Lyrics
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Been feelin' too aware lately
Like somethin's always off
I'm not used to this
Can't get anything outta my head
I can't focus on shit

Maybe I'm in my head again
Maybe the thoughts are winnin'
Maybe I just need to take some time
Before I do this again
Before I do this again

I'm goin' off the deep end
And I'm hittin' rock bottom
But nobody knows it
Cuz I hide it

Can't let anybody in or out
Got keep us to ourselves
But its so hard
When you wanna open up but you don't know where to start

Maybe I'm in my head again
Maybe the thoughts are winnin'
Maybe I just need to take some time
Before I do this again
Before I do this again

Nobody knows
Keep it that way
Nowhere to go
But I wanna stay
Can't be alone
But I'm afraid
Just keep breathing
Just keep breathing(breathing, and breathing)
(Just don't stop)

Maybe I'm in my head again
Maybe the thoughts are winnin'
Maybe I just need to take some time
Before I do this again
Before I do this again

Before I Do This Again

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I feel so alone
What am I doin'?
My time was borrowed
Yea, I'm losin'

Can't get the thought of you
Out my head
And all you had to do
Was what you did

Now I'm searchin' for light in the darkness
Afraid that the light that I got is gonna go out on me
Searchin' for facts in a room full of bullshit
I don't know where I'm supposed to be
Yea, I don't know where to go
I don't know if I'm supposed to leave

Everythin's circlin' my head
And there's nothin' I can do
I don't know what to do instead
I can only think of you

Is this right?
Was it supposed to go this way?
Can't sleep at night
And all I wanna say is

Now I'm searchin' for light in the darkness
Afraid that the light that I got is gonna go out on me
Searchin' for facts in a room full of bullshit
I don't know where I'm supposed to be
Yea, I don't know where to go
I don't know if I'm supposed to leave

The burrowed hole you made
The ache that you left
The endless cave
The heart that you kept
The tears you pulled
The hatred you fueled
It all makes sense now

I was searchin' for light in the darkness
Afraid that the light that I got is gonna go out on me
Searchin' for facts in a room full of bullshit
I don't know where I'm supposed to be
Yea, I don't know where to go
I don't know if I'm supposed to leave

Supposed To Leave

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Tryin' not to see it all a little strange
But its real hard when there's nothin' to change
I'm tryin' my best to see through it all
But I'm still waitin' on that one call
I've been through too much
To still hold back
But if I say enough
I will say that

I'm runnin' on fire, matches
Findin' everything to keep me sane
Runnin' on wires, gasoline
Oh, if I call out (don't help me)

They say that revenge is a dish best served cold
Well, honey, its gonna be frozen once it gets to ya
I know, I know, I know I'm a little old
To be holdin' a grudge
But its fun, huh?

I used to be holdin' back
But now I see right through ya

I'm runnin' on fire, matches
Findin' everything to keep me sane
Runnin' on wires, gasoline
Oh, if I call out (don't help me)

(Don't help me)
(Don't help me)
(Don't help me)
(Don't help me)

Don't Help Me

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(Don't do it, It's not worth it)
(But)
(Don't. Do. It)

Can't seem to find my place
Can't seem to find my spot
Just tryna keep my head up
Don't let up
Can't get caught

I've been doin' worse since everything
But I don't show it
Cuz then someone will ask
If everythin's all right
And I'll have to say that I

I think about you every day (every day)
Don't wanna do nothin' but say (but say)
That I want you back
But I can't let go of the anger that's keepin' me stable
Cuz if I do, I might just go into
The darker stages
And do somethin' I'll regret

Gotta catch a break
But I can't seem to
I can't ever find one to make
Everythin's gotta do with you
I've made my decisions
Dragged people along
Answered all my questions
But what did I do wrong?

I should've just gone quiet
Left everyone with silence but

I think about you every day (every day)
Don't wanna do nothin' but say (but say)
That I want you back
But I can't let go of the anger that's keepin' me stable
Cuz if I do, I might just go into
The darker stages
And do somethin' I'll regret

I can't let you go
Even though I mean to
I can't, no-no-no, oh
Just leave before it gets dark

I think about you every day (every day)
Don't wanna do nothin' but say (but say)
That I want you back
But I can't let go of the anger that's keepin' me stable
Cuz if I do, I might just go into
The darker stages
And do somethin' I'll regret

The Darker Stages

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Take my hand
Don't scrape the blade
I hope you'll understand
If one of us leaves
Intertwined fingers, bound to break
Hopeless lovers, but will both stay?

Its the kind of love you wish for
Every day
Its the kind of trust you pray for

Oh-oh
You're gonna kill me if you say anything else
Oh-oh
Your hands are gonna break my heart in two
But I want your love, I want your trust
Even if it means that I have to dig a grave up

Your eyes, your smile
I'll give up anything to see them
Your lies, your wiles
I'll do anything you want, and when

You say that we're over
I won't say I loved ya

Oh-oh
You're gonna kill me if you say anything else
Oh-oh
Your hands are gonna break my heart in two
But I want your love, I want your trust
Even if it means that I have to dig a grave up

Timing, crying
Betrayal, fighting
Silence, give up
I won't do any of that
Lies, hatred
Eyes, lose it
I wanted all of that

Oh-oh
Oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh
Oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh
You're gonna kill me if you say anything else
Oh-oh
Your hands are gonna break my heart in two
But I want your love, I want your trust
Even if it means that I have to dig a grave up
Even if it means that I have to dig a grave up

Dig A Grave Up

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I wait for your message every night
Hopin' one'll come through
I wait to see if you might
Give up no contact but you never do

I've broke it before
But this time
This time its different
I can almost feel the silence
And its hurtin'

I never had the courage
To go and do this
But now I've got the feelin'
That this is it
The end of us
No goin' back, time to give up those emotions
This is the end

We used to take breaks
Just collect ourselves, our emotions
But we made more mistakes
Than anything else
And you blamed me for all of it
Even though I didn't do half that shit

Narcissistic personality
Manipulative tactics
I never understood why
You never took the blame for it
And now I understand why

I never had the courage
To go and do this
But now I've got the feelin'
That this is it
The end of us
No goin' back, time to give up those emotions
This is the end

Screaming and crying
Those times are over
Yelling and fighting
I don't need to take cover
My mind is finally at peace with it
Even if I still hate that shit

I have the courage now
To do this
I have that feelin'
That that was it
The end of us
No goin' back, I've gave up those emotions
This is the end
The end of us
The end of us

This Is The End

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Exes and hexes
We all know what they are
Spells and curses
We all know how far we'd go
To save them
But the question is

Are you ready to give your life
For theirs?
You'll assume that you're right
But you know it ain't fair
So take some time
And really think about it
Cuz I didn't
And look where that got me

They'll give you an option
2 easy choices
But here's the 3rd one
Run before they notice
And they will

They'll say you have a price to be paid
But what they ain't sayin'
Is they'll kill you before it happens
So again

Are you ready to give your life
For theirs?
You'll assume that you're right
But you know it ain't fair
So take some time
And really think about it
Cuz I didn't
And look where that got me

Hold back your tears
They ain't worth it
I know all your heart hears
Is the shit that they're sayin'
But you don't have to cry anymore
Cuz I'm here
Ooh-ooh, oh-oh
Hm-mm-mh

You say you're ready
To give your life for theirs
You know it ain't right
And it isn't fair
But you took your time
And really thought about it
Look where that got you

(Dead)

Look where that got you

Look Where That Got Me

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I wish I didn't have to feel
All this
I wish I could just peel
Off the surface
Wipe my face off of the planet
Just ghost it

I feel like time was wasted
I feel like that emotion I felt
Was mainly hatred
I feel like I can't get over it

Am I supposed to feel this way?
Am I supposed to push everything down?
Cuz that's what I've been doin'
And now its all comin' up to the surface

I've been lookin'
For a way
I've been searchin'
To find myself
But I can't seem to find it

I feel like my heart was broken
And then you shattered it
Broke it into a million pieces
And I can't get over it

Am I supposed to feel this way?
Am I supposed to push everything down?
Cuz that's what I've been doin'
And now its all comin' up to the surface

Get over it
Get over it
That's what they all say
Push through it
Push through it
But can't they see
That there's no pushin' through
No gettin' over it

Am I supposed to feel this way?
Am I supposed to push everything down?
Cuz that's what I've been doin'
And now its all comin' up to the surface

Comin' Up To The Surface

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Should've just left it alone
Instead of goin' on and on
I tell myself "I haven't even grown"
But that part, her, she's gone

I should've let her fade away
Instead of holdin' on
I should've just stayed away
Even though I told myself I was wrong

Kept her in the darkness
Blinded by the lights
Told myself I wouldn't do it
Well I wasn't right

Keep the memories in her head
Not mine
Made sure they didn't get put to rest
It should've been a sign

Oh-oh, I'm breakin' down
Oh-oh, fallin' to the ground
And if I get up

Keep her in the darkness
Blind her by the lights
Tell yourself you won't do it
Yea, you're not right

(Keep her in the darkness
Blind her by the lights
Tell yourself you won't do it
Yea, you're not right)

Ah-ah
I should've known
Oh-oh
So long ago
When I didn't catch a break
Ah-ah
It should've been her
Oh-oh
Not me that got hurt
But that's what made me

Keep her hidden
Behind the curtains
Kept the memories
Locked away
And if I open up that chest
I ain't closin' it

Keep her in the darkness
Blind her by the lights
Keep the memories in her head
Not mine
Tell yourself you won't do it
Yea, you're not right
Make sure they don't get put to rest
It'll be a sign
Just don't let her know
That you weren't right

I Wasn't Right

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Give me a reason
Give me some time
I won't take much
If that's alright
I can't get you out my mind
Think I just need some time
To figure it out

You took everything I had
My pride, my confidence, my love, my trust
And you burned it
So now everyone feels it

How could you do all you did
When you knew I was sufferin'?
How could you stand back and say
"It'll be okay"
When you knew you were lying?
How could you hold my hands
At the end of the day?
How did you understand me
When you knew inside
You were lying?

I was stupid and naive
I thought what we had was love
But turns out it was one-sided
I thought I was your everything
Until you turned around
I thought you could see clearly
But apparently not with me

Ooh-ooh
You took everything I had
My pride, my confidence, my love, my trust
And you burned it
So now everyone feels it

How could you do all you did
When you knew I was sufferin'?
How could you stand back and say
"It'll be okay"
When you knew you were lying?
How could you hold my hands
At the end of the day?
How did you understand me
When you knew inside
You were lying?

How could you look me in the eyes
And say we'd be fine
And every time we'd get in a fight
I'd storm off cuz I was right
How could you walk around holdin' hands with me
When you knew I was dyin'
You were makin' me sick
Even if I didn't know it
You, you, you

How could you do all you did
When you knew I was sufferin'?
How could you stand back and say
"It'll be okay"
When you knew you were lying?
How could you hold my hands
At the end of the day?
How did you understand me
When you knew inside
You were lying?

Ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh
You were lying

You Were Lying

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Lift me up and put me down
Circle the grou-u-und
Leave me stranded
Even when it's rainin

Give me love
Pick a fight
Make it up
Make it right
I won't judge

If there was something I didn't like
I would've told you
But you never listened
And now I'm crystallizin
How many times do I have to tell you
That it was all the truth

There was no need for it
No need for the shit you did
No need for you to li-ie
No need for me to cry-y

There's a mirror in the wall
And it makes you look tall
But that's just your ego showin
There's a filter in it
Makes you not look like a dick
But that's just all your insecurities hurtin

If there was something I didn't like
I would've told you
But you never listened
And now I'm crystallizin
How many times do I have to tell you
That it was all the truth

But you never took my side
Never said you were mine
Never made a point to say
That it was okay
Fights every night
Like you weren't afraid of losing me
Cuz honey I was afraid too
And you know

If there was something I didn't like
I would've told you
But you never listened
And now I'm crystallizin
How many times do I have to tell you
That it was all the truth

If there was something I didn't like
I would've told you
But you never listened
And now I'm crystallizin
How many times do I have to tell you
That it was all the truth

The Truth

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I used to think you loved me
I used to think you cared
I used to think I was somebody
To you
I used to get so happy
Whenever you'd praise me
I used to get so sad
Whenever we were fighting

But that's what happens when you

Go back to the person that hurt you
A million times
You say "maybe this time it'll be different"
Yea, that's what you say every time
But then you get hurt over and over
Over and over again
Because you fell for it
You fell for their trap

I used to think so highly of you
I used to wanna do the things that you do
I used to smile whenever I saw your face
But then you made
Me fight you

I used to get excited
Whenever I saw your notification
But then you'd get angry
And fight me

But that's what happens when you

Go back to the person that hurt you
A million times
You say "maybe this time it'll be different"
Yea, that's what you say every time
But then you get hurt over and over
Over and over again
Because you fell for it
You fell for their trap

You blocked me a week ago
Then you tried to say hi again
I blocked you so
I hope you get the feelin'
That we're done
(No more manipulation)

I've learned now
More than I should've
But I have high hopes that
You'll really try to change this time
Cuz I won't fall for your trap again

Their Trap

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(Yea, like)
(We literally call her out, and then she blocks me)

I can't think about
Everything you're goin' through
Cuz if I do, I know, I'll cry
I'll empathize
But I, I, I

I wanna say hi to you
I wanna say I love you
But I know its just part of your game
Or maybe its not
I wanna say I missed you
But that ain't true
I wanna talk to you
But I know its better if I
If I don't

They always say "it's not a question
If you're questioning"(no-oh-oh)
But all I wanna do right now
Is talk to you
And I'm holdin' myself back
Cuz the little kid don't want to(to)

I'll fight this fight every day
If it keeps me away
But I won't promise
To not think about it

I wanna say I love you
I wanna say hi to you
But I know its just part of your game
Or maybe its not
I wanna say I missed you
But that ain't true
I wanna talk to you
But I know its better if I
If I don't

I can't bury the memories
Even though I've tried
I can't keep you out my mind
I, I, I
I can't say that I'm fine
When I know I'm not
Cuz everything you did
Left an imprint

I can't say hi to you
I can't say I love you
Cuz its just part of your game
I know it
I can't I say I missed you
Cuz it ain't true
I can't talk to you
Cuz I know its better if I
If I Don't

(Oh-oh-oh)
(Mm-mm-mmh)

If I Don't

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I still see that glint in your eyes
Like somethin' I'll always know
There's somethin' about you that I like
And I can't shake it off my mind
But

She's so much prettier
And smarter
And better than I'll ever be
And I really really like you
But I'm a girls girl
So I won't take her from you
One thing about me is I'll never get over it
But I won't bring it up cuz shit isn't
Hers to deal with
And I'm a girls girl
So I won't start unnecessary shit

I used to make everythin' her problem
No matter who she was
Dating my ex? Made a problem
Did fucked up shit? Made a problem

Not one ex had a good relationship
With a girl after me
I may've fucked some shit up
But I've apologized
And when I realize

She's so much prettier
And smarter
And better than I'll ever be
And I really really like you
But I'm a girls girl
So I won't take her from you
One thing about me is I'll never get over it
But I won't bring it up cuz shit isn't
Hers to deal with
And I'm a girls girl
So I won't start unnecessary shit

Ooh
I hated the idea of you bein' with someone else
But then I got over it, cuz I could care less
I used to hate the thought of you kissin' another girl
But then I realized I'll never get better if you're my whole world
I hated the drama and the rumors that came with it
But then I guess it was my fault since I started it
I hated you for saying goodbye
When I know I said it too

She's prettier and smarter
And better than I'll ever be
And I used to really like you
But I'm a girls girl
So I won't mess up you two
I don't get over shit easily
But y'all taught me
That its okay, to take the time
And I'm a girls girl
So I won't ruin her world

Girls Girl

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I was always stuck behind you
Always left in your shadow
Always used as the bad example
Always the "if it were that simple"

Left behind in the cold
With nowhere to go
Left alone in a dark hole
With no light for hope

I was scratchin', crawlin' my way out
And when I finally touched the ground
You pushed me down
You said nothing was ever that easy
And that I shouldn't expect it to be
A valuable lesson, but from the wrong person
No it shouldn't have come from you

How do I rationalize
Everything that happened?
How do I not cry
About everything that went down?

How do I not see you
As anything other than what they say?
How do I not be fooled
By how you act day-to-day

I was tryin' to bury those memories in the ground
And when I was diggin' I found something out
I learned that you did so much
That I don't remember
I heard enough
But I'll always remember
It was a valuable lesson, but from the wrong person
No it shouldn't have been from you

I guess I try to figure everything out
I guess I involve myself
Cuz I'm scared of what'll come out
I try to make myself the center
Cuz I can't hold my focus on something so familiar
I guess I try to figure everything out
I guess I involve myself
Cuz I'm scared of what'll come out
I try to make myself the center
Cuz I can't hold my focus on something so familiar

I'm still tryin' to bury the memories
But the ground won't move
I'm still diggin' my way down
And I'm gettin' nowhere
But I'll always remember
That valuable lesson, that came from the wrong person
Oh, it shouldn't have come from you

Valuable Lesson

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I didn't know how long it was going on
I didn't know that you were in the wrong
Until I met her
I thought you cared
I thought that that love was fair
Until I met her

Then she showed me
What motherly love
Actually feels like
And now I can't see you
As anything other than

A master manipulator
Who gets mad when she doesn't get her way
A fuckin' controller
Who will start a fight any day
Oh, I can't see you as my mother
Cuz that's something you never were

I wonder so many times
How did I survive?
Was it pure luck?
Did you actually give a fuck sometimes?
I wonder how your mom deals with you
Cuz lord knows we all know the truth
I asked her a question one day
And she said it wasn't a fair question
Which gave me my answer

Sometimes I feel sorry for her
Because she has to live with you
But she made you
And she's where you got everything from

Master manipulation
Gettin' mad when you don't get your way
Fuckin' controllin'
Starts a fight any day
Oh, you aren't my mother
And you never were

No wonder I saw you in her
Cuz y'all are the same
Look the same, act the same
Even if its a little different
You get everything from her
Even though it hurts to think of her like that
I know its true
And its for the best, even if you're a

Master manipulator
Who gets mad when she doesn't get her way
A fuckin' controller
Who will start a fight any day
Oh, I can't see you as my mother
Cuz that's something you never were

You're a 
Master manipulator
Who gets mad when she doesn't get her way
A fuckin' controller
Who will start a fight any day
Oh, I can't see you as my mother
Cuz that's something you never were

You Never Were

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Said you missed me
You said you got me all I wanted
But you just couldn't see
That all I'd ever wanted was to be granted
Your love

It used to not matter where it came from
But I quickly realized that mindset was wrong

How come you get to have emotions
But the second I do, I'm wrong?
How come you get to say bullshit
But when I do, you don't know where it's comin' from?
I don't know when we started to fray, but I guess it was long ago
Cuz now, you're just a memory in the back of my mind
Yea, you're on hold

I didn't think I'd be able to do it
To go without contact
But you haven't reached out yet
So I guess I'm doin' good

I used to think I'd hurt your feelin's
But now I realize I'm not responsible for them, and

How come you get to have emotions
But the second I do, I'm wrong?
How come you get to say bullshit
But when I do, you don't know where it's comin' from?
I don't know when we started to fray, but I guess it was long ago
Cuz now, you're just a memory in the back of my mind
Yea, you're on hold

Go ahead, take your spot
You've already left my heart
You left the day you decided to leave
Go ahead, say some bullshit
We all know what really happened
So run your mouth, talk your shit
Just don't get mad when you get punched in the face

How come you get to have emotions
But the second I do, I'm wrong?
How come you get to say bullshit
But when I do, you don't know where it's comin' from?
I don't know when we started to fray, but I guess it was long ago
Cuz now, you're just a memory in the back of my mind
Yea, you're on hold

You're On Hold

Lyrics
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I'm still tryin'
I'm still cryin'
I'm still thinkin' about you
I'm still dreamin'
I'm still healin'
I'm still reachin' out for you

I've got the replay in my head
And you say "get over it"
Harder said than done

I don't know if I'll ever get over it
I don't know if I'll ever see you as anything other than
The person that took my childhood
I don't know if I'll ever heal
I hope I don't ever feel
Anything like that again

I've pointed out every flaw
Every crack, every mistake
But every time I go to think back
I always think about one thing
Something I know I ain't ever gettin' over

I know it won't ever be over
And that's what scares me
Eventually the end will get closer
And I'll have to be
Reminiscent

I don't know if I'll ever get over it
I don't know if I'll ever see you as anything other than
The person that took my childhood
I don't know if I'll ever heal
I hope I don't ever feel
Anything like that again

I don't know if I'll ever get over it
I don't know if I'll ever see you as anything other than
The person that took my childhood
I don't know if I'll ever heal
I hope I don't ever feel
Anything like that again

Reminiscent

Lyrics
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It feels different now
But there's a thousand reasons
It feels bleak now
But its only when you speak

I was wrapped up in your (tactics)
Feedin' into every word you (said)
I couldn't get out, no, I couldn't (make it)
But you finally made your (bed)

Ooh-ooh
I can't get a clear view of us now
I can't relieve all the pressure you put me through
Ooh-ooh
I wished for this so long ago
But now I know
Its for the better this way

This way
This way
This way
This way

I've tried to put it behind me
But I know I can't do that
I'll remember it randomly
And I can't control that

But what I can do
Is take you out of the equation
I can say that you
Can't give me a reason

I was trapped in your (webs)
Tryin' to get out
But I only made it (worse)
On (myself)

Ooh-ooh
I can't get a clear view of us now
I can't relieve all the pressure you put me through
Ooh-ooh
I wished for this so long ago
But now I know
Its for the better this way

This way
This way
This way
This way

(This way
This way
This way
This way)

I tried to push you away
You kept coming back
I tried to help you say
"She doesn't need me in her life"
But you just wouldn't say it
You'd say
"I'm your mother, I'm right"

Well that's a whole lie

Ooh-ooh
I can't get a clear view of us now
I can't relieve all the pressure you put me through
Ooh-ooh
I wished for this so long ago
But now I know
Its for the better this way

This way
This way
This way
This way

This Way

Lyrics
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Its still unclear
How you left
One day we were havin fun
And the next you were sent off

You sent me an email sayin'
That you had been in a mental institution
Asked me to be your friend again
And I replied with "no"

It wasn't you
It wasn't me
I just couldn't deal with that at that moment
You were away
And I had found friends
That kept me livin' in the moment
So, no, I didn't wanna hurt you
But its what I had to do

I haven't heard from you ever since
It all went down
But I guess I had that comin'
When I said I didn't wanna be your friend

Childhood best friends, stereotypical
One cast out and the other sociable
But there was one thing missin' when you left
Oh-oh, oh

It wasn't you
It wasn't me
I just couldn't deal with that at that moment
You were away
And I had found friends
That kept me livin' in the moment
So, no, I didn't wanna hurt you
But its what I had to do

I, I, I, I, I, I
I never really thought about it
Just gave it quick side glance
I never really understood shit
That you ever said
But I guess that's the price that comes
With bein friends with an outcast
You never understand, until you are one

It wasn't you(wasn't you)
It wasn't me(wasn't me)
I just couldn't deal with that at that moment(that moment)
You were away(were away)
And I had found friends(found friends)
That kept me livin' in the moment(livin' in the moment)
So, no, I didn't wanna hurt you(wanna hurt you)
But its what I had to do(had to do)

I Didn't Wanna Hurt You (What I Had To Do)

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I reached out a couple hours ago
Didn't expect you to text back
You said we were fine through it all
And I recounted the past

I asked you how you were
And you said good
I didn't think I'd be the first
To the think that we should've never ended

And now I'm goin' back through the memories
Replayin' every one in my head
Tryna make it make sense, tryna make myself see
What actually happened
Not what's just in my head

You remember everything
The outfits, the gifts, the dating
I honestly thought you'd forget it
But I don't think either of us could forget that shit

We were young
We were in love
And we ended too soon
We flew
We fell
But its cool

Cuz now I'm goin' back through the memories
Replayin' every one in my head
Tryna make it make sense, tryna make myself see
What actually happened
Not what's just in my head

I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I swear
But its so hard to forget when you were there
When you were my first love
The one I held onto when I needed a hug
The one I went to if I had a problem
The one I brought my problems to
Cuz I loved you, I needed you
And you left

Now I'm goin' back through the memories
Replayin' every one in my head
Tryna make it make sense, tryna make myself see
What actually happened
Not what's just in my head

(in my head, in my head)
(In my head, in my head)

In My Head

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Past mistakes wrapped in barbed wire
I was the matches, you were the fire
And now I'm lightin' you up
Even more than I did when we were in love

Breakin' down walls
Even if we fall
But we didn't care

Leavin' a trace of you behind
Throwin' you in the wind
I'm throwin' out the white lies
And I'm buryin' your ass
I'm leavin' the past behind

Thoughts and memories surrounded by you
Like I was always used to
But now I can't get you outta my head
Even though I've put us to rest

Passin' each day by like before
But I can't help but want more
Even if it was bad for me
But I don't wanna see myself get hurt again

Leavin' a trace of you behind
Throwin' you in the wind
I'm throwin' out the white lies
And I'm buryin' your ass
I'm leavin' the past behind

Memories
Thoughts
Engraved by your name
Visions
Notes
Drawn by your face

Leavin' a trace of you behind
Throwin' you in the wind
I'm throwin' out the white lies
And I'm buryin' your ass
I'm leavin' the past behind

Leavin' The Past Behind

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We listened to Taylor Swift
You said "she's boring" and I shoved you again the wall
I said "you haven't heard anything yet"
You said "I haven't heard anything at all"

I should've known
From that moment
But instead of movin' on
I stayed, should've left
But now, I listen to her
And I think about you

You never really liked her
Even though I love her
You'd always say sure so reluctantly
When I asked if you wanted to listen with me

Anytime I had headphones in
You'd ask "who are you listenin' to?"
Same answer every time
And you'd just keep walkin' by

I should've known
From that moment
But instead of movin' on
I stayed, should've left
But now, I listen to her
And I think about you

So many songs I relate to
Now that I've known you
But the worst part is
Some are good
Never knew I would
Relate to them
When I think about you

I knew
From that moment
And instead of movin' on
I stayed, should've left
And now, I listen to her
And I think about you

I Think About You

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Back and forth
With my emotions
Gettin' close to the door
But I can't open it

I wanna run in
I wanna stay put
But there's only two options
And I'm wonderin'

Should I let it open?
Or should I walk away?
Should I let my demons
Get the best of me?
Should I let myself blame you
For what you didn't do?
Or should I pull the blanket up
And pretend I'm fine again?

No matter what, there'll always be hate
That's a part of me nobody can take
That 14 year-old will always hate you
And there's not much I can do

I'll forgive and forget
But she never will
Ill let you say hey
But she'll still(hate you)

Should I let it open?
Or should I walk away?
Should I let my demons
Get the best of me?
Should I let myself blame you
For what you didn't do?
Or should I pull the blanket up
And pretend I'm fine again?

Now I'm wonderin' why I thought you changed
When I'm the one that said hi first
I really thought you'd be able to change
But I guess that's why I didn't say hi for sure
Should I let it?
Should I walk away?

Should I let it open
Or should I walk away?
Should I let my demons
Get the best of me?
Should I let myself blame you
For what you didn't do?
Or should I pull the blanket up
And pretend I'm fine again?

Pretend I'm fine
Pretend I'm fine

Pretend I'm Fine

Lyrics
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Left behind an imprint
Your voice is still in my head
Your words fade to whispers
And you fucked up our bed

Our memories are in black-and-white
There's things I wanna say but I can't
Cuz that'll be the wrong path
Oh, I'm holdin' in tears, but I can't cry

Its like I'm in a movie theater
And I'm waitin for your name to pop up
I'm waitin' for the credits to start rollin'
But they won't stop
And I'm shuttin away our memories
Like a movie that's just ended

Gotta find a way to let it out
Cuz I don't understand what I'm cryin' about
Gotta find a place that I won't wanna leave
Gotta force myself to be okay

Our memories are in black-and-white
There's things I wanna say but I can't
Cuz that'll be the wrong path
Oh, I'm holdin' in tears, but I can't cry

Its like I'm in a movie theater
And I'm waitin for your name to pop up
I'm waitin' for the credits to start rollin'
But they won't stop
And I'm shuttin away our memories
Like a movie that's just ended

I was finally healin when you left
Now I gotta heal all over again
Memories locked away
No, I won't say anything
Cuz despite what I say, I ain't brave

I'm sittin' in our seats
Waitin' for you to come back
And I know I wanna leave
But I know I can't do that
Oh, our love, our love
Was like a movie that ended

Like A Movie

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I'm still tryin' to get over it
But its so hard when you're stuck in my mind
I've been mentally kickin'
Myself every time I hear your name in my mind

I've been forcin' myself to cope
Without blamin' you
But it truly does show
Just how much I used to do

But now I'm growin'
I'm reachin' for the stars
I'm makin' it all make sense now
Oh, its not just one-sided hate now
I'm blamin' myself too
Oh, I'm finally movin' on from you

I used to make it all about you
But now I know that was wrong
Its all I ever used to do
I can't believe it took this long

I'm movin' on from the growin' hatred for you
I'm makin' sure I don't do that anymore

And now I'm growin'
I'm reachin' for the stars
I'm makin' it all make sense now
Oh, its not just one-sided hate now
I'm blamin' myself too
Oh, I'm finally movin' on from you

I've made it all make sense
Its all in the palm of my hand
And I'm ready to crush it
I'm ready to curve that part of my life
I'm takin' every chance that I get
To undo all the villianization I did to you
I'm takin' back all the words I said
I'm takin' back all the headaches just thinkin' 'bout you
I'm movin' on from that part in my life
Cuz I know at the end of the day, its the right
Thing to do

I'm tellin' myself "it wasn't all him"
I'm forcin' myself to make sure I did
Tell the truth about everything
That I didn't twist any details
And I know this sounds like an ex song but I swear its not

Oh, oh, I'm

Growin'
I'm reachin' for the stars
I'm makin' it all make sense now
Oh, its not just one-sided hate now
I'm blamin' myself too
Oh, I'm finally movin' on from you

Finally Movin On (From You)

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Finding out was the worst part
Didn't know what would happen next
All I knew was I couldn't stop
Looking at the texts

Then the memories flooded my senses
But now I'm tryin'

I'm tryin' to move on
No matter how hard it is
I'm tryna make sure I don't go
Down that rabbit hole again

I'm not makin' you the villain this time
Cuz I know I fucked up
I'm just tryin' to get it right
Without sayin' unnecessary words

Every time I think about us
I wanna punch myself
Cuz I know that we're over
But my heart won't get it

The memories flood my senses
But I'm tryin'

I'm tryin' to move on
No matter how hard it is
I'm tryna make sure I don't go
Down that rabbit hole again
I'm tryin' to pick up the pieces that I left
But no where I can find them
Its like I'm in a puzzle and there's a missin' piece
And I'm tryin' desperately to find it
And not go down the rabbit hole again

I know I said some nasty shit
I know you don't wanna hear it
I know you probably have me blocked on everything
But honey, I just wanna say I, I didn't mean it
And when somebody says that, they're just tryna manipulate
But I'm not that girl anymore

I'm movin on
I'm leavin you in the past
I'm pickin myself up
Cuz it wasn't gonna last
I'm not gonna fall down that rabbit hole
Again, no I'm not
Not gonna fall again

Not Gonna Fall Again

Singer-Songwriter(Aspiring)
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