

[chorus 2]
Spent my whole life deciding
On what I wanna do
So why am I feeling like this
Like I can barely move?
Try suffering in silence
The weight would bury you
Trust me I'm tryna like it
I swear I thought I knew

purpose

Artist: M.E.T.A.N.O.I.A. aka ISPANETS (Krasnodar, Russia)
Name: Apocalypse [December 2024]
Genre: Progressive House / Underground Music
Release Date: 18.12.2024
Exclusive: Deep House Moscow

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M.E.T.A.N.O.I.A. aka ISPANETS ‒ Apocalypse [December 2024]

https://soundcloud.com/katermukke/02-mira-christopher
https://soundcloud.com/kleintierschaukel/kleintierschaukel-motomia-christopher-schwarzwalder-remix
https://soundcloud.com/katermukke/04-la-veronica-christopher?in=katermukke/sets/kid-simius-don-juan-enterprise
https://soundcloud.com/iannisritter/iannis-ritter-christopher-schwarzwalder-bob-ross
https://soundcloud.com/trndmusik/premiere-coss-stepping-into-fire-christopher-schwarzwalder-remix
https://soundcloud.com/iannisritter/iannis-ritter-christopher-schwarzwalder-toulouse
https://soundcloud.com/archemusik/a2-feathered-sun-ft-chris
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Deep Down clubmix - JoKe & Chris
I lost a World - Chris
Meuterei - Chris
https://soundcloud.com/ursl/2-ursl023-i-christopher
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"Do Not Break" LP - 02/28/2025

As a producer, musician, DJ and serial collaborator, Chris Schwarzwälders distinctive style of deep, restrained house is hard to pin down, but you’ll always know it’s him when you hear it. 

Born in Frankfurt am Main in the 80s, he started playing hiphop in the 90s. While making beats on his MPC2000, he dropped into Offenbach’s Robert Johnson club and fell in love with techno. 

In 2009, Chris moved to Berlin and started DJing at KaterHolzig, where he found a group of people who thought about music in the same way he did. In contrast to the trends of the late 00s, the sounds being made from this little paradise on Berlin’s river Spree were slower, softer, and more soulful than a lot of what was being played in clubs at the time. 

It was here that Chris began to cement his reputation as both a solo producer and collaborator, who was capable of bringing his trademark sounds to a whole number of side-projects - many of which have gone on to play to crowds around the globe. He joined the Feathered Sun collective in 2013, together with a group of friends including Acid Pauli, Nu, Jo.Ke and Raz O’Hara. Dreamy, groovy and often improvised, the collective represented a special kind of musical freedom in which a group of producers came together to create something new in a singular, live moment. 

At the same time, Chris’ friend Mira was making moves of her own, and they started to play back-to-back sets, soundtracking the legendary Monday mornings of KaterHolzig, and now, Kater Blau. The two, who are both residents at Kater Blau, have now been playing together internationally for almost a decade, and have formed a common musical understanding that translates throughout every one of their sets - deep, clubby and melancholic. This partnership has also carried on into the studio, where they have collaborated on numerous hits. 

His most light-hearted side comes out in collaboration with Iannis Ritter, where the two musicians take on a weirder, more melodic & electro approach than Chris’ other proejcts. 

If you were to ask him, Chris would describe himself as reserved, logical, rational, melancholic and humorous. Which is why you’d never hear him telling you about the hundreds of nightclubs and festivals he’s played around the globe, or the number of hits he’s had with his productions. If you’re lucky though, Chris might tell you about his favourite synthesizers, and get lost in a conversation all about electronics and sound. Which is exactly where Chris wants to be - lost in electronics and sound.

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