why did i combine mercury retrograde with we fell in love in october
fucking kill me
help
im trapped here

[i regret making this mashup]

I've been working on an album for several years on and off, and I thought that it would be really funny if I quietly released my first take demos for some of the songs off of it. 

This song is about a really bad time a while back where I was dealing with suicidal thoughts and anxieties around eating, but you probably won't hear that as this is a DEMO and therefor very poorly mixed :)


here are the lyrics anyways though<3:
You say you see a skeleton 
I guess I haven’t had a thing to eat 
Today or the day before 
I don’t really sleep much anymore
When I do I dream of you 
More than any girl I ever knew 
It’s so hard to know what’s true 
Off two hours of sleep and no food 
I suppose this state is self-imposed 
But what else would you propose 
Nevermind don’t answer that 
‘Cause I know that you’d have my back 
And I can’t deal with that 
No, no, I can’t deal with that right now
Nevermind don’t leave me to my thoughts 
I changed my mind please come back

I know I brought this on myself 
Cracks form in the continental shelf 
I can’t think of anybody else 
I’d rather face the tidal waves with
The CO in my lungs feels like helium
I’ll float until I reach the sun
I ask myself what has begun 
And what has ended 
I don’t know 
All I do is I miss the taste 
I miss the taste of midwestern snow 
Lying together on the hill
Letting all our emotions spill
Looks can kill my face has cracked
Mouth is dry from front to back
My heart is home light strikes pitch black
My scarred hands weave her a mask
I beg her to not breathe
I beg her to not breathe
I beg her to not breathe
Too late our chests both begin to heave

Not one word escapes my mouth 
Rubber gas hose creeps into the house 
With a second duct taped crawling down my throat 
Tickling my torn up lungs 
Nothing can be done 
Church bells can’t be unrung 
Lord knows I've tried 
Over and over with no end in sight 
I guess that’s just curse of a co-ed mind 
I wish I could leave that life behind 
Carbon 
Monoxide 
Feels so cold inside

Co // Ed [1st take demo]

bad Ludwig OST cover that I worked on in class last year instead of doing work anyways i got my ged

i just "released" a song (it is not done plz dont judge me
i will release an album at some point
I am just a girl <3
[[she/her]]

ZsuZu

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