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Masochistic Ways

©️ 2024 Karianne Gabaldon

(Verse 1)

The rain has me drenched
I’m soaked from downpour
The drops touch the ground
They shield all my gore

I’ve fallen behind
In this mess I’ve made
My twisted, sick mind
The blood that I bathe

(Chorus)

I’m such a mess
Masochistic ways
My arms need a dress
My soul needs a save

(Verse 2)

I’ve steered clear of hurt
What good did it do?
I dig in the dirt
Reminds me of you

The sadness dissolves 
I don’t feel a thing
I take another fall
I enjoy the pain

(Chorus)

I’m such a mess
Masochistic ways
My arms need a dress
My soul needs a save

(Bridge)

Where is my sanity?
I’ve washed it away
Nothing but vanity
Got nowhere to stay

My brain is bruised and worn
I’m crazy at best
I’m shattered and torn
Did I pass your test?

(End Chorus)

I’m such a mess
Masochistic ways
My arms need a dress
My soul needs a save

I’m such a mess
Masochistic ways
My arms need a dress
My soul needs a save

Masochistic Ways

Rogue

©️ 2024 Karianne Gabaldon

(Verse 1)

Once the sun shed shade
I watched my health fade
A tickle-me-Merle-grey
On a perfect day

(PreChorus)

My happiness was stored inside these tiny, little boxes
All taped-up and now I know nothing but countless losses
I let go of content, made my depression my boss and
I’ve kept a steady pace but seemed to have forgotten posture 

(Chorus)

Was I finished when I was first diagnosed?
Was I finished when I became the leech’s host?
Was I finished when the bullies started to boast? Was I finished then, or am I rogue?

(Verse 2)

Once the war was won
They all had me hung
At seventeen, so young
Like a rag, I was wrung

(PreChorus)

My happiness was stored inside these tiny, little boxes
All taped-up and now I know nothing but countless losses
I let go of content, made my depression my boss and
I’ve kept a steady pace but seemed to have forgotten posture 

(Chorus)

Was I finished when I was first diagnosed?
Was I finished when I became the leech’s host?
Was I finished when the bullies started to boast?
Was I finished then, or am I rogue?

(Bridge)

Everybody looked around for a second time
I loosened all the bolts of my insane mind
Then they threw me into the forgotten mine
And I sighed and whined
Oh God
Am I losing my message?
Are they just not interested?
Or maybe they haven’t heard yet
Or maybe I bet
They got fed up

(End Chorus)

Was I finished when I was first diagnosed?
Was I finished when I became the leech’s host?
Was I finished when the bullies started to boast?
Was I finished then, or am I rogue?

Was I finished when I was first diagnosed?
Was I finished when I became the leech’s host?
Was I finished when the bullies started to boast?
Was I finished then, or am I rogue?

(Outro)

If I’m finished then you can start the toast

Rogue.wav

Back To Depression

©️ 2024 Karianne Gabaldon 

(Verse 1)

These days are hitting me so hard
It’s like I’m life’s throwing dart
The board is full of despair
I was happy once upon a time
Now I’m speechless as a mime
Depression’s back and they don’t care

(PreChorus)

Because the last time they saw me, I was happier than a dog’s tail
Now my story ends because once again I’ve failed 

(Chorus)

So this is me back to my roots
I’m paying my dues
I’m striving to feel again
And I am back to depression, it always wins
I’m having so many breakdowns 
My joyful skipped town
I make even Heaven sin
And I am back to depression, it always wins 

(Verse 2)

Sighing in my bed in fetal
Like a rose, I’ve lost all of my petals
I hermit hide in my closet again
These dogs have taken all my vigor
Dying inside here, go figure
To all the demons, I am kin

(PreChorus)

And when the lightning struck town, it struck my ebullience away
I’d give anything for my ebullience to stay

(Chorus)

So this is me back to my roots
I’m paying my dues
I’m striving to feel again
And I am back to depression, it always wins
I’m having so many breakdowns 
My joyful skipped town
I make even Heaven sin
And I am back to depression, it always wins

(Bridge)

I miss my bright days, my happiness 
Now I’m in distress
It took so many years to get things straight but tonight
I’m struggling so fucking hard to fight
Maybe this is my mind talking
Probably my sane walking
Away from me, I wish to God it’d stay
I fought all my life but okay
I am sick of my saddened, crazy ways

(End Chorus)

So this is me back to my roots
I’m paying my dues
I’m striving to feel again
And I am back to depression, it always wins
I’m having so many breakdowns 
My joyful skipped town
I make even Heaven sin
And I am back to depression, it always wins

So this is me back to my roots
I’m paying my dues
I’m striving to feel again
And I am back to depression, it always wins
I’m having so many breakdowns 
My joyful skipped town
I make even Heaven sin
And I am back to depression, it always wins

Back To Depression

Consequence

©️ 2024 Karianne Gabaldon

(Verse 1)

Long time it’s been since you have owned up to your faults
Yet you sit here and pick out my innocent flaws
Righteously standing as if you are perfect, now let’s just wait
Until you’re before God, until He has ended your fate

(Chorus)

How dense
I’m paying for your consequence
Yet you just pretend
That I’m nobody to you
I’m such a damn fool
Such false pretense 
How dense
My sanity has jumped the fence
Ladies and Gents,
This is what you had paid for
The penalty’s all yours 
Yet I repent
Your consequence

(Verse 2)

You have no right to sit here and judge little me
I am so sick of you never getting the death penalty 
Instead I am doing your dirty work, picking up after you
And you don’t even thank me, I guess you can’t handle the truth

(Chorus)

How dense
I’m paying for your consequence
Yet you just pretend
That I’m nobody to you
I’m such a damn fool
Such false pretense 
How dense
My sanity has jumped the fence
Ladies and Gents,
This is what you had paid for
The penalty’s all yours 
Yet I repent
Your consequence

(Bridge)

You have no knowledge of hard work
‘Cause ever since birth
You’ve had it easy
Now I’m feeling queasy
Your so-called “abuse”
Give it up, no use
You don’t know trauma
You’ve always had mama
But one day you’ll get what you deserve, I tell you, you won’t like it
So you can just stop making me and others feel like shit

(End Chorus)

How dense
I’m paying for your consequence
Yet you just pretend
That I’m nobody to you
I’m such a damn fool
Such false pretense 
How dense
My sanity has jumped the fence
Ladies and Gents,
This is what you had paid for
The penalty’s all yours 
Yet I repent

How dense
I’m paying for your consequence
Yet you just pretend
That I’m nobody to you
I’m such a damn fool
Such false pretense 
How dense
My sanity has jumped the fence
Ladies and Gents,
This is what you had paid for
The penalty’s all yours 
Yet I repent
Your consequence

Consequence

Speechless

©️ 2024 Karianne Gabaldon

(Verse 1)

I have put up with so much
So much
That I have a hardened touch
Hard touch
My trauma will build until I breaks
Leaving me frozen with all I can take
I have put up with so much
So much

(PreChorus)

Cold dry heaving on this street
Night terrors without any sleep
Tears on sheets

(Chorus)

Karianne,
You are speechless 
With more than you can stand
Karianne,
Your tears will fade
You’ll make it in the end,
Karianne 

(Verse 2)

I will find my way someday 
Someday
My demons will all go away
Away
I’ve suffered enough, I will find hope
I have already learned to cope
I will find my way someday 
Someday

(PreChorus)

Cold dry heaving on this street
Night terrors without any sleep
Tears on sheets

(Chorus)

Karianne,
You are speechless 
With more than you can stand
Karianne,
Your tears will fade
You’ll make it in the end,
Karianne 

(Bridge)

Cold dry heaving on this street
Night terrors without any sleep
Tears on sheets

(End Chorus)

Karianne,
You are speechless 
With more than you can stand
Karianne,
Your tears will fade
You’ll make it in the end,
Karianne 

Karianne,
You are speechless 
With more than you can stand
Karianne,
Your tears will fade
You’ll make it in the end,
Karianne

Speechless

Hypoxia

©️ 2024 Karianne Gabaldon 

(Verse 1)

Drowning in the sea
The water, I inhale
The waves have collapsed my lungs
And now lungs are stale

(PreChorus)

As I try to swim to shore,
My voice, it starts to crack
My lungs are deflating more
There’s no turning back

(Chorus)

Oh, hypoxia
I’m brain dead from the ocean
Oh, anoxia
I’m losing all my motives 
Oh, anorexia
My one true fare devotion 
Oh, hypoxia
I’m brain dead from the ocean

(Verse 2)

I am all alone
The water’s all I have
This ocean is my home 
I’m starting to collapse

(PreChorus)

I am choking, no one sees
They’re off in their own world
I just want to die in peace
A sad and lonely girl

(Chorus)

Oh, hypoxia
I’m brain dead from the ocean
Oh, anoxia
I’m losing all my motives 
Oh, anorexia
My one true fare devotion 
Oh, hypoxia
I’m brain dead from the ocean

(Bridge)

My suffering is done
I’m finally at peace
I’m riding like the sun
I am finally free

(End Chorus)

Oh, hypoxia
I’m brain dead from the ocean
Oh, anoxia
I’m losing all my motives 
Oh, anorexia
My one true fare devotion 
Oh, hypoxia
I’m brain dead from the ocean

Oh, hypoxia
I’m brain dead from the ocean
Oh, anoxia
I’m losing all my motives 
Oh, anorexia
My one true fare devotion 
Oh, hypoxia
I’m brain dead from the ocean

Hypoxia

Lost In Sightless

©️ 2024 Karianne Gabaldon

(Verse 1)

Your hardened truth has left me softened
A lack of luxury
You’ve turned me into someone docile
I’ve plead a guilty plea

(Chorus)

You wilted my flourished rose
What you’ve done, nobody knows
Pressure, heavy duty hose
Lost in sightless

Control is a dirty thing
I thought it was just a fling
But your beehive left a sting
Lost in sightless

(Verse 2)

I’m locked inside your selfish prison
I’m trapped inside your guilt
My insanity, it has risen
Look at the hand I’m dealt

(Chorus)

You wilted my flourished rose
What you’ve done, nobody knows
Pressure, heavy duty hose
Lost in sightless

Control is a dirty thing
I thought it was just a fling
But your beehive left a sting
Lost in sightless

(Bridge)

The pain I feel will forever last
Past will never be the past
It’s like we dance with blindfolds
I dug for copper, you’ve dug for gold
I always get the shitty hand
A foreign place on a foreign land 
You gave me endless hope
Then threw it away and grabbed the rope
What did I do to deserve this?
But you’ve got a long, endless list
I’ve honed all my skills, sang it loud
But yet you two were never proud
I would have been such a lovely soul
But instead you fucked with me whole
So go
And you’ll be the reason I’m stone
I’d like to be left all alone

(End Chorus)

You wilted my flourished rose
What you’ve done, nobody knows
Pressure, heavy duty hose
Lost in sightless

Control is a dirty thing
I thought it was just a fling
But your beehive left a sting
Lost in sightless

You wilted my flourished rose
What you’ve done, nobody knows
Pressure, heavy duty hose
Lost in sightless

Control is a dirty thing
I thought it was just a fling
But your beehive left a sting
Lost in sightless

Lost In Sightless

Fear 

©️ 2024 Karianne Gabaldon

(Verse 1)

My mind lost inside a daydream
I wake up and I scream
Lifeless, lying in my bed
A lot going in my head

(Chorus)

Crazy, that is what they call me
Nothing is all what it seems
Lying, saying that I’m okay
I will forever fear today

(Verse 2)

My sadness will always haunt me
Madness, I am never free
Wishing I had a better life
Free me forever from this knife

(End Chorus)

Crazy, that is what they call me
Nothing is all what it seems
Lying, saying that I’m okay
I will forever fear today

Crazy, that is what they call me
Nothing is all what it seems
Lying, saying that I’m okay
I will forever fear today

Fear

AnaWRECKsia

(Verse 1)

I looked in the mirror right back at you,
You swore out of your rage and pain.
You took my happiness, it’s dilute.
You took away everything.

(Chorus)

You broke my heart, it’s shattered,
You said it didn’t matter,
Now all that’s left is batter,
Anorexia.

I said I have an issue,
You laughed, said, “here’s a tissue”,
Now all my daydreams misused,
Anorexia.

(Verse 2)

You’re crashing all the people’s toy box,
You’re killing innocent lives.
And you’re not Gucci, you’re a knock-off,
That secretly strives in life.

(Chorus 2)

You make believe you’re stunning,
You tell yourself you’re cunning,
While there’s some lost souls running,
Anorexia.

You need a reality check,
Look at our lives, they’re all wrecked.
And just for off, you can get,
Anorexia.

(Bridge)

Your razor touch as you lock the door,
My many fears and your manicure,
Oh, Ana, let me in to,
Someday be as beautiful as you.

It’s not a choice, you took away,
All we had, so you could stay.
My heart, my lungs, my brain, it all left,
Now it is up to you, my dear theft.

(Chorus)

Go to hell, why don’t you?
Set free of all souls you used,
It’s time you’re the one abused,
Anorexia.

Our pockets filled with magic,
Can’t catch us? Oh, how tragic,
Someday we’ll heal your damage,
Anorexia.

© Karianne Gabaldon 2021
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AnaWRECKsia

My Worst Best Friend

©️ 2023 Karianne Gabaldon
All rights reserved.

(Verse 1)

Come on, anorexia, end my day
Fill my head with worthlessness and self-hate
Make me lie, make me lie, make me lie
You never cease to amaze my false waistline

(Chorus 1)

Your detrimental, deviant 
Your destruction, divine
My lack of energy, fluent
I rely on your high 
And I’m sad to say I know you
But I’m glad to say we’re friends
Because one day you’ll make me happy
Or one day my life will end 

(Verse 2)

I looked into the mirror today
Relieved that I saw your angry face
You are filth, you’re disgust, you are hell
But you help me out, so oh well 

(Chorus 2)

Your detrimental, deviant 
Your destruction, divine
My lack of energy, fluent
I rely on your high
And one day I will thank you
But that’ll depend on my demise 
Because I can’t live without you
I might as well just die

(Bridge)

I am scared
Oh, I am afraid 
And I just fear
You’ll put me in the grave

(End Chorus)

Your detrimental, deviant 
Your destruction, divine
My lack of energy, fluent
I rely on your high
Just tell me, please be honest
Is our relationship a lie
Because I want to stick with you
But I just don’t want to die

My Worst Best Friend

Reconnaissance Missions from 'The Scheme of Things' album.
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Music written by Almark 
Production, mixing and Mastering by Almark at Studio SynthoElectro 
© 2016 
SynthoElectro Records 

Registered under BMI Broadcast Music, Inc.

'The Scheme of Things

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Every artist has a story.
We begin in the summer of 1998, when Almark discovered that he could create music on computer by using the free program, Fasttracker II. This opened a whole new world of music, coming from being a guitarist since 6 years before. In 2000 he started his Experimental journey into places unknown. The music was Industrial-based, Electronic and Abstract. Not knowing how to make Electronic, he made his own; daring to break boundries and do something strange and unique. Soon after, moving to Cooledit Pro and purchased keyboard and hardware from a friend; thus giving him more creative ideas.  in the years to come, eventually leading down the path of avant-garde and other forms. ​
 
 
Born 1977 in Tulsa, OK. Almark came from a life of music, music around the home every day, growing up to the 80s, Synthpop, Classical, Hits, MTV, VH1, movie soundtracks and television. During the late 90s his music likes changed to Electronic mostly. Being influenced by Industrial, EBM, Goth, Darkwave, Post-punk, Synthpop, DnB, Ambient, Techno, Ninjatune, Retro and synth music; and these are just a few. In 2000 the influence further shifted to the Aussie group 'Severed Heads.' aka Tom Ellard. Today the driving force comes from the influence of life, the heart of music and still the continued joy of pure experimentation. He manipulates his world till he is happy with it; while storing his influences in a box when he needs them.
 
The music is passionate, creative, inventive; while always seeking a new sound and personality. It continues to remain unique in a world of familar genres. Almark's music finds it's own way through the darkness while reaching otherworldly landscapes; much like a artist paints a picture. Sometimes the music is moody, and sometimes it is melodic.
 
With keyboard controller, various software, Ableton live and imagination, he composes, mixes, masters and produces his  music in a growing world of DJ's and beat makers. The music is unique, weird, abstract, beat-driven, sample-based, cinematic, melodic and even avant-garde.

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