Lifting the Veil

A picture of ice... wind... a cold face... and thoughts. A new winter, or maybe a ray of sunlight in between? In silence you can hear the noise inside; in stillness you can feel what is moving you.

A Memory Of Icy Tears

Cover version of Jamie Lawson's beautiful tune "Some Ships" with natural stream sound (personal recording) in the background.

Some Ships (Jamie Lawson Cover)

Lapdog

Stumble Bumble

Where Is The Time?

Day 1 - Simplicity

The first improvisation in my 30 Day Improvisation Challenge. 
Since I often struggle with wanting too much complexity, I gave in to allowing the piece to flow smoothly and simple.



Simplicity

After reflecting my thoughts on changes of place, work, inner wishes and direction I felt I want to sit down on the piano and express the inner joy of moving ideas and the satisfaction of realizing bits of my inner voice telling me what I want to do in the near future.
I found that Hermann Hesse's poem "Stufen" ("Steps") is very true, when it says:

"Und jedem Anfang wohnt ein Zauber inne,
Der uns beschützt und der uns hilft, zu leben."

("A magic dwells in each beginning, 
protecting us, telling us how to live.")

The full poem: 
(taken from: http://mindmastery.wordpress.com/2007/02/17/hermann-hesse-steps-stufen/)

Steps - Hermann Hesse

As every blossom fades
and all youth sinks into old age,
so every life’s design, each flower of wisdom,
attains its prime and cannot last forever.
The heart must submit itself courageously
to life’s call without a hint of grief,
A magic dwells in each beginning,
protecting us, telling us how to live.

High purposed we shall traverse realm on realm,
cleaving to none as to a home,
the world of spirit wishes not to fetter us
but raise us higher, step by step.
Scarce in some safe accustomed sphere of life
have we establish a house, then we grow lax;
only he who is ready to journey forth
can throw old habits off.

Maybe death’s hour too will send us out new-born
towards undreamed-lands,
maybe life’s call to us will never find an end
Courage my heart, take leave and fare thee well.

Der Zauber des Anfangs

Do you remember the last time you lived a hectic day, running around, organizing, talking a lot; and then you came home... quiet... calm...rhythmic pulsation of the day's energy.
What is going on in you? Are you still yourself? Is your body at a stand-still, but your mind is racing? What do you think? Are you tired? Who are you!?

Can you find this island in yourself - your true retreat, where you will find what 10 hours of "everyday-life" were not able to provide? The path might be hidden for your physical eyes, but trust your feeling, it will guide you... and maybe this improvised musical thought can as well serve as a fire in the dark to lighten your way... 


"At the End of the Day"

Flute - Randy Jackson
Piano - Max Weichert

The stream is a recording by myself.
The bird song is a sample taken from freesound.org named "lolitaperdurabo dawn-birdsong".

I'd like to express my heartfelt gratitude for this wonderful collaboration to Randy (@soundcloud.com/randy-jackson-1), who literally breathed magic into the musical space we created! A true artist and poet of the winds :) 
If you like music from within, please take some time and listen to his woodwind creations!

Enjoy listening and let your mind wander inwards to find your heart.

At the End of the Day - Randy Jackson feat. Max Weichert

"Who am I..."

Every now and then this question comes back. Never easy to answer. 
New aspects of "me" are discovered in each situation. Some of them seem familar already, others I try to avoid - I am afraid to look mindfully at them. But then there's this moment of insight: Why fear? Why being afraid? 

I close myself to the world around me by being fearful of looking clearly at myself, of accepting me as I am or as I THINK I am. Inner freedom - true peace - is closed in in the same instant. 

But by daring, by being brave, letting go the blockage I put on myself, by allowing myself to be the way I am - no matter what others might think -, I find that I am able to open myself up to receive the greatest gift there is in life: Being me.

I found that this is the holy duty of each and every one of us: Being ourselves!
Every person is different. I am often afraid of being different, not having a place among others. But why? 
Isn't it just the thing: It's great being "different" - each of us is special, and because we are all special, everyone is important. By locking ourselves in, we deprive others of the wonderful experience to endeavour in someone they have never met before.

Do you close yourself in? If yes, turn yourself inside out and think of this: 
Don't you hold a treasure inside yourself that you loved to share with the people around you, but the only reason you think you cannot do it is, that you believe you are not worthy of it? That others might not be interested? But still you burn from within, with the desire to express your true self. 

Trust me: You are worth every grain of your heart: Release yourself from the misconception that your are worth less or more than others. You are simply different - you are you! 
  

Who am I...

Hej people :)

Thank you for taking some of your precious time to listen to my music! 

I like to improvise on the piano. Creating music for me means to open my heart and to give a form to what is inside. It is a neverending journey, striving to become clearer every time I try to understand myself better and to express what I find inside. Somehow, my own inner life re-sonates in those who listen, yet it might be an experience very different from my own - this is one of the wonders I discover ever again when I observe people listening, and though it seems simple, I find this is a mystery.

I am happy if I can share some of my inner life with you, and "get in touch" with you from heart to heart. 

If you feel you like sharing your "pictures", feelings or thoughts while listening, I'd be glad to receive a message from you!

Thus, enjoy and smile if you like it :)

I wish you a happy day and always remember: Listen and breathe - you are alive!

Tami Tonali

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