sometimes i feel about two inches tall
and sometimes i might as well just not exist at all
i hate to be so quiet, i just have too much to say
i wish i could open my mouth without pushing you away

maybe i'm just mistaken about everything
but right or wrong, i think it's best 
if you believe what makes you glad to be alive

i've heard there are better things to hold
but all it takes to miss you is a song, a scent, the cold
i'm so tired of losing grip every time our paths have crossed
it's just hard to find the patience when the good is just as lost

i don't think i much care for honesty
it seems my truth is never what the truth should really be
but these dreams screw with my senses and my vision's left unclear
so if ever you should need me, i will always be right here.

7. Winter Scent

I'm staring at a distant lock.
I'm wondering how to make it talk to me.
it seems as if the key got lost,
or swallowed by some void.
i've got a better store of love than brain,
and i don't feel like waiting is a game.
even the worst of words look prettier in print.

you're so far away, but i won't chase you,
i'll stand right here, i'll smile and wave if you look back.
it's so hard to wait, but the gain will be all right
there's nothing else i'd rather do

i always have so much to say,
but when i put it on display i see
it would have been much better to
just clench my teeth and sleep.
sometimes i have to tell myself to breathe
sometimes i cannot face what won't relieve
but more than anything i wish 
you had some faith in me

i wish i wasn't so absurd
but i keep finding magic words around
i cling to the because there's 
nothing else for me to hold
i've got a better store of love than brain
though who can say for sure if i'll remain
nothing will stay unless you believe.

11. Finally, It Rains

you've kept me waiting for far too long now
the time has finally come 
for barefoot journeys, enjoying sunlight, 
and friends returning home

no more numbered days, no more early nights
just a summer breeze when we go outside

the sand is warm now, the sea is wide, 
and not a school in sight.
do what you want, nobody can stop us
the next one hundred nights

when the ocean calls, i'll be on my way
it's our only life, but we'll make it stay.

2. Dear Summer

my bones are screaming 'gotta go.'
they'd leave me if it weren't for skin
but they're trapped in.

i feel like maybe all the hopes and dreams i've ever ruined will be okay
i feel like maybe all my doubts and fears will be a funny story someday.
yo no se.

my legs are shaking without a reason.
if it weren't for beds, where would i be?

i feel like maybe all the metaphoric clouds will never blow away
but when rain comes it stops the metaphoric drought so that will be okay.
yo no se.

3. Optimism

you say its a crime to fly when the sun's too hot 
for our midnight eyes
i must admit, there's no way that I'll deny
a chance to see the light within you

so carry on, you know i don't care
i'll say anything but no one will hear
the very thought of losing you, dear
kills me endlessly, but nobody cares

so often i know you're there,
but the distance remains just to be unfair
i must admit, it's always that i despair
how much i'd love to be the light around

i'll always remember, i'll always believe

4. Light Around You

you say it like it's true, and i've dreamt such words
get tangled in my mind
you just don't understand how
i'll never make it out alive
please don't say that again.

i'm not about to change.
one year away and i feel 
so very dry.
you just don't understand how
it's such a task to wait around.
please don't say that again.

why must the seasons change?
if i could only pause it
while we're cold.
you just don't understand.
i'll never hear another sound
if i don't hear you again.

6. Apogee

i found you in my closet hiding in my sunday best
you said 'don't fear, i'm on the lam and i need a good night's rest'
from what, from whom, i could not guess, only you and god did know
but i took your shaking palms and squeezed, my own wolf in sheep's clothes

oh my dear, shall we dance all night and day?
it's quiet in this house and my mother is away
we don't need nobody else, just a quiet place to roam
oh what a precious gift to be alone

we talked and discussed the metaphors implied in cartoon shows
and our fingertips traced curious patterns on your jawline and my nose
we hugged and kissed, oh how we kissed in the back of my best friend's truck
it's us against the world, my sweet, and i can't believe our luck

but alas, you had to leave again and you said 'forget me not'
the qualm about our secret bond is avoiding getting caught
but i know we'll meet again someday, if you're willing to take the ride
i'll sneak you in my linens if you need a place to hide

oh my dear how we danced all night and day
but my legs and heart are sore and mother's here today
even though you're on the road again, wherever you may roam
my heart will always be your home.

1. Cartoons

the original versions of the tracks that are going on this year's remaster, pre-production.

8. At Home in the Clouds

i fail to see evil where there is none to be seen
what sharp eyes they must have
what clean hands they keep
despite their throwing stones

welcome home, we're glad you came to stay
welcome home, where tomorrow's not so far away

we'll toy with words, tear them apart
to get sight of the core
let history prove there is nothing left to fear
but fear itself

and love is love.

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