Belleville Park Jam

Ramblings is an EP of four improvised tracks, recorded earlier this year.
 
Me and my guitar, sat in my room in Paris, using improvisation to write songs, a way to process the feelings I was struggling with at the time: loneliness, insecurity, intense nostalgia. Feeling out of place in this new country.  

It’s imperfect and distorted. It’s streams of consciousness lyrics that sometimes make sense and sometimes don’t. They’re recordings I made with the intention of filtering out the bad bits. In the end, I think they work just as they are.

What Do I Know?

Special

Chlorine Eyes

It Was Nice To Meet You

Retour

maybe
there’s nothing to tie you down
i’ve lost motivation
show me the way out.
and when do we give up?
how do i say i’ve had enough?
oh how do i give up?
when do i know it’s hard enough?
but it’s too much.
it’s too much.
just don’t get head up
fall out of the clouds
and onto the ground
where you belong now.
i’m not invited.
don’t ask me to tell you why.
i need to process.
and i know you don’t like
to see me cry
but that’s alright
that’s alright
i’ll just hide
my voice
oh, i’ll just hide
myself.
and nothing to tie you down.
there’s nothing to tie you down.
i’ve lost motivation. 
don’t know what to reach out for
oh tell me the reason
just show me how
just show me how
just show me how
just show me how to love myself
half as much as i 
love you
there’s nothing to tie you down
oh there’s nothing to tie,
there’s nothing to tie,
there’s nothing to tie,
nothing to tie you down.
just get your head out the clouds.
there’s nothing to tie you down.

tie you down (improvisation)

this is a song I wrote about falling in love with a place and its people knowing that you're going to have to leave and there's nothing you can do about that. it's about how what you have in the present is wonderful but you know in the back of your mind that it's going to all end very soon.

pic of me for the cover art taken by dominic deems, I blended it with one I took of Albuquerque from the Sandia mountains, the city all lit up at night

lyrics:

tell me what you want to do
you drive and I’ll be your excuse
we’ll watch the sun chase the day
forest fires burning in a haze
we’ll take the longest road we can
winding paths and winding conversations
I’ll ask if I can hold your hand
but there’s something that both of us understand

that it’s not for a lifetime
it’s just for a month
it’s not for a lifetime
for life
it’s something we both know
we both know I can’t stay
it’s not for a lifetime
30 days. just 30 days

the rainbow sky turns into night
we watch the city below come alight
we’ll talk about our worlds as it gets cold       
how there are things
we can’t control
we can’t change the weather
or stop us growing old-er
but tell me what you want to do
you drive and I’ll be your excuse

I know it’s not for a lifetime
it’s just for a month
it’s not for a lifetime
for life
it’s something we both know
we both know I can’t stay
it’s not for a lifetime
30 days. Just 30 days

do I make you nervous?
am I different?
or am I just another girl
for you to lose yourself in?

but tell me what you want to do
you drive and I’ll be your excuse
I’ll be your excuse
I’ll be your excuse

30 days

a song about being scared of losing people

Mastered by: Croft Hill Studios
Drums + second guitar: Fred Clements

Lyrics:
I don’t think I will ever know you.
Or at least, not in the way
That I thought that I would.
I don’t think that you will ever show me
What it’s like to be
Inside your mind.

But please don’t go,
Please don’t leave.
They always go,
They always leave.
Is it me?
It must be something inside of me.

I wish that I could feel the sun
On our skin.
As we walk down the street
Filled with busy people 
In their busy lives.
I wish you were right there next to me,
That we could lie down underneath
The whispers of the trees.
That you could play your guitar
And sing your songs for me.
So softly, so quietly, so—

So please don’t go,
Please don’t leave.
They always go,
They always leave.
It must be me.
It must be something inside of me.

Go if you need,
I won’t try to keep you by the phone.
Checking your silence,
I’m too in my head,
I’m too in my head,
I’m too in my— 
I wish I were there with you instead.

Please don’t go,
Please don’t leave.
But leave if you want to,
And go if you need.
It must be something,
Something inside of me.

And I’m sorry I can’t be honest,
I’m sorry I can’t say what you need to hear.
I’m still hurting.
I’m still hurting.
I’m still hurting.
Somewhere inside of me.

inside of me

from november 2019 - february 2020, I was travelling europe solo, recording snippets of sounds onto my phone as I went; fleeting conversations; late night jams; city bustling.

there are sounds in here from hungary, france, switzerland, italy, prague, germany, denmark, amsterdam and ireland.

the cover art is a blend of photos taken around the same time as some of the recordings.

liminal : a sound montage of november 2019 - february 2020

we're alone (improv)

Produced by Jake Raywood (angel !!) and Taryn Everdeen. Lyrics and music by Taryn Everdeen.

Find Jake here:
https://www.instagram.com/jakeraywood/
https://soundcloud.com/jakeraywood
https://open.spotify.com/artist/3tIHIKCdyxQ27NLqPdMMCJ?si=qLBCg4EmRHyoa2em4b8Ppg

Taryn Everdeen

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