demos<3

wrote this about seasonal depression

Lyrics:

Another winter cold washes over me
Now I’m dead on my feet.
Then the seasons change and I walk away.
Like it never even affected me.

Got a lump stuck in my throat
I think I have to get removed 
Before I choke 
On my own tears. Where is this fear

Coming from? I just want to be spun until I’m wrung out of all of the mess that I have made.

Another winter cold washes over me
Now I’m dead on my feet.
Then the seasons change and I walk away.
Like it never even affected me.

I fool myself every time you stick around
I feel like I’m gonna drown
In my sorrow and grief, so I’ll just stay until your presence stops the sting.

Hmmmm, mmm, mm, mm x4

winter cold-demo

a little song about my cat, annie 

Lyrics:

I’ve got a movie on and you’re sleeping next me
The water is boiling and I’m making tea
But you can’t drink any.
Guess I’ll save the rest when I wake easily.

Oh I’m content with my little friend
Got a pocket full of sunshine where you’ve always been.
I’ve made so many mistakes 
But being next to you isn’t one of them.
Being next to you isn’t one of them

Don’t cry when I leave.
I’ll be back in the evening.
We can watch a movie when I get home 
Or maybe play out in the snow.

Oh I’m content with my little friend
Got a pocket full of sunshine where you’ve always been.
I’ve made so many mistakes 
But being next to you isn’t one of them.
Being next to you isn’t one of them

little, little friend x3
Yeah, being next to you is what I’m loving.

little friend-demo

wrote this about Patroclus’s death in his point of view.
inspired by the book “The Song of Achilles” by Madeline Miller.

Lyrics:

Apollo, your wish is my command.
I know that I’m better off dead,
But this prophecy that has to be fulfilled.
Oh, it’s going to be me who takes the pill.

Gotta swallow down my greed.
I know what leaving him will do to me.
Oh, I see the waves below.
Are you going to see me go?
Make me choke.

Oh

Apollo, your wish is my command.
Throw me off this edge
Onto the rocks below.
It’s a fitting end for the sins I’ve sowed.

I’ve got to sacrifice everything 
So everything plays out how it should.
Stay the same. No I can’t do that for
My love is

Growing colder as the war goes on.
Can’t help but feel caught up in
Too many emotions.
Will he weep when I’m gone then?

They’ll wonder what went through my mind
When I fulfilled the prophecy instead
Of staying.
They couldn’t make me.

Apollo, your wish is my command.
I’m as good as dead.

patroclus’s fall-demo

Just a small snippet I wrote because I felt loved :)

Lyrics:

My little moon
I don’t know what to do
So I’ll turn to you
Point me in the right direction 
To follow through
With everything I swore I’d do
Oh, my little moon
What would I do without you?

little moon(raw recording with reverb)

a song I wrote about a friend that I once knew.

Lyrics:

V1: 
I cry in your studio apartment
That’s somewhere by the sea.
I like to think that you still 
Love me.

I let it out and let it go.

Ch:
Oh, I may be broken
And I may be mean
But you’ll always be the first one to see.
Je suis libre (lee-bruh)
I am free.

V2: 
You seem far away from me
But I know it’s just my anxiety.
My fear of abandonment grows stronger each day
That you push me away.

I’m losing and winning

Ch:
Oh, I may be broken
And I may be mean
But you’ll always be the first one to see.
Je suis libre (lee-bruh)
I am free
Instrumental x1
Oooooo x3

(whisper) mon amour, your light shines brighter than the moon I see. 
Before you broke me.
Mmmm
I wish you could see me now.
And I wish you were here
With me.

my love-demo

a song about forbidden, tragic love.
(inspired by the letter verse series by Nightingale231 on ao3)

Lyrics:

I burned all the letters.
I’m consumed by grief.
It was forever
Until you had to leave.
I’m falling down
onto my knees.
You look like your father
But he doesn’t know me.

I want to face you again
And tell you I adore you
With everything 
I can’t anymore. I’ll just slam the door 
And the ashes
Of our letters fall to the floor.

Ooooo x4

Forbidden love.
It’s so bittersweet.
Our love will always be
Hidden from the sea.
That one night we shared in Paris will be

Etched in my mind until I die
And no one will get to see.
Every single drop of love 
It shattered when you left me.

I want to face you again
And tell you I adore you
With every single breath.
I can’t anymore. I’ll just slam the door 
And the ashes
Of our letters fall to the floor.

Ooooo x4

Mmmm

letters-demo

writing a cute, french/english love song for my hopeless romantic self<333

Lyrics:

Je t’aime, Marcy.
Tu es tout pour moi.
Je suis tout a toi.
You stand there waiting.

Follow me and I’ll follow you.
I don’t what I’m going to do
Sans toi. x2

Mon amour, you cry to me.
I’ll comfort you 
Wipe your tears away.
I’m not leaving today.

Oooo, oo, oo, oo, oooo x2

Follow me and I’ll follow you.
I don’t what I’m going to do
Sans toi. x2
Sans toi.

Translation:
I love you, Marcy.
You’re everything to me.
I am all yours.
You stand there waiting.

Follow me and I’ll follow you.
I don’t know what I’m going to do
Without you x2

My love, you cry to me.
I’ll comfort you 
Wipe your tears away.
I’m not leaving today.

Oooo, oo, oo, oo, oooo x2

Follow me and I’ll follow you.
I don’t what I’m going to do
Without you.x2
Without you.

marcy-demo

this is written about a toxic relationship because I said so :3

don’t take it out on me-demo

written about someone watching someone else going through alcoholism.

Lyrics:

I offer to carry you home.
I’m not okay with leaving you alone.
You stumble into the kitchen.
I make you dinner and tuck you in.

Instrumental x2

I drag you in from outside.
You’re losing your goddamn mind
Over some game you played.
Please don’t do this to me today.

I know you’re struggling.
Can’t you just talk to me 
Instead of using.
Substance abuse runs in the family.

Oooooo x4

Substance abuse is going to kill me.

substance abuse-demo

a song dedicated to my great grandmother with dementia :)
Will always hold your stories in my heart, Granny.

Lyrics:

I remember when I was 13
Sitting here playing melodies.
I didn’t really know what I was doing then.
But you applauded every song I made.

you were kind to me.
Even at 93.
I know you meant well.
I wish you could see how my story’s gonna play out.

I wish you could remember my name 
Even if it’s for a second I’ll take it
Over you slowly fading.

Because 
You were kind to me.
Even at 93.
I know you meant well.
And that you struggled with your mental health.

Sometimes I wish you could see.
How much your memory means to me.

granny-demo

Lyrics coming soon! A song about not being able to love someone because you have your own healing to do.

sidelines-demo

childhood friends-demo

I write songs about my cats and other stories throughout my life.
(he/they)

Spotify: regulus on venus

Apple Music: regulus on venus

demos<3

deathbed(regulus on venus)