With Bonetender

With Dave Orestes

with J. J. Terrell

with Axel Menningen

Lyrics:
I worked up a sense of self,
Being all by myself,
Time alone,
No the with others.
.
Worked up a sense of self,
Growing up by myself,
Was time alone,
Without a mother.
.
And I know, and I know, and I know,
This is not forever. No.
And I know, and I know, we'll never be, together,
Again.
.
Oh I know, and I know, and I know,
Self made is clever. Oh.
But I know, oh I know, we'll never be,
Forever,again.
.
I worked up a sense of self,
Being all by myself.
Time alone,
No time with others.
.
Worked up a sense of self,
All by myself.
Cos time alone, means,
No time with others.
.
Come to me darling, oh oh.
To the place where the horizon meets up with the sun.
Run to me darling, my dear.
Drift away so we can play,
In Neverland.
.
No no no, no no, no no.
No no no, no no, no no.
.
I worked up a sense of self,
Being all by myself.
Time alone,
No time with others.
.
I worked up a sense of self,
Being all by myself.
Time alone,
Without you!
.
Don't say you love me, no oh oh oh.
Cos I see the look in your eyes and I know.
Don't say you love me no oh oh oh.
Cos I miss you more when you're next to me than when you, go.
.
Time alone, oh oh.
Time alone, oh oh.
Time alone, no time with others, no.
Time alone in Neverland.
.
© Tam Jennifer Hastings, 2021. All rights reserved.

TIME ALONE (demo, 2021)

Feel What He Feels - lo-fi demo (2021)

times are changing  ( I just wanna be happy )- by Tam hastings - song idea lofi (2021)

Next To Her (2022)

Tell Me You Love Me (2022)

Vocals / Lyrics / Cover Pic: Tam Jennifer @teejaymusicasides
Drums: Jens Fehrensen
Music, Guitars (Strat, Jazzmaster, Les Paul), Bass (P), Mellotron (Redtron), Mix & Mastering (DAW): @bonetender

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5YWPBuW94bnh2Mu3R0fsip

======= Lyrics =======

I’m spinning around
Trying to find my sound
When you look at the stars
You’ll see in my mind
And I’m missing you so much baby
Been alone on the road just lately

Been alone on the road
Been alone on the road
All alone
Oh oh

I’m humming a tune
Written just for you
When you open your eyes
You’ll quickly realise
That I’m missing you so much baby
Been alone on this road just lately

I hope as I go go 
Go with the flow
When you know you know
So don’t take it slow
Cos I’m missing you so much baby
Been alone on this road just lately

Been alone on the road
Been alone on the road
All alone

Been alone on the road just lately
All alone
Been alone on the road just lately
All alone

Been alone on this road
Been alone on the road
Oh oh

Been alone on the road
Been alone on the road
Been alone on the road

©Tam Jennifer, Jens Fehrensen & Bonetender 2022 All Rights Reserved

Alone on the Road

Alone On The Road (with Tam Jennifer & Jens Fehrensen)

lyrics, vocals, mixing by Tam Jennifer, on synthetic guitar loop (anon.) Two loops have been chopped up, arranged and mixed in with the vocals to accent emotion. 

Indie experimental trap. 

Vocals recorded and mixed using Audacity and RODE USB Mini Microphone

FOR MY MOTHER

Cover generated using Stable-Diffusion.. design by Tam Jennifer. 

. 

I originally recorded a version of this song just two months after she died. Here is the original. 

Listen to Mother mother (DEMO 20191118) by Tam Jennifer Music on #SoundCloud
https://on.soundcloud.com/r6jbs

Where Did She Go ( I Wanna Know, 2022 )

Experimental Poetry Art Piece. 
1st movement 

Cover generated using Dall-e 2 AI

Mixed: Audacity.
Mic: Rhode USB Mini 

Lyrics: 

Lying awake at night
Sad but I can't cry
I'm still just that little boy screaming
Mommy to the sky
.
Holding my head I'm bad
But I don't know why
I'm still just that little boy 
Who was lost when his mommy died
.
Now I'm numb the words don't come
A new sort of lie
I'm still just that little boy screaming
Mommy to the sky
.
Hope is lost
Life move fast
It's terrible outside
I'm still just that little boy
Who had no place to hide
.
Perhaps, maybe
I'll sing a song of beauty
Almost, not quite
Beauty out of sight
.
Hold on, hold on,
Hope is on its way
Every man must learn to stand
When mommy goes away
.
© Ben-Tam Jennifer, 2022. All rights reserved.

Mommy To The Sky (Ben's Song, 2022 ) - 1st Movement

For my mother 

Music and Lyrics by Ben-Tam Jennifer 
Recorded and produced by Ben-Tam Jennifer using Audacity
Microphone: Rhode USB Mini 
Guitar: Cort  MR710 LH NS

Lyrics:

Mommy mommy mommy
Where did you go?
I never got the chance to tell you
That I love you so.
.
Mommy mommy mommy
Why did you leave?
I miss you every day
How do I continue this way?
.
Mommy mommy mommy
Mommy mommy mommy
Tell me how
Tell me now
Tell me
.
Mother!
Is it cold?
You faced something to which
We must all race
Death's door
.
Mother!
You're keeping me warm
My memories are blankets around my heart
They help me to mourn
.
Mommy mommy mommy
Mommy mommy mommy
Tell me how
Tell me now
Tell me
.
Are there stars where you are?
Can people see your smile?
Are there gardens filled with flowers,
For you to walk around, in?
.
Are there hopeful dreams?
And waterfalls and trees?
Sunny days with music playing?
Do you ever think of me?
.
Mommy mommy mommy
Mommy mommy mommy
Tell me how
Tell me now
Tell me
.
Mommy mommy mommy
Mommy mommy mommy
Tell me how
Tell me now
Tell me
.


Tell Me

Tell Me (2022)

Thank you so much Bonetender for another lovely collaboration!

Music and Lyrics, Guitar and Vocals: Ben-Tam Jennifer
Drums (AD2), Keys, Mix & Mastering: @bonetender

Lyrics:

Listen to the waterfall flow
It will tell you all you need to know
Listen to the waterfall

Listen to the bumblebee fly
Don't let this moment pass you by
Listen to the bumblebee

All roads no longer lead to Rome
But if you follow your heart
Any road will take you home
Take you home

Slow down slow down stop now
Let your heart rate drop now
Remember you are alright
Right now

The past has past and
You know you'll face the future somehow
So listen to the waterfall
Waterfall

Listen to the waterfall flow
It will tell you all you need to know

© Tam Hastings, Bonetender, 2022. All rights reserved.

Waterfall

Waterfall ( with Bonetender )

In The Spotlight:

Recorded / mixed: Audacity. 
Guitar / Beat: Synth Mashup
Keyboard: Roland E-X20 
Mic: Rhode USB Mini

LYRICS: 

I used to think
That I would be someone
If you called my name
I used to think that
Every day

I used to think 
That I would feel something
If you held my hand
It was perfect 
In my mind

You were the melody
And I was the harmony
You were a symphony
And I was the leading beat

You were the band
And I was a fan
Then you walked walked away
From my open hand

Cos this is a song
For the artist's way
This is a song
To know it will be okay
We are the art
And the road on which art is made

This is a song for the girl
Who turned my head
Caught my eye
Now she's all alone
In the spotlight

I used to think
That I would be someone
If you called my name
I used to think that
Every day

I used to think 
That I would feel something
If you held my hand
It was perfect 
In my mind

© Tam Hastings, Ben-Tam Jennifer, 2022

In The Spotlight

In The Spotlight (2022)

Recorded / mixed: Audacity
Guitar: Cort MR710 LH NS
Mic: Rhode USB Mini
Effects: Clock ticking / Laptop Keyboard

Lyrics:
If he stops singing
It will be the beginning
Of the end of a time when
Life is worth living

If he stops singing
It will be the beginning
Of the end of a time when
Life is worth living

There comes a time in every man's life
When the words won't flow and the melody slows
There comes a time when day turns to night 
And the flame once so bright is nowhere in sight

If he stops singing
It will be the beginning
Of the end of a time when
Life is worth living

If he stops singing
It will be the beginning
Of the end of a time when
Life is worth living

Please don't go
You'll never know
That every time I clear my mind
You're the only one I find

Disconnected and tone deaf
Emotionally worth less
Wondering what will be left
I fill my life with emptiness

Remembering your touch
I couldn't get enough
Now it doesn't even matter
No it doesn't matter

Cos if he stops singing
It will be the beginning
Of the end of a time when
Life is worth living

If he stops singing
It will be the beginning
Of the end of a time when
Life is worth living

Don't stop singing
Never stop 
Never stop

© Tam Hastings, Ben-Tam Jennifer, 2022

Don't Stop Singing

Don't Stop Singing (2023)

It's Neverland, my dear.

Recorded / mixed: Audacity.
Keyboard: Roland E-X20
Mic: Rhode USB Mini

Lyrics: 

What does it mean?
If you love me,
But don't want me dear.
Your eyes tell me lies,
That I want to hear. 
.
Can I believe?
When you hold my hand and keep me near,
Your eye tell me lies,
Tell me lies, my dear. 
.
What does it mean?
If you love me,
But don't want me dear.
Your eyes tell me lies,
That I want to hear. 
.
Can I believe?
When you hold my hand and keep me near,
Your eye tell me lies,
Tell me lies, my dear. 
.
If only,
I could tell you you were beautiful
To me.
.
If only,
I could let you know with just one dance 
That every chance to love you,
Is a gift from you to me.
.
If only,
I could tell you you were beautiful
To me.
If only. 
.
If only,
I could let you know with just one smile
That the way you make feel right now 
Helps me to be me somehow. 
.
I wish that I could find the words to let you know,
That the lies your eyes say,
In my mind,
Are the sweetest words,
That I,
Will ever find. 
.
I wish that I could find the words to let you know,
That the lies your eyes say,
In my mind,
Are the sweetest words,
That I,
Will ever find. 
.
I'm still-
Haunted my dear
Haunted by you,
When you're near.
I'm so- 
Haunted my dear
Haunted by you,
When you're near.
.
I can't sing your song anymore
I can't sing anybody else's song at all 
Oh I can't sing your song anymore
I can't sing anybody else's song at all 
I can't sing your song anymore
I can't sing anybody else's song at all 
I can't sing your song anymore
I can't sing anybody else's song at all 
.
What does it mean?
If you love me,
But don't want me dear.
Your eyes tell me lies, 
Oh your eyes tell me lies,
Yes your eyes tell me lies,
That I want to hear. 
.
In your eyes 
In your eyes
My surprise is in your eyes. 
.
-end-

© Tam Jennifer Hastings, 2023

Your Eyes Tell Me Lies

Your Eyes Tell Me Lies (2023)

Sample of what my song 'Run to me' will eventually sound like. Recorded with a computer mike... And Ableton live.  Mix, vocals, songwriting, lyrics by ME :) 

Cover generated using Dall-e 2 AI

Run to me  (2013)

Call To Love is the first song I recorded in studio.

This experience was a huge step in building my confidence and started my journey towards really working on producing my own stuff. 

I like to think of this song as a sort of personal mantra to live by. And when life gets tough, I return to it as a much needed reminder to myself of beauty in the world. 

Glad to finally add this to my SoundCloud collection. I hope you enjoy :)

Music, lyrics, guitar & arrangement by Tam Hastings
Produced, mixed & mastered by Milan Rendall

Recorded / mixed: Ableton Live

Lyrics:

I follow the call to love
Knowing that I am enough
I follow the call to love
I pick up my heart from the dust and
I will remember
I will remember oh oh
Remember

She looked up at me that day
Watching me do it my way
And I will be free every day
These words I heard her say
I will remember
I will remember oh oh
Remember

Drop your sword
And kiss me while I sleep
My hand in yours
Is a memory I'll always keep
Hope is a road
Meant only for the brave
And as I paint my poetry
The sun rises on another day

I follow the call to love
Knowing that I am enough
I follow the call to love
I pick up my heart from the dust and
I will remember
I will remember oh oh
Remember

This is a call from
My heart to you
Knowing love
Is something I know how to do, so
Take my life
Exactly as it is
And as I paint my poetry
It falls so gently on
Your ears

I follow the call to love
Knowing that I am enough
I follow the call to love
I pick up my heart from the dust and
I will remember
I will remember oh oh
Remember

I follow the call to love
Knowing that I am enough
I follow the call to love
I pick up my heart from the dust and
I will remember
I will remember oh oh
Remember

To love
Call to love
Call to love


© Tam Jennifer Hastings, 2022

Call To Love

Call To Love (Studio Version, Prod. by Milan)


How many songs will I write for my mother... at least one more. 

I originally recorded a demo version of this song just two months after she died. Here is the original. 

Listen to Mother mother (DEMO 20191118) by Tam Jennifer Music on #SoundCloud
https://on.soundcloud.com/r6jbs

Current recording:

Recorded/Mixed: Audacity
Guitar: Cort MR710 LH NS
Mic: Rhode USB Mini

Lyrics:

I wanna know
Where did she go
I wanna know

I wanna know
Where did she go
I wanna know

Is it in the trees
Blowing in the breeze
I wanna know

Is it on the page
Where her eyes last laid
I wanna know 

Mother mother mother 
Take me
To your place
Of endless rest

Mother mother mother mother
Break me
Put me
To the ultimate test

I wanna know
Where did she go
I wanna know

I wanna know
Where did she go
I wanna know

Birds flying high
High in the sky
Oh why
I wanna know

© Tam Jennifer Hastings, 2023

Where Did She Go (Acoustic, 2023)

Brave Decisions - Instrumental 

Generated using Ableton Live and Audacity.

Brave Decisions - Instrumental (2014)

Recorded/Mixed: Audacity
Guitar: Cort MR710 LH NS
Mic: Rhode USB Mini

Lyrics:

Day dreaming
An enchanted feeling
Take my hand in yours hold it forever more
The night's receding
For you I'll keep believing 
Your amber eyes to my surprise are gently grieving

Lean closer 
Please let me show ya
The love inside no need to hide I already know ya

Day dreaming
An enchanted feeling
Take my hand in yours hold it forever more

Forever more
Forever more
Take my hand in yours hold it forever more

Forever more
Forever more
Take my hand in yours hold it forever more

Time plays games with my mind
The winds of change blow indifferently outside
Only together
Can we build a world for the better
So take my hand my dear 
Hold it forever
Forever

Day dreaming
An enchanted feeling
Take my hand in yours hold it forever more
The night's receding
For you I'll keep believing
Take my hand in yours hold it forever more

Forever more
Forever more
Take my hand in yours hold it forever more
Forever more
Forever more
Take my hand in yours hold it forever more

© Tam Jennifer Hastings, 2023

Forever More (Acoustic, 2023)

Mixed: Audacity
Mic: Rhode USB Mini
Vocals, lyrics, mix: Tam Jennifer
Guitar, rhythm: KSK Beats

Lyrics: 

There's a place I go
Not a place I know 
Wanna meet me there
. 
There's a place I go
Not a place you can know
Meet me anyway
. 
Abandon all thoughts
Reject all feelings
Leave the things you are taught
Don't give it meaning 
. 
Say my name
You know me
Hold my hand 
And never leave
. 
There's a place I go
Not a place I know 
Wanna meet me there
. 
There's a place I go
Not a place you can know
Meet me anyway
.  
Planting flowers in
This abandoned garden for
Future happiness
. 
Hope is a road
My heart is in your hands so
Never let me go. 
. 
Take my love
Put it in a form that can
Reach uncharted land oh
. 
Ponder road is 
Where hope and love flowers grow
Roots for tomorrow
.
Never again
Consult the moon and the stars
For matters of the heart
.
There's a place I go
Not a place I know 
Wanna meet me there
. 
There's a place I go
Not a place you can know
Meet me anyway
. 
-interlude-
.
There's a place I go
Not a place I know 
Wanna meet me
. 
There's a place I go
Not a place you can know
.
_end_

© Tam Jennifer Hastings, KSK Beats, 2023

Place I Know (ft KSK Beats, 2023)

Last one 2023!

Recorded/Mixed: Audacity
Guitar: Cort MR710 LH NS
Mic: Rhode USB Mini

Lyrics:
.
When you need me - far away
Say my name I'll be there today
I hope you know it's with Gods I play
Open your eyes it's a blissful game
. 
(oh)
.
Time together, time we share
Nothing to do but be aware
Hope you see how much I care
Open you eyes and take me there. 
. 
(oh)
.
Focus! Focus!
Focus! Focus! 
Focus! Focus! 
Love is in the air! 
.
Focus! Focus!
Focus! Focus! 
Focus! Focus! 
Love is in the air!
.
-end-

© Tam Jennifer Hastings, 2023

Blissful Game (2023)

I feel so lucky that Dave Orestes 1 allowed me to record a rendition of his wonderful song " What Is Rich" ! 

Written by Dave Orestes 1 
https://on.soundcloud.com/JG7gH

Recorded/Mixed: Audacity
Guitar: Cort MR710 LH NS
Mic: Rhode USB Mini
Tam Jennifer: Interpretation, Vocals, Guitar, Mix & Master

Lyrics (Dave Orestes):

What is rich? You're asking me
Rich is so simple, don't you see
It's not what you own but what you do and say
.
What is rich? You're asking me
It's not hard to explain
It's all about what you feel
And not what you touch
Every day
.
Rich is how well you sleep at night and
your thoughts on your own death bed
when you have few regrets
few regrets
.
Rich is passing on
the prospect of hope
so that all have a chance
to prosper and grow
Rich is not how tall 
Your sky scrapers grow
no no no no
.
Or the number of seats
in your stadium row 
It's not how many toys
in the attic you've stowed 
oh no no
that's not it
.
What is rich? You're asking me
Oh it's not hard to explain
It's all about what you feel
Not what you touch every day 
.
Rich is when
All the children are fed
And each of them has 
A warm safe bed
Rich is how 
You care for people 
That, you've never met
.
It's not hard to explain 
It's all about what you feel 
And not what you touch
Every day
.
Doo da doo da doo
Laa la laa la laa
Laa la laa la laa
Laa la laa
La laa la la
.
© Dave Orestes 1, Tam Jennifer Hastings, 2024. All rights reserved.

What Is Rich (with Dave Orestes, 2024)

Keyboard jam session with my kid - Erin Jennifer - Live in real time

Find Erin here: https://on.soundcloud.com/jTjqD for more of her awesome music. 

Recorded / mixed: Audacity.
Keyboard: Roland E-X20
(Detuned Piano)

© Tam Jennifer Hastings, Erin Jennifer, 2024. All rights reserved.

Family Harmonies (ft Erin Jennifer, Age 16, 2024)

HUGE thank you to J.J. Terrell for putting this one together with me! 

And thank you to K2 and the three for the drums! 

Contributions

Piano/Organ: J.J.Terrell 
https://on.soundcloud.com/zMRZHupDxhFSYd676

Vocals/Lyrics/Mix (Audacity): Tam Jennifer

Drums: K2 
https://on.soundcloud.com/xGewgZifWnxsEmZY7

Cover picture: Erin Jennifer
https://on.soundcloud.com/imA3NPDbnh667UtS9

Lyrics

What do I have to say
To make you stay
The world is turning now
Without me

Why do you have to keep
Just letting me retreat
This worldly learning is 
So lonely

Take my hand, dear
Help me to stand, dear
It thaws my heart, just
To have you near

Cos times are changing, so fast
Can we find the energy to last
This price we paid was it worth the cost
Or will we feel that all is lost

On the horizon
Sunset or sunrise
Facing death, or saving lives
Losing our faith 
Or finally arrive

You used to bring me
Coffee in the morning
You used to kiss me in the rain
I remember times so full of yearning
Oh will we ever feel that way again

Cos times are changing, so fast
Can we find the energy to last
This price we paid was it worth the cost
Or will we feel that all is lost

On the horizon
Sunset or sunrise
Facing death, or saving lives
Losing our faith 
Or finally arrive

© Ben -Tam Jennifer Hastings, J.J. Terrell, Ken Karasek, 2024. All rights reserved.

Echoes Of Tomorrow (with J.J.Terrell & K2 and the Three, 2024)

HUGE thank you to Tam Jennifer and Ken from K2 and the Three for putting this one together with me!

Contributions

Piano/Organ: J.J.Terrell
on.soundcloud.com/zMRZHupDxhFSYd676

Vocals/Lyrics/Mix (Audacity): Tam Jennifer
https://on.soundcloud.com/Tyc5G

Drums: K2 and the Three
on.soundcloud.com/xGewgZifWnxsEmZY7

Cover picture: Erin Jennifer
on.soundcloud.com/imA3NPDbnh667UtS9

Lyrics

What do I have to say
To make you stay
The world is turning now
Without me

Why do you have to keep
Just letting me retreat
This worldly learning is
So lonely

Take my hand, dear
Help me to stand, dear
It thaws my heart, just
To have you near

Cos times are changing, so fast
Can we find the energy to last
This price we paid was it worth the cost
Or will we feel that all is lost

On the horizon
Sunset or sunrise
Facing death, or saving lives
Losing our faith
Or finally arrive

You used to bring me
Coffee in the morning
You used to kiss me in the rain
I remember times so full of yearning
Oh will we ever feel that way again

Cos times are changing, so fast
Can we find the energy to last
This price we paid was it worth the cost
Or will we feel that all is lost

On the horizon
Sunset or sunrise
Facing death, or saving lives
Losing our faith
Or finally arrive

© Ben -Tam Jennifer Hastings, J.J. Terrell, Ken Karasek, 2024. All rights reserved.

Echoes Of Tomorrow (Tam-Jennifer, K2 and the 3, J.J. Terrell)

4 Chords 2nd Movement - Progressive Attack (2024)

(Just me and my guitar.) 
Recorded: on my phone between Zoom meetings
Mixed: Audacity
Guitar: Cort MR710 LH NS
Cover Image: "My Teacher" - Ben-Tam Jennifer


©Ben-Tam Jennifer Hastings, 2024

4 Chrds 2nd Mvmnt - Progressive Attack (Acoustic, 2024)

Keyboard and Guitar lofi home recording jam session with my kid - Erin Jennifer

Find Erin Jennifer here: 
https://on.soundcloud.com/jTjqD 
- for more of her awesome music. 

Erin on Keyboard: Roland E-X20
Tam on Guitar: Cort MR710 LH NS
Mic: Rhode USB Mini
Recorded / mixed: Audacity.


© Tam Jennifer Hastings, Erin Jennifer, 2024. All rights reserved.

Marching Into The Sunset (Ft Erin Jennifer, 2024)

This is a live recording of one of my songs, You're My Hero, with my kid, Erin.

Here is an earlier version of the song:
Listen to Feel What He Feels - lo-fi demo (2021)
https://on.soundcloud.com/nZED8

Music, Lyrics, Mix: Tam Jennifer
Keyboard performance by Erin Jennifer. 

MIC: HONOR 90 lite microphone (phone)
Recorded / mixed: Audacity.
Erin on Keyboard: Roland E-X20

Find Erin Jennifer here: 
https://on.soundcloud.com/jTjqD 
- for more of their awesome music. 

Cover: Ai generated prompt 37 - lonely boy on stage (with variations) - by Tam 

Lyrics

We all have to be
Alone with our identity 
Oh, we all have to be living in the real
So when, this world, kicks its cruel dirt in your eyes, dear
Never fear
Cos you're my hero. 
.
He sits alone
With his guitar and his phone
And suddenly, suddenly, he knows
Oh he sits alone, chews on his pen
Writing this makes him feel alone again. 
.
He sits alone 
Staring into space
And once again, once again, he knows
As he sits alone, playing his guitar, oh
All his knowing shows
.
Run away with me, darling, he sings.
And suddenly, the whole damn world is his
He says, run away with me darling cos I'm real
And suddenly, the whole damn world can feel what he feels.
.
We all have to be 
Alone with our identity 
We all have to be living in the real
So when, this world, kicks its cruel dirt in your eyes, dear
Never fear
Cos you're my hero.
.
You're my hero
You're my hero
You're my hero
You're my hero
.
He sits alone
With his guitar and his phone
And suddenly, suddenly, he knows
Oh he sits alone, chews on his pen, 
Writing this makes him feel alone again.
.
He sits alone 
Staring into space
And once again, once again, he knows
As he sits alone, playing his guitar, oh
All his knowing shows
.
He knows this, he knows this, he knows
He knows this, he knows this, he knows
He knows this, he knows this, he knows
But today he made, the whole damn world, feel like hero's
.
-instrumental- 
.
-end-

© Tam Jennifer Hastings, Erin Jennifer, 2024. All rights reserved.

You're My Hero (ft Erin Jennifer, LIVE 2024)

MUSIC, LYRICS, MIX, COVER PIC - Tam Jennifer

LYRICS 

Boy that I love
You think you're not enough
With eyes that question why
Boy that I love
You think you're not enough
I'll never see you cry
.
Boy that I love
You think you're not enough
I'm haunted by your angry eyes
Boy that I love
You'll always be enough
-
.
Masculine energy
Standing right in front of me
I'll never back down
You don't have to be strong
Societal norms 
That are simply wrong
.
Boy that I love
You think you're not enough
With eyes that question why
Boy that I love
You think you're not enough
I'll never see you cry
.
Boy that I love
You think you're not enough
I'm haunted by your angry eyes
Boy that I love
You'll always be enough
-
.
Dark waters hold us all
Wondering the path
Wondering what this life is for
.
Silent memories in my mind
What does it mean to see
If everyone else is blind? 
.
Certain substance happens between us
Certain events we can't explain. 
For all the boys with young or old faces
I see you dreaming of better places, 
How painful the human race is. 
-
.
 
© Tam Jennifer Hastings, 2024. All rights reserved.

BOY (2024)

A HUGE thank you to J.J. for the piano masterpiece of beauty.

Contributions:

Piano: J.J. Terrell
https://soundcloud.com/j-j-terrell
Lyrics, Vocals, Mix : Tam Jennifer

Note on Lyrics - Tam Jennifer

This is a dark one - so a disclaimer for my listeners - one of my inspirations for this was from the thought experiment "Imagine one hand clapping" that we use in yoga or meditation practice, mixed with the idea of "Unstruck" - The word associated with the heart. The Unstruck Sound. - A beautiful way of thinking of it. 
So mixing these ideas - makes it fairly straightforward to produce a love song featuring (what I hope is ) a fairly accurate portrayal of what love can sometimes feel like - in all its complexity.

🩷
💜
 

Lyrics

There's something in the air between us, my dear.
It's a whisper that you can't, hear.
There's something in the air between us, my friend.
An agony - we can't comprehend. 
.
In this space between, you and me,
Is an ache so deep, and lonely,
With a climb so steep, to get there,
The air is thin, it's suffocating, oh! 
Just out of reach. 
Like a memory, oh! 
But the weight of this is crushing, oh! 
Where do I end?
And where do you begin?
I gave you my heart, to keep,
Safe.
Safe.
You promised me! 
.
Calm, calm, calm and slow. 
Darken the windows.
Hope is a long road.
Time is a quick trick.
.
Calm, calm, calm and slow!
Darken the windows. 
Hope is a long road.
Balancing in the thick, thick.
.
It's like, God, wrote me a poem. 
-
And now I know I'm alive. 
Alive. 
.
It has to have a place to go! 
So you MUST know. 
Your face is perfectly placed - 
Your face is perfectly placed - 
.
On Love's Road. 
.
-End-

© Tam Jennifer Hastings, J.J. Terrell, 2024. All rights reserved.

Love's Road (with J.J.Terrell on Piano, 2024)

A HUGE thank you to Tam-Jen for the opportunity to write a piano song for these touching and heartfelt vocals and lyrics!
Contributions:
Piano: J.J. Terrell
Lyrics, Vocals, Mix : Tam Jennifer https://on.soundcloud.com/vcZzfozEZRHGPXsx7

Lyrics
Love's Road 
There's something in the air between us, my dear.
It's a whisper that you can't, hear.
There's something in the air between us, my friend.
An agony - we can't comprehend.
.
In this space between, you and me,
Is an ache so deep, and lonely,
With a climb so steep, to get there,
The air is thin, it's suffocating, oh!
Just out of reach.
Like a memory, oh!
But the weight of this is crushing, oh!
Where do I end?
And where do you begin?
I gave you my heart, to keep,
Safe.
Safe.
You promised me!
.
Calm, calm, calm and slow.
Darken the windows.
Hope is a long road.
Time is a quick trick.
.
Calm, calm, calm and slow!
Darken the windows.
Hope is a long road.
Balancing in the thick, thick.
.
It's like, God, wrote me a poem.
-
And now I know I'm alive.
Alive.
.
It has to have a place to go!
So you MUST know.
Your face is perfectly placed -
Your face is perfectly placed -
.
On Love's Road.
.
-End-
© Tam Jennifer Hastings, J.J. Terrell, 2024. All rights reserved.

Love's Road - Tam Jennifer (ft. J.J. Terrell on piano)

Hello everyone,

Anyone who listens to my music knows that I explore different musical genres. This time is no different.

I was fortunate enough to work with the wonderful and incredible Tam Jennifer. Tam wrote the lyrics for the song and sang both vocal parts (Yes, both!). 
I arranged and produced the song.

I have never worked on such a moving and emotional song before.

You can listen to the result, and I’m curious to know if it touches you as much as it touched me. We created two versions of this song. You can listen to the other version on Tam Jennifer’s channel, where you’ll also find many more songs by this amazing singer. 

Thank you so much, Tam!

____________________________

Here is the other version:

https://on.soundcloud.com/Rb1S2

______________________________

Lyrics:

I worked up a sense of self,
Being all by myself,
Time alone,
No time with others.
.
Worked up a sense of self,
Growing up by myself,
Was time alone,
Without a mother.
.
And I know, and I know, and I know,
This is not forever. No.
And I know, and I know, we'll never be, together,
Again.
.
Oh I know, and I know, and I know,
Self made is clever. Oh.
But I know, oh I know, we'll never be,
Forever, again.
.
I worked up a sense of self,
Being all by myself.
Time alone,
No time with others.
.
Worked up a sense of self,
All by myself.
Cos time alone, means,
No time with others.
.
Come to me darling, oh oh.
To the place where the horizon meets up with the sun.
Run to me darling, my dear.
Drift away so we can play,
In Neverland.
.
No no no, no no, no no.
No no no, no no, no no.
.
I worked up a sense of self,
Being all by myself.
Time alone,
No time with others.
.
I worked up a sense of self,
Being all by myself.
Time alone,
Without you!
.
Don't say you love me, no oh oh oh.
Cos I see the look in your eyes and I know.
Don't say you love me no oh oh oh.
Cos I miss you more when you're next to me than when you, go.
.
Time alone, oh oh.
Time alone, oh oh.
Time alone, no time with others, no.
Time alone in Neverland.

___________________________

Credits:

Lyrics: Tam Jennifer  
Vocals: Tam Jennifer  
Music: Axel Menningen
--------------------

Time Alone (feat. Tam Jennifer)

For My Listeners

At key moments in my life I have come across songs and other art forms - books, lyrics, poetry - that were exactly the right thing that I needed to help me through it. 

This is one of the reasons I do this work. 

I hope some listeners find some healing from this - this is for you. 

Credits:
A big thank you to Axel for approaching me for a song, and for handling this version so beautifully. 

Original Song Arrangement, Lyrics, Vocals, Vocal Arrangement: Tam Jennifer 
Music, Production, New Chords and Musical Arrangement: Axel Menningen
https://on.soundcloud.com/T9HezDWMSEmsq2nr9

Other versions:

This song has two mixes, Axel and I decided to release one on each of our accounts. We found it hard to choose between them - but luckily we each favoured a different one(ever so slightly! - so hard to choose!), and this seemed like a great solution. 

And there is also the original Demo that I recorded in 2021.

Original:
https://soundcloud.com/teejaymusicasides/time-alone-demo-tam-jennifer?si=bd416bf47c254ae894aaf41faa22a053&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

The Other Mix:
https://soundcloud.com/axel-m-501052973/time-alone-feat-tam-jennifer?si=77ded4b4a88449cc98f49b512f5261cf&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

Lyrics:
I worked up a sense of self,
Being all by myself,
Time alone,
No time with others.
.
Worked up a sense of self,
Growing up by myself,
Was time alone,
Without a mother.
.
And I know, and I know, and I know,
This is not forever. No.
And I know, and I know, we'll never be, together,
Again.
.
Oh I know, and I know, and I know,
Self made is clever. Oh.
But I know, oh I know, we'll never be,
Forever, again.
.
I worked up a sense of self,
Being all by myself.
Time alone,
No time with others.
.
Worked up a sense of self,
All by myself.
Cos time alone, means,
No time with others.
.
Come to me darling, oh oh.
To the place where the horizon meets up with the sun.
Run to me darling, my dear.
Drift away so we can play,
In Neverland.
.
No no no, no no, no no.
No no no, no no, no no.
.
I worked up a sense of self,
Being all by myself.
Time alone,
No time with others.
.
I worked up a sense of self,
Being all by myself.
Time alone,
Without you!
.
Don't say you love me, no oh oh oh.
Cos I see the look in your eyes and I know.
Don't say you love me no oh oh oh.
Cos I miss you more when you're next to me than when you, go.
.
Time alone, oh oh.
Time alone, oh oh.
Time alone, no time with others, no.
Time alone in Neverland.
.
© Tam Jennifer Hastings, Axel Menningen, 2024. All rights reserved.

Time Alone (with Axel Menningen, 2024)

Last one 2024!! 

This started off as a completely different song. But I decided to leave this as a SUPER SHORT one after much consideration. Imagine all the different things that this song COULD be about. That to me - for this peace of work - is what makes it interesting. The mystery behind it. The listener can put their own story onto it. Anything at all. 

Or just listen to it as it. 

This is a "not song - song" 

Happy End of 2024 to all my wonderfully talented peers on Soundcloud! 

Lyrics:

Seems as though 
All my Life
I was walking the lonely road
Seems as though 
All this time
I didn't know how to take
What was rightfully mine
It was right there in front of me
Oh oh oh
All this time 

© Tam Jennifer Hastings, 2024. All rights reserved.

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