||is this how it feels to take a life?||

~[track 3/?]

prod me
bg vox + additional prod @dramatrial
bg vox + additional writing @micahcallari

🦋 \\ lyrics // 🦋

[verse] ~ @jauntsen
the mess you made around can’t be undone
that’s what you think!
could the problem be what you’ve become
that’s what you think!
nothing that you’ll say to me 
that will help me ease my mind 
so listen what i’m saying please
you can’t ignore the signs!

[prehook] ~ @jauntsen
cause you couldn't be
(it's alright, alright)
what I thought you seen
(it's alright, alright)
just a subtle taste
(it's alright, alright)
that’s soon to turn to waste

{{tts}}
is this how it feels to take a life?!

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
she’s not bleeding out!
I swear I need a little more time
(she needs a little more time)
I’m not one for myself
I never asked for help
I’ll play the cards i’m dealt.

[verse 2] ~ @jauntsen
the silence is overwhelming 
I cannot believe the words you are telling me
cause i dont know what to do in this situation

I saw myself in her eyes
the blood on her hands was mine
she stood in for my demise
Is this how it feels to take a life!

Bury her soul in my mind
I push her off to the side
And hide the stab to my pride
cause now I shed the tears she used to cry

[bridge] ~ @jauntsen
cause you couldn't be
what you thought you seen
It will be her eyes next time you see me face to face
for now it’s just a taste
that’s soon to go to waste
remind me what could happen if I step out of my place

the blood’s dried on the floor
it's staining the decor
avert your eyes from me and I will not be that surprised
no matter what I try
my destiny’s to find
A brand new me to see a brand new outlook through my eyes

(It’s alright, alright, alright)
(It’s alright, alright, alright
(It’s alright, alright, alright)
she’s bleeding right out of her eyes
(It’s alright, alright, alright)
(It’s alright, alright, alright)
(It’s alright, alright, alright)
don’t think I’ll make it out alive

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
she’s not bleeding out!
(she needs some time to breathe x2)
she needs a little more time
I’m not one for myself
I never asked for help
I’ll play the cards i’m dealt.

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she's bleeding out!!

this one was on some car seat headrest type timing. i literally got in the car and wrote it in like 15 minutes, made the rest in an hour or something stupid

lyrics:
i’m too fucking sick to party
or do i just need space?
always seeking validation
from the one’s who’d spit right in my face
so i’ll show up to your party
stand around in a corner to pass the time
cover my face with plastic cutlery
if i don’t say a word then i should be fine

i should have said i’m fucking sick
i should’ve have i’m fucking sick
i should have said i’m fucking sick
cuz it’s harder to say i hate you
although i hate you

6pm we’re at my place
i told my friends not to bring their cellphones
i do not wanna leave a trace
of anything at all

my little sister gets a text
i forget how ingrained you are, ingrained you are
and i
i should have said i’m fucking sick
i should’ve have i’m fucking sick
i should have said i’m fucking sick
cuz it’s harder to say i hate you
although i hate you

overstepping boundaries
that needn’t be stated
i’m too big a baby
to stand my ground
do i say more?
i don’t think so

houseparty pushover

song abt not taking care of your body and unfortunately projecting your own bad behavior onto others.

lyrics:
taste the flesh
from the inside of a mouth
when my teeth fall out
and my bones pierce skin
and you look at me with those eyes
can't wait to rub it in

i mistook my size
i ate with my eyes
it was never enough
skin was rough
burned with any touch
i feel sick
touch my neck
my skin's cold

feel my ribs
underweight
said i'd change but i'm preoccupied

(others are doing worse so i'm fine)

i'm in a pool
i'm scared
stuck in the middle
with chlorine in my hair

and i look at my hands
practically withering away
as they prune
brush it off, i keep on sinking
till it's finally over

it wasn't on purpose
but my priorities warped
it was temporal pleasure

i'm sorry to my mother and father
you were right, you were right, you were right

decay

most of the melody from https://soundcloud.com/threedimensionsapart 's splice pack

ambient intro

roo's band

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