This is a demo of a track I am working on. This one came 'out of the void', as they often do. Just me and my acoustic guitar for this version. This song is all about me, coming out as me, and also about that human element of loneliness and frustration within relationships that don't always work out, or feel the way we might want or expect them to. Thanks for listening! -Tam.

Lyrics below:

I worked up a sense of self,
Being all by myself,
Time alone,
No the with others.
.
Worked up a sense of self,
Growing up by myself,
Was time alone,
Without a mother.
.
And I know, and I know, and I know,
This is not forever. No.
And I know, and I know, we'll never be, together,
Again.
.
Oh I know, and I know, and I know,
Self made is clever. Oh.
But I know, oh I know, we'll never be,
Forever,again.
.
I worked up a sense of self,
Being all by myself.
Time alone,
No time with others.
.
Worked up a sense of self,
All by myself.
Cos time alone, means,
No time with others.
.
Come to me darling, oh oh.
To the place where the horizon meets up with the sun.
Run to me darling, my dear.
Drift away so we can play,
In Neverland.
.
No no no, no no, no no.
No no no, no no, no no.
.
I worked up a sense of self,
Being all by myself.
Time alone,
Without you!
.
Don't say you love me, no oh oh oh.
Cos I see the look in your eyes and I know.
Don't say you love me no oh oh oh.
Cos I miss you more when you're next to me than when you, go.
.
Time alone, oh oh.
Time alone, oh oh.
Time alone, no time with others,no.
Time alone in Neverland.
.

TJ

TIME ALONE (demo) -TAM JENNIFER

Next To Her

Tell Me You Love Me

Musical poetry by Tam Jennifer, on synthetic guitar loop (anon.). 

Indie experimental trap. 

Recorded and mixed using Audacity and RODE USB Mini Microphone

FOR MY MOTHER

Where Did She Go ( I Wanna Know )


Experimental Poetry Art Piece. 
1st movement is just over one minute in length.

Mixed: Audacity.
Mic: Rhode USB Mini 

Lyrics: 

Lying awake at night
Sad but I can't cry
I'm still just that little boy screaming
Mommy to the sky
.
Holding my head I'm bad
But I don't know why
I'm still just that little boy 
Why was lost when his mommy died
.
Now I'm numb the words don't come
A new sort of lie
I'm still just that little boy screaming
Mommy to the sky
.
Hope is lost
Life move fast
It's terrible outside
I'm still just that little boy
Who had no place to hide
.
Perhaps, maybe
I'll sing a song of beauty
Almost, not quite
Beauty out of sight
.
Hold on, hold on,
Hope is on its way
Every man must learn to stand
When mommy goes away
.
- Ben Tam jennifer 

Mommy To The Sky - 1st Movement

Sample of what my song 'Run to me' will eventually sound like. Recorded with a computer mike... And Ableton live.  Mix, vocals, songwriting, lyrics by ME :) 

Run to me - Tam Jennifer

Brave Decisions - Instrumental

Mindfulness

Recorded using my Samsung S3. No editing (Really need a new phone lol.) :)

Lyrics below: 
You think you really know – By Tammy Hastings

Verse 1

Stormy waters,

Stormy seas

You think you really know,

Anything about me

Raging waters

Raging seas

You think you really know

Who I’m meant to be

Chorus:

You think you really know

You think you really know

You think you really know

What it’s all for?

You think you really know

You think you really know

You think you really know

Anything at all?

Verse 2

Predictable horizon

Open sky

You think you really can

Answer the question why

Endless horizon

Endless sky

End this yearning

To answer the question why

Chorus 2:

Why

Why

Not how or when or what

I wanna know why

Why

Why

You think that i forgot

No, i wanna know why

Verse 3:

But when the clouds are clear

I seem to lose my fear

Tell myself no

It’s time to let go

Cos when the sky’s not clear

I can’t see out of here

But I remember

I remember!

Chorus:

You think you really know

You think you really know

You think you really know

What it’s all for?

You think you really know

You think you really know

You think you really know

Anything at all?

Chorus:

You think you really know

You think you really know

You think you really know

What it’s all for?

You think you really know

You think you really know

You think you really know

Anything at all?

I remember….

(C) 2014, tamjennifer.com

You Think You Really Know (Demo idea)

Put my pick down for the first time today, and was just messing around on my guitar, Very raw, but I am amazed at my improvement. Excited about it. Decided to record it on my phone for a bit. Wanted to share this. This is what music is all about for me. This is where the magic is. -Tam

Breaking all the rules - (acoustic guitar freestyle playtime)

I call this song Bella S. Live recording. 

Bella Stef - #live #acoustic 7 Sept 2015

Recorded using my camera 20151006, while playing around with some chords (expecially Dmaj7). And actually I was recording some other songs for Youtube. Really liked the outcome, thought I just had to share it. Below are the lyrics, more or less, although this, I think, is more of a 'music' than 'lyrics' first song :)But none the less, the lyrics mean the world to me.  

-Tam


The Hope Tree is growing

It’s growing

Hope

The hope tree is growing

And it will never end

No it will never end

As long as you’re breathing

The hope tree is growing

Hope

.

©2015, Tamsin J E Hastings, Tammy Hastings and tammymusic. All rights reserved.

The Hope Tree - Dmaj7 #playtime

Where Gods Play (demo)

Sexy Beyond All Reason (demo)

Trust Me By Tam Jennifer - Demo 20180723.mp3

Mindfulness (Demo)

Let Somebody Else Drive (Poetry Demo)

Lie To Me Baby ( Demo idea)

Check out my new single CALL TO LOVE - out now - everywhere. Spotify Link below.



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