"I Don’t Do Illusions" is a deeply emotional track woven with haunting violins, capturing the moment someone stops accepting deception in love. It’s a quiet but loud rebellion against masks and false promises. It's  a demand for truth, no matter how raw it may be.

I DON´T DO ILLUSIONS

"I gotta hand it over
I lay it on the line
I don’t do illusions
I don’t waste my time
Bring your truth fast forward
Please leave the games behind
Hold up your heart and I'll meet you in kind.

Promises ain’t paper
No they're more than air
Fragile like a mirror but oh so rare
Don’t put a crack in what’s already there
If you’ve got the courage
Show me that you care.

Give it all to me
Give it raw and real
I’m not a puzzle
I’m not a deal
Don’t come with masks or tricks concealed
My love burns bright
It’s sealed in stainless steel.

Yeah I need the fire
Not hurricanes, not even winds
A steady kind of blaze that never thins
If you're playing safe
That's where it ends
Only pure hearts leap where devotion begins.

You can’t fake a spark or claim the moon
I know the rhythm
I’ll hear the tune
You gotta dance now
Not just croon
Show me your faith
Before it’s too late.

Give it all to me
Give it raw and real
I’m not a puzzle
I’m not a deal
Don’t come with masks or tricks concealed
My love burns bright
It’s sealed in stainless steel.

So give it to me
Lay it all bare
I don’t chase shadows
I want you there
Hold your love up
Don’t leave it to spare
Devotion’s the throne we both can share.

Please note:

I don’t do illusions … 
I’ll show you that I care! 
No longer I do wanna waste my time 
All I want is you to be mine."

Songwriter and Lyrics: BONDLEZZ (Torsten Ulrich Galts)

I DON´T DO ILLUSIONS (violin drama)

In this episode, we’re finally spilling the tea on the other people in our lockdown story - the side characters you’ve heard about in passing now take centre stage. From intense costume parties to impromptu photoshoots, we found creative and hilarious ways to distract ourselves from being trapped living with our narcissist flatmate. It’s part drama, part comedy, all real. Come meet the cast of chaos who helped us survive the madness, one themed night at a time.


Bizarre Bedfellows w/ Seraphina & Aurelie Ep 7 09/06/25 - [Voices Radio]

Power dynamics in relationships can significantly affect our emotions, wellbeing and quality of life. Power or control in relationships is often misused. This program describes the types of negative power plays we often experience in relationships and the root causes behind them.

Host: Kaysie Vokurka, Nutritionist & Lifestyle Medicine Practitioner
Guest: Jenifer Skues, Health Psychologist

The Power Base of Relationships - 240029

"The Sphinx" rises from the shadows of the '70s as a bold, blues-drenched reawakening of the Amanda Lear classic. This is no simple cover, it’s a sensual rebirth, draped in drama and mystery. With echoes of Mariah Carey’s emotional depth, a gifted male vocalist brings new life to the tale, channeling desire, power, and vulnerability in every note. A timeless myth retold.
Seductive, soulful, and utterly spellbinding.

THE SPHINX

[verse 1]
I wish I could be like the king
Who said to his people: my friends
This is now the end
If we loose the battle
We shall live forever.
(and we will live forever, oh yeah)

[verse 2]
The people of the sun will remember this day
And give us immortality
Long after I've gone
Long after the sun.
I wanna be like this king
But I can't stand the pain
My friends
(I can’t stand the pain, oh no)

[chorus]
And I keep looking for all the faces I had
Before the world began.
I only know desire and my poor soul will burn Into eternal fire
And I can't even cry
A sphinx can never cry.
(A sphinx can never cry, oh no)

[bridge]
I am standing in the sun
I wish that I could be
A silent sphinx eternally.
I don't want any past
Only want things which cannot last

[chorus] 
And I can't even cry
Through God knows how I try 
A sphinx can never cry
And sphinxes never die.
I'm famous or am I infamous ?
It doesn't matter much any more

[outro]
Phony words of love or painfully truth
I've heard it all before
Appraisal or critics and even politics
A conversation piece
A woman or a priest
It's all a point of view.
I am standing in the sun

( and I will always, always stand here in the sun) 

Songwriter and rework: BONDLEZZ (Torsten Ulrich Galts)
Original Lyrics: AMANDA LEAR

THE SPHINX (dramatic blues edit)

This week Coop and Taylor discuss Jean Laplanche's The Temptation of Biology: Freud's Theories of Sexuality. Topics include seduction, leaning-on (Anlehnung), Oedipus, polymorphous perversity, desiring production, instinct, drives and much more. 

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Jean Laplanche - The Temptation of Biology: Freud's Theories of Sexuality

In Darkness Love Dances All Alone

Verse 1:
In the somber tones, entwined in love's embrace, 
Modern relationships, choked by greed's embrace. 
Family ties, a torn web in despair, 
Lost in upbringing, wounded in the misty air.

Refrain: 
In darkness, love dances all alone, 
Empathy whispers, in shadows, it's sown. 
Spiritual dimensions, a silent plea, 
Capacity for love, a song that'll always be.

In darkness, love dances all alone, 
Empathy whispers, in shadows, it's sown. 
Spiritual dimensions, a silent plea, 
Capacity for love, a song that'll always be.

Verse 2:
The ego rises, narcissism in view, 
Illusion of possession, a deceptive hue. 
Cosmic unity's whisper, a sea of stars, 
Evolution of consciousness, we traverse so far.

Verse 3:
Beyond discursive thinking, perspectives ignite, 
Human intelligence, emotionally takes flight. 
Materialism's weakness laid bare, 
Soul's evolution, the universe's share.

Refrain: 
In darkness, love dances all alone, 
Empathy whispers, in shadows, it's sown. 
Spiritual dimensions, a silent plea, 
Capacity for love, a song that'll always be.
---
By Rainer Kurka
Produced with Magix Music Maker
Cover picture: Leonardo; prompt: Rainer Kurka
Brandenburg/Germany
2024/01 - new production: 06/30/2025


In Darkness Love Dances All Alone

Since he's so smart he'll probably figure it out one day, or he won't

egotism

more to come soon. also realized it's quiet but i dont care.

lyrics:

There's a shadow at the door
It's heading out with no remorse
Never seen again it'll return when I'm a corpse

The fog that drapes the land 
It's seen for miles, cant grasp with hands 
I guess the echo's in your chamber's getting dim

I don't wanna give, I just wanna live
pouring water through a sieve
none of its caught and it goes nowhere.
Ice and wind

Another room, another day, another season
Another feeling, another reason to call me a liar now.

Ice and Wind

I made a song out of the lies he told me. With one line of truth as the chorus!

A Song Made of Lies

This is a song for when you feel nothing about everything - but a reminder to keep dancing!

Anhedonia (The Final Discard)

I am a roleplay character named Mau Katjie who lives in a world called Khemet. I have been using SunoAI to bring my emotions and heartbreak to life.

For a wealth of life changing information visit:  3abnaustralia.org.au/radio/listen 

3ABN (Three Angels Broadcasting Network) Australia Radio is the "Mending Broken People Network," broadcasting Christian content 24/7.

Hi! I had my first soundcloud episode from 2012 until end of February 2025. Because my account was hacked, I had to make a cut. I wanted to start anew with a reduced collection of my best songs. Now, with a new header at the homepage, I continue with what I love most: making music. 
If you like my music please share & like, thanks!
Let's keep on rockin' the attic! Rainer K.

Your Favourite DJ's Mom's Favourite Station.

Broadcasting live from Coal Drops Yard, London Tues-Sun 11-11

www.bondlezz.com

"Welcome to my world of music where each song is a mirror of my inner self.
As someone diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and living with hypersensitivity, my emotions run deep and so do my lyrics. 

Writing music is not just a passion, it's a lifeline. 
It helps me process the chaos, the beauty, the pain and the moments of light.

Each song I create carries the weight of real experiences drawn from struggles, intensity and vulnerability. 

I write to understand myself and hopefully to help others feel understood too.

While studying Songwriting and Sound Engineering I also explore the use of AI music production tools to expand my emotional storytelling with modern and expressive soundscapes.

All lyrics in my original songs are written by me, born from my inner voice and truth.
(With the exception of reworks or covers.)

Thank you very much for listening to my tunes and stories.
If my songs resonate with you, know that you're not alone."

Let´s keep posted ... 


„I think songwriting is the ultimate form of being able to make anything that happens in your life productive.“ – Taylor Swift.

New tracks tagged #narcissism