333 miles apart; midnight drive

linden & nevrfall - wait for me in the next life (ft. heylog)

prod river + plugp + ashens guitar :3 luv all of u u guys shud go follow dem

breathe w/ skele (river, ashens, plugp)

payphone ft shinigami (p. recycleBin)

self produced
follow decks: @decksmusic
cover art taken by decks
lyrics

getting back to my feet standing up again
guess i wasnt ready for the fight that u brought again
said i was the one that u want can u want again
im been trying hard but im ending up distraught again
guess i wasnt ready for the battle to be fought again
guess im just relearning all the lessons ive been taught again
i can only take so much that ur throwing at me
when ur angry it feels like 100 degrees

decks:
when ur mad no i can’t take the heat
i just back down fallin onto my knees
i dont wanna be a problem babe im beggin please
im retracing all my steps and now its hard to breathe

so i fucked up
pass time cuz im done up
second chances arent free but i could earn em
suns up
wake up early cuz the funs up
out of time baby im not what u wantttt

100 degrees w/ decks

again and again ft. thebreathingbackwards (taylor morgan + saint tomorrow)

love u all <3
vocals by harvest & @hammy
production by @memoryroseishere @gonetoofar @morgnbates & harvest
art/mix/master by harvest

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6ivVlTzoSvE6xLDtLdHp6g?si=bcafbe00735c440c

lyrics:
(hamilton)
i watched our love die fast
i never knew bout that
i saw it all turn bad
now i don’t want you back

woke up and my mind is spinning
woke up and the whole world’s ending
still searching to feel something
still feeling like i’m nothing

got a spark in my heart
i got smoke in my lungs
should’ve known from the start
you were never the one

im not the one that you want
why you put up a front
playing me like im dumb
make me feel like a dub

baby im done
yeah im movin on
you can call my phone
but i’m already gone

yeah im already ghost
i can’t let you close
no i don’t know
so my heart stay closed
no i don’t know
i just can’t tell
fucked up in the head
i can’t trust
one minute im cool
then the next im manic
crushing scripts up
under plastic

rolling spliffs up
i can’t feel shit
when i can’t think
that’s my favorite
when you kissed me
i just lost it
wishing i could’ve told
what it costed

(harvest & hamilton)
i watched our love die fast
i never knew bout that
i saw it all turn bad
now i don’t want you back

woke up and my mind is spinning
woke up and the whole world’s ending
still searching to feel something
still feeling like i’m nothing

(harvest)
you don’t even know what happened
I don’t want to fix it all
seeing through our glass it’s cracking 
hourglass, not filled at all

ill never know your passions
cause we’re in a late stage, we’re in a late stage 
i’m breaking down i’m crashing
not on the same page, not on the same page

i want you to be here, a main stay 
one day I wanna play on the main stage 
it’s just the same shit, said a different way
I’ll cough it up, I’m feeling grey 

i want to be in the nosebleed, know me, everything is better when you hold me
or scold me
im slowly 
finding somewhere to hide like brody

knowing that you’ll never know me gives me piece of mind 
i hope you know im lonely like all of the time

i start to realise that I won’t come to my senses
I hope when I leave this place I go on to the next thing

never knew feat. hamilton (prod. memoryrose, toofargone, homesick & harvest)

https://youtu.be/_Di4TK4ieLA?si=m05Fyt5AP4pWSbYp

Baby, are you free tonight?
Broken down bad, but with you I'm alright
I've already heard it all, so please don't lie
Cause I'ma stay true 'till the day I die
Till the day I-, yeah
As long as I'm alive, I'll be down to ride
Bloodshot eyes in the backseat high
I've been running from the reaper, but I can't hide
Sinking even deeper, growing cold inside

Watching years fly by, fake friends come and go
Standing by your side through the highs and the lows
I'll be right there for you, I'm always close
If you're down for life, just let me know

I don't like to talk much but she likes to move fast
I don't wanna fight, why you gotta do that?
Tell me I'm a mess, you already knew that
We got something special, I don't really wanna lose that
Maybe I'm just looking for something I'll never find
Baby, I just shouldn't have let you in my life
Told me you were down for forever, that was a lie
And I'll see you tomorrow if I make it through the night

I've just been tossing and turning, the bridges are burning
I'm wondering, what have I done to deserve it?
I'm living and learning and constantly hurting
And I've given it time, I swear nothing is working

Baby, are you free tonight?
Broken down bad, but with you I'm alright
I've already heard it all, so please don't lie
Cause I'ma stay true 'till the day I die
Till the day I-, yeah
As long as I'm alive, I'll be down to ride
Bloodshot eyes in the backseat high
I've been running from the reaper, but I can't hide
Sinking even deeper, growing cold inside

music video

down 4 ever w/ kennedyxoxo (prod. noahmadethiss) video in description*

glass

sydney ft. tuxx

the show goes on (drmabeats+mcx)

i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 

w/ @heylog

prod: https://soundcloud.com/eric-godlow
master: https://soundcloud.com/ezraspandora 

looking back baby,
i already was hollow
toss it back 
way too fast 
till i get through the bottle
i don't wanna leave this club
i just wanna drink 
until i throw it all up
(lock me up)
want you to squeeze until i'm leaking out blood
i wanna see just how it feels to go numb
i wanna feel it on the tip of my tongue
let's fuck it up until we're going out bad 
let's break it all apart until there's nothing fucking left
cause i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 
and i want you to tell me i'm a waste of fucking breath
oh i'm terrible 
i'm the reason you're falling 
unbearable 
i'm the bones in your closet
i still just wanna see you get out 
there's nothing left for me to be now

damn it all 
pray for what 
there's nobody there
(i'm too far gone)
tell me why 
i wanted you then 
i want you now

heylog:
i'm chillin at a party, why'd i decide to go out
wish i just stayed home but i been stuck inside my house
i don't even care, i'd much rather be sober
she hung around the bottles and i could tell it broke her
i'm glad i can't relate cause i've never had that problem
you told me i'm rude for that but hey, i'm being honest
i would never lie to you, just want you to stop it
i could up and go, i've got plenty of options
quit talking, ur just holding me back
it's safe to say, tonight ur getting trashed
take a second to breathe, ik ur sad
you don't have to drink it away, could you relax
she phones her girls for a ride at 3am
can't even walk to her room, she needs a hand
throwing up all the time, she's used to it
friday night rolls around and repeat it

tip of my tongue (w/ heylog) (prod. eric godlow)

everything to me ft. days to waste

acoustic album this weekend on @plslovejai


ima bird in the sky heading straight to the ground
like i clipped my wing
shes an angel in disguise i dont pay her no mind
cuz they always win
no i dont got a shot fucking with somebody like you
no i dont got a lot but she saying that im type cute
well babygirl im far from it
everytime i get a itch im road running
off to the races and its on to the next one
i cant give you mt heart
and ill take all the blame i dont want no damn apology
it was my fault

and she took a part of me that i wont get back anytime soon 
and i took a piece from her now she only gets drunk alone in her room
its like we're falling straight out of orbit
you stopped calling cause i always ignore it /:
and yea i miss you more than ever but right now its not that important </3

i think about you and the kid we almost had baby
like if we kept where the fuck would we be at baby
i left you all alone to go and get rid of it
honestly my stomach was turning and i was sick of it
looking back now i feel so hideous
i didnt even tell my dad hed be furious 
im sorry from the bottom of my heart 
i couldnt be the one you wanted or let alone needed
baby i been crying to the lord oh i been pleading
begging for forgiveness but i cant give him a reason
and bae you got my heart forever 
i just hope you know i mean it

and she took a part of me that i wont get back anytime soon 
and i took a piece from her now she only gets drunk alone in her room
its like we're falling straight out of orbit
you stopped calling cause i always ignore it /:
and yea i miss you more than ever but right now its not that important </3

shudda cudda wudda //;

lyrics -
hard to think there's no way, incredible
you had him take my place
then one of you
tried to drag my name so i wanna know
what part u had to play cos' i'm sick of u

and it's funny cos' i think you've gone and lost it
got your hand on the button saying 'watch this'
and my hand's under the table as i hear you
staring as i came into the room but i don't see you

why you gotta act like that?
waste my serotonin like that
baby fix ur attitude
why you gotta do me like that?
why you gotta act like that?
waste my serotonin like that
baby fix ur attitude
why you gotta do me like that?

S.O.S i caved
but i'm still alive barely
tried to beat the struggle but got lost along the way
went too far alone, no rest 
and took it on myself to prove the dark would coat the day
hard to show love most days
no compassion from my friends
but i love that i pulled through
never know for certain
but i'm glad that i'll be home soon

scared to death of life i'll
battle through the pain and kick it off so
don't you ever worry i'm okay, love
cos' i don't really care no not at all though
stick a sword straight through me, watch me bleed out
i won't say a word i'll make you feel that
this moment that we're in will never end
a new life for us will grow
begin

freeze baby, put your hands to your head
'this is love?' she said
i don't get this or the conversation
i ain't good with stress
i can't clean the mess you left
great now it's complicated
just put the gun away, love
there's no time to fight me, we'll figure you out
take my hand and slowly we'll figure this out

i could steal my heart right back
give me fuckin credit cos' i'm loving all that
trauma that you're giving when you're thinking too fast
take another pill i'm sure it'll slow u down

~ fear

superstar (noahmadethiss+jolst)

dopamine crash remix

its a dream

lyrics:

you’re just on my phone
tryna make some plays 
i never could’ve known 
that you’re what kept me sane 
i been smoking on my own 
living for the day 
but i’m feeling so alone 
u riding on my wave 
baby u my sommer ray 
she be goin out
i’ll roll another blunt 
i’m just sitting here at my house 
with my mouth shut 
maybe we’ll adjust 
baby u a must 
i’m so fucking tired 
gotta sleep 
but my minds up 

maybe it’s a dream 
cuz i can’t see 
maybe it’s a dream 
cuz im lying in your sheets 
maybe just a dream 
cuz we can’t be 
everything just seems 
like it’s falling onto me

u know i keep my circle low 
its been giving me anxiety 
got ounces for the low 
i smoke that shit in its entirety 
i’m falling fucking hard 
really hoping that she’ll see me 
cuz this is all i know 
in the smoke u look so dreamy 
were just in the back bitches breaking neck 
wait i need a breather for a sec 
cuz baby all i want is you 
and the things that you can do 
i’m just tryna pipe baby
i don’t wanna think it through 

falling for your brown hair baby 
and your brown eyes 
hurting when you’re not there 
even though you’re not mine 
you’re just on my phone
but i’m thinking back to that time 
sorry i don’t know 
yuh

maybe it’s a dream 
cuz i can’t see 
maybe it’s a dream 
cuz im lying in your sheets 
maybe just a dream 
cuz we can’t be 
everything just seems 
like it’s falling onto me

spotify

maybe its a dream

Featuring https://soundcloud.com/jakkyboi
Art by https://soundcloud.com/ewmattisgross
Mastered by shordeli https://www.fiverr.com/shordeli/master-your-song-in-24-hours?ref_ctx_id=5e0f5d30-1809-4857-935b-673ce4c25db1
Mixed and Produced by King Theta

Lyrics:

[King Theta]

Under the sun where the air is heavy
I'm makin waves, coolin the sand
Don't wanna sound like I'm keepin steady
Just wanna say now I can stand
I'm paintin vibes even if it's messy
Tryin to not make any plans
Try to knock me off the path this time
I found the spot to draw that line
You've got way too much weight holdin' you back
And we've got way too much history

Nothing lasts forever
Is the theme of this summer
Lately breaking ground
Without you

[jakkyboí]

I don't want love, yeah I'm just not ready
I really hope you understand
Yeah I'm done movin on
Almost over, I'm jaded
Now she depressed
From the heartbreak created, I
Been fucking up, fucking up lately
Moving on, moving on baby
Said I'd never ever let her down
Then I went and let her down

[King Theta]

You've got way too much weight holdin' you back
And we've got way too much history
Nothing lasts forever
Is the theme of this summer
Lately breaking ground
Without you

Got my foot on the gas
Not the brake right now
Like a wake in the past
Choppy waves break down
Nothing lasts forever
Is the theme of this summer
Lately breaking ground
Without you

Without You (ft. jakkyboí)

I don't wanna see the sun
I got toxins in my lungs
I got tabs up on my tongue
4 grams rolled inside the blunt
Medicine inside my cup
I can't love I fuck it up
Got me fiending for your touch
Will I ever be enough?

Until my heart stops beating
Imma be this way
I don't know my purpose
All I know is pain
Wake up in the evening
Every day's the same
Can't escape the cycle
It will never change

Ughhhhh
I don't wanna speak
I'm busy fighting feelings
Laying on my bed
Staring at the ceiling
No hope inside my heart
It feels like I'm sinking
Aiming for the stars
When I'm awake I'm dreaming

When I'm awake I'm dreaming
Your the one I'm seeing
In my head like all the time
Try to get you off my mind

Always overthinking
Always high for nothing
I love feeling nothing
Ketamine I'm frozen

You play me like a game
Fucking with my emotions
Acting like you care
But I know that you fronting

You lie right to my face
So now our trust is broken
Hope you miss me
Going missing you won't see me again

You won't see me again
Diving off the deep end
Everyday I'm drowning
In this life I'm locked in
There's no other option
Yeah this do or die
I'm aiming for the sky
I'm learning how to fly

Aiming for the sky
I'm learning how to fly
Far away from everyone
And everything

Until my heart stops beating
Imma be this way
I don't know my purpose
All I know is pain
Wake up in the evening
Every day's the same
Can't escape the cycle
It will never change

Ughhhhh
I don't wanna speak
I'm busy fighting feelings
Laying on my bed
Staring at the ceiling
No hope inside my heart
It feels like I'm sinking
Still aiming for the stars
When I'm awake I'm dreaming

I don't wanna see the sun
I got toxins in my lungs
I got tabs up on my tongue
4 grams rolled inside the blunt
Medicine inside my cup
I can't love I fuck it up
Got me fiending for your touch
Will I ever be enough?

until my heart stops beating (prod. jody)

produced by heylog <3

lyrics:
tell me this aint true
cus im really scared to speak out
lovers all around me
god i feel twice as lonely now
she said, "log feel my pulse
and listen to my heart pound"
but i aint feel nothin dude
nor do i hear a sound
i dont care about anyone for now
except for you
shes back for the third time
to me thats some great news
i could see u every night
ik u wouldnt want to
she ask to go out for a night
im really tryna play it cool
she said logan smile more
but ur the reason i didnt whore
im dancing while the rain pours
im guessing u could call it bored
got acne growing through my pores
i thought it couldnt get any worse
apparently it can
face is full of red sores

she loves whatever she wants
but she only loves herself
whats that smell
ITS SELFISH
its hard to love someone
when they dont love you back
i tried but it left a birth mark like the one on my forehead
she always checking her phone
and never looks up
it never really phased her
she always got luck
she always got what she want
love and all the fun
i tried to be nice
but u took at my trust

i think im reaching the heavens
beretta come here and just end it
i know that ppl will miss me
but right now it dont really mean nothin
i wanna rest with the goddesses
havent found peace in a minute
im in the section of fantasy
while ur still trapped in the fiction
she said, "i love u logan"
but i know ur full of shit
how could u approach this
save my soul or squash it
i was really lost in it
u took the advantage on me it was really sus
but i was dumb n went with it

so tell me this aint true
cus im really scared to speak out
lovers all around me
god i feel twice as lonely now
she said, "log feel my pulse
and listen to my heart pound"
but i aint feel nothin dude
nor do i hear a sound
i dont care about anyone for now
except for you
shes back for the third time
to me thats some great news
i could see u every night
ik u wouldnt want to
she ask to go out for a night
im really tryna play it cool
she said logan smile more
but ur the reason i didnt whore
im dancing while the rain pours
im guessing u could call it bored
got acne growing through my pores
i thought it couldnt get any worse
apparently it can
face is full of red sores

look u got what u want
u feel good about yourself?
whats down there
ITS HELL
because thats where u belong
with ashes and evil
but i could say the same thing about myself
her face beaming off the summer sun
i wont forget a single lil thing
her flaws she aint got even one
the memories created were more important to me

birth

lost in an alien psychosis

thanks for listening <3

333 miles apart; midnight drive

cloudy grey