change Mr Bungle line to.... "Fiona Apple like ivory humble"... Fiona Apple is first artist you thought of track one of JJ's so

See if we can get everyone on the band to sing this to the end. There's serious power to find here in th vocal with an an EC choir

Incredible, powerful, excited to see where this goes 🔥

💓been looking for french horn!!🔥💓🔥hard to find at reason price🔥🔥i love this 💓💓

look up Howell now, always looking up stuff from you songs bro

Hey Carl man, love hearing your stripped down version of this. Your wonderful voice really stands out here, brother man. Love it!

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The Ballad of the Golden Calf / Double Dutch Mix
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another fictionalive /+/ szalap collab - Shout-out!
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/// the ballad of the golden calf
by fictionalive: re-imagined, written & performed narration
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music you hear = two tracks:
‘lab’ + ‘samples mastered’
written, produced & provided by szalep
courtesy of szalap @kacper-razdwarazdwa
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fictionalive + szalap aka mc fukoff
arrangement & mix
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fusion of it all –
fictionalive with the popoems series and the hyper media reports
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cover art: fictionalive, that’s it
fair use only
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dropped july 21st, 2025
01:01 pm – central european hot summer time / rainy, cool breeze today
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keep shining ✨
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The story of the golden "Kalb"—better known in English as the Golden Calf—is a famous episode from the book of Exodus in the Hebrew Bible. 
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Here’s what happened:
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After Moses led the Israelites out of Egypt and up to Mount Sinai, he went up the mountain to receive the Ten Commandments from God, staying there forty days and nights. 

His long absence caused anxiety among the Israelites at the camp below. Fearing Moses might never return, the people approached his brother Aaron and asked him to make them a new god to lead them.

Aaron told the people to gather all their golden jewelry, which he melted down and fashioned into a golden calf—a symbol likely borrowed from Egyptian religious imagery. 

Aaron then declared that this idol was the god that brought them out of Egypt, built an altar, and proclaimed a festival. 

The Israelites began worshipping the calf, offering sacrifices, feasting, drinking, and dancing around it.

Meanwhile, God informed Moses of the idolatry and threatened to destroy the people for their unfaithfulness. 

Moses pleaded for mercy on their behalf, and God relented from total destruction but promised consequences.

Moses returned to the camp, enraged at the sight of the idolatry. He smashed the stone tablets of the law, burned and ground the golden calf to powder, mixed it with water, and forced the Israelites to drink it. 

Moses then ordered the Levites to punish the ringleaders, resulting in the death of about three thousand people. 
God later sent a plague as further punishment.

The story’s moral is a warning about the dangers of idolatry and turning away from faith, especially at moments of uncertainty. 

It also underscores the necessity of strong leadership and devotion in maintaining spiritual discipline. 

The golden calf remains a potent symbol, often interpreted as a lesson about the perils of faithlessness, materialism, and communal disobedience.

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The Ballad of the Golden Calf / Double Dutch Mix

Tuning 440
Timing 4/4 (Changed to 2/4 bar 49 this is to cheat the DAW into not stretching midi vs wav then anything else - delay on the beat achieves the actual step up in tempo after the timing change)

Chords // Bm  / G / Em //


JJ Calls

Praying hands
Whatever cause
Once the greater good not lost
Bored children create their fun
We shelve French horn for this fine one
"Nice one lads" We read it all!
Vacation taken
To JJ calls
Neighbour to good Mickey Moore
Find Michigan piano pure

Down the road city of cars
To Howell front deck
Dad and Guitars
We jam that love then tell the world
Love and service human highway knurled
Good bi-product of happiness sought
With Croatian fun to cloud we court

Terrell Terminator in Jungle
Predator for good
Keys like Mr Bungle
Faith in more like we could
He Thanks you
It's lifestyle
Built from a porch
Good collective friend
Keep lighting that torch

Some moments sealed, marked and moulded
Pure intention
Dark blindfolded
Howl from human to Howell good soul
Keyed keystone as collective role

JJ calls
Darkness falls
Love lit up
Just for us
Love lit up
Just for us
Love lit up
Just for us
JJ calls

JJ Calls - Session 4

Roland Effektgeräte-Test6 (thinking about the world)

Love chemistry

Hackers

Almost didn't write this but then I decided it was viable enough these dark days.  Wonderful backing track provided by Jam Tracks Galaxy ==> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X7ykuSrpxxc
WHY I’M HERE
Why I’m here
I haven’t a clue
Got no one to love
No dream to pursue
Work to pay the bills
Is all I do
To say to anyone
Got nothin’ new

Why I’m here
Is beyond me
Got no place to go
No place to be
Got nobody to call
Nobody to see
Why I’m here
Is beyond me

CHORUS
The things I know to be true
Have given me a twisted world-view
I’m better goin’ it alone
No tellin’ what I might say or do
No tellin’…what I might say or do
No tellin’…what I might..

Why I’m here
I haven’t a clue
Like talkin’ to wood
Talkin’ to you
And when I pray
If I do
I get no reply
Lord, from You
No reply, no
No reply from You

The things I know to be true
Have given me a twisted world-view
Oh, I’m better goin’ it alone
No tellin’ what I might say or do
No tellin’…what I might say or do
No tellin’…what I might say or do

Why I’m here
I haven’t a clue
Got no one to love
No dream to pursue
Work to pay the bills
Is all I do
To say to anyone
Got nothin’ new
Got nothin, nothin’ new, oh..

The things I know to be true
Have given me a twisted world-view
Oh, I’m better goin’ it alone
No tellin’ what I might say or do
No tellin’…what I might say or do
No tellin’…what I might say or do, oh-oh-oh

Why I’m here
Is a mystery
Ain’t done sh*t with my life
Please forgive me
Got nobody to blame
Soon, I’ll be history
Why I’m here
Is a, a mystery

The things I know to be true
Have given me a twisted world-view
Oh, I’m better goin’ it alone
No tellin’ what I might say or do
No tellin’..


© 2025 Renee La Chapelle – All Rights Reserved

WHY I’M HERE

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Caught in the Non Act: excerpt upcoming "a Rock-or-Die Opera"
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music: beats and tune by szalap  @kacper-razdwarazdwa
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by fictionalive
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lyrics written and 
narration provided by fictionalive
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excerpt of:
The Stage On Which You Perform: a 'Rock-or-Die' Opera 
https://soundcloud.com/fictionalive/a-rock-or-die-opera


fusion of it all - fictionalive with the popoems series and the hyper media reports
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dropped
Thursday, August 8th, 2025
time - 10:39 AM Central European
Hot Summer Time Zone
today: chaos unfolds —
clouds weep showers of sorrow,
laughter born from disbelief

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"Caught in the Non Act"

At first glance, the phrase seems paradoxical—a riddle whispered in smoke. To be “caught” suggests interruption, perhaps even exposure, yet what is unveiled is the “non act,” a moment defined not by what is done, but what is left undone, unwilled, unexpressed. Here, systems of intention and volition collapse; the actor is held—and holding—precisely at the threshold of action.

I. The Paradox of Presence and Absence

To be “caught in the non act” is to be present at the site of absence. This title evokes the liminal: a threshold where anticipation, hesitation, or silent refusal takes the stage. It aligns with Zen thought—the uncarved block, the sound of one hand clapping—gestures toward meaning that reside in emptiness, stillness, and restraint.

II. Agency in Inaction

Is inaction itself a form of agency? Existentialist thinkers such as Sartre argued that even not-choosing is a choice. To be caught in the non act is to dwell in the suspended animation of potential—the lived tension before choice crystallizes into commitment. Here, the subject is not powerless but powerful in withholding, sabotaging the momentum of events through refusal or hesitation. The non act radiates with possibility, every moment of not-acting echoing futurities never realized.

III. Surveillance and Self-Reflection

“Caught”—by whom? By others, or by the self? If the non act is witnessed, it takes on the texture of surveillance: the fear or thrill of being seen not doing. It is the existential snapshot of one’s truth in the gap, the moment between mask and face, a zone often more revealing than any overt gesture. Inwards, it becomes conscience—self-apprehension at the point of procrastination, moral paralysis, or pure contemplation.

IV. Contemporary Resonance

In an era pressed by productivity and ceaseless motion, “Caught in the Non Act” resists the cult of doing. It honors withdrawal, indecision, the strategic pause, and the mysterious freedom in simply not complying, not reacting, not perpetually performing. To be caught in the non act is perhaps to find, at last, a clearing in the relentless forest of demands—a sacred ambiguity where the self can listen more closely for the next true move.

V. Aesthetic Echoes

The phrase dances with ambiguity and negative space. Like a photograph of a ghost, it suggests presences that can only be glimpsed obliquely—what remains hauntingly unfinished, the beauty in longing rather than attainment. It is the space between musical notes, the silence that frames the utterance, the spell before awakening.

Final Reflection

"Caught in the Non Act" thus stands as a quietly rebellious banner—an enigma that encourages us to ponder the riches of stillness, hesitation, potential, and refusal. It asks us: what, in this stopped moment, have you discovered about movement, intention, and meaning itself? Sometimes—the non act is the truest revolution.

Caught in the Non Act: excerpt upcoming "a Rock-or-Die Opera"

Spectra - Adjustement

Cool Funk Backing Track by Gernot Blumel Guitar Lessons ==> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I4Mb_ebpFc8
HEALING MYSELF
At your fingertips, the information you need
Books and video clips help very much indeed
In no time at all doin’ cartwheels ‘cross the floor
In no time at all feelin’ no pain anymore

CHORUS
Take a fall, get back up
Hit a wall, get back up
Healing myself
Feeling myself, again
Healing myself
Feeling myself
Haven’t felt this good in I don’t know when

‘Cuz I took a fall walkin’ my dog a few weeks ago
She’s a good dog but she likes to put on a show
Gave wide berth to that big ol’ oncoming hound
But Lucy went berserk, pulled my body to the ground
Felt a snap someplace in my right upper arm
A cause for great concern and sudden alarm
As Lucy’s leash unraveled from my wrist 
A thought flashed through my head, I couldn’t resist: 

Take a fall, get back up
Hit a wall, get back up
Healing myself
Feeling myself, again
Healing myself
Feeling myself
Haven’t felt this good in I don’t know when

BRIDGE
'Cuz we got,
Asian squattin’
Creatine
Dead hangin’
Feelin’ lean
Non-GMO
Say no to pills
Takin’ it slow
The thing that kills, uh

[Music]

Take a fall, get back up
Hit a wall, get back up
Healing myself
Feeling myself, again
Healing myself
Feeling myself
Haven’t felt this good in I don’t, I don’t know when

……..Goin’ for broke
Take a toke…….

Take a fall, get back up
Hit a wall, get back up
Healing myself
Feeling myself, again, again
Healing myself
Feeling myself
Haven’t felt this good in I don’t know when

Healing myself
Feeling myself
Haven’t felt this good in I don’t know when

Healing myself
Feeling myself
Haven’t felt this good in I don’t know when..

© 2025 Renee La Chapelle – All Rights Reserved


HEALING MYSELF - Funk Version

Hall Of Mystery

Nature of Nemesis

You choose an enemy
To make you feel good
You forget what's real
Your tribe wears jersey of should!
Protectionist turf
Around the lies you are told
Then believed by the blind
Hence brain bias unfold

For milenia religions make mutes
Feel that external power
Or bare wrath of the brute
They keep you quiet
And make mist of your shadow
Your dark pain can light up
And show you 'aint hallow

Ok, you believe and feel the power outside
Just placebo can seed confirmation of white lies
It's mass mind control
And mutes most of your souls
The same shallow vision now finds modern trolls

Political fakes
Material hacks
Got plenty of food
To keep your chains around your backs
Info is free for lots of lucky beings
Well, ears reap what was sowed
If shouters fill your scenes

Dreams of a car
Dreams of a house
Not enough holiday
So you blame meekest mouse
The shouter blamed immigrants
They're the enemy!
While the shouter took the loot
From all and everybody

The enemy is you
Your shadow will tell you
Inside holds the clue
To true God and life true
When you feel your pain
And stop all the blame
The nature of nemesis
Disappears from your name

We still have targets
Bigots to level
Compassion can court
These clowns to new revel
But enemies
Know...
'Just choose deaf and dumb
Inspite of their senses
Being potential for one

Nature be friend
Mute the nemesis
We won't find our end
Nature be friend
Mute the nemesis
We evade our end




Nature of Nemesis

Howdy Friends,

This is somewhere to put tunes when other tracks are getting digested 🤘🏽A digestion period is something I never give people so I think it's time to try it. I feel when collaborating with large groups of musicians my routine of daily uploads takes the shine off those shares so this profile was born from wanting to deliver that period but still fullful my desire to share everything as it comes to light. In the short term his will likely lessen my play count which I don't mind because this is about making TBD bigger and more financially successful in the future so experimenting with presentation should be worth it.  I think this should show an evolution to TBD's organic following better and I won't be bombarding everyone with a confusing amount of material like currently happens on the main account.
This also expands my desire to share more detail on the process and teach it more. Because I know I'm not pushing everything to everyone it will feel a bit better sharing thoughts and long jams here and will still be a door open for whoever might want to connect to that. I'll follow back genuine people here but I think I will avoid seeking people out from this page as again that should give a better outline of the reality of my music and how organic it is actually becoming for people and remove a bit of the SoundCloud routine from the mix. All going well I can upgrade this profile to artist pro and maybe endeavour to cover a sub with it and move passed the 120min limit of a free profile. Rock and Real to everyone.

Love ya all,

Carl

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