lyrics: 

i could barely close my eyes last night, 
but this car crash in my chest is my own design. 

do you remember that morning by the river 
where it felt like we put our broken pieces back together? 

i don't know if i'll ever be ok. 
it's one step forward and ten years back every other day. 

i don't know if i'll ever be ok, 
and i'm sorry i made such a mess bleeding on this page. 

(scrappy phone recording with a scrappy acoustic guitar in the hands of a scrappy performer)

carcrash (demo)

lyrics:

With fingertips drenched in ink, 
tonight I'm stuck in raw nostalgia. 
Words are building up in the corner of my mind,
as I wait with bated breath for your reply. 

It was the night that Anna died. 
Snow was falling from the sky. 
Standing on the porch like a movie scene, your unrehearsed pose had me caught in a dream. 
I held you in my arms as 
I was shaking in my shoes. 
And we laughed at the thought 
of me and you.

History's on repeat. 
We keep rewinding these days 
until the memory fades. 
To break this somnambulance, 
Kevin writes a poem before breakfast. 
Thats when I realize: all the best poets live in basements.

It was New Years Eve. 
You stepped out of my dreams. 
You stepped off a plane from Chicago. 
As bars baptize aimless lives, 
I met you in the soft lights of El Moro. 
The clock was counting down as we shared a moonglow kiss, 
and we watched those old ghosts 
burst into the sky.
And I held you in my arms 
as I was shaking in my shoes. 
And we laughed at the thought 
of me and you.

Vivre Sa Vie

lyrics:

It's just traffic lights and time clocks pulling at my teeth.
Need all the alcohol in hell to numb 
the day's defeats

Because all my nightmares wait for me in the morning.

Oh but Emily,
You're a little dream. 
Your name is honey on my tongue, 
Your scent a song I always hum. 

The headlines scream like sirens 
with Death in the byline.
Can we just stay in bed all day? 
We'll sin and sigh in silence.

Because all my nightmares wait for me in the morning. 

But Emily,
You're a little dream. 
Your name is honey on my tongue, 
Your scent a song I always hum. 

Oh Emily, 
Have mercy on me.
Your morning breath, your sunlight hair 
is all the prayer I need. 

Emily, you've stolen me,
Under every streetlight, 
We're entwined and the 
World feels alright.

Emily

lyrics: 

I know it's too soon to ask but when will you come back?
The mountains here are so austere
without your sunlight hair.
And fireworks still spell your name,
but the flames just don't feel the same.

And I'm pulling teeth from a rosary
that my liver has laid down for me.

I sing along to the heart attack.
I put my soul on the sale rack.
The abyss just rolls its eyes
when it stares back.

I sing along to the heart attack,
I put my soul on the sale rack.
I know it's too soon but I hope this lasts.

I've been on a wire staring at the floors,
but it was a memory of fire
when you walked through those doors.
My heart was beating through my chest. Did I meet you in a dream before?

How do we wake up eternally doomed? Yet I'd do it all again on a dime.

I sing along to the heart attack.
I put my soul on the sale rack.
The abyss just rolls its eyes
when it stares back.

I sing along to the heart attack,
I put my soul on the sale rack.
I know it's too soon but I hope this lasts.

On breathless nights I listen to the
coin flip in the air.
How it lands decides my fate and
maybe I should care.
But I'm still hung up on heaven
frozen on the horizon.

tape hiss and the modern man