I'm planning to go back to Indonesia in January
but my boyfriend doesn't know if he'll be there anymore
because of work
he may move
and I don't know what's going to happen
but for now we still love each other
for now it's long distance
for now we're in the middle
of 7 months apart
and I hope to fuck he is there
come January

halfway through september and missing you

I cry a lot in this one
even though I swear 
my day was fine

I'm not surprised when I don't hear back from you
anymore

your shitty goodbye last night

eating dinner and talking about how being in a long distance romantic relationship with an Indonesian on the other side of the world affects me emotionally
ups and downs
highs and lows
bananas and corn

he called me and told me his scooter is fucked up and in canggu
and has work all night
and I told him
I'm busy all of Saturday
Sunday I can do
nothing :) :) :)

doing my best

feeling content today

today my bf told me 
he was talking to his friend
Bc his friend's relationship got worse
They broke up
They don't talk anymore
He still wants to be with her
And he asked my bf about our relationship
How Chris feels
For advice
And Chris said ya
He thinks its normal to feel disconnected
With the distance
To feel sad
Even bored
But for us
We still miss each other
And want to see each other again
So he doesn't know what to tell his friend
About his situation
Because ours
Is different

It was so nice to hear 
To hear him say 
He told his friend
He still misses me
And wants to see me again

He kept smiling 
While we were on video call
And laughing at
Things I would say
Like he was happy too
Just to see me
He went to sleep
And before he did he said 
Love you

Things feel normal
And good :)

happy lazy sunday

heart in Indonesia
body in Canada
mind everywhere

tbqh with you