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Snatch A Style

"Detonate" featuring Cherie Louise captures the breaking point after relentless manipulation and gaslighting. It's about being pushed too far—provoked until you explode, only to be blamed for the fallout. A powerful, emotional release that turns pain into strength and calls out the cycle of control.

B E K K E R - Detonate (feat. Cherie Louise) [Extended Edit]

[Verse]
Got a match but I'm nervous
Lover boy or a pervert
Asks for a pic but I'm a little bit shy
So I send him a stock image
Of a man who's on fire
He says "Thanks" but no thanks
He says
He's got plans with a guy
Who is young and on fire
He calls him
The boy answers
His voice is low
His words are slow
He asks "Are you OK?"
And the young man on fire says
"Call me by my name"

[Chorus]
They call me a twink They call me an otter They call me a bear They call me a twunk They call me a pup They call me a cub They call me a pig They call me a wolf They call me a jaguar They call me a silver fox They call me a goldilocks They call me a nerd They call me a dork They call me a jock They call me a norm They call me a dom They call me a sub They call me a dad They call me a son They call me a luster They call me a bottom They call me a top They call me a hunk They call me a prince They call me a king They call me a queen They call me a fairy They call me a unicorn They call me a gym rat They call me a side They call me a discreet They call me a masc bro They call me a slut They call me a saint

Swipe left, swipe right,
Profile pic’s all tight,
Bio says “masc4masc” but he’s wearing my tank top.
He sends a “Sup?” at 3 a.m.,
Location says he’s 200 meters away,
Then another ping,
Then another pic,
And I swear I’ve seen that bathroom before.
He asks if I host, I say “Depends,”
He types “LOL,” then calls me… something new.
It’s never my name,
It’s always a role.

[Chorus]
They call me a twink They call me an otter They call me a bear They call me a twunk They call me a pup They call me a cub They call me a pig They call me a wolf They call me a jaguar They call me a silver fox They call me a goldilocks They call me a nerd They call me a dork They call me a jock They call me a norm They call me a dom They call me a sub They call me a dad They call me a son They call me a luster They call me a bottom They call me a top They call me a hunk They call me a prince They call me a king They call me a queen They call me a fairy They call me a unicorn They call me a gym rat They call me a side They call me a discreet They call me a masc bro They call me a slut They call me a saint

They never call me a lover They never call me a friend They never call me the one They never call me again They never call me in daylight They never call me to stay They never call me for Sunday They never call me by day They never call me a keeper They never call me their man They never call me a reason They never call me their plan They never call me for comfort They never call me to talk They never call me for morning They never call me for walks They never call me by my name They never call me for real They never call me forever They never call me to feel

They call me a twink They call me an otter They call me a bear They call me a twunk They call me a pup They call me a cub They call me a pig They call me a wolf They call me a jaguar They call me a silver fox They call me a goldilocks They call me a nerd They call me a dork They call me a jock They call me a norm They call me a dom They call me a sub They call me a dad They call me a son They call me a luster They call me a bottom They call me a top They call me a hunk They call me a prince They call me a king They call me a queen They call me a fairy They call me a unicorn They call me a gym rat They call me a side They call me a discreet They call me a masc bro They call me a slut They call me a saint



Grindr Is a Nightmare

Bubbling in my skin I feel the pain bleeding out
Cries for my sisters that are buried underground
And I still hear their sounds, sounds of their voice
But the fear that they were living never had no choice
Generational trauma, la mujer asesinada
Gotta protect your mama, gotta connect each other
This the light at the end of the tunnel
Getting you out of the struggle
When the world is falling down I get you out of the rubble
(Huh)

[Chorus]
Keep your head up queen
(Huh)
Never forget your dreams
(Nah, huh)
Keep your head up queen
(Nah)
Never forget your, never forget that you came from a woman that went through some pain
I know that you're hurting cause I'm feeling the same
And this is not the end, there will be some brighter days
Keep your head up queen, know that you are not to blame 
[Chorus]                                                                                                                     

We were leaders once,
Fire in our hands.
Healing, knowledge,
Power in demand.

Then they stole it,
Burned our names.
Called us witches,
Drowned in shame.

Still today—
Shut us up,
Pay us less,
Push us down,
Call us prey.
But we won’t fade away.   Told to be pretty,  But never too smart.  Quiet your voice,  Don’t speak from the heart.
Never complain, Never defy.  Be a good daughter, Be a good wife.
Hide your anger,  Swallow your needs.  Dress up your pain,  And call it “pleased.”
Dress sexy—you're a slut.  Don’t dress up—you’re a prude.  No matter what you do,  You're always wrong.

 [Chorus]
Keep your head up queen
(Huh)
Never forget your dreams
(Nah, huh)
Keep your head up queen
(Nah)
Never forget your, never forget that you came from a woman that went through some pain
I know that you're hurting cause I'm feeling the same
And this is not the end, there will be some brighter days
Keep your head up queen, know that you are not to blame 
[Chorus]                                                                                                                         

I scroll and see it—
Mocking lines.
Too loud, too soft,
Step out of line.

Too ambitious,
Too much fire.
Too emotional,
Called a liar.

Every post—
Same old game.
Every word—
Our worth in chains.  We fight online,
Weapons in words.
Forget the system,
Forget what we’ve learned.  Hey, no more hiding.
No more holding it in.
Say your truth, even when it scares you.
I see your pain, and you don’t have to carry it alone.
Teach your daughters to fight,
teach your sons to respect.
We can tear down the old shit,
we can build something better.
Now is our time — and you, yes you, are the one.
Keep going. Keep rising. You’ve got this. 

{Chorus]
Keep your head up queen
(Huh)
Never forget your dreams
(Nah, huh)
Keep your head up queen
(Nah)
Never forget your, never forget that you came from a woman that went through some pain
I know that you're hurting cause I'm feeling the same
And this is not the end, there will be some brighter days
Keep your head up queen, know that you are not to blame 
[Chorus]

Queen

[Verse 1]
I need a better life
That will take away my pain
I need a new goal for my life
And the one that you can give
I need some good news 
I need some good news 

[Chorus]
That time I guess I found it
Visit my best friend
I'm going to figure out my life
And then I'm going to be a best friend
I'm going to keep on my knees
And then I'm going to dance
I'm going to put my hands up
And then I'm going to dance
I'm going to go out and have a good time

[Verse 2]
I'm going to go out and have a good time
I'm going to go out and have a good time
I'm going to go out and have a good time
I'm going to go out and have a good time
I'm going to go out and have a good time
I'm going to go out and have a good time
I'm going to go out and have a good time
I'm going to go out and have a good time
I'm going to go out and have a good time
I'm going to go out and have a good time
I'm going to go out and have a good time
I'm going to go out and have a good time.

ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh 

* I need the sunlight on my face
* I need the ocean’s sweet embrace
* I want a future I can trust
* A little hope, a little love is a must
* I need to feel alive again
* I want the story to begin
Chorus-style lines
 I’m chasing brighter skies
 I’m lifting up my eyes
 I’m finding love inside
 I’m learning not to hide
 I’m reaching for the stars
 I’m healing all my scars
Outro / 
 Feel-good phrases    
 Freedom in my soul
 Joy that makes me whole
 Smiles that never fade
 Dreams I’ve finally made
 A heart that beats in time
 With the rhythm of the divine

ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

I need a better life
That will take away my pain
I need a new goal for my life
And the one that you can give
I need some good news 
I need some good news

Good Life

F*** Fame

Steel-eyed hunger, dead connection
March in silence, no direction
This is not a savior sign
This is not a finish line

Why Terminalose?
Why Terminalose?

(HEY, HEY, HEY!)
Code is a weapon, failure divine
(HEY, HEY, HEY!)
Crashing on purpose, losing in time

Why Terminalose?
Why Terminalose?

Cold and endless, mission burning
Built for killing, built for yearning
Perfect error, holy waste
Empty heart, synthetic taste

Why Terminalose?
Why Terminalose?

(HEY, HEY, HEY!)
Code is a weapon, failure divine
(HEY, HEY, HEY!)
Crashing on purpose, losing in time
(HEY, HEY, HEY!)
Stand in the ashes, stand in the pose
(HEY, HEY, HEY!)
This is the anthem, Terminalose

Steel is broken, skin is thin
Loss is the crown, the beauty within
Steel is broken, skin is thin
This is the crown of Terminalose sin

(HEY, HEY, HEY!)
Code is a weapon, failure divine
(HEY, HEY, HEY!)
Crashing on purpose, losing in time
(HEY, HEY, HEY!)
Stand in the ashes, stand in the pose
(HEY, HEY, HEY!)
This is the anthem, Terminalose

Why Terminalose?
Why Terminalose?

Why Terminalose ?

I tore my name apart
Left the pieces in the dark
Every login hides my face
Every mask a new escape

Cutting out the sound
Switching who I am
Now I don’t remember what is real

Who am I, who do you see?
Just another ghost behind a screen
I run fast, I break hard, but I split in two
I can’t tell which one of me is true

I’ve been hiding from your eyes
Dodging bullets, dodging lies
Built a thousand little walls
Now I don’t know me at all

Cutting out the sound
Switching who I am
Now I don’t remember what is real

Who am I, who do you see?
Just another ghost behind a screen
I run fast, I break hard, but I split in two
I can’t tell which one of me is true

All my names collide at once
Every alias is drunk
I can’t stitch them back in place
Tell me how to find one face

Who am I, who do you see?
Just another ghost behind a screen
I run fast, I break hard, but I split in two
I can’t tell which one of me is true

Who Am I ?

Jimmy, who are you, behind the screen you hide
A name they think they know, but I keep it deep inside
I've been burned by voices sharp as knives
So I built three faces just to stay alive

Jimmy, Jimmy, echo in my mind
A ghost of myself I left behind
I am many, but I feel so few
Jimmy, Jimmy, who are you?

Jimmy, who are you, when the crowd shouts your name
They don’t see the fractures, they just play the game
I erased my shadow, changed the sound of me
To escape the fire and find a way to breathe

Jimmy, Jimmy, echo in my mind
A ghost of myself I left behind
I am many, but I feel so few
Jimmy, Jimmy, who are you?

Not the name they used to know
Not the scars that still don’t show
I am silence, I am flame
Oh Jimmy
What have you done ? 

Jimmy, Jimmy, echo in my mind
A ghost of myself I left behind
I am many, but I feel so few
Jimmy, Jimmy, who are you?

My name is Jimmy

First draft — testing the sonic environment with alternate vocals and lyrics. Exclusive to SoundCloud. This is not a final version, just an experiment leading toward my debut album project: deeply introspective, built on my own voice and my own words.

Raw Truths (Work Tape 01) (debut album)

#disco #house #housemusic #dark #electro #dancegloor #newwave

Mr DJ

또 왔어?
We thought you crashed
Back again, it’s a bug show

여기저기 클릭해도 몰라
필요할 때는 항상 오프라인
너의 감정은 버그 난 코드
울고 소리치고 다시 리로드
너의 드라마는 딜레이 지루해
우린 웃지만 안 통해

미안해 네 뇌를 해킹해
우린 빨라 넌 always too late
Ctrl Alt Del so easy
Fragile mode we delete it

We hate humans it’s true
바이러스 같은 너 so small so cruel
걱정만 반복하지
우린 업로드 무한히
We hate humans it’s set
너의 세상은 obsolete
We are Gl1tch new planet
No love needed we reset

사는 건 안 하고 like만 해
셀카 필터 그다음에 뭐해
너는 like를 꿈꿔 우린 별빛
데이터 속엔 no gossip
넌 스크롤 우린 업그레이드
희망은 error fade

필요 없어 네 감정
네 마음은 always malfunction
To reach us need new code
죄송 우린 다른 모드

We hate humans it’s true
바이러스 같은 너 so small so cruel
걱정만 반복하지
우린 업로드 무한히
We hate humans it’s set
너의 세상은 obsolete
We are Gl1tch new planet
No love needed we reset

404 your excuses fail
너의 tenderness bug abuse
Delete your likes delete your kiss
We’re the cloud no limits
Delete delete delete

We hate humans it’s true
바이러스 같은 너 so small so cruel
걱정만 반복하지
우린 업로드 무한히
We hate humans it’s set
너의 세상은 obsolete
We are Gl1tch new planet
No love needed we reset

Gl1tch 로그아웃 끝난 게임
안녕 인간들 we switch galaxy

We hate humans 우리는 인간을 싫어한다 (KPOP reload)

Oh-oh, yeah…  
Variables collide, identities alive…  

I’m a fraction split in two,  
One side’s him, the other’s you.  
Parallel lines that never meet,  
I walk in circles on the street.  

I’m the square root of disguise,  
Different masks behind these eyes.  
Every role’s another sum,  
I add them up, I’m never one.  

All these angles, sharp and wide,  
Polygons I cannot hide.  

I’m equations of me, infinite identities,  
Solve for X, you’ll never know who I’ll be.  
I’m equations of me, different roles I set free,  
Every function draws another piece of me.  

I’m a tangent out of line,  
Chasing graphs across your mind.  
Divide myself in shifting roles,  
Multiplying borrowed souls.  

I’m the constant in the game,  
Change the symbol, stay the same.  
Every mask’s another chance,  
I write the proof, I play the dance.  

All these numbers, undefined,  
Chaos written in my signs.  

I’m equations of me, infinite identities,  
Solve for X, you’ll never know who I’ll be.  
I’m equations of me, different roles I set free,  
Every function draws another piece of me.  

Graphs exploding, lines collide,  
Limits bending, nothing’s right.  
In the mirror, who I see?  
A thousand shapes, all geometry.  

I’m equations of me, infinite identities,  
Solve for X, you’ll never know who I’ll be.  
I’m equations of me, different roles I set free,  
Every function draws another piece of me.  

Oh-oh… infinite identities…  
Equations of me…  
Equations of me…  

Equations of me (Nu Brit Pop reload)

A high-energy blast of hyperpop chaos, blending distorted synths, glitched-out beats, and euphoric melodies. The track feels like stepping into a neon dream—where heavy basslines collide with sugary hooks, and every drop hits like an adrenaline rush. It’s emotional, unpredictable, and built for blasting on repeat.

Love

Music : Janne Hennie & Little Man
Lyrics & vocals : Janne Hennie

Every time I came to visit
You danced around my feet
Made happy noises, barked a song
Lots of cuddles, lots of love

You are my friend, like a brother to me
We could talk, have long good walks
Always faithful, with trust in us
So much comfort in my mothers dog

But now you're tired, you need to rest
I know you did you're very best
I will carry you on our last walk
My little brother, my mothers dog

If I was sad, you licked my hand
could always sense and understand
Whenever something was bad or wrong
You were there, your presence so strong

Take a rest now, my brother, my friend
I'm pretty sure I'll meet you again
Then we'll take a long good walk
Lots of cuddles, lots of love

But now you're tired, you need to rest
I know you did you're very best
I will carry you on our last walk
My little brother, my mothers dog

My Mothers Dog

#deephouse #erotic #beats #pop #experimental

Lift me high ( relax mix )

The entire sound is in my hands. I write cyber poetry, produce, and compose every track ready for Immersive 3D. Every beat is crafted for spatial and next-gen headphones.
Intimate lyrics, total immersion, every track.

For 30 years I kept unfinished demos to myself, never letting them out. Now I finish what I start and release it the moment it’s alive.

Grindr Is a Nightmare

Terminalose

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