the surface of your reality is a deep blue sea

VIDEO: https://youtu.be/VoQTvMHKhMs

written & performed by teddybear
produced by jcam
mixed and mastered by jcam, teddybear & Adam Hanney
art by teddybear

@tddybrr

lyrics:

wait for me
you're always saying
wait for me
always saying stay
I can't be alone
clay for me
becoming what you say to me
then you turn back
to what I need most
saying sorry
that's not what I meant
I'm just worried
about you so I stress
and it hurts me
like don't you want what's best for me?
I say yes
and really all I see is 
red from the brake lights
just caught me in a moment
that memory is loading
I've never been this close
I didn't know how
I didn't notice
this coming into focus
this doesn't feel like home to me
you're aiming for the throat I see
constantly
whisper something while you hold me
just underneath
the surface of your reality's a deep blue sea
I know that you'll hate me
Oh how I live so free
all through the misery of me
don't thank me
just don't hit me up
don't thank me
just don't hit me up
she said fine by me
I know that you'll need me
after you live so free
all through the misery
baby when you see
just don't hit me up 
baby when you see
I can't love you enough
I know you'll hate me 
Oh how I live so free
All through the misery
All through the misery of me

you can't kill me in a way that matters

VIDEO

you can't kill me in a way that matters (p. jcam)+VIDEO

the beginning of the end

VIDEO: https://youtu.be/kl4YKO00Nhc

#spellbreaker
#liferuinerEP
IG: @tddybrr

Written & Performed By teddybear
Produced By DEEGS
Mixed By teddybear
Mastered By teddybear & Cartoon Ben
Artwork By Zac Lazar & teddybear

Lyrics:

Lately I don’t feel shit
How I’m sposed to feel shit
Think I need a meal quick
I been on the same shit 
All day , oh shit ,
Don’t know where that time went
Smoke until I’m anxious
Smoke until I regret
Everything about my life
On some real shit
I don’t know , I can’t switch
Something that I came with
And I had a bad day
I been off the k pins
I can tell you’re angry
I’m too high to place it
Now
Tell me what you wanna kno
Everything you want baby
Everything you don’t 
I’ll give u everything and more
I wish you could kill me
Thru a message on your phone 

But I wish I could feel it
How I’m sposed to feel it
Tell me how to change that
I would do it so quick
I can’t put it on you 
You can’t be the one fix
No
Bby I don’t wanna kno
Part of me that does
But the rest of me that don’t
Think I’ve heard it all before
Something from a movie
But I’ll never rly know

ketamine at tiffany's

OFFICIAL VIDEO

KETAMINE AT TIFFANY'S (PROD. DEEGS) [VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION]

half the man I thought I was

#spellbreaker
#liferuinerEP

@tddybrr
@1cianp

Written & Performed By teddybear
Produced By Cian P
Mixed & Recorded By Cian P
Mastered By teddybear
Art By IG: canadianwhitetrash_

Lyrics:

wake me up
if you want to talk these days 
just wake me up
cause I've been waiting up
I think you're waking up
to if you need me
you're on your own
it's obvious
I'm twice as broken now
as you had thought I was
I'm twice as fucked up
brand new drugs
on the run
I'm on the run

I'm on the run

From what you said to me
From what you took from me
From everything I thought I'd be by now
Just based on all that I had done
But what did I become?
And you want to blame me for everything
So you can hate me and move on to better things
And you can say it wasn't anything
Cause who you're with deserves to hear those things
But to blame me you'd have to wake me up
If you want to talk these days
Just wake me up
I'm twice as broken now
As you had thought I was
I'm twice as fucked up
Brand new drugs
I'm half the man I thought I was
And all I am is scared of love
And on the run

EIGHTH DEVIL (DEATHPROOF)

EIGHTH DEVIL [DEATHPROOF] (PROD. CIAN P)

I've got the time, I could take yours

all spells will be broken
spellbreaker coming soon

#spellbreaker
#liferuinerEP

Written & Performed By teddybear
Produced, Mixed & Mastered By bleachh (@ih8bleachh)
Recorded at BLUEROOM
Artwork By Zac Lazar

@tddybrr
@ih8bleachh

Lyrics:

I still like the radio sometimes
To end a train of thinking
I take a drive at 5 am 
To steer away from sleep

I still like to call you up
And say hi in the way I used to
To see if I notice
A growing indifference in you 

Dismissal 
Expected
A missile
It’s seeking
Directed
I run to
The thistles
I see it
A field in
The distance
To bleed in
To feel this
I need this 

Every time I can take more
It just feels right
I’ve got the time we could make yours
And I could make some more tomorrow
It’s not fine can’t you see it’s forced 
Everything is temporary
But I’m set here
for the worst

Approval
I test it
Eternal
Regression
Its looping back
Assurance
What is that
I’m up to 
my kneecaps
I call out
To break the spell

Every time I can take more
It just feels nice
I’ve got the time I could take yours
And I could take some more tomorrow

LIFERUINER EP

LIFERUINER

LIFERUINER (PROD. BLEACHH)

VIDEO: https://youtu.be/5qPelNPKmJU 

HELLBREAKER EP COMING SOON

Written & Performed By teddybear
Produced, Recorded, Mixed & Mastered By bleachh
Art By Zack Gucci Lazar
ig: tddybrr
ig: ih8bleachh

HELL (UNBROKEN)

HELL (UNBROKEN) (PROD. BLEACHH) [+VIDEO]

Produced, Mixed & Mastered by Cian P (@1cianp)

Lyrics: https://genius.com/Teddybear-kiwi-skin-lyrics

Kiwi Skin

Kiwi Skin (Prod. Cian P)

Prod. Cian P & teddybear

Recorded, Mixed & Mastered by @1cianp

twitter.com/tddybrr

thank you for all of the support, I love you all

Lyrics:

I'll pull my hot glue gun out,
And I'll put the scene back together,
Cause man, this shit just got too fun now,
They running around like a ball on a tether,
I proved that I'm clever,
 I am a reason to never say never,
And all of the rappers you've worn on your sleeve have been pleather, and will be forever man we'll be forever man,
And connections severed they were for the better, 
Man I studied game it was to the letter,
Man I wrote her letters for a whole November,
Saying this would happen but she never read em,
I work when I get up,
Until I can't lift my head up,
Ethic like I got a cosign from Drizzy,
And I'm sitting pretty rap was a living,
See nothing was given,
Nothing was written til I went and wrote it,
Yung password plugging all the codes in,
Young snape I'm cooking up the potion,
They want tape but I'm training with roshi,
Flow feel like lotion,
Smell like a garden of roses and potent,
This what they hoping, for, right?
Haven't hit you for like four nights,
Haven't hit dope in a fort night,
But I got this blunt and I need light,
Everyone knows of my trees vice,
I burn a back in my yard, nice,
Had her in back of my car twice,
Millions on their way to me like I ordered, rice,
Youre just making songs I'm recording my life,
Water in bottom of pipe,
She got the bottom of wife,
Whatever she is she my type,
Whatever I drop man she issue the hype,
She like when I bite,
She like when switch it up,
Answer any time,
Other than the night,
Tells me that be nice,
But she roll the dice,
And she bring the drink,
Cause I got the ice,

Glacier Fresh (Prod. Cian P & teddybear)

talk to me

lyrics:
https://genius.com/Teddybear-anxious-lyrics

listen on Apple Music
https://itunes.apple.com/ca/album/anxious/1326341480?i=1326341482

listen on Spotify
https://open.spotify.com/track/0if3cM7vQZy7NRTU3MtHYG

Prod. Tülpa (@chilltulpa)

Recorded, Mixed & Mastered by Cian P (@1cianP)

Artwork by Barbara Schaefer (barbaraschaeferworks.com)

Anxious

Spotify

Anxious (Prod. Tülpa)

Red Tongue

Recorded, Mixed & Mastered by Greg Grindz
Written & Performed by teddybear
Produced by Curtis Heron (@curtisheron) & Antonio (@xantonio)
Additional Mixing by Cian P (@cianp)
Lyrics:
https://genius.com/Teddybear-red-tongue-lyrics

Blue Tongue

Mixed & Mastered by Cian P (@cianp)
Written & Performed by teddybear
Produced by teddybear & Cian P (@cianp)
Lyrics:
https://genius.com/Teddybear-blue-tongue-lyrics

RED TONGUE

Red Tongue / Blue Tongue (Prod. Curtis Heron & Antonio / teddybear & Cian P)

Recorded, Mixed & Mastered by Cian P (@1cianp)
Produced by teddybear & Cian P (@1cianp)
Written & Performed by teddybear, Young Lungs (@young-lungs-1) & Blankts (@blankts)

lyrics:
https://genius.com/Teddybear-the-fever-you-just-sweat-out-lyrics

RED TONGUE

Executive Producer: Cian P (@1cianp)
Art Direction/Cover Art: Barbara Schaefer
Booklet: MISOGI

Chorus Lyrics Written By Brendon Urie, Spencer Smith, and Ryan Ross of Panic! At The Disco 
Interpolated from the 2005 song “London Beckoned Songs About Money Written By Machines”

Download: http://www.mediafire.com/download/vpcbtf1fzx2m5iq/TEDDY_-_RED_TONGUE.zip

The Fever You Just Sweat Out ft. BLANKTS & Young Lungs (Prod. teddybear & Cian P)

Recorded, Mixed & Mastered by Cian P
Written & Performed by teddybear
VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZecKJwPbymw

Lyrics:
https://genius.com/Teddybear-sugarcane-99-lyrics

RED TONGUE

Executive Producer: Cian P
Art Direction/Cover Art: Barbara Schaefer (plantasuculenta.com)
Photo Set: Barbara Schaefer
Booklet: MISOGI

Download: http://www.mediafire.com/download/vpcbtf1fzx2m5iq/TEDDY_-_RED_TONGUE.zip

Sugarcane 99 (Prod. Holyrain)[VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION]

Recorded, Mixed & Mastered by Cian P (@1cianp)
Produced by Greaf (@greaf)
Written & Performed by teddybear

Lyrics: 
https://genius.com/Teddybear-curving-lyrics

RED TONGUE

Executive Producer: Cian P
Art Direction/Cover Art: Barbara Schaefer (plantasuculenta.com)
Photo Set: Barbara Schaefer
Booklet: MISOGI

Download: http://www.mediafire.com/download/vpcbtf1fzx2m5iq/TEDDY_-_RED_TONGUE.zip

Curving

Curving (Prod. Greaf)

Mixed & Mastered by Tülpa (@chilltulpa)
Written & Performed by teddybear
Produced by Tülpa & teddybear
Sample of Leather Empire by William Bonney

Lyrics:
https://genius.com/Teddybear-dew-lyrics

RED TONGUE

Executive Producer: Cian P
Art Direction/Cover Art: Barbara Schaefer (plantasuculenta.com)
Photo Set: Barbara Schaefer
Booklet: MISOGI

Download: http://www.mediafire.com/download/vpcbtf1fzx2m5iq/TEDDY_-_RED_TONGUE.zip

Dew (Prod. Tülpa & teddybear)

for you

'Bread & Butterflies' Starts Now

WATCH: https://youtu.be/AVfIGiTtMJc

Written By MISOGI & teddybear
Performed By teddybear
Produced By MISOGI
Mixed & Mastered By Hudson Alexander
Additional Mixing By MISOGI, teddybear & Falls
Art By Barbara Schaefer
Featuring The Voice Of Eartha Kitt
Previously Appeared On 'Death Metal'

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2Kl3LTWaV5OTYaUEwsV2po?si=F-2pwng_Tiq7XnrplIHNsA

Apple Music: https://itunes.apple.com/ca/album/velvet-skin/1356975405?i=1356975412

Listen To Death Metal
https://soundcloud.com/misogi/sets/death-metal

@misogi
@tddybrr
@hudsonalexander
@falls-2

Bread & Butterflies

Velvet Skin

Lyrics

Velvet Skin (Prod. MISOGI) *VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION*

he'll never know

'Bread & Butterflies' Continues

Produced By Cian P 
Performed By teddybear
Written By teddybear
Mixed & Mastered By Hudson Alexander 
Additional Mixing By Cian P
Art By Vanessa Ariganello (IG: @h0lyness)

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0BxGeQfnrBxgX4vRv67wEc?si=Uq3bdhZWQ6aFJY6mq0MVzA

Apple Music: https://itunes.apple.com/ca/album/cheshire-single/1367531226

@tddybrr
@1cianp
@hudsonalexander

Cheshire

Cheshire (Prod. Cian P)

frame by frame

'Bread & Butterflies' Continues...

Written By teddybear & HUSH.
Performed By teddybear & HUSH. 
Produced By Joshua Heflinger 
Mixed & Mastered By Hudson Alexander 
Recorded By River16 Recording Studio & Hudson Alexander
Art By teddybear

@tddybrr
@joshuaheflinger
@bequietplease
@hudsonalexander

Memories Change

Memories Change ft. HUSH. (Prod. Joshua Heflinger)

how could I have been so rude

Bread & Butterflies Continues...

Written & Performed By teddybear 
Produced By Hudson Alexander
Recorded/Mixed/Mastered By Hudson Alexander
Art By Jazzy Ross (ig: jazzyross)

@hudsonalexander
@tddybrr

Not in a car!

Not in a car! (Prod. Hudson Alexander)

please press ignore

Bread & Butterflies Continues...

Written & Performed By teddybear 
Produced By Hudson Alexander
Recorded/Mixed/Mastered By Hudson Alexander
Art By Janice Frolich (ig: farojewelry)

@hudsonalexander
@tddybrr

Nevermind

Nevermind (Prod. Hudson Alexander)

you said we were anxious regardless

Bread & Butterflies Continues...

Written & Performed By teddybear 
Produced By Cian P
Recorded/Mixed/Mastered By Cian P
Art By teddybear

@1cianp
@tddybrr

Agnosia

Agnosia (Prod. Cian P)

you should just ignore it

Bread & Butterflies Continues...

Written & Performed By teddybear (ig: tddybrr)
Featuring Teddy
Recorded By Ricky Anthony In 2016 & By Hudson Alexander In 2018
Production By Ricky Anthony, Hudson Alexander, Tülpa & Convenience
Executive Production By teddybear, Hudson Alexander & IOF
Mixed & Mastered By Hudson Alexander
Addition Vocals Sampled From Andy Kaufman’s Album “Andy And His Grandmother”

@tddybrr
@rickyanthony
@chilltulpa
@hudsonalexander
@user-323857486 (Convenience)
@iofmusic

i hate myself more than you ever could

i hate myself more than you ever could (Prod. Ricky Anthony, Hudson Alexander, Tülpa & Adam Hanney)

because it means i am more alive

Bread & Butterflies Continues...

Written & Performed By teddybear
Featuring Writing & Vocals By sosi
Production By Tatsumi
Mixed & Mastered By Hudson Alexander
Additional Vocal Mixing By Cian P
Recorded By Cian P In 2017 & By Hudson Alexander In 2018
Executive Production By teddybear & Hudson Alexander
Special Thanks To Alex, THEY'RE KILLING EACH OTHER, Richy Witch, Scott Glaysher, Chris Smith, Young Lungs, basementparty & HUSH.

@tddybrr
@seesosi
@tatsumiport
@hudsonalexander
@1cianp

Heffalumps & Woozles

Heffalumps & Woozles ft. sosi (Prod. Tatsumi)

even though you know I'll forget

Bread & Butterflies Continues...

Written & Performed By teddybear & BLANKTS
Featuring BLANKTS
Produced, Recorded, Mixed & Mastered By Hudson Alexander
Additional Prod. HUSH. & teddybear
Artwork By teddybear

@tddybrr
@hudsonalexander
@blankts
@bequietplease

Kevlar

Kevlar ft. BLANKTS (Prod. Hudson Alexander)

it all hit me how much had changed

Bread & Butterflies Continues...

Written & Performed By teddybear
Produced By Falls
Recorded, Mixed & Mastered By Hudson Alexander

@tddybrr
@falls-2
@hudsonalexander

No Such Thing

No Such Thing (Prod. Falls)

i'm the one who answers

Bread & Butterflies Chapter 14

Written & Performed By teddybear
Produced, Recorded & Mastered By Cian P

Executive Production: Hudson Alexander & teddybear

Lifeline

Lifeline (Prod. Cian P) (BONUS)

You lied to yourself.

Bread & Butterflies

Executive Production: Hudson Alexander & teddybear

Pinks

Pinks (Prod. North House) (BONUS)

What if it's all in my head?

The Final Chapter of Bread & Butterflies

Written & Performed By teddybear & BLANKTS
Produced By Hudson Alexander
Featuring BLANKTS

Wonderland

Wonderland ft. BLANKTS (Prod. Hudson Alexander)

Little Rain

Little Rain ft. BLANKTS (Prod. Tülpa)

it’s a lot


booking/features/songwriting: 
teddy.wav@gmail.com

teddybear

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