we were young and reckless, drunk and high 
rearranging letters on the church sign
you leaned in, whispered something along the lines
of so much for forever, at least we tried

bye, this is goodbye

sometimes i really miss you, sometimes i don't
sometimes i wish i could but know i won't
maybe somehow i'll see you again
if i don't just know i understand

bye, this is goodbye

i thought i felt you near me late one night
but it was just a dreamer in delight
once i left i never could get back
to that place or to you in the black

bye, this is goodbye

In the Black

This Is Goodbye

hey, i've been here before
the always open door
hidden by mistake

each time i go in
the hair along my skin...
it begins to raise

hopeless flesh and bone
a body that I loan
the mystery of fate

way out there is one
i've only just begun
i'll see you in the black

help, i am not myself
i thought of reaching out
but usually it fades

how long will it last?
i hid it in the past
and i don't feel the same

eight days maybe more
a welcoming so warm
forever i could lie

fade out once again
a promise that i dreamt 
i saw it in the black

a game we aren't meant to win
it comes out from within
the chance to feel alive

we play like we are young
laughing like we're dumb
and never seem to mind

pain, maker of the tear
a pleasure that i fear
will haunt me til i die 

hate is love unfulfilled
the love we have killed
i see it in the black

i look up above
at a sky i can trace
i see through the glass
that keeps me encased
it's easy to deny 
the meaning and the shape
the birth of a star
in a colourless state

and you know, i don't have to say it
it's on your face and glows, whoa
yeah, there's something amazing 
that happens when you show
all that you are, what you aren't...
it's how you'll grow
it's infectious, familiar, fulfilling, ergo

i look down below
at a world that i can change
gathered en masse
suspended here in space
i know what to do
but didn't make the race
i couldn't sit back
and watch it all take place

and you know, i don't have to say it
it's on your face and glows, whoa
yeah, there's something amazing 
that happens when you show
all that you are, what you aren't...
it's how you'll grow
it's infectious, familiar, fulfilling, ergo

let's not bite off the hand that's feeding each and all of us
that intuition from the soul fulfilling holes with love
that sinking feeling marred and mirrored within your design
what is the first thing that you think of when you think of mine?

and you know, i don't have to say it
it's on your face and glows, whoa
yeah, there's something amazing 
that happens when you show
all that you are, what you aren't...
it's how you'll grow
it's infectious, familiar, fulfilling, ergo

Moonshot

when you go and i'm left all alone
i can tell you don't want me no more
there's a hole from you down in my soul
when it aches i just feel i could blow

all the love i've felt before
rises up and out it pours

what is left of me? i do not know
there's enough to sing these simple notes
i just want for you to be okay
i still think about you everyday

all the love i've felt before
rises up and out it pours
there is only so much left
so it's best if i forget

when you go and i'm left all alone
i can tell you don't want me no more

No More

soulless, but kept intact
gladly i'd give it back
handful of empty threats
careful on what you step

maybe it's only me
crazy, that's what i seem
lately i could be wrong
who cares, i've thought too long

your life, just up ahead
short sight, the dream is dead
fandom and circles walked
boredom, no time to talk

anytime, no matter where
you decide if you can bare
another day of life subdued
you're not exempt, you're blue

only if time stops moving is it for naught

maybe it's all a dream
strangely, that's how it seems
phantoms, with you they walk
forces that move the clocks

forward for those behind
numbered in chance and time
grasping, lost at your breath
no doubt, you know the rest

only if time stops moving is it for naught

Time Stops

always almost there



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Taylor Spears