produced by me
engineered by me
written by me

lyrics:

and i hate this weather
its almost the end of september
its almost fall
when i gave u my all
im waiting here to to hear ur voice on call
baby i dont wanna be alone
so please pick up the phone
ur the only one i want right now
ill be laying here in my bed all alone
if u dont wanna hear from me
ill leave you alone
baby i miss u now all my days are grey
nothing is appealing my sense of worth went dull 
like the blade in my heart

god i can see the seasons changing 
is it almost fall
when i end it all
when u dont pick up my call
so ill stall
until i run out of time
maybe i will end it all
everyone will laugh no one cared at all
i gave the world my all
god i can see the leaves changi ng
is it fall already
ur words cut deadly

stay

produced by me
engineered by me
written by me

lyrics:

im too far gone
i swear im too far gone
baby u should jus run
theres nothing here to love
i jus needed to see u
but ur not in the mood
so ill go to bed in this empty room
i swear im always falling to my doom
even on my good days i fill it with gloom

gloom

produced by ryan kelly

lyrics;
i dont wanna fight the feelings but im falling apart
let people i called my friends get close 
just for all of them to use me for my big heart
said it 45 times i always try my best
but for fuck sake i always miss my mark

so im at the function ripping the cart
sparking a dart because fuck a vape
i liked it better when i was gonna drown in the lake
i liked this life better when i used to stay up late
playing games like fortnite and minecraft
now i havent seen my family in a fort knight
and I got diamonds like im in the mineshaft
sweat soaked sheets, i have these bad dreams
in a room full of smoke, scrappapers on the floor hallway filled with smoke, smoking on cookie, smoking on propane
just to try to numb my pain, it works but for how long. 

dont wanna fight

wrote this on my birthday and didnt get a chance to record it

produced by ryan kelly

lyrics;
i should just leave now
but i put my guard down
now look at these walls i put up fall down
i should just goto sleep now

girl im just grime & scum
so girl its another day im climbing out the sewers
and fuck everyone, did you really think id do that to her?
fucking with my head now im breaking down
i know i'm not the one girl i'm jus taking my turn
i told u i wasnt interested but than i was the one that started to flirt
play this game again, its stupid but i guess im falling for her
playing this game really does make my head hurt

i got my feelings hurt
so i'm gonna break down again
its all because shes leaving again
i let her and she played with my head again
now  im dying again
oh fuck i said again like 5 times
i'm repeating it 
because its easier than thinking about whats happening
its my birthday and i dont wanna fight
i took these shrooms to feel alright
yall fucked wit my head n killed my mind
and now im not feeling alright
2025 is the year i die
can u change my mind before i take my life
its 11pm at night
and im sitting here crying in the mic

girl im just grime & scum
so girl its another day im climbing out the sewers
and fuck everyone, did you really think id do that to her?
fucking with my head now im breaking down
i know i'm not the one girl i'm jus taking my turn
i told u i wasnt interested but than i was the one that started to flirt
play this game again, its stupid but i guess im falling for her
playing this game really does make my head hurt



11pm

sample from @wraithontheporch
production by rainydays

lyrics;

maybe

produced by ryan kelly x xyjae 

lyrics;
running, running, running from my past
hiding from everyone

sparking this blunt up 
than i hit record 
2 minutes later im throwing up
this music shit a 9-5
no one can match my output
but the anxiety taking over 
ive had enough
i jus need to smoke to feel good enough

i locked myself in my room
i'm always falling to my doom
im taking these drugs to stop thinking about you

i ain't been by myself in a minute
everytime i talk to my friends its usually about business
working this music its like a 9-5 
but im barely living this way
record like 5 songs a day and 3 of them get thrown away
its a process, 
they miss me being around but im obnoxious
i had the shit i wanted, than i lost it 
i got content, i got used to having everything
but now that its gone, its all i want
now that your gone, your all that i want
each song is about her, each song is about me
eitherway i dont wanna live this way
ima sober up just to publish the album
than i go back into my depression
god i hate my thoughts collecting
i wanna take a shovel and bury them
stand me in front of a judge 
and sentence him
shell of the person he used to be
theres not much left of him


stoneflesh

produced by secre x wraith
feat @web

lyrics;

i been trying to switch up my lyrics
i tried to switch up my mix
i got my friend to teach me how to master
like it even matters

like every one hates my voice & everything i make is shit
switch up my tone like it matters to anybody
like how cool can multiple voices really be
how the fuck have i been doing this for 5 years 
spent all this time, wasted all the blood and tears
wasted so much time for what. im still a nobody
want people to love me 
but i'm jus a boy from the country
im not counting bands or getting this money

i'm just a nobody
wanted to be somebody
but im still a nobody
want them all to love me
but i'm just a nobody

i been trying to switch up my lyrics
i tried to switch up my mix
i got my friend to teach me how to master
like it even matters

nobody w/ web

produced by rainydays 

lyrics;
shallow graves
empty bottles click in my backpack
world is fading to black
slowly losing my self
going mad
everyone leaving me
its getting sad
i just wanna runaway
and forget everything i ever had
i just wanna runaway

i still remember it all
take me back to those days in fall
when i stayed up late waiting for your call
its like i almost cared
after you left
now every time i get a text
i ignore it and go on with my day
 


shallowgrave

produced by me this beat is currently exclusive by @marsmal  w/ @wraithontheporch

shadows on the wall (marsmal exclusive) w/ wraith

cottage pt2.

produced by wayside x jolst

image was made w/ ai

lyrics;
i lose myself in this forest
i built this cabin deep in the woods
take the candle and light the wick like i knew you would
burn it all to the ground 
just so i have nothing but ash and dust
what if i was right, than you might just trust
what if, what if you actually cared for once

hold out for the darkest days
there only a few minutes away
can i ever get a break
things weren't like this before
now every thing is at stake
i cant escape this fate
trap myself in this realm
im locked out of heavens gate
just like its easy 
im a fallen archangel
lucifer the fallen angel
i destroyed my halo 
ripped off my wings
shunned from my home
i got no where left to go
im gonna die all alone
climbing out this hole

i lose myself in this forest
i built this cabin deep in the woods
take the candle and light the wick
burn it all to the ground 
just so i have nothing but ash and dust
what if i was right, than you might just trust
what if, what if you actually cared for once

cabin

songs i wrote about a bunch of girls an archive of a man who i once was.

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